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Thanks for reading my guidelines. I go by the mun-alias Midnight, also Raven (she/they), early millennial, living in the CET timezone. My activity level is medium to low, my reply speed is slow, please don't rush me. English is my second language. I'm from a german roleplay community and immigrated to Tumblr in 2022 after our old platform got shut down. I'm still learning about Tumblr rp etiquette and guidelines, please be patient with me. If you see me doing something unusal or weird feel free to correct me at anytime but be respectful about it.

01. To interact with me, you have to be 18+ (mun and muse). I am not affiliated with The Boys, its creators or the actor Karl Urban and I don't own the character Billy Butcher. I claim ownership of my own written headcanons and texts only. The Boys is an R-rated series and this is a general trigger warning for mature content such as blood, gore, violence, abuse, trauma, sex, sick humour, foul language, weapons, drug use and overall rude behaviour which can be expected from this muse.

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04. I haven't very much in-character text on this blog yet, since I mostly rp privately in DM's or on sideblogs. I'm very open and curious to try threads, I'd love to have some writing on my blog whether it be novels, oldschool style shorter postings or some in-character chatting. This would come closest to the 'Pinnwand' we had on our old platform and I still miss it a lot. I'm using the beta editor, which should be standard at this point anyways, and I am able to trim posts. Feel free to hit me up if you're interested and are comfortable with doing any sorts of public threads. You can also just send me an ask (off anon to start a continuous interaction) or tag me in a starter. I highly prefer german and I'm not open to english advanced literate, where complex prose is required. I have little to no experience with it but maybe I'll get more comfortable in the future.

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hey so not too long ago, i saw a post from rz twitter that said that during the first loop where subaru meets otto, when subaru met the witch cultists and were chanting something to subaru before they left, that these cultists left because some outsider (who's therefore an enemy to their witch and its prophecy) was nearby. And the tweet said how that "nearby outsider" was actually otto who stayed behind because he was worried that subaru, (whom he met only as a customer in that loop and otto had already fulfilled his job) would succumb to danger. And despite frufoo's warnings, it's heavily implied that otto had in fact died in that loop waiting for subaru to come back. And the replies were saying that it's common knowledge?

First of all, is that true? I can see how one would come to the conclusion that the cultists left because otto, an outsider, was nearby. But i haven't seen proof of the implication that otto died from that loop. Secondly, with this perhaps being true, does that confirm that any loop in which otto was nearby and subaru is in danger, that otto risked his life for him? Some ppl say "but the whale incident!" But like you said way earlier, otto came back to him after pushing him off, and it's implied that he died trying to save subaru. There's no loop i can recall otto leaving him to the dust, even when he doesn't know who subaru is. And thirdly, Otto get some self-preservation skills, you barely knew the guy and already risk your life for him. What the fuck.

HAH anon your ask intrigued me so much i immediately went to the anime to try and confirm this. and bc the anime is the closest bit of info i got wjdndn i dont have arc 3 ln or access to arc 3 wn (i do not understand japanese either, sadly) but!! while the anime doesnt explicitly confirm otto died in that first loop his character debuted in, i think its definitely a possibility that he died to the witch cult there. (if anyone knows the lore on this for sure though feel free to add?? yeah)

also regarding about whether this is common knowledge or not—id argue its kind of not, at least in certain circles, bc im gonna be completely real i had to double check the anime to see how well i remembered it bc its 1. been a while since i’ve watched season 1 in full and 2. when i was looking at it on my first watch i was focused more so on what the hell was happening to subaru, rem, emilia camp rather than otto, who at the time seems like just some random guy who wont appear ever again. but also maybe im a little too used to people misinterpreting rezero over on reddit ajfbdnd bc some people STILL completely forget that otto went back after pushing subaru off the wagon. and some people still forget ottos died for subaru even though its super obvious in arc 4?? so i dont think ottos involvement with subaru across loops is really common knowledge? or at the very least its not common for Certain portions of the rezero fandom bc i see ottos whole fixation on subaru gets glossed over at times. but i do genuinely think moments like the first loop with otto are probably easy to sort of miss if youre not paying attention. but also again i might be a little bit brainwashed by rezero redditors misreading things bc the amount of people that forget otto went back for subaru in the white whale loop made me doubt my own memory of that scene to the point where i rewatched it in the anime just to be sure wkdndnd. i dont really see any english rezero people talk about this loop in particular too unless theyre referring to you know, rem arlam and emilia camp dying. but anyway moving on for now…

alright!! lets go over this scene i suppose. the anime doesnt go into like. Specifics, like how the tweets you mention do anon, but it does have some interesting stuff.

