Here's A Little Get-To-Know-You Tag Game!

Tagged by: @noonaracha

Name(s): millie

Pronouns: she/they

Star Sign: saggitarius

# of Siblings & Fun Facts About Them (if you have any): I have two brothers and a sister! everyone says my little sister looks (and acts) exactly like me but don't tell her I said that

# of Pets: I have two menaces who don't pay rent cats :)

Fandoms: Just SKZ atm. I used to be in the phandom and books like hp, pjo (although that's kinda coming back w the new show) and aftg

Favourite Colour: PINK!! I like yellow also

Favourite Song: (Of all time) francesca by hozier or you belong to my heart by sam cooke. (At the moment) still obsessed with cover me or cool about it by boygenius

Favorite Author: hmmm... its been a bit since I read more than one book from a single author hehe but I loved Hanya Yanagahira's "a little life" and I bought a second Lauren Groff book so??

Hobbies: I love to read, watch video essays, watch skz content, swim and play (Aussie) football! I also enjoy cooking and spending time w my friends/partner

Favourite Holiday: Christmas! I'm an atheist but I love being able to come together with family and spend time together, and watch everyone get insanely competitive over the games hehe

Do You Have Any Partner(s)?: Yes! we've been together for 4 years now holy shit and I'm genuinely so obsessed w them hehehe. It was meant to be a fling but we did the lesbian thing and fell head over heels and now here we are :)

Fun facts about you/anything extra you wanna share!: I'm trying to learn mandarin so if anyone has any tips for learning new languages, I'd love to hear them!! or even mandarin language shows/music recommendations!

Tagging @sapphiclinos @faunandfloraas

hi Holly. I just want to appreciate u. u don’t have to reply but this is more just a message to you.

I think ur the best person I have a parasocial platonic relationship with. Not only do you write the best stories (my heart beats for BD) but you also are the best most good intentions, good morals, person.

I like that you constantly update us on your work, your thoughts, and other stuff. It’s like you’re the teacher who engages with her students and tells her kids “guys the marks will be released Friday”, doesn’t take a long time to mark, doesn’t bat around the bush, etc. You never alienate your readers which I feel like a lot of other authors do. I love how appreciative you are of ur readers and friends

Also thank you for posting about Palestine. This is what made me wanna write the message. Im currently typing through tears as I just watched a kid cry because he saw the bombing in Gaza. His trauma is already started and he’s just 3. Thank you thank you for being a good soul. A true girls girl. A true citizen who wants the best for her world. I value you a lot. I love that you’re another girl who has big boobs ( I have a H cup girl it’s fucking horrible but I love that I get to be appreciated through ur stories) , thank you for being so creative, thank you for just knocking it out of the park.

U deserve nothing but the best. Please keep your standards high because you are of the highest standard. I love u girl

<3

honestly i could have cried reading this, what a gorgeous display of kindness 😭 thank you so much.

this is a long answer so I'll add a read more haha

I think (in a way) I also have sort of a parasocial relationship with you guys - I'm often shown such generous amounts of love and support and it's a dynamic that I don't really know how to describe. we might not know each other and yet you all see such a huge part of my personality that a lot of people don't. you hear of virgo boy and of the little trips I'm going on and all sorts of intricate details and yet if you were to see me in the street, you'd probably have no clue of who I am 🥲 sometimes I wonder (when I go to army events / bts places) if I'm talking with people who have read my fics but we collectively have no idea. its a strange little life to live, but one that I enjoy.

in regards to Palestine, and the humanitarian crisis in Gaza, I'm deeply horrified by what we're witnessing and am devastated at my government (alongside other western nations) facilitating what's happening. if all I can do is spread awareness or write letter, then you best believe that is what I'll do.

I'm afforded with such kindness that it only feels right I should reciprocate that - I keep you guys updated because it keeps us all happy haha. I love doing teasers and getting that initial reaction from you guys, it's so much fun, honestly. while I write for myself, I'd be a total liar if I said I didn't care for other people's opinions. your input is important to me!!

