It's 10 years I did Hetalia fanart for support Ukraine. But I felt so bad after some Polish guy told me "how dare you use Hetalia for such things! REAL Ukrainians would eat you alive!" Instead of... They didn't? I remember some Ukrainians liked it but I was so absorbed by comment from this guy that I stopped to draw her. Even if MY Ukraine was more like my own OC only BASED on Himaruya's nameless character (idk how it is today, but in "my" times Ukraine didn't have her own name).

And after 10 years I think... fuck this guy! How the fuck this person knew what offends Ukrainians??? I was stupid teenager then and I feel so bad I can't tell my past self that I shouldn't care about one comment. I hope all Ukrainians who clicked "favourite" button (it was on deviantart) felt supported by my art. And I feel so sorry if anyone felt offended. But honestly I didn't get any hate (only one from that Polish guy), and one person even defended me!

I know it sounds stupid now, but Ukrainian and Belarusian artists have really done a lot to popularize their culture through Hetalia. These countries were so poorly treated by original... But these artists gave soul to these characters. They're one of the reasons I started to learn their culture and languages.

I really hope they and their families are safe now.

Hi,

Do you think this is the final S19 writers had planned for?

It feels flat, not letting you wonder for much, a bit anticlimactic.

Also I think Jack is totally gonna come back for Marina baby in case the writers keep up with this bs storyline, hopefully not, but I do not trust them.

At the end all the storyline this seasos no matter the character, were done in a way to elevate the men and show them as heroes and saviors of women one way or another.

Jack exit doesn’t make much sense (even if I’m happy for Marina reasons) I wanted something different for him, but it’s interesting that even in this situation he comes up as the misunderstood hero, and get the pity of all the women that keep wanting to give him things he doesn’t not deserve.

Maya ended up sounding a bit like an ahole, in terms of the Sullivan situation, Bit was about time she spoke up, I wish it was more about ppl fighting against sexism and homophobia all together with some sense of justice instead of being the Gia kind of narrative, they really wanna put Maya in the wrong even when she’s totally right, it seems the same writers that lust over Jack are the same that dislike Maya…I wonder why???

So basically at the end the writers made Jack come off as the hero and Maya the work obsessed obnoxious lesbian that threaten her coworkers to get what she actually deserves…ok

I like how as soon as you remove “the man factor” from the wlw relationship, the character go back to be the real self, even if the Green Card part is not accurate it was still nice a part for a couple of takes that makes Maya look like an insensitive ahole like the sex trafficking thing (someone didn’t read the notes about Andrea on the big writers board lol)

I don’t care about Andy and it’s a mystery how it’s gonna work out cause all the bts drama.

Maybe have both Maya and Andy Captain but for different shift and never let them cross paths again just saying hi when there’s a change of shift…. I don’t see how they could pull it off otherwise.

Overall a terrible season under many aspect, let’s hope that hey will make some change for the next….

I think the finale was written this way on purpose - but what that purpose actually was, who knows! I am constantly confused about what it is that the writers have been trying to achieve with some of their storylines and arcs this year. Anticlimatic is a good way to describe it.

Maya and Carina's whole arc this year has been about having a baby, and then suddenly, with two episodes left, they throw in the green card interview. The timing was silly, when there are still so many issues around the baby storyline that are unresolved - and then to tease us with taking a pregnancy test and then... not. Why?

I have so many questions about Jack driving off - in the middle of a shift, no less. I want him gone, because I want peace around the baby storyline next year, but if Grey was leaving, wouldn't the cast have wished him well? So maybe he will be back next year but doing what? When there's (apparently) no space for him as lieutenant if the only reason Andy got a job at 19 was because he was leaving. And, as so many people have pointed out, we'll now have 4 lieutenants at 19 when back in season 2, it was an issue having 3. #makeitmakesense Unless one of them steps up to captain and he fills the fourth spot.