in the anime, the first loop with otto happens in episode 14 to about the beginning of 15, but the focus is of course more so on subaru, rem, arlam, etc, bc rem left for the mansion and subarus trying to get there quickly so he pays otto to do that. otto takes the time to warn him before they even set off, not only for his own sake but also for subarus:

but you know, bc ottos desperate for money bc hes in debt, he takes up the job. but once otto and subaru actually get to the road leading up to arlam and the mansion, otto stops bc frufoo’s frightened and shes warning them of danger—

but subaru being subaru jumps off anyway and leaves. he says this quickly before he goes:

otto replies by trying to call out to him desperately as he runs away:

your point about ottos self preservation is super interesting anon because otto DOES have self preservation skills. he almost kind of prides himself on it, sometimes—as a merchant, especially from a merchant family, hes been raised to treasure it. to go for things that work in his favor. especially with his bad luck fucking him over too. and he can be slightly morally ambiguous at times, so he is Very aware of self preservation and staying out of trouble. but at the same time, leaving behind innocents does kind of weigh on him bc. well hes still human. that and the further into rezero you get, the more clear it is that ottos self preservation skills just get thrown out the window the moment he sees subaru. like otto takes a significant amount of time on screen to complain about danger or trouble hes found himself in, or go on and on about how the moment he sees danger, hes just gonna turn around and run—but its just COMPLETE AND TOTAL BULLSHIT SOMETIMES. he has plenty of chances Every Time to turn around and run and the moment subaru enters the picture, he doesnt take it. the only exception to this was him leaving subaru in greed if, but thats because he saw that subaru didnt give a shit about him and even then. he made that choice FOR subaru’s sake too, bc he recognizes that greed if subaru is just gonna micromanage everything and deal with it on his own. otto knows he’d just be another burden to subaru, so he leaves to lessen the load.

main route otto though? yeah youre absolutely right his self preservation is way beyond dead at this point. his self preservation is absolutely gone when it comes to subaru. this first loop is an example of it—while of course ottos you know treating subaru like a stranger bc thats what they are, he goes out of his way to warn subaru repeatedly. at first it looks like its mostly just for his own benefit bc hes Also in danger here, but then he says that he cant just accept taking subarus money and items. he talked about how hed accept subarus payment just a few minutes before this?? and we know in retrospect that he desperately NEEDS money bc hes in debt??? and subarus giving him an out right now to just leave and not look back but he still hesitates and frantically tries calling after subaru??? he has EVERYTHING to gain from just taking the money and subarus things and just leaving, but we dont actually see him leave on screen.

and then right after this, we cut to subaru running to arlam. of course, the witch cult stops him, and in the anime, all they do is circle him, then bow (to foreshadow how the witch cult + petelgeuse think that hes one of them, im assuming), and then they disappear without saying a single word.

its interesting to note though that when they leave, they run towards the direction subaru just came from. which is where otto was.

and then subaru keeps continuing on to arlam and the mansion where he finds out that the witch cult Basically wiped everyone out there. episode 15 continues this loop and then quickly ends it bc subaru is having a mental breakdown finding everyones corpses and then he promptly proceeds to die to puck (iirc?) inside the mansion. and thats all the details the anime gives about the ending of this loop. so no clear hint like the white whale loop that otto Died from this, but i think the implication is definitely there if you choose to read into it. (again, im not sure if the ln adds more details to this or not, but iirc the anime doesnt touch on this much.)