I've friends in all corners of the world, of all faiths and diverse backgrounds, and the idea of any of them experiencing such horror for the simple fact of where they were born is unthinkable. the people suffering are daughters, sons, husbands, wives, siblings - they are people and they are loved and it is barbaric to see what is happening and not feel strongly about it, in my opinion.

we all deserve the right to safety, freedom and a comfortable living environment. i don't really think my views are that groundbreaking, but I'm glad to know many of you feel the same ♡♡

honestly the big titty agenda part made me laugh so much!! I've been wearing a posture corrector lately cause the girlies have just been a nightmare 🥲 and the titty worship in my stories??? comes from experience!!! you'll find someone who appreciates them, as well as appreciates you, I promise 😭

thank you so much for your message - honestly you've no idea how much it means. have the loveliest day!!!

mwah x

amor my dearest most beloved GUESS WHO'S DONE WITH THEIR EXAMS!!!! i had my first in-uni exam yesterday since all the others were online due to covid😲 very weird experience but i worried so much over it for nothing because i finished the exam an hour early since it was so easy😭😭 let's not talk about the other one though cause i might've failed that one🫶🏻🫶🏻 thank you for being so sweet and supportive i'm about to shed tears :/ i hope everything's been going well for you too and that you've had a great week!!!!!!!! twice as your fav group?? i knew i could trust you to have great taste😌 i LOVE them so much i actually ascend every time i hear cheer up, nobody did cute concepts like them!! imagine my shock when i came back to kpop after not listening to it for almost two years and the first twice song i hear is can't stop me🫥🫥 literally the last thing i expected my soul left my body right then,,, i love their new sound and i'm also still super bitter about them not getting an mv for cry for me, it's on sight jyp😾😾 how am i meant to choose a favorite from rv😭😭 i'd say the most iconic one to me is dumb dumb but bad boy/psycho/feel my rhythm exist?? it's between those four, i genuinely can't choose just one their discography is just hshshwhsheh i <3 it so much hehe and ong 2nd gen groups too!! i can't wait for snsd's comeback this year i am about to combust😵‍💫😵‍💫 nation's gg is COMING BACK!!! and yes beffie atp i do think that we're the same person🤨🤨❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 ngl it's very embarrassing to admit but i barely read at all😐 only fanfiction and sometimes mangas if the anime isn't finished yet😭😭 i usually watch animes but the problem is that i have THE most unhealthy watching habits shsgshhs i will watch the entirety of it in one sitting and become hyperfixated on it💔 so i try to only watch ones that are completely finished already because i absolutely do not have the patience to wait for new seasons nor the memory to be able to remember what happened in the prior ones😐😐 so i've only watched very few so that it doesn't interfere with my uni life LMAO but the ones i've watched are naruto, hiatus x hiatus (did you hear there's new chapters coming out??), attack on titan, bnha, assassination classroom and i don't remember if there's any others,,?? most of these are not finished and i've regretted starting them but i love them nevertheless💔 i wanna watch demon slayer and jjk so bad but i CANNOT😔 now amor why would you rip out my heart like that,,, two slow dancers?????? good thing tomorrow is not promised😆 i just want them to be happy and i wonder what happened to them afterwards but i have a feeling it's not good :( i also saw this and i immediately thought of you because you always think you're so awkward even though you're actually so easy to talk to and the conversation never feels forced to me?? no amor slander on my watch😾 THE SURPRISE!!!! AND THE BEOMGYUS!!!! i blushed thank you so much i love it all so much😔😔 visual representation of me forcing all my love on u actually :/ also did you see that blue haired yj is back???😭😭 so much happened since my last ask we got yj + beomgyu new hair colors, hiyyih + hyuka tiktok, THE RACE CAR DRIVER OUTFIT PERFORMANCE????/?/? i hope you're doing well beffie<333 sorry for sending such a long ask i got a little too excited😭❤️😭❤️