My take on Maya in the green card interview is that she just got to the point of having had enough. All season she has had to put up with the bureaucracy of losing her captaincy and now she's in an immigration interview, which is more bureaucracy, having to persuade a stranger that her marriage is genuine and real. She's never really dealt with her frustration over her demotion so when he asks her the question about why she lost her job, and accuses her of insubordination, she goes off on one. And then he's asking her what feels like pointless questions Of course it was the wrong time and place - but, let's face it, it was a plot device to get her to the point of confronting the Chief at the end of the episode.

And that has been a common theme of so many stories this year. Take Jack being the donor. My view of it at the start was that they were trying to tell a story similar to Danielle's personal experience, and I think perhaps it did inspire them, but it was also a plot device to further Jack's storyline - because being a donor meant getting a genetics test, which meant finding out he had a biological brother, which meant finding out that, after he was adopted, his parents went on to have a family without him.

That's why so many of the stories have fallen flat this year, I think.

I am curious about whether Maya's threat to expose Ross & Sullivan backfires. My gut tells me it will. But it's interesting to have Maya go down that path, really the only path she has left since she can't rely on justice and fairness. I don't think it reflects badly on her - or maybe it's my Maya-tinted-glasses talking. Again, I think it shows that she's had enough.

This season has generally been badly written. I hope that there is some reflection over the hiatus given how poorly the second half of this season and the season finale has been received.

(sorry I didn’t want that person to search for themselves and find this reply xD I can’t with discourse rn)

... that the OP hasn’t read a single king book nor actually watched a single tarantino movie because nah tarantino doesn’t singlehandedly control anything and he made NINE movies and if everyone copied him maybe we’d have better films around because technically he’s better than 90% of the ppl in american cinema regardless of what you think of him as a person, re king:

if you read lisey’s story or any king book with a female POV and you still think he hates women sorry but what the fuck, also while carrie white is no brienne when it comes to that rep I can 100% assure OP that carrie was the closest I came to Shitty Experiences Re How You Look In Literature until I read asoiaf and that’s saying all

half of the books he wrote where he had an obvious self-insert happened when he was using/drinking/obviously needing to cope with stuff and OP obv. hasn’t read the dark half but I’ve got news for them, his stand-in never comes out of it looking good or like the hero of the story

I went to elementary school with people who swore and used slurs all the time which makes that entire point about the slurs moot because it’s realistic dialogue not wanting to use slurs, and half of the stuff they classify as such was not when he wrote those books IN THE 70s/80s learn some context pls also if the villain uses them guess what IT’S THE VILLAIN HE MAKES THE VILLAIN AN ASSHOLE WHO USES SLURS pls it’s so weak I can’t even

everyone and their pals has written about tarantino’s fetishes and same re king but I mean it’s fucking horror books, what the fuck do you expect? stuff that’s not weird? I thought that was what I was signing up for

king is hardly the only horror writer around and if he’s successful it’s bc he’s better at it than most people obviously, so OP can wonder why (hint: maybe he actually can write, more on that later) instead of complaining that he somehow controls a genre when all he’s done is publish books that people buy

