made a carlos version

Thanks Amy @amywaterwings and Ire @urban-sith for the tags! I really love this concept. You find five bits of yourself that you gave to your fiction, also called: writerly ephemera. I’ve loved reading what others have shared so far, so let’s get nice and cosy and talk about my own innermost insecurities!!

Two mellow things to start from my current WIP and bane of my existence, Nothing Equals the Splendor:

I’ve been stocking spices and herbs for about an hour now. I’m admittedly taking my time, taking whiffs of everything, comparing aromas. My supervisor won’t say anything, because he knows no one else will do it. It takes ages since the products are so small and specific; all my coworkers hate it.

But I love it. I learn so much every time about what each herb brings to the table, getting inspiration for possible combinations in my bakes. There are just so many things humans have learned to grind up for seasoning. Evolution is incredible.

I have had many retail jobs but working at a grocery store was one of my favorites! I love incorporating supermarkets into my writing, whether it’s a character’s job or just a scene setting. I know it’s all very late-stage-capitalism of me, but they are just such common, normal places. I have a lot of really nice, mundane memories in supermarkets. And so, Simon gets to spend time at his job in one of my favorite aisles.

“Did you even bring glasses?”

“Nope,” I say, scrolling through his Netflix account. I’m clicking through his Recently Watched list. “Just drink from the bottle, it’s what I’ve been doing. Also, you watch so much reality TV. I would’ve thought it would be documentaries and historical dramas.”

Baz snorts, uncorking the wine. “Are you calling me boring?”

“No! You’re just very sophisticated.”

“I watch reality television for scientific purposes. You can learn a lot about the human condition from The Bachelor.”

“No, you can’t!” I’m laughing. “I suppose you watch Love Island to learn anatomy?”

He winks at me. I feel like I’m going to melt into the floor. 

A friend of mine in college said this line about Reality TV to me, and I think it’s so funny. She was trying to get me to watch the Bachelor with her at the time. A couple years later I started watching so much reality tv because of a roommate and now I think that friend was kind of right!! Like obviously it’s exploitative and dramatic but it’s still people. It’s the human experience! However I’m not pretentious enough to claim I primarily watch the genre for this reason. (Baz is.) Later, Simon ends up making Baz watch Scooby Doo instead and they argue about which characters they are because I LOVE SCOOBY DOO.

From i would swim but the river is so wide:

My heart is still pounding, so I stumble to the bathroom. I run the tap and dunk my face in the freezing stream. It’s a surefire way to slow a heart rate. No matter how worked up you are, your body will always slow your heart down when it thinks it might be in danger of freezing to death. 

I have a fun cocktail of mental illness, and this is advice I once got from a psychiatrist. She told me that while it wasn’t plausible to stick my head in a bowl of ice every time I was panicking, that I should try it at least once so that I’d know what it felt like for my heartrate to come down. I use this tool almost every day. I wanted to give a version of it to Simon in a fic where I was particularly cruel to him.

From Spinning Circles Down The Avenue

“Come here,” I murmur. He turns to me.

I kiss him again, deeper, real. His hands find my hair, and he draws me closer so that I’m almost in his lap. Crowley, I fall apart in his hands when he kisses me like this. I melt into him, letting him lead. He senses it — he always does — his hand dropping down to my mid-back, holding me up and pressing me even closer. 

I am,,,, a melty boi. Y’all wouldn’t know it because I’m absolutely unguarded and unhinged on here, but in most areas of my life I’ve got my shit put together TIGHT. I’m driven to do the best I can in my work, in academics, in my social life, etc. I think this is why I come undone so easily when I feel safest & most supported (or when I’m anonymous online). I always give this trait to Baz, because I see this part of myself in him in the books. I also see Simon as a character who (when not burdened with a million other things a la Wayward Son) would find it fulfilling rather than draining to give this kind of comfort to a partner. So now you all know: when I’m being horny on main abt Simon throwing Baz around with his tail, I am actually just being SOFT lmfao

And finally…

I don’t have that much fandom writing yet, so I’m pulling something from the original queer childhood-friends-to-lovers story I’ve been plugging away at for three years. I tried to pick something short but it didn’t hit the same, and I wanted to give you a proper introduction to Angie and Joey because I love them a lot. It’s below the cut so it doesn’t clog your feed!