its strange that the witch cultists that find subaru just. up and leave in the direction where we Know otto likely is, bc 1. the cultists move Fast and 2. only a couple minutes passed at most, so its likely that otto is Still There, even if he did start trying to leave. even then though, i think its in character for him to still be there and try to wait for subaru. or, at the very least, otto waited there debating with himself on whether he should just leave or not. waiting there satisfies both his self preservation and the guilt he’d feel if he just abandoned subaru—he doesnt go any further to minimize the danger to himself and frufoo, but he doesnt completely leave just in case subaru comes back or if otto decides to move forward and check on subaru or something. but then we see subaru find everyone at arlam and the mansion dead, and we the audience know the surviving witch cultists left in the opposite direction (where otto is) after killing everyone at arlam, so—i think theres a connection there. as in: yeah. if otto was still there, hes probably dead.

additionally, of course later in arc 3 we see that otto gets captured by the witch cult. this time he was captured bc the witch cult caught him hurrying to get to another location for its job offer, so the witch cult captured him to interrogate him on what exactly he was doing iirc?? so in that sense yeah he was caught by the witch cult for being an outsider getting into witch cult territory while they were in the middle of doing shit (and he likely wouldve been killed if ricardo and the others hadnt rescued him) o.O

but yeah thats all the animes got regarding the first loop (aka ottos official debut into the main story as well)!!!

“There's no loop i can recall otto leaving him to the dust, even when he doesn't know who subaru is." also anon youre so right for saying this bc. yeah i cant recall any loops either bc every time otto is there near subaru. hes risking his life for subaru. hes so incredibly ride or die that its concerning. it kind of boggles my mind that some people overfixate on how he pushed subaru out of the wagon in the white whale loop and YEAH that was fucked up, but not only does he feel bad and die trying to go back for subaru later, but when you watch that scene in the anime and think about it from ottos perspective. yeah some guy you just fucking met is yelling at you about how you apparently forgot about some person youve never heard of in your life, hes yelling at you to go back and TOWARDS THE WHITE WHALE when all youre trying to do is save both of your asses, he starts trying to wrestle with you while youre both being hunted down by the whale, and then he starts rambling to himself about how maybe its his fault the white whale is chasing after both of you while you keep hearing the white whales deranged thoughts in your head the whole time bc of your dp??? its a miracle otto didnt push subaru out of that damn wagon sooner and its a miracle otto even decided to go back for subaru after all that T^TT any person in ottos shoes would be RUSHING to push subaru out of that wagon.

but like. once you think about it - yeah Every Time in the main route that ottos been near subaru and theyve gotten into danger? otto actively puts himself at risk for subarus sake. and he doesnt always die or get hurt for it, but we know that he ALWAYS goes out of his way to help subaru. hes been like this since his debut in arc 3, practically, regardless of whether or not he actually died there. bc he still Lingered around and tried to warn subaru not to leave.

so what im saying is that so much of ottos screentime is spent helping subaru in some way.

How I'd Make Tumblr More Profitable

Yes, this is going to be controversial, since I know nothing about the behind-the-scenes spending, economics, and all that jazz. But I've been on Tumblr for long enough to have a rough idea of the userbase wants - which is what positions Tumblr in a niche other sites don't really utilize. Most of the points I list here are about improving the experience of existing users, as keeping users might be harder for tumblr than attracting new ones.

Please note that this posts reflects my personal opinions and some stuff I've seen people complain about it. Do not attack me over anything I've written here, it's not worth my time and I will resort to blocking if I'm being bothered. Constructive criticism is fine and encouraged!

[under the cut because this got quite long] [last updated 20th July 2023]

Features to Add

Block posts. Xkit has/had this feature, it was great. Sometimes I just don't want to see a specific post, and others probably agree with that.

Send asks and replies from sideblogs. Would literally make a lot of things easier and better.

Delete individual reblog additions from a post. Sometimes, you have a post where there is one"relevant" addition, multiple "irrelevant" additions ("yes!", "[repeated phrase in bold]", "this is a must reblog"), before there is a "relevant" addition again. But right now, you can only remove all reblog additions, not just individual ones. I feel like this would be a neat feature.

Direct blocking of anon hate which also tracks the IP and blocks the associated account(s). No rights for cowards, that's all I'll say.

Features to Bring Back

Reblog chains. Prev tags are the backbone of lots of interactions on here. If I click on someone's username in a reblog chain, I want to see that post on their blog, not their blog starting from the newest post. The loss of this feature is one of the things people constantly complain about in the replies of @changes.