also: king has a lot of things I don’t particularly like about his approach ie that his endings suck on a rate of three on five depending on the book’s length (the longer it is the higher is the risk it sucks which is why he’s that good at short stories), he has a really serious problem with that trope where the protagonists forget the whole story which is2g it’s one of my major pet peeves and I’ve cursed him for years for that, sometimes he forgets coherency within the plot is a thing and sometimes he writes about stuff I don’t care for in theory but guess what, other than the fact that he made me care for that stuff (guys if you told me I’d ever gaf about a plot like cujo’s when I was thirteen I’d have laughed in your face and when I read it I couldn’t put it down, it means it’s good), the thing is: king is the best writer I ever read when it comes not just to character work but to make you feel like you’re 100% with that person even if you don’t like them particularly which guess what is exactly the main thing I want in a book. like guys I read the body when I was fourteen and that sent me into the king spiral but at that age I had never ran across a piece that described so well exactly how I felt when I was twelve (and I remembered even too much thanks) and guess what I was projecting like hell on the pov..... WHO IS THE PSEUDO-STAND IN THAT THE OP COMPLAINS ABOUT bc he’s a writer when he grows up (and I wanted to be one - still do for that matter) and it didn’t matter that it was king putting himself partially into the story, because he was good enough at it that it really spoke to me down to my damned molecules, and I’m 100% sure that most people who read king and find him so enjoyable/the reason why he sells all the books he sells is that he gets people and it makes you see yourself in most of his characters or if not he gets you to be with them and he drops on you some seriously amazingly written truth bombs every other moment, and guess what I think that what I have in common with king is music taste, politics and very partial literary taste. the end. we’d probably wildly disagree on a hell of a lot of things including how good was shining as an adaptation and/or how much hp is actually a good book, but I didn’t need to have shit in common with him except maybe wanting to do the same job to read that damned short story and feel like he had looked right inside my damned brain.

and I’m a woman, but nvm. also lisey’s story was one of the best female povs I’ve ever read in my entire life hands down and king has a long-ass list of amazingly well-written and conceived female characters that he certainly doesn’t hate, so my opinion about that post is that op sorely needs to read a king book from start to finish without prejudices. and they also need to realize that if you watch a tarantino movie you know it’s him in the first five minutes and no one else could shoot any of his movies the way he does, which is the trademark of actually having a personality as a director and a personal style.

also idk how the hell they think tarantino self-inserts in his movies without dying because the one time he actively acted in one of them he died before the first twenty minutes but I’m done trying to discuss anything on this hellhole of a website when people obviously talk without knowing the material they’re discussing and that’s my tea.

(ps: this is not about the personal issues one might have with tarantino after the whole weinstein scandal got down and fyi the way it went really lowered my opinion of the guy as a person, but that doesn’t mean he can’t make good movies, because guess what art =/= artist and I’d like to keep the discussion separate. anyway they don’t have near the same personality and king spends his time posting pictures of his corgi on twitter never mind that anything terrible you could say about him was valid for the time when he was an alcoholic/using and he’s been dragging himself about it in his own books since forever and now he’s been sober for years and I really don’t think it’s the case to blame addicts for being addicted especially when they come from his background so can we really fucking not go there, thanks.)

POST-SERIES THINGS, HOW MALLY GOT TO THE OYSTER WORLD.

(Notice for spoilers to Sy/fy Alic/e if you haven’t watched it and care abt spoilers or smthn)

     WHICHEVER method of Mally during the miniseries we go with (Method one: She joins Hatter and Alice on their endeavors when Hatter goes to find her in the forest. Method two: She’s been trapped in the Casino for awhile, after Jack Heart finds out where she is, goes to interrogate Hatter, and she turns herself in to ensure he doesn’t get in trouble for it.) This is how it ends up.

As Bean pointed out in this one post from probably 2014 or so since I was already following bean by that point, that I will forever be linking to even tho Bean doesn’t write Hatter anymore n tries to hide the fact that Bean can do math better than basically everyone or at least me, before Hatter goes through the looking glass to find Alice, it’s at least three months in Wonderland time. That’s why he’s all healed up, has nicer hair, changed his hat, god better clothes, all that. 

Whatever happened, I do have it where Mally was with him during that time. Whether it’s the healing period from being trapped for so long, or just her trying to fix him up because he’s a wreck and in denial of being a wreck, either way, she’s not the kind to ditch her friend. Especially when the new king is the same dude who she was forcibly engaged to before she ran away, gaslit her, tried to convince her to ‘work with him’ and he could ‘convince his mother to let her go’ before she was sent down to the asylum, she’s not happy about the current royalty. That, on top of how he’s treated hatter in the past (I know the series doesn’t go into it but I highly highly highly doubt Hatter was that antagonistic towards Jack just out of jealousy and because he was the Queen’s son, it seemed a bit more personal than that. ) she ain’t about that.