Meanwhile, I tag @snowybank @tea-brigade @nightimedreamersworld @caitybug @thewriterxj @palimpsessed @bazzybelle @bloodiedpixie @theflyingpeach @foolofabookwyrm @wellbelesbian @knitbelove @captain-aralias

And whoever else wants to do this!  Especially if we talk on the carry on server, if I didn’t tag you it’s because I have a stupidly hard time figuring out who is who between tumblr and discord lol

Anyway I really love reading these :) LET ME SEE INTO UR SOULS!!!!!!!!!!!

In this, Angie (who lives in LA) calls Joey. Angie has just bolted from a Friendsgiving party that she’d gone to even though she knew her recent ex would be there. She got too drunk and too sad, and she hasn’t really told anyone from home abt the breakup because they’ve all always hated the ex. Messy girls!!!

Anyway, I chose this bit because even though I’m not in love with any of my best friends, I bring so much of them into these characters. I’m so thankful to have people in my life who I can always call if I need them, even if I’m not always ready to explain why (and vice versa). To me, that type of security is the grandest gesture of love.

Angie rests back against the concrete wall, willing the Los Angeles weather to cool for just a few minutes so that she can calm down. Sending curses up to the still-warm night sky, she pulls out her phone. It’s 2 a.m. in New England, and she feels a little bad, but at this moment she’s not sure what else to do. Angie dials the phone.

“Angie? Everything okay?” 

Joey always picks up. Angie nearly tears up at the sound of her best friend’s voice. It’s thick with sleep and concern.

“Thanksgiving is a dumb holiday,” Angie says into the phone, doing her best to keep her voice even. “It’s not even based on a true story. Actually, it’s a cover for literal genocide.”

“Mmmm,” Joey hums in agreement, and Angie can hear her shifting in bed. The lamp Angie knows sits on her bedside table gives a familiar click as Joey turns it on. “And you had to wake me up to let me know that America is terrible?”

Angie winces.

“I work in public education. I already knew that.”

“There’s never a bad time to be reminded of the failure of the American experiment.”

“Fair enough, comrade,” Joey yawns. “Are you alright?”

Angie takes a deep breath. She watches a plane travel through the smoggy gray sky and misses the stars she’s sure Joey can see out her window in their hometown.

“Not really,” she admits. The line is quiet for a bit, as Joey waits for her to elaborate. But Angie can’t seem to quite find the words to explain the break up. She doesn’t want the “I told you so,” can’t handle it right now. 

Joey hums again.

“Lucia beat Paul to crawling,” Joey says after a minute of silence has passed. 

Angie lets out a ragged sigh, smiling into the phone.

“I knew she would! You owe me $10.”

(Lucia & Paul are Joey’s niece and nephew!)

How to create believable characters.

Without good characters your story will be lifeless, and it will likely fail to draw your readers in. Your readers need to care about your characters, to want to know what happens to them next, how their story will end. They want to be drawn in to their lives. They want to feel.

Now when I say that your readers want to feel, its just that, they want, no, they need, to feel strong emotions for your characters, be that love or hate. But you, as the writer, also need to care about them. If you don’t it will be obvious in your writing. You can’t expect your reader to care if you don’t. You are the one that created them, you are their parent, you need to actually give a shit.

Obviously main characters need more details than secondary ones, they need to be fleshed out and to have a history, even if you don’t show it. But it’s important not to use secondary characters as filler, they have to be there for a reason, not a scenery.

Once a character forms in your head its your job to keep them there. Start to use them, write with them, get to know them.

You need to know them inside and out, their everyday life almost as well as you know your own or your best friends. But remember, just because you know it doesn’t mean your reader needs to, there is such a thing as too much.