Several text formatting options. As a theme maker, it would be nice to have proper preformatted text again - it makes code so much more legible. Other formatting options I miss are marked/highlighted text and text lines, which are really helpful to visually break apart passages of text.

Features to Ditch

Tumblr Live. There I've said it. If I want to see stuff like that, I have TikTok, IG Reels, Pinterest Reels, and YouTube Shorts. Twitter also has something like this. It's oversaturated, and aparently there are still enough cyber security concerns that it's not even accessible outside of the US and Canada.

Ads in lightboxes. Especially on mobile, there are already more than enough ads on the feed, no need to add more nested inside other elements.

Features that Make Money

Pay for NSFW. If this site allowed full nudity etc. again but hid it behind a paywall, we'd kill two birds with one stone: The site would probably still be allowed on the App Store, and the money influx would be huge. The userbase would also increase again.

(If Tumblr Live is kept.) Pay to snooze Tumblr Live permanently. It's the most complained about thing in changes' replies, so I feel like people would pay on a subscription base just to not see TL anymore.

Pay to increase limits. 250 posts per day is the maximum that can be posted - and there are people hitting those limits. If there was an option to buy a higher limit (500p/d, 750p/d, etc.), people might generally use it. Like those add-on charges for mobile data. Same goes for posts in the queue, posts in drafts, images in a photoset and so on.

Pay to pin posts at the top of a tag or search result. Ebay Kleinanzeigen has this neat feature where you can push your small ads to the top of a search query so that more people can see it. This could be a cool feature to try, as it would work in a more content-aware way than Blaze does.

Pay to buy inactive URLs. There are some really cool usernames on here that are taken by blogs that haven't updated for 5+ years and only have one post (or none at all), and I feel like it would be neat to be able to buy one of these cool usernames attached to an empty account. To make sure that usernames attached to redirect or something else don't get bought, tumblr should send an e-mail to the username owner - if the user doesn't react to that for 3 months, the usernames changed owners. [added 13th July 2023]

Existing Features to Improve

NPF posts. I feel like a combination of legacy and NPF would be neat. Think selecting a main element like in the legacy editor (e.g. video, image, audio) and then adding a caption that can add different content types like NPF does. Or at least create a better overview over NPF variables and release the full base code with documentation to make things easier for the web designers on here. There are more issues with the NPF format but I won't list everything people dislike about it here.

Block people. The block feature should make sure that the person being blocked doesn't see any posts made by the person they were blocked by, even if those posts were reblogged by another user. Also, like IG does, there should be an option to block either just a specific blog or the IP address attached to block side-blogs and other accounts of that user.

Color palettes. The color palette options for the dashboard are generally a nice idea but I think it would be better if there was a dropdown menu to choose a palette from rather than having to click through all the different options. For example, if I want to go from Cement (light mode) to Dark mode, I have to click through 10 options until I reach Dark again. There has to be an easier way. [added 20th July 2023]

Other Improvements Needed

Nuke spam bots. Users are reporting all the spam bots, yet, it doesn't seem like they are dwindling in numbers. Also - at least this is how it's being perceived by the userbase - tumblr isn't doing enough on their end to reduce spam bots. This is definitely something that needs to be fixed.

End hateful and criminal activities. It's the year 2023, yet there are still outright N*zis, violent tr*nsphobes, literal p*dophiles, and other people committing to the daily bit of hate speech and other illegal activities (fraud too considering all those fake GoFundMe sites) on this website. I'm not saying free speech should be banned but there is a bright red line between what is free spech and what is hate speech (or should get you jailed considering fraud and p*dophilia).

A through-out, perhaps even interactive, beginner tutorial. "The site is too complicated to use for new users!" – then explain how it works in easy terms, with examples, images, and videos. Every other application or web app has walk-throughs, just do the same here.

Improved ad relevancy. The ads I see on tumblr are usually so out-of touch with the userbase, and many of them feel like the sort of stuff you see on a spam-ridden torrenting site. I feel like increasing the relevancy of ads to what the users usually blog about would cause a higher click-rate and turn-over-rate than the current ads do.