But, she notices just about everything about Hatter. Now, of course, as much as I don’t say anything bc I don’t want ppl to be all ‘oh you’re trying to force ship’ when a: i’m not. b: unrequited shit. c: this was canon for her when I wrote w other hatters throughout 2013 or so through 2015, I didn’t say anything, I avoided saying anything, but Mally definitely has always had some kind of love for him. It’s in her nature, she is in love with Hatter, and she won’t say anything, so I don’t either. We all know how I am, I don’t even tell people when I do ship the muses and would wanna write it out cause yknow, I have massive anxiety about that and scaring people away so if I let them come to me abt it instead its not my idea first and I can’t be ‘awful or terrible’ for being a person yknow how it is. 

Anyways, she definitely would have noticed that he was missing Alice. And, while from how we know my writing goes, she has those reflections of the original wonderland, she has vague memories of the original alice ( which, in the version where she was taken by Jack and put back in the asylum, those memories expand a lot. Thus meaning, she remembers a whole lot more about the original wonderland because she can’t avoid it in that situation.) she liked Alice H, but she didn’t view her as the ‘legend’, she didn’t see her as an ideal, she honestly would have preferred if he wanted to go find the OG Alice, but long and behold.

She’d convince him to do what was best for him.

Even in the situation where he’d be trying to help her out of that trauma, she’d still tell him not to worry about her, because she only wants what would make. him. happy. 

And yeah, that fucks her up when he actually goes.

I don’t think she said that with the belief he’d actually go, so him actually going definitely wasn’t expected. She wouldn’t have wanted him to go, she wanted him happy, but I think inside she actually thought he’d just choose her over someone he knew for three days. That’s her headspace, don’t twist my thought process on this bc I actually ship this specific version of h/attice but mally would still be like ‘you knew her for three frickan days dude’

so she’s extremely not okay during the first few weeks after he left. Jack tried to contact her during that time, he’s still trying to get her to work with/for him, she’s not about that. Even in a completely damaged state of mind, she ain’t gonna go with Jack Heart for anything.

But, during that damaged period, is when the Cheshire Cat comes back. She’s talked to him before, he’s the only one with complete memories of the prior world and the current world, he doesn’t actually tell anyone anything. He talks to her about the Wonders. She does wander off to try and find the Vorpal Blade, and she does. In the process, she comes across Necros.

Necros spoke to her for a few moments, and ultimately when she said she didn’t want to be around him, he left her alone. One of the first people since Hatter to show her any ounce of respect like that, tbh. She does have a moment of time where she ends up in the Court of Swords, learns her mom is a Queen, all that jazz, realizes her own mother wants to use her for something, nothing pretty comes of that. 

But, within a few weeks, she ends up having a breakdown in the forest, she’s alone, she’s abandoned, nobody wants to help her, everyone she meets wants to use her, the one person she thought wouldn’t hurt her left her for a girl he knew for three days. and then Necros finds her, alone in the forest of Wabe, he doesn’t say anything to her, but he does offer her a hand, and she ends up going with him. That’s how she ends up coming to the underground.

Necros, Celeste, the underground just treats her nicely. She’s not used to it, she sees that nice treatment as a huge ‘what the fuck’ tbh, she’s just like ‘idk what’s happening rn but they arent hurting me so’ Necros has Monstrous Crow train Mally further, as Monstrous Crow can replicate others powers and helps them to fully achieve their ‘perfect’ status. From what she understood, they weren’t helping her to ‘use’ them, they were trying to help her not have to isolate herself anymore. With Monstrous Crow’s powers, they were able to develop a stronger version of her brother’s injectables that allowed others to touch her (as, March and Hatter were the only two that weren’t affected by her extremely cold temperature). 