The idea is to drip feed information to your reader so they can build a picture of your character in their head for themselves.

You will always find a little bit of yourself in your characters, this is perfectly normal, its just how you relate to them and how we bond with them, no matter how different they seem to be from yourself, male, female, young, old, it doesn’t matter.

Characters should never be perfect. This is both boring and annoying to the reader. Who didn’t know that one person at school, work or in your friendship group that is just too perfect? Everyone loves them, they excel at everything they do, and they always seem to have good luck? In short, you hate them. They are the bane of your existence and you want nothing more than to smack them in the mouth.

I know, I know, it’s so tempting to have a perfect character that can do no wrong, especially your hero. Perfect body, perfect face, perfect everything. But in reality, no one is like that and again, if they are, they probably have all the personality and excitement as a piece of dry toast.

Is that what you want for your character? Think about it carefully, because the answer may be yes, they can make an excellent enemy for your hero, but make sure you keep the annoyance where its intended, not where it’s not.

People have flaws, they have quirks and little issues that make them into the person they are. A good character will have them too, that’s what makes them real. If they are negative flaws that are detrimental to your characters wellbeing or that of others, then your character should transform over the cause of your story, learning lessons and becoming a better person. Although it is important to remember not to push too much onto your characters of your readers will get compassion fatigue and stop reading. Ill talk more about this in other videos about pacing your story.

Its important to remember that not all flaws are something that need fixing, people are imperfect because that’s what makes them them. Things like a disability or behavioural issues are not something that needs to be shamed or fixed, there is a difference between helping your character and alienating and insulting your readers with your intolerance.

You will obviously have a vision of your character in your head and you will want to convey that image as clearly as possible to your reader. But there is a fine line between description and making your writing sound like a modelling catalogue.

A lot of writers will try to use artificial props to describe a characters looks, for example, having them look in a mirror and then have a huge internal monologue of their entire face, hair, body and wardrobe. Boring. Think of your characters as real people, if you wouldn’t do something in real life, don’t have them do it either. And really, how often do you stand in front of a mirror and study yourself to that extent? You don’t.

A way to avoid this is to have other characters notice their looks for you, usually when meeting for the first time, but if they aren’t, then imagine how you would describe a friend to someone who didn’t know them.

One thing to remember if you are going to use one character to describe another is their relationship. I once read a piece where a male character noticed a female come into the room and say hello. The way the character was described was as a beautiful, curvaceous siren, with flaming hair that tumbled down to her perfect waist that a man could span with his hands. He talked about her seductive walk as she moved towards him…and then the writer revealed that it was his daughter. I was reviewing this piece and had to return it with a note saying that it was creepy. Because it was. No father should or would ever describe his daughter that way, no matter how sexy she may actually be, all they would see is their little girl.

I’ve been asked to give you all a few exercises you can do to work on your characters and descriptions, so here are a few to try.

Pick two people that you know very well and put them into the situation that you are trying to write. Its always easier with people that you know. Then simply change the visuals, the names and maybe some of the dialogue to better reflect your characters.

Next you can pick someone you know well and write a description of them as if you were sending it to someone they had never met so they could recognise them. This will teach you to notice details about people as well as your characters, to see what you notice about real people, it will also teach you what you don’t notice.

As I said earlier its very important to know everything about your character, and a good way to do this is with a character interview. They are available in abundance online and they are a very interesting way to get to know your character. They make you answer questions about your character that you would never have thought about on your own.

Naming your character is also very important. Names can convey a lot about your character is they are the right one for them, such as age, nationality, time period they were born in, even their class.

Doing some research before naming a character is always a good idea. Look up popular names for the time period in which they were born, the place they were born, even the class of their parents.

Avoid names of characters that sound the same as each other, no one needs a Cindy, a Lindsey and a Mindy in one place. I’d even go as far as to avoid ones that start with the same letter, many readers skim read, and this can become confusing after a while if everything sounds similar.