Summary

There is probably more I could add, but that's it for now. Should I make any later additions directly to this post, I will mention it to prevent misunderstandings. If you have any ideas or constructive criticism, let me hear about it in the replies or reblogs of this post.

I have a question for WS anon if they don't mind answering - I read somewhere that often celebs are not as rich as they appear to be. So, how common is it for celebs to exaggerate their wealth?

Celebs get a lot of free stuff from luxury brands and free services too. Moreover, a lot of celebs also get exclusive discounts from luxury brands if they're not given to them for free. Celebs definitely live a life of luxury and are able to afford way more than the common people. But there's a difference between Beyonce and let's say the Pretty Little Liars cast (I'm choosing celebs being talked about in your blog). There's a reason why celebs can afford to live in high end neighborhoods in LA but choose not to live in those gated communities. For some it may be a choice since a lot of celebs don't expect to live in the same house for the rest of their lives, but a gated community also spikes the price rates in the same neighborhood by a margin. Most celebs would be able to afford a first class ticket, but not all of them actually have the capacity to go on private jet every single time they travel. TL;DR celebs are rich but most of them just live off a luxurious facade and actually have a lifestyle more than they earn.

Is WS anon still around? I would like to ask her something not HO related. I'm big Lily Collins fan and to be honest her relationship with Charlie McDowell makes me cringe. He's known for being d**k and heard only bad things about him. Did you heard anything about this two?

Lily Collins was my upperclassman. A friend told me Lily isn't that bad but hearing her talk and most importantly complain, is very much akin to a nepotism child who has never struggled a day in her life. There were times their classmates wanted to tell her Phil Collins is famous but he isn't THAT relevant. Some other upperclassman have told me Lily always wanted to be a star and Audrey Hepburn but just doesn't have the work ethic or the talent for it.

Does WS anon have any tea on ATJ? or Olivia Rodrigo? I like them both a lot and always heard good things but recently I've been seeing people say that fame went over their heads and that they'rude and dismissive behind the scenes and tbh I don't know if I believe them cause the timing is sus iykwim

Do you mean Aaron Taylor Johnson or Anya Taylor Joy? But I'm guessing it's the latter? My dad worked on all of the Fox's X-Men franchise. Anya isn't exactly friendly but she's VERY professional and hard working and expects the same from other people. That was even before she's famous so she has always been like that. But people like her because she isn't unreasonable, she's just professional and serious on her craft. As for Olivia Rodrigo, I've heard mix things but even my friends agree she's way too young to be properly judged and she's probably just acting like a lot of people her age.

You people friends sound like judgmental as*hloes. shock horror some of us have oily skin and having pores and wrinkles is normal 😒.

I'm guessing this includes my friend? Yeah she can be an asshole no doubt about it, but like Jessie's friend she does that to people she's close with and gives us free skincare even. She's also like that with every celeb she meets anyway and share to us how she finds their skin. I haven't heard her comment on anyone whom (a) she's not close with or (b) a rich ass bitch whose source of income also relies on their looks and have all the resources for the best dermatologist and skincare. She can be lacking on the sensitivity side but I can't really consider her comments coming from malice rather than her obsession with skincare and dermatology.

- Worcestershire Sauce Anon

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My friend has the same attitude as yours tbh! I don’t think she’s got had intentions but I get what you’re saying about the lack of sensitivity at times lmao

Hey! I'm one of the anons that's been sending you questions!! I know for a fact that I'm not the only person sending you anonymous asks. That means you've got at least two or more people sending you asks! Most of my asks have been questions about John. I've been watching SNL for a quite a few years now, but I'm just now kind of getting into the behind-the-scenes of SNL. For example, books that are written, other shows and movies that feature the cast, and so on and so forth. I'm just very curious about everything! Unfortunately, I live in an area that's kind of in the middle of nowhere. The closest town to me has maybe seven buildings in it - a police department, a fire department, a mom-and-pop grocery store, one of those old-fashioned pharmacies with a soda fountain that also doubles as the only restaurant in town, a very small library, a gas station, and a post office. Most of the books in the library are history books of the US or the very common pop fiction books. There's absolutely nothing about SNL in the library. The second closest town is actually a city with loads of stuff to do, but I can't afford to drive all the way to the city all the time, especially since it's over an hour away. There's actually a large network of libraries in the city and at one point they considered putting the library in my town into the network, but most of the rest of the people in my town refused for reasons I do not understand. I haven't had a chance to really explore the SNL books from the large library network yet, but I plan on doing so when I can! I'm pretty sure the Belushi book you mentioned is at the large library. I have thought about reading books online, but I'm very old-fashioned in the sense that I like to actually hold books. I have also thought about straight up buying the books, but if I change my mind it's hard for me to return them. I didn't realize how long this message was getting! Sorry! Before I leave though, are there any other books you recommend about John or SNL? Or even any documentaries or movies? I know to avoid the W*red video at all costs.