This was a lot stronger than the one her brother developed. They made one that she could take instead. Granted, if she takes it, it weakens her excessively for days at a time, so Necros doesn’t recommend she take it over convincing whoever else to do it, cause they only need one injection and they’re done, never have to worry about it again. She’d have to do it every few days and it hurts her, they tried finding a way outside of that, because she could get to the point of her own power where she can stop it, but she’s not there yet. She might never get there. 

And, she chose to stay with them because the idea of completely getting rid of the Hearts family and bringing the true royalty back to Wonderland (the High Arcana, since the White and Red families weren’t around anymore, either finding a surviving relative fit to rule or convincing the court of fools to stop keeping away from it) and Mally actually made it go beyond that. She wanted Alice to come back and rule because nobody would be more fit to rule than her and Necros agreed, thus it seemed fitting to put her in charge of their operations in the Oyster land. 

Now, a lot of the underground are magical and they’re scientists. They learned methods to transfer back and forth from the oyster world without the time shenanigans that happen with others. This basically means that they can use the looking glasses they made to traverse back and forth and the time they spend in oyster land, when they go back to wonderland the same amount of time still passed. They went beyond the study of realm travel to ensure they didn’t lose anything. 

Monstrous Crow went with her, and the original idea was ‘saving’ oysters that... were better than average humans, and who were suffering in their realm and needed to be accepted, needed people to help them feel better about themselves, honestly because who better to convince to be on your side than someone longing for positive attention. Mally still helps with that, but she’s also going beyond that, and she’s trying to find out where Alice Liddell went. What happened to her. 

She knows that after 150 years of their time, it could have been more for the oysters, and she knows oysters dont live that long. But she also knows Alice wasn’t all human, that there was something supernatural about her that gave her the ability to control aspects of Wonderland. Therefore, she believes that she can’t be entirely gone. Part of her had to be reborn into someone or something else and that’s who Mally’s trying to find, particularly hoping that she’ll be like Mally is and have recollections of the past. That’s her main goal. 

But, there’s another goal she has too. She is actually trying to find Hatter. I think it’s more for closure on her end, to learn if he’s happy, see if his ‘ditching her’ made life better for him. That would lead to a lot more emotional spikes on her end cause, lbr, she’s gonna think abt the fact that he was only happy after leaving her behind, she acts extremely self confident but internally she’s a mess. 

Yesterday I found out he has a brother! But I was too scared to ask if he was older or younger. I didn’t know if we even had that rapport yet or not either, so I just stayed silent.

I wanted to ask if he had anymore siblings, but there was so much more ppl in the room who he talks to and they might call me or him out later, so I did not want to bring that attention to myself right then.

But I definitely noted that. He also mentioned how his parents are in their 60s bc they get a senior discount, so I’m starting to think he’s older than I think he is, which is like 24-25.

It depends though, bc his brother might be older and possibly by a lot, so maybe his parents are a lot older than him and he still is the age that I think he is. He could have a bit of an age gap between his brother.

So now I know his dad’s name, last name, appearance, general age (however, I thought he was younger), and that he has at least one sibling. And that he’s left handed.

I wonder what his brother looks like and how old he is. I wonder what his brothers name is? Do they get along? Does he still live with their parents? What does he do? What’s his type? Idk why I care.

I even got to see him leave. It was weird because he surprisingly left through the main entrance instead of our staff entrance. So now I wonder if someone picked him up or if that’s closer to where he parked.

Maybe his car broke down? Or maybe his brother/parent came to pick him up? Anywho, I was sitting there at the entrance and was surprised I ran into him actually.

So once I saw him, I said “bye, have a good weekend.” And he didn’t say anything!!!! Omg he’s sooooooo up and down, on and off, hot and cold with me I literally can’t deal. I have to laugh!!!

It was mad awkward too, because I was sitting with my friend and my coworker and when she saw me look up at him and say that, she peeped him real quick and had no reaction, then just looked away.