Of course, there are exceptions to every rule, remember that these are guidelines only that I have put together from my lessons and experience. You might want characters that are hard to tell apart, maybe if you have a group of mean girls and you want them to be almost interchangeable, then similar names work well. Everything you do must be intentional or well thought out.

All in all, the best thing you can do where creating your characters are concerned, is to draw from real life and your experiences, think of people you know, ones you hate, ones you like and use them shamelessly.

That’s all my wisdom for today. Blessed be, and happy writing.

Survey #86

“will we make our mark this time?  will we always say we tried?”

what is your opinion on homesexual people? they're just as human as heterosexuals. are you an atheist? why? no. because the idea of this world existing as it does by pure chance is ludicrous. are you a skeptic? why? on certain things, sure. you gotta be lest you wanna be naive. do you know what anime is? yes? do you tolerate people who are against, or just don't like your opinions? why and how? of course. people think differently, get over it. that's how and why i do it. do you watch youtube? constantly lol do you draw often? not anymore. :( do you make art (any form of it)? photography regularly, drawing very, very rarely. are you a leader, or a follower? i'm a follower unless i need to be otherwise. are you an introvert, ambivert, or extrovert? i'm a massive introvert. are you an optimist, realist, or pessimist? mix between realist and pessimist. would you punch me in the nose for $20? i wouldn't punch anyone. do you think your country is better than other countries? if so, explain. absolutely not. all countries have their flaws. civilization itself does. if you had to be stuck in one age for the rest of eternity, how old would you want to be? 21. do you accept constructive criticism easily? sometimes. i'm very sensitive, so i sometimes take it as someone being disappointed in me. would you rather have immense physical strength or strength of character? strength of character, of course. lions or tigers? hmmmm... tigers. how is your life going right now? where do you want it to be in 5 years? things are actually going great. all i want in five years is to have a steady job, hopefully as a photographer. what is your favorite quote? by who?  "plant trees you know you'll never sit under the shade of," by mark fischbach. do you button your shirt from the top or the bottom? the bottom what was the last song you listened to? "rooftops" by the lost prophets do you like snow or see it as annoying? i love the snow!! what was your favorite disney movie as a kid? is it still your favorite? "the lion king," and yes. do you ever think about embarrassing moments and cringe? a lot, actually. do you watch scary movies on your own? yeah. have you ever been called vain? do you agree with them? no. what is your favorite condiment to go with french fries? ketchup what color is your mp3/ipod? hot pink have you ever laid in a hammock? yeah. we used to have one. have you ever lost a pet in a tragic way? how did you cope? we had to put our dog dale down when he got horribly sick with spleen cancer, and watching him die so quickly... that was awful. my chinese water dragon also died horribly; it was agonizingly slow and he was obviously in pain. :( have you ever ate a zucchini? fried zucchini, yes. what type of art would you hang up in your room? morbid/goth shit. what are your pet’s names? teddy, cali, bentley. and i'm adopting my snake whom i'll be naming venus very soon. (: honestly, do you think that you’re going to be an overprotective parent? i don't want kids. but if i ever do, i know i'd be overprotective as all fuckhell. would you rather have ice cream, freeze pops, or popsicles in the summer? ice cream is love, ice cream is life. do you ever read someone else’s survey site and know pretty much what’s going on or what went through in their life? lmao yes have you ever encountered a ghost? 