hiiii most dearest dearest 🧃!! so happy you’re finally freeeeee and im glad ur last exam was done easily with ease and im sure u didn’t fail bc ur so bright and effervescent (and if u did, that is okay too you deserve the biggest hug nonetheless) and plzzz ur the one who’s sweet and supportive and im so grateful 🥺 thank you for ur kind wishes as always 🍭 omg the way we were both awestruck by eyes wide open era we are ONE IN THE SAME beffie i appreciate how alike we are 💗🙀😽 and i get u i gave u a pretty hard question bc all rv titles are BRILLIANT the people who make their music inject dopamine when they make them 😭 on a musicality perspective, their songs are brilliant too ugh (forgive me if ive said this already) and im saying this bc i was on the longest road trip ever and i was listening to rv for a good portion of the time hehe and i almost forgot about snsd !! and their cb too i hope they say something about it soon (or maybe im mistaken) also i don’t think that u not reading is embarrassing ^^ i think the material u absorb is pretty dang rad and we really are the same bc much of my interests are indeed hyperfixations 😭😭 ive heard of those animes ^^ there’s honestly sooooo many out there it’s crazy :000 and AHHHH OMG 🥺 im so sorry,,,, really i didn’t think it made much sense but im very thankful that you at least felt an emotion bc of it (?) and (gosh ur so cute ☹️ it kinda breaks mi heart) i wanted them to meet again in the future but wasn’t sure under which circumstances — i owe the sad/open ending to mitski 🥂 THAT IS SOOOO UR SOOOO cute and funny what the heck 2 in 1 deal of the century !!!! i’d have to argue with u about my awkwardness but it would taint my soul for me to tell u ur wrong 😮‍💨 u really are so sweet ur words make me so happy 🥹 that is the nicest thing someone has said to me in a while wow i think it really helps that you make conversation easy and you’re patient with me and kind *falls to my knees in the middle of a store* but seriously :”0 ur visual representation is soooooosoofocociofooo cuuuute and sweet not the yeonjuniezzzzz 🥺🥺🥺🥺 THIS IS MINE BC OF how i feel and am unable to contain my love !!! anyway here is your gift !!!!!!!! + another in case it doesn’t work !!!!!!!! AND AHHH yes i did i thought it was fake haha but real talk did YOU see light purple beomgyu????? moment of silence for bamtoris 🫡🫡🫡🙁 nah but seriously and even moreeee has happened since ur last ask and i apologize for that 😔😔😔😔😔 bc im bad at keeping up and txt starts their world tour in the us soon bc they’ve finished day 1 and day 2 in seoul :0 i hope they stay safe 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and they’re happy and have fun goshhhh and taehyun breaks in his new sunglasses hehe i hope YOU’RE doing amazing 🥳 and i truuuly look forward to these messages !!!!!!! i’m on vacation for three weeks and somehow i have less time for myself 😭 and that means less time to watch txt videos and to listen to txt haha they’re like my personality trait bc they are my comfort and joy hehe pathetic right so im losing my patience and sanity very slowly its been making me feel sad but whatevs HEHE umm (sorry if my questions or sentences seem forced i just panic) but this is random haha do u prefer coffee or tea or neither (i wanted to switch up the genre of my questions even though regardless they’re kinda silly) i really hope you’re enjoying ur freedom and time off with whatever u do whether that includes doing nothing or doing…stuff haha don’t forget to take care of urself 🥺🫶🏼🫶🏼

sending u this ask as an opportunity for u to talk to me abt fi!! i love ur thoughts n words on things nd i don't send asks as much bc i don't have. good words to talk to u abt stuff but i rlly enjoy just. ur Passion nd stuff. autistic people r the best at talking abt stuff i stand by that we r just Epic. anyways if u wanna, i'd love to hear more about just... how fi sorta. changes, over the game? like the Little Things that show her starting 2 care abt link more, or becoming more "human"!

i love this whole ask. you’re right autistic folks r sexy as hell idk how the divine powers that be fit so much passion into my tiny body but i’m glad they made the attempt. 

ANYWAYS FI. i don’t think i’ve ever actually laid this out because for the most part it is incredibly subtle and requires a lot of filling in gaps yourself, and i think that someone who cares less abt her can probably come away from it with an entirely different interpretation. fi’s development of actual feelings are a very sudden a mysterious thing, and i have a LOT of thoughts about them going in a lot of different directions so forgive me if this answer isn’t particularly linear or coherent. i’m not just gonna talk about her slow burn into feeling things, i’m also gonna talk about... why i think it happens.

we don’t get to learn a lot about sword spirits and how they come into being, other than it takes great power to enchant a sword with a spirit/temper a sword with one inside it. hylia obviously created fi and, presumably, demise created ghirahim, and they are pretty much as opposite as two people can be with their only real characteristic in common being precision, intelligence & otherworldly loyalty to their respective masters. 

we thus don’t get to learn how much control the creator of a sword spirit has over what kind of spirit comes of it, if their personalities are organic to their experiences or crafted from the moment they awaken. what i mean by this is like... ghirahim could have been a cold, calculating AI like fi when he was first tempered and gained his dramatics over time, we have no idea how long he’s been alive in comparison to her, if his personality is so much more extroverted because he was allowed a life outside his blade whereas fi was isolated in hers for millennia. or if he just came into creation immediately ready to scream and stick his tongue in ppl’s ears.