Dude this is wild I thought you all were the same person now I’m confused 😭. I’ll occasionally get anons about John but this is like crazy how many I’m getting and lowkey maybe thought it was someone fucking with me but that makes more sense but I appreciate your asks. I’m glad you know to avoid Wired haha. But Belushi by Judy and Samurai Widow also by Judy are must haves. The documentary that came out in November Belushi is amazing. If you can find it online, there’s a mini documentary about John with interviews with everyone on his “Best Of” DVD and I love it. There’s also “It’s Always Something” by Gilda which I’ve yet to read and the documentary “Love Gilda” which I’ve had yet to watch but heard is amazing! I think there’s a book about the first five years? And Jane has a book but I don’t wanna read that because I’m not a fan and Ive heard the whole thing is her being miss holier than thou and really negative so 😕. Laraine bas a book but I think it’s only audio book? I really wanna read/listen to it because I adore her and her stories about John make me 🥺🥺🥺 because she loved him so much and I wanna know if she talks about banging Dan 👀 lmao. But thanks for your asks, hey, I know with bigger blogs that get a ton of asks they have regular anons put like a little emoji with their names so maybe you could do that so I know which anon you are haha! Cause I thought you were all the same person 😭 And if you ever wanna talk about John my dms are always open!

Also sorry if I came across as rude when I said you should read belushi last night, I was in a bad mood I’m sorry :(

Also edit: your town sounds cool as hell, I wish we had a pharmacy slash soda fountain instead of all these hipster places we have here.

Do you have a preference between writing Steve or Danny POV? Also some McDanno headcanon you haven't shared before

Thank a lot for your great ask, dear friend. I love your questions because you hit a spot there.

I’m a Steve girl. I’ve been drawn to Steve from the very first second. I didn’t have to decide, it just happened, something from my soul answers to Steve’s vibes. The access is easy, and the longing is there to understand Steve, to fill the gaps in canon with Steve’s thoughts. I want to answer the questions ‘Why did he do that? What did he feel?’ for me. First, I was intimidated by the fact that Steve’s a SEAL and by all his Military, Navy background. I’ve got past this fear because I can research and learn more about that world and besides Steve’s a person with a history. He was once a kid, a teenager and experiences so much hurt. And if I’m good at one thing then it’s emotions and the way to handle them. So, Steve’s my guy and so is his POV.

Danny wasn’t easy to approach. I guess because everyone around me seemed to understand him so well. Everyone wrote him excellently in the way he ranted and expressed his feelings. I love Danny immensely and I respect him. Everyone detects something different when doing a meta on a person. I appreciate this variety. I’ve lost my shyness to really look behind Danny’s behavior and what is going on in his heart and with his thoughts. It’s always exciting and kind of adventurous to dive into Danny meta because I discover details, I had no idea existed and it always happens while I’m in his head, following this lead. That’s something else. So, I wasn’t up to write from Danny’s POV at first, but I’ve learned to love it.

So, to answer your question: I prefer to write Steve’s POV because it comes naturally, and I slip into his mind like I slip with my hand into a well-fitting glove. This connection is just there. Since I’m writing a High School AU for the guys, I’ve learned to switch into Danny’s POV. Every few chapters I change the POV. And to my surprise, I always manage to find my way into Danny’s mind. Once I’m there and the vibes are palpable it’s easy to stay there, tuning in with Danny feels seriously good and writing from his POV is exciting.

I’ve written also two, or three metas about Danny, just about him or in connection with another person. This helped enormously to get to know him better.