100% positive i have. would you rather be at the beach right now? yes, actually. i went to the beach last may, and this question's got me thinking about it. it was fun. do you know any parent that lets their kids smoke or drink? my friend, who has a pretty conservative mother (i think), lets her. i mean, this girl flaunts it on facebook, and she's friends with her mother. i don't get it. would you ever let your kid smoke weed? over my dead fucking body. are you currently in love? no. do you swear regularly? yes. do you believe in abortion? N O are you homophobic? no. have you ever done anything illegal? illegally downloaded things. what’s your favorite time of day? dawn. do you prefer to be called by a nickname or your real name? real name. what's the farthest you’ll go on a first date? just hugging. have you ever been to a rave? no. are you racist? not at all. do you ever find yourself daydreaming? i do that a lot. what is the lowest thing you’ve ever done? inadvertently getting my friend's boyfriend to break up with her because he was interested in me. is their someone in your life you know you couldn’t live without? my mother. where do you stand on body piercings and tattoos? fuckin' awesome. if you were granted one wish what would you ask for? to not be mentally ill. if you wear glasses, are they dirty right now?  not really. do you put your hair up when you cook?  i don't cook. do you prefer mountain dew or sprite?  mountain dew. i don't like sprite. does anybody in your contacts have a heart after their name?  no. what did you last use a q-tip for? cleaning my ears. who was the villain in the last superhero movie you watched? don't recall... i don't watch superhero movies a lot. but the last occurrence that comes to mind when i saw the batman movie with bane in it. so it's been years. well, i saw "logan" recently. is wolverine considered a hero?? silver or gold? gold. i'm allergic to silver. what is your favorite unisex name? hmm... good question. i just went through a list of unisex names just outta curiosity to see if i could find one that really resonated with me, and i like blair, dakota, and hayden. name a movie that you think is completely stupid: "the purge." the concept is so fucking stupid. does your phone have hole for charms? no. do you like the color green? no. was it your fault your last relationship failed? it was no one's "fault." he wanted something i wasn't. what time zone do you live in? est. who do you wish you would never see again? why? rachel. because she's a motherfucking bitch. who have you hurt the most so far in your life? what did you do to them?  idk? probably my mother. what was the first movie you can remember seeing at the cinema? probably "finding nemo." have you ever been physically or mentally abused? how did it effect you? no. do you consider yourself a vengeful person? if so, why’d you think that is? not really. have you ever been in a physical fight? what started it? no, but almost. what one quality do you have that you are proud of?  i'm passionate as fuck. have you ever been hospitalized? what for? i've been to mental hospitals five times. who’s the last person you talked to about sex? my doctor. she asked if i was sexually active. where is the biggest scar on your body? my left shin. it was itchy as all fuck one day and i scratched it to the point that i left a pretty big scar. would you date someone who was addicted to drugs?  fuck no. are your parents divorced?  yes. do you have any friends that are emo?  yes. would you ever live with any of your best friends?  sure. how many people in your life have you kissed? two. are you photogenic?  HAAAA would you ever date anyone your parents disapproved of? yes. who i date isn't their business. i mean of course i'd take into account why they think i shouldn't date him, but ultimately, they don't decide. how many tattoos do you have? and how many do you want? i have four, but i have over 100 ideas saved. i wanna be covered. the only area that's off-limits to me personally is my face and actually on my boobs. do you think it’s a bunch of bull shit when people say “i have no regrets”? honestly? yeah. i know damned well everyone's got at least one thing they wish they hadn't done. do you get scared during scary movies? no. they're just movies. where do you want to live when you’re older?  in the mountains of nc. do you miss your past? little parts, but not really anymore. do you slam doors when you’re mad? sometimes. have you ever been out of your home country? sadly, no. do you consider yourself pretty? no. do you consider yourself brave?  no. if you could pick a new name for yourself, what would it be?  zoey. do you think you’re indecisive? i'm the most indecisive person you will EVER meet. what’s something you want to change in your life? i want a career. what brand’s your winter jacket? i don't have an exclusively winter jacket. how many books have you read this month? none. is it hard to find parking where you live? no. welcome to the south. have you ever taken a picture with santa when you were little? yeah. have you ever dyed your hair and if so, what color? it's been black, purple, red... are you a secretive person? yeah, honestly. what’s something you’re attracted to? usually tattoos. who was your first celebrity crush? jesse mccartney lmao describe as much as you can remember of your first kiss. we were tickling each other on his bed, he pinned me, his face was close to mine, so i kissed him and he blushed and it was adorable. i know a lot of first kisses are awkward, but ours was actually wonderful and super cute. favorite romantic movie? "the notebook" Weeps is there anywhere you rather be? where?  