i swear to god i’m going somewhere with this. ok. anyways.

fi in the beginning of skyward sword is, i think, how most people remember her--data-interested, icy, and detached. there is a reverence in how she addresses link from the start, even before he formally becomes her wielder, but beyond that she is calculating and precise and rarely wastes words. all of this kinda paints a picture of hylia creating fi, to me--breathing life into the spirit and willing her to be effective, be efficient, be loyal, and be sharp. when you have that image in your head, a lot of how fi operates makes sense--she wasn’t created to have emotions, because emotions get in the way of what her purpose is. hylia made a weapon and a servant, not a friend. it sucks to think about, but that is fi’s purpose.

the game is very careful, however, to show you it’s not that simple from the beginning. because hidden in Ice Queen Fi’s introduction is... a surprising amount of personality.

like this shit, where she straightup just dunks gaepora in the trash because his #Lore is out of date. it’s hysterical because you really do not know if she’s just a) an AI who doesn’t understand when she’s being kinda Rude or b) being snarky On Purpose. and that ambiguity in itself crafts this beautiful air of mystery where you, from the get go, don’t entirely know what to expect of fi all the time.

or this, which she says directly after link hesitates to accept the blade:

this scene, which people who have edgier takes on fi constantly use to paint her as intentionally manipulative, where all i see is... her using emotional validation to calm link down enough for him to take in what’s happening. a really important thing about fi is that she’s paradoxically an empath? she can read auras and detect emotion with extreme precision even if she’s incapable of feeling it herself in the beginning. so she knows everything link is experiencing here, understands that it’s holding him back, and takes care to deconstruct the whirlwind of emotion he’s collapsing under and explain to him why he can and should trust her words.

again this is all in her introductory scene. they write her very specifically to be a seemingly flat character with this... rumbling of something more going on under the surface. so much so that the first time you get to a sacred spring and fi, completely randomly, just starts skating across the water’s surface and speaking ancient poeticisms to you, you don’t question it. you’re not like hey, why is sword alexa doing a little dance? you just accept it as something fi is doing, because fi always feels like she’s at her job, and you don’t know how she acts outside of work, but you kinda feel like maybe you want to.

fi’s affinity for music is another way they insert humanity into an AI without making you think too hard about it. singing and dancing are inherently human, artforms are something we associate with the heart and soul. even teaching a robot to paint is, in itself, an art project crafted by a human hand. but you don’t really... consciously think about that, when you watch her do these things. you just kind of accept that she is this otherworldly thing guiding you. you don’t think about the contrast of this programmed assistant performing music alongside you in a sacred ritual. you’re just kind of like, yeah? i can’t JUST play nayru’s wisdom on my harp, i need someone who can sing and god put a vocaloid in my sword???

throughout the game, fi’s dialogue chains when you summon her don’t change in any meaningful way (besides based on what you’re carrying, where you are, etc) but as you near the end, there are a couple things of note. one that sticks out to me is what she says about one of the mid-game minibosses, who is also an artificial intelligence--

a lot of people laugh abt this line and make jokes about fi being hot for the tall handsome robot pirate and they’re valid. but the thing is, like, from the beginning of her mission, fi knew she’d essentially be dying once the world was saved. and early game fi has no hesitations about her part in things regardless, because, as we know, she wasn’t created to feel things like that. she wasn’t created to fear death, to grow attached to life or anyone in it, or to experience sorrow at the idea of saying goodbye. but this is mid-game fi, who still... never says anything she doesn’t deem entirely necessary, but she says this. for no discernible reason, she says this. it’s an unskippable dialogue option, one they WANT you to see and one that is different when you know where she ends up. admiration is already something you wouldn’t really expect of her, but it’s more than that--she’s longing for her own story to mirror it. by the sand sea, fi has started to realize she doesn’t want to go to sleep.

it’s another one of those moments where you’re kinda like, ‘haha, what, fi?' and then move on. another one of those moments where she kinda does something a little unexpected, but not so unexpected you question it too hard. fi excels at those.

before you go off to fight demise, fi stops you to warn you that it is the final battle, and you cannot return. and when you tell her you’re ready, she says this:

as i’ve said, fi doesn’t waste words. almost always, everything she says is for the purpose of efficiency, and rarely does she offer thoughts without fixed probabilities and ultimate endgoals in mind.