I re-watch Hawaii Five-0 with all seasons and this helps even more to understand Danny’s motives, to get to know his way of thinking. It’s easier now to change to Danny’s POV although it still feels like a hurdle after I’ve been in Steve’s mind. But it’s getting easier along the way.

McDanno headcanon I haven’t shared before: You have some great questions you’re asking! Thank you for this one! I’ve broken out in a sweat at first because I seemed to draw a blank. But of course, there’s one headcanon even though I don’t think of those thoughts as a headcanon just because I’m not looking for them. It happens and it’s there. I deal with one of my headcanons also in my HS AU, that chapter is in the writing and after I’ve watched S2 episode 7 'Ka Iwi Kapu’ it’s clearer than ever.

Here you have my headcanon I haven’t shared before: Steve’s Hawaiian in heart and soul and he believes in the Hawaiian religion, respects its rules and Steve feels the spirits. Especially Kai, the sea. Kai is a lady. The sea is female, and she talks to everyone who knows how to listen. Steve’s a devoted swimmer, surfer and he grew up in Hawaii. Kai pulses in his veins. The Hawaiian culture is part of his being, of his soul. He doesn’t talk about it, but it’s there.

Danny’s view on life and religion diverges. His sight is bone dry, and he only believes what he sees and if it helps, Danny suggests pretending to make the other feel better. That’s kind of shocking for Steve. And my headcanon ends that Danny starts to respect the Hawaiian religion for the sake of Steve’s belief and for the sake to understand him better… because Danny loves Steve and he recognizes that a way to Steve’s heart means to just accept his belief.

S2E7: Danny disturbs a sacred burial ground, a heiau (ancient Hawaiian temple), that is guarded by the night marchers, the Hawaiian ghost warriors. They all wait for the priest (the Kahu to bless all of them) so they get the spirits permission to enter the sacred ground. Danny grins at all of them. He mocks their belief and the way the Hawaiians deal with spirits because he’s a cop and there’s a crime scene and what the hell are you all waiting for? Everyone respects the Hawaiian rules except Danny. Steve chimes in some words, not much and it’s obvious that Danny’s behavior gets to him, churns him up, keeps him thinking.

Then the other day Steve brings it up again and tells Danny how crazy he his to think its okay to trample all over the sacred burial ground. The cargument ends with Steve telling Danny that he’s insensitive and that he can’t treat people’s beliefs like a joke because a heiau is an incredibly important part of the Hawaiian culture.

Danny answers agitated to Steve’s questions about higher power, afterlife. Danny tells him that he thinks people make stuff up to make themselves feel better. He just believes what he sees with his own eyes.

Steve’s seriously shocked and he has one word for Danny “Wow!” and Danny answers twice “Don’t 'Wow’ me!”

So, I could go on and write a little moment about how Steve looks for Mamo to ask him how to proceed because he wants to hold a ritual at his mother’s date of death (he doesn’t know yet that she’s still alive). He visits a priest with Mamo, and they discuss the process. Steve unusual quiet at that said day and ends his shift early to head out. Danny keeps asking what’s Steve’s plans are, but Steve doesn’t want to involve Danny because he knows, Danny’s not into such kind of stuff. Steve couldn’t handle it if Danny had to bite back a laugh or if he shot him an incredulous look about what he’s going to do. So, Steve waves goodbye and he leaves early. He already rose Danny’s suspicion because Steve drove to work in his own truck.

It ends with Danny waiting for Steve, watching from afar. Danny sits at the sideline and watches over Steve. He’s silent, respectful and doesn’t talk. When Steve returns alone with a special lei around his neck and red-rimmed eyes Danny waits and opens his arms to catch Steve. Danny makes sure Steve’s okay. He tells him that they’ll have some dinner and then they will return to get Steve’s truck. Danny also tells Steve that he’s going to spend the night at Steve’s house because no one should be alone with all the sad memories weighing down on their shoulders. And maybe Steve’s up to tell Danny what is important to him from the Hawaiian culture and religion because Danny would love to respect that and to show Steve that he really means it.

Whoo hoo, and again – I hardly couldn’t stop writing. So, thank you again so much for your great questions and your wonderful ask. Have a great one, anon, and Mahalo! Hugs