Mind you, my friend is the friendliest person ever, knows so many people. I’ve also seen them interact, a long time ago of course, that’s a different story, so idk why she didn’t say bye or even smile at him?

I felt a weird tension too when she did that, bc he looked at her too. So I was wondering what was the awkwardness about and if anything happened between them. But she never said, usually she does.

I ignored it, however my gut felt weird. I can’t tell if it was a one-sided interaction that happened between one or the other and she just never cared to bring it up because it was a long time ago or what?

But anywho, he always never says anything if he doesn’t have time to think about it I guess?! Idk if that’s like a preservation thing so he doesn’t say the wrong thing or mess up his wording?

But he’s so awkward it literally pains me to try and speak with him. Then there are the days where he initiates convo and he leads the convo and I am so thankful and happy!

But for the love of God, this guy is so bipolar when it comes to me, I can’t even find it in me to be more interested bc I just know it won’t be consistent. Even yesterday, the time I saw him on break just wasn’t it.

He walked into the lunch room around when I was getting ready to finish my break and I waved when he walked in so he could acknowledge I’m there. So he definitely saw me before sitting down.

But then when he grabbed his seat, he turned his chair so it was facing away from me completely. A complete 180! I was so offended internally, I literally didn’t even want to look up so I played among us.

The entire time it felt like he was avoiding my presence so I was chillin’. And then he had to come over to use the microwave closest to me bc one of the guys in the room made a comment to use it.

Because he complained that the microwave was being used by someone else, so the other guy says just use the empty one. The one closest to me, so I think he intentionally was avoiding being close to me.

At that point, I was like I hope he doesn’t see my phone screen bc I was pressing random buttons on the among us screen since none of the rooms I kept going into were ready to play yet.

It was mad awks bc he was standing over me almost at one point and if he wanted to, he could see anything that was happening on my screen. Also, I was using my phone to avoid him!

So I didn’t want him to look down and be like wth is she doing? For the rest of that time, I never talked to him, only listened. I was literally in a corner of the room to myself on my phone.

After the shift I had, I didn’t feel like talking to him anyways because I was feeling so sensitive/emotional. Like I couldn’t take how badly I messed up and not just once but twice!

I’m sure it wasn’t a big deal to team lead but I think he was frustrated with me bc it’s happened before. I couldn’t tell bc when he was telling me my mistake, he was being so nice... but like I still was heartbroken.

I can’t handle constructive criticism very well, I always feel terrible even after they were being very gentle towards me. So even with all the talking prompts he was dropping, I just never spoke to him.

It was sad bc I easily could’ve found out his age and a couple other things like his sibling status and age if I had followed up with his prompts! I felt like he was being intentional about that and I never gave in.

If I was in a better mood, I genuinely don’t know if I would’ve been courageous enough to speak with him on those. He had all his people in the room, like I said. Idk if they would’ve made it mad awkward.

When they’re there, I can’t tell if I’m just overthinking it or not, but I always feel like they know something I don’t. Or they know too much. I always wonder if he has spoken to them about his crush on me?

Or if they can tell but he hasn’t told them? Or if he has told them not to talk about his crush in front of me. Bc I find it a bit hard to believe if NOBODY that he talks to knows about his crush on me.

I think even if they do know, they’re trying to keep it on the low but drop subtle hints. But that’s why I don’t speak around them to him directly, because I’m scared they’re going to put one of us on the spot.

And I don’t necessarily have a wing woman to help me out if I feel uncomfortable. He has all his people. I’m by myself in the heat if all goes wrong, so I’d rather bring that kind of attention to myself.

Lately, I’ve been thinking of risking it though. Bc it’s not even like the topics I want to speak on are going to be uncomfortable. They’ll be normal things, just stuff I wanna get to know if it comes up.

I don’t think they’ll call me out on prying if the topic was already brought up, right? So what’s the harm in asking related questions to the topic? Idk I’ll let y’all know if I build up the courage one day!