i'd always rather be at the zoo lmao who is the first person that you know will respond to your messages asap?  mom. name one unpopular opinion of yours:  abortion is fucking repulsive. is there anybody you wish to open up to but just can’t for the sake that they will judge you? lots of people. if you either had the choice of being able to teleport anywhere or being able to read anyone’s mind, which would you pick? teleportation, 100% favorite holiday? H A L L O W E E N ! ! ! would you rather go to california or texas on vacation? texas to visit two of my friends, but cali in general. do you call it fall or autumn? autumn can you fall asleep in a car? usually, no. do you live in an area that gets all four seasons? usually. are you closer to your mother or father? mom do you have a best friend of the opposite sex? he's not my best friend, but i have a guy friend. name's girt. ever been to a bar or club? no. have you ever been in a secret relationship? kinda... but it wasn't an official relationship. do you like rollercoasters? i've never been on one. i'm scared of getting sick. tell me about your first break up, if you had one. it was easy. i wasn't into him like that, so i told him via a note because i'm lame as fuck. where do you want to travel next?  i wanna go to south africa to photograph. what is your favorite gif at the moment?  hm. i don't really have one? what is your favorite word? "rigorous" if you had the chance: would you go to space?  no. no one goes to space for a short period of time. do you like the beach boys? sure! their songs are so happy to me and make me think of summer. can you blow bubbles with gum? yeah. does your last ex deserve to die? absolutely not, jc. who do you tell the most to?  sara. has anyone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you?  yeah. how long does it take for you to take a shower? like 10 minutes. do you like the smell of gasoline? NO would you rather date a person with a british accent or an irish accent? BRI'ISH how many kids do you want to have? none. have you had the chicken pox?  no. which makes me nervous 'cuz i know it can be fatal when you're older. have you ever been around someone who was high?  yes. do people ever spell your name wrong? yes. lots of people spell it as "britney." do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back? side is it easy for you to accept loss? NOOOOO are you wearing a ring? yes. do you think it’s possible to fall in love with someone in just 2 weeks? hell no. what kind of signs do you use when you pose for pictures? (i.e peace signs, thumbs up, rock, etc) none. where do you find new bands? youtube recommendations. what math subject is your favorite? (i.e. algebra, statistics, business math, trigonometry, geometry, etc.) uhhh, none? how about science?  genetics. would you ever dye your hair? if so what color? lots and lots of colors. do you wish during 11:11? no. do you flush the toilet with your hand or your foot? hand. i ain't that flexible, brother. what’s your myers-briggs type indicator (ex: entp)? infj what’s your favorite game show? "family feud" how many times a day do you use the restroom? lots. i drink a lot. do you still speak to your ex’s parents? no. who was the last person who drew you a picture?  tyler. are any of your siblings married?  yes. ashley. maybe tiffany, but i don't know her, so. what do you usually put in your omelets? cheese, bacon bits. have you ever tried to go vegetarian and if so, how long did you last? no. what kind of exotic animal do you think you could keep as a pet? i wish i could have a fox, but it's not legal in north carolina and their urine is horrendous. what’s the largest body of water near your hometown? do rivers count? in that case, the tar river. do you like kiwis?  hell yeah! at school, which area of science did you prefer, biology, chemistry or physics? biology. i had a hard time with parts of chemistry. which did you prefer between geography and history? geography. i hated history. have you ever had a main part in a play? no. when do you prefer to take a shower, in the morning or night?  night. what’s your most recent mistake? hmmm. if you could live in one country, where would you live?  here's fine. who inspires you the most? mark edward fischbach<3 what’s your opinion on fast food?  it's fine. at the moment, what song you listen to the most?  "rooftops" by lost prophets what was the last liquid that you choked on?  *shrugs* when you kiss a person, where do your hands usually go?  neck. when drinking hard alcohol, do you take shots more or make mixed drinks? i don't like hard alcohol. have you ever been told you’ve punched someone in your sleep? lmao yeah. poor jason. when can you legally go to an american bar?  i can now. if a bug is in your car, do you kill it or try to push it out your window? i try to get it out the window if it's flying. what was your first pet? do you still have this pet? the pet my family had when i was born was a female collie named trigger. my first personal pet was a guinea pig named squeak, i think. where was the last place you went on vacation?  the beach. do you know anyone who self-harms? sadly. if you were president, which one would you legalize first: abortion or marijuana? well i mean both are legal in most places, but if they weren't and i had to pick, marijuana. what are your parents’ names and what do they do for a living? donna- pharmacist; ken- mailman. do you have any siblings? what are their names, age and grade they are in? katie (30-something, not in school); bobby (30, not in school); misty (29, not in school); tiffany (???); ashley (24?, not in school); nicole (19, college student). do you know a schizophrenic person? my half-sister. did you ever watch sailor moon? if so, who is your favorite? yes, but i don't remember who was my favorite. have you seen the game show “baggage”? yeah. it was so fucking scripted but seeing people's secrets was kinda interesting. would you ever dye your hair pink? sure, but i'd wanna be skinny. i don't believe certain hair colors look good on certain weights. have you ever liked someone of the same gender while otherwise classifying as straight? no. are you saving it for marriage? i am. have you ever had sex with someone as a favor? no. do you worry more about other people’s happiness than your own? not anymore. my happiness comes first. name five people you care about more than anything: mom, dad, ashley, nicole, and i honestly can't pick between a fifth?? what is your favorite accent or tone of voice? british favorite game of all time? "silent hill 2" is a motherfucking masterpiece worst injury you’ve ever had?  i skinned the everliving fuck out of my knees. do you collect anything? meerkat stuff, "silent hill" memorabilia do you like hot sauce?  yes. what is your heritage? german, irish, polish are you rich?  hell no. do you prefer writing with black or blue pens? black what was your favorite book as a child? i really liked "how to make a rainbow" and "stellaluna" what is your most used emoji? probably ;v; did you ever consider getting your tongue pierced? yes, snake eyes. i didn't though because it's really unsafe when you have a metal retainer. if you had to only use either shampoo or conditioner, which would it be?  shampoo. i don't use conditioner anyway. type of music you dislike most? rap what kind of back pack do you have, and what’s in it? the one i had in college is a ouija board design. have you ever had to be put to sleep for an operation? i actually don't know. i had tubes put in my ears as a young child, but idk if you're put to sleep for that? are you scared of giving birth? more like horrified. it's part of the reason i don't want kids. do you prefer boys to shave down there? i honestly don't care at all. it's natural. if your doctor told you TODAY that you were pregnant, what would you say? that's physically impossible. do you have a funny last name? does anyone make fun of it? what's it start with? no, and "d" what color is your cell phone? black. would you rather sing or dance? dance. if you were a witch, which animal would be your familiar? a sphinx which country would you NOT want to travel to? well i mean, obviously north korea. would you ever visit a ghost town? sure! which natural disaster scares you the most? T O R N A D O S what is your favorite phase of the moon? full. if you get a one-word response like “lol”, do you still bother to reply?   no. do you know your blood type?  a- what was your favorite board game as a child?   "mall madness" lmfao d o n o t j u d g e m e would you cry if you found out you were pregnant?  more like sob. have your parents ever smoked pot?  idk have you ever met any bands/band members before?  no. are you stuck in the past?   not anymore! (: ready for winter to come?  hell yeah.  make this spring+summer quick. do you think the person you like is cute?  he's adorable what kind of dog do you find most ugly?   i don't think any dog is "ugly," but i'm not particularly fond of chihuahuas. which show is better spongebob or the fairly odd parents?   "fairly odd parents" was the bomb.com do you have a reoccurring dream?   no.