this is a sentiment.

it serves no purpose. it is purely an expression of devotion.

and because of EVERYTHING i’ve mentioned thus far, this line both hits you HARD as significant and foreboding in how suddenly tender it is, AND manages to read as in-character for her to say. because the way they write fi’s humanity is so beneath the surface, so easily missable, so hard for me to even lay out with concrete evidence despite the fact that i’m a person who reads a text dump of all her dialogue before bed every night.

but to me, what lays out fi’s inner workings best is actually her actual goodbye, and... not the moment most people would think, tbh? it’s not her tender farewell that speaks her emotions loudest to me, but the moment right before:

these lines, which would read as perfectly in character if it were early game fi, cut you. her complete and utter flippancy, the way she talks about all you’ve been through together as though it were nothing to her, the absolute coldness here after everything. you as a player feel kind of pathetic when she says this, like you were misguided in growing attached to her and thinking of her as a friend. and you KNOW thats the intended effect, because this is what link looks like:

he takes a moment in that last shot to like. swallow sadness and turn away from her, but even as he’s turning his head, he doesn’t take his eyes off her until the last possible moment. she hurts his feelings! why.

because it’s an act, is why. of COURSE fi loves him. of course she’s grown attached to him, of course she’s happy to have known him, of COURSE they’re friends. but fi was NEVER supposed to feel that way, she was never supposed to have the capability to love, and there’s no calculation she can run to set the uncertainties of that at ease within herself. so those lines up above is her trying her best to reset herself to who she was in the beginning, to snap herself back into the role of an emotionless servant to the goddess, to convince herself--not link--that saying goodbye won’t hurt. she’s trying to cope with something she has no idea was in the cards for her, and that’s why she’s seemingly so cruel for a moment.

all of this becomes apparent when she calls him back moments later and tells him how she really feels. there’s major whiplash because fi herself is Going Thru It. but essentially what’s happening in that moment is she thinks she knows what will hurt the least, but she miscalculates and backpedals and realizes even if saying goodbye hurts, it hurts less than pretending she doesn’t want to.

i think a lot of people overlook that line--“the most precious data i have on record.” fi, who contains multitudes within her. who contains knowledge immeasurable, the thoughts and feelings and stories of thousands. of civilizations, of gods, of countless ages passed. everything she holds within her is dwarfed entirely by what she feels for link, beside link. nothing in her encyclopedic knowledge can even compare to her friendship with him in the significance it has to her. like all things, fi has her own way of communicating her meanings, and this is her way of saying she really, truly loves him. 

in addition, she very carefully does this after he abandons the sword, so it’s clear that it’s of her own will, not a part of her purpose as his servant. for this whole cutscene, up until she end, she drops the honourific and calls him just Link. 

and while i see a lot of people debate if she truly does ‘feel,’ anything, like... she says it right here, she does. whether or not she was able to feel from the beginning or not, she can feel now. she has trouble putting words to those feelings, or explaining to herself and others where on earth they came from... but she feels now. that cannot be disputed.

happiness that she was able to know him. loyalty she wants to transcend lifetimes. sorrow at the idea of them having to part. gratitude that he took the chance, and did so beside her.

let’s talk about gratitude.

in skyward sword, gratitude is a tangible source of magic. it opposes malice, which as of botw is a reoccurring thing in zelda lore. skyward sword has two items--evil crystals and gratitude crystals--that represent malice and gratitude respectively. while the first isn’t entirely relevant, the second is something you’re actively encouraged to more or less harvest by helping people and basking in their thanks toward you. these feelings of gratitude are so canonically powerful in the zelda universe that they can turn monsters into humans entirely, and the outpouring of energy that event causes makes every monster & hostile creature within all of skyloft turn docile at once. 

according to batreaux, the monster in question, this is well-established legend, the idea of gratitude granting humanity to the nonhuman. skyward sword literally said the power of love was canon.

the song that plays over the goodbye, of course, is called fi’s gratitude.

this is just one theory i have on the matter, but... whether hylia intended or foresaw fi to be capable of feeling human emotion or not, i do believe it was gratitude that woke her heart up. whether she was meant to love or not, link’s spirit contained within it enough love for the both of them, enough to touch her soul and rouse her from her cold and emotionless state. as always, through everything, they work in perfect tandem--his passionate heart touches hers as it sleeps, her wisdom holds him steady and level-headed. 

when fi says “may we meet again in another life,” she says it like a prayer, because it is one--she knows hylia, knows that hylia loved link’s spirit just as she did, and knows that hylia of all people understands what the sword spirit is going through. and fi also knows that hylia immortalizes those she loves with cycles, with reincarnation, eternal life without the pain of never dying. fi doesn’t have a soul that hylia can bring back from death nor a physical body to revive, but she works with what she can--and so long as link’s spirit breathes anew, he finds fi. in a sunlit grove, with light bearing down on her, safe and warm and always loyal, even as the world rages on outside. fidelis, she was named for--“faithful.”

the fandom doesn’t really talk abt it, but fi is an angel. she’s an angel god sent to watch over one human, and when god said your mission is complete fi faced god and walked backwards into hell. her divine mission is long passed, but it stopped being about what she was fated to do long ago.

fi began to watch over link because he was her master. and fi resolved to stay forever because he was link.

Hi there. A here! Remember me? Lol. Happy early bday to us yayyyyy lol✨✨✨✨🙆🎉🎊🎂🎁 what's ur zodiac sign? U give me sag vibes lmao. Anywayyys can I have a future life reading please? Like what will the next 5-6 years be like for me? Hope i worded this well lol! 19/12/2002♐ Thank you babe🎀🎈

Of course I remember you hon. 😊 You were the one with the extremely talkative ancestors 😂 Actually I dont think I told you the whole story so let me elaborate a little. It's not just simply that some cards fell out, though that happens too. I started doing your reading (that was I think a carreer one maybe?) and pulled three cards. And what I got seemed to make sense but was obviously unrelated, something about a rival? And then I thought, ok, I'll just shuffle it back and start over. So I did your reading normally and finished that. And THEN, as I was about to shuffle those back, the EXACT SAME three cards from earlier fell out AGAIN. I know the deck wasn't shuffled that much yet so the fact that they were still next to each other is not that unlikely... but the fact that they still fell out together at once is wild asf.

Anyway. Yes you are correct, not only am I a december sagi but actually my birthday is super close to yours. So happy birthday to us!!! But now you must tell me what was the sagi vibe that I gave off lmao 😂

Your wording is perfect and I could do that, but if that's okay I would rather narrow it down to about the next year or so because 5-6 years ahead is still so changeable and I would rather give you something that is actually relevant and more likely to happen. You are always welcome to come back for more readings later ofc.

My guide came up with this funky circular reading for you, each side representing different facets of your life that may sometimes also have a bit of an overlap. The cards outside of the circle were just taken for clarification.

six of swords. five of cups

I kinda feel like up to this point you've had a really rough time lately, like you have been chipped away at for so long and you are just worn down at this point. And I think this upcoming year will be a time of enormous healing and growth for you, but the changes will pour into your life slowly and gradually, and what you can do to encourage them into your life is somewhat limited. Of course I don't want you to just sit around and twiddle your fingers all year, but keep in mind that certain things have their own pace and take their own course, so you will have to be patient. I have a feeling that this will be a hard message to hear, but this is exactly why you needed to hear it. Slow success is better than no success. If you truly take this to heart, all areas of your life will blossom in the upcoming year.

two of cups. page of wands. the hermit reversed

VII. THE CHARIOT [REVERSED]

"The Chariot is always charging ahead despite being pulled by its steeds in opposite directions. The rider who steers it constantly reins in the light and dark sides of the soul with the help of Reason. To ride in The Chariot is to experience highs and lows – ups and downs."

My feeling is that this is the part that is career related, though I don't know for sure, but what I do know is that this is an area where you have been feeling completely stagnant, like your life has come to a dead end and you just have to watch as other people pass you by. I know that this is a big ask, but I want you to try and look at things in a slightly more optimistic way and keep your eyes peeled because opportunities will come your way, they are just smaller than you think but not to be underestimated. I think you will receive some good news soon in this area. If that's applicable, try to build positive rapport with your coworkers and make some new friends among them if you can. It will not necessarily impact the job but your emotional wellbeing will improve and with it several areas of your life, by proxy.

the hermit reversed. three of wands. strength reversed. the magician reversed. eight of wands

I can't even guess what this is about tbh, but it doesn't matter because if it's true then you will certainly know - since this is a part of your life that you desperately want to change. The cards seem very adamant however, that you are not ready for this change yet and you should probably not try to force it. If this is something spirituality related, I don't think you are completely ready to take this thing to the next level but that doesn't mean that you will never be ready, you just need to learn and practice more. I don't think that this is persistently true for the entire duration of the year but it's true right now. Whatever this is, keep refining it and working on it, because there's still a long road ahead of you. But it will be worth it.

strength reversed. high priestess reversed. three of swords reversed. ten of wands. four of wands

I see a great burden that you have been carrying that has impacted your trust and faith in yourself fundamentally. Im getting the energies of some kind of generational trauma as it has something to do with your family and seems somehow a lot bigger than you are, but even if it didn't happen to you specifically you are still deeply impacted by it. In the upcoming year you will experience a lot of improvement in this area, though it will be a gradual process and with some ups and downs. The wisdom you will have to learn this year is what action is worth your reaction, but if there is anything I would like you to be proactive about, it's this one. Take a lot of conscious time and effort to grow your self worth, love and trust, and the external forces that are on the way to you to guide that healing will be much more effective. I think it's possible that something external will also happen that triggers this improvement, like maybe you will learn new information about your family that you didn't know before, or come to some kind of new understanding somehow. But don't just wait for that to happen.

three of swords reversed. ten of cups. two of cups

I am extremely happy to say that the prospects of your love life for the upcoming year are looking fantastic, and this will be by far the best part of your year. If you are single right now and looking for love, I think you will relatively soon meet someone who is a real keeper and a dream, and this romance will last you a long time... if not the rest of your life! But if you have a relationship currently that makes you happy, that happiness will only increase over time, and if that's applicable I think it's very possible that the two of you will eventually take it to the next level. 🥰

All in all, the biggest takeaway that I want you to have is this. If you feel dissatisfied with your life right now... I will give it to you, it's fair, and you have the right to do so, I know it's not been rosy up to this point. But know that there are blessings still coming towards you even the hardest of times, and if you are trying to force things that don't work while letting other things wither that need your attention... that definitely disrupts the flow. You need to flip around the way you give your attention to things. And I think that if the reading is true, you exactly know how and what, you have just grown so frustrated with the lack of control that you are now on principle alone trying to force square pegs into round holes, or however that saying is.

Well!! That would be it!! I really hope that this brought some hope and clarity in your life. This is kinda like a donor reading so you can ask for a clarification once if you need it on something. But until then once again happy bday and also happy holidays 🎁❄️

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Origin Story Character Text Posts +Cyra, Jean and Kira and The Squad

Kira: Someone: *tries to guilt trip me* Me: the jokes on you!! i feel guilty 97% of the time for Everything I Do!, if i didn't have have depression no one could fucking stop me. i only have depression because otherwise im too powerful., please don't flirt with people i secretly like it's rude and disrespectful, i have three moods: fuck off, fuck you, fuck me., im cute and small and ready to brawl, "talk about" hahah, no no, i prefer to internalize all my problems so they eat away at me from inside until im unable to function in any way, no offense @life but can a have a breather...a break...some slack..., yea boys are cute but they disgust me and constantly disappoint me, she's beauty, she's grace, she'll punch you in the face, 5'2 but my attitude 6'2, "If I don't have calves of steel or abs of iron by the end of this trip, I'm going to feel so cheated.", "No offense, but I just can't process the fact that someone might actually care about me.", night time would be so beautiful and fun if all men had a curfew. me?? using sarcasm as a defense mechanism???????? what?????, When a girl says she has experimented with girls, that does not necessarily mean she's bi. She may just be an evil scientist., the bible said adam AND eve so i slept with them both, list of people i'm going to fight: everyone. put your fists up i'm coming for you, stale cinnamon roll, been in this world too long, too cynical

Jean: i don't have a nervous system. i am a nervous system., pick your battles. pick...fewer battles than that. put some battles back. that's too many., Wakey wakey eggs and social anxiety, enough about sex positions has anyone discovered a reading position which doesn't get uncomfortable after 5 minutes, i'm actually pretty cool just me like 5 tries to get it right, i love freckles theyre skin stars, never underestimate my ability to find shit out, "I don't feel that sore right now, but ask me again tomorrow and I'm sure I'll have a more colorful answer for you.", my life is constantly an inner monologue of "why do i do this to myself", 90% of my day is me being nervous., every friend group has the mom friend, if you don't who it is you're it.

Cypress: biology more like BYEology because I'm out, Highest form of art: girls, i don't want to look "pretty" i want to look otherworldly and vaguely threatening, things that make every video game better: give me nice outfits to wear, let me be gay, give me a pet, yoU THINK YOU'RE REAL CUTE, DON'T YOU???? REAL FUCKING CUTE RIGHT???? i think so to, "Your aim's a little off - now look at that. You just smushed the ant. Now it can't crawl anymore.", appreciation post for broccoli, thanks for being so tasty you tiny trees, there are people out there that are the embodiment of the sun like the things they say and do light up the world and make you feel warm they are human sunshine, I slept for 8 hours straight and then 2 hours gay, fuck dating girls who are "naturally pretty". date girls who are supernaturally pretty. date a hot ass ghost. date a fucking alien., Current mood: wanting to have a hooded cloak and to be in misty forest., You Want To See Some Goddamn Optimism?, "guys prefer-" that's nice i don't care, how to look cute but like you could kill someone

Liam: ive been annoyed ever since i was born, members of my squad: me, I may seem like an asshole but deep down im a good person and even deeper down im a bigger asshole, I came out to attack people and I'm honestly having such a good time right now, me, introducing myself: it is i, your local asshole, my kink is when everyone shuts the fuck up, *at a job interview* Oh yes, my criminal record? The only illegal thing I've done in absolutely KILLIN it on the dancefloor. Haha, just kidding! I have killed a man., The worst part about kissing a perfect ten is the cold feeling your lips get from touching the mirror., i don't want a friend w/ benefits i just want the benefits keep your friendship away from me, Ur what we call in the scientific community a "lil bitch", have u ever met the human version of a headache, *barges out of coffin at funeral yelling sike*, i'm permanently emotionally damaged, but its chill, I'm chill, no addressing our problems we downward spiral like men, I'm wasting my youth and beauty being a mysterious eccentric loner and I wouldn't have it any other way, im alive out of spite

Beckett: world's okayest friend, Do you ever look at someone and you're like how, "What are you twelve" Yeah on a scale of one to ten bye, having 3 friends is a lot of work, "Yeah I'm going chug four servings of this entire energy drink so I can crash later and actually get some sleep.", when you see a person smile and it's like...holy shit...what is this magic...please do that again, Stop taking advantage of people with good hearts & who are emotionally vulnerable, "you're so sweet!" thank you i have abandonment issues, IF YOU'RE THE KIND OF GUY WHO KISSES A GIRL ON THE TOP OF THE HEAD WHEN HUG THEM THEN YOU ARE DOING IT RIGHT MY FRIEND, beautiful cinnamon roll too good for this world, too pure, why is everyone so mean. How aren't you tired

Cyra: When a grumbly grump who hates everyone and sees the world as dark and cold and unforgiving loves a sunshiney optimist. When a sunshiney optimist who sees the best in everyone thinks the grumbly grump is the best thing out of the whole beautiful world., do you like sleeping because so do i we should do it together sometime, love yourself so we can have something in common, how many eye contact until date, beING SUPER IN LOVE WITH YOUR FRIENDS BUT IN A FRIEND WAY but also a little bit in a gay way but also in a friEND WAY, anyone have that friend that you REALLY wanna fuck but you're never gonna say anything about it, listen i didn't come here to ship it lightly ok i came here for it to consume my soul, you could take me on a date anywhere and i'd be happy. like it could be the movie theater, or watching a movie at your house. fuck you could take me outside and we could look at clouds and climb trees i do not care as long as we hold hands or something at some point., my mom thought otp meant "oh, the pain." what's the difference., My way of flirting is looking at the person I'm attracted to and hoping they're braver than I am., i;m feeling...what's the word...........gay, I AM GOING TO PUNCH YOU IN THE MOUTH WITH MY OWN MOUTH Softly Because I like you

Jean and Kira: i would follow you to the ends of the earth with only mild complaining, does anybody else have that friend that your pretty sure is your soulmate but in a friend way, friend(jean): fuck off stop punching me me(kira): it's called platonic bdsm, when ur best friend says something weird and ur just like...I love you but what have I gotten myself into with this friendship, do you ever look at your best friend and just "who the hell blessed me with this dork, i am the luckiest loser in the galaxy."

The Squad: "what are the chances of EVERYONE in a friend group being queer" do you realize that we all tend to flock together like penguins huddling for warmth in a cold heteronormative, world right