ciara I trust your perspection so much so what are your thoughts on this eddie-less /less-eddie episode?I feel like they have ended the previous episode on such strong feelings that i think people are understandably upset about Eddie's absence in the dream. Thoughts?

ahhhh okay so. from a 'blorbos from my show' perspective, you better believe at least 25% of my brain capacity every time eddie wasn't on screen was thinking where is he asdkjfh like, i definitely checked how much time was left in the ep More Than Once because he hadn't been in it much lmao

but, if i take off my blorbo hat and put on my 'person with an english degree who knows how to engage in critical thinking' hat, i can try and offer you a logical explanation asjdh

so when i was first watching the ep i thought the dream world was sort of paralleling the real world?? as in the person buck interacted with in his dream was whoever was in the room with him irl at the time (like the way it cuts between chimney in his dream vs chimney sitting with him at the hospital)

that idea was sort of proven false bc chris didn't show up when he was talking to him however i do think there's still some merit in it. just because, it seems very clear from that chris/eddie scene that eddie hasn't been in the room much???? and so then that's maybe why buck doesn't really see him in his dream???? bc when eddie brings chris into the room he's Visibly upset. like, he walks chris over to the bed and then walks away as if he can't even watch. hen is mainly the one answering chris' question and eddie is standing at a distance, crying, as chris talks to buck.

so i think that's enough to sort of suggest eddie's maybe not ready to confront the reality of buck potentially dying and therefore didn't feel emotionally strong enough to be there like the others were????

now, i understand it was a very full episode. there's a lot to fit in, all of the characters have a strong connection to buck in one way or the other and they obviously spent a lot of time on the buckley parents that, under other circumstances, would've gone to members of the 118. so i'm not criticizing because i genuinely loved the episode.

however, i think it wouldn't have gone amiss for them to have given us one scene maybe between eddie and hen or something where we were explicitly told or shown in some way that eddie wasn't coping well with it. even just a shot of him sitting in the waiting room looking worn down would've done it, i feel.

i think him not being in the dream - as much as i would've loved an alternate meeting - makes sense in context and helps to emphasise that this world buck's found himself in is wrong. maddie's with doug, bobby's dead and his ghost is taunting buck, and eddie's gone. and idk i think there's something meaningful in the idea that coma!buck lost eddie before he could ever even have him because his impact on eddie right from the very beginning was so significant

also chris saying "can you help me find my dad" is making my brain whir in ways that i can't fully articulate yet askjdfhs

so TL;DR: it would've been nice to have at least one other scene to linger on eddie a bit more the way we got to see them do with bobby and maddie (and even chimney) but also i loved the scene we did get and i need to believe we'll get something more next week for the sake of my sanity lol ❤️

I THINK YOURE TOO FUCKING COOL

You seem like you just... dive into things with your whole heart. And you have no fear, like none at all! Of sharing that?! With People???

I started listening to Dungeon Crawler Carl (I'm just at the bit where he gets his heart boxers. Is he going to romance donut? It feels like he might. I don't like the sound of this ferdinand character I can't stand a love triangle) because you were going crazy over it, and I'm not a litrpg fan (btw if you havent read it you should check out Cradle and also Lattes & Legends I think you'd like them).

And your writing is so good. I mean, its so fucking good skitter. Good enough that I want to read across fandoms. Good enough that I wanna play cyberpunk and bg3 and thr fucking swtor imp agent line to completion, just so I can appreciate your fics more fully, or go into them with full context.

ALSO you seem to be pretty much terminally online (yay me too) so it's nice that most days I can open this stupid app and see thirty posts of current-blorbo and know that You're Doing Okay ❤️

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i don't even know where to start!!!! i have so much fear gdlkfjgkls everytime i post something my husband is burdened with my post-chapter anxiety.

okay but i need you to know that you reading Dungeon Crawler Carl is literally the highlight of my week. it is my fav book series i think ever and it sounds!!!! so wild on paper. carl and donut are like sibling/father/child vibes. he very much treats her as his companion. BUT WAIT TILL YOU MEET KATYA! Ferdinand is a wild time, just wait. also same i do NOT like any other litrps (but Lattes & Legends is on the TBR).

as someone who has read across fandoms for authors that i love, this is THE highest compliment of all time. i am 1000% here for consuming a media just to appreciate a fic, so i feel you.

terminally online! same hat! this is so kind, omg. i'm so glad my sporadic burst posting is doing something positive. ahhhh<3 <3

❤️ for Elwing and 🐣 for Elrond?

Ahhhh, my blorbos, thank you! <3

Elrond likes to cook! Food is his love language, he's the one packing the twins' packs with provisions when they go out, making Arwen's favourite dishes when she's sad, serving Celebrían brunch in bed. The only thing he's been banned from making is lembas, not because it's the job of Elven queens or whatever (we can have a little gnc Elrond, as a treat), but because his are always on the more sailor's hardtack end of consistency and everyone else in the family is a bound and determined landlubber.

Elwing's below the cut for nsft text:

The question is not "have she and Eärendil fucked on Vingilot" because of course they have, all the time, there's a not-zero chance that their boys are definitely Vingilot-babies. The real question is, who is the big spoon and the little spoon afterwards, and the answer is that generally, Elwing is the big spoon and Eärendil is the little spoon. However, if they've invited anyone over (or up), they're both the little spoon and their friend for the evening is the big spoon.

Hello Id like to thank you for two times your posts made me feel strangely affirmed. First one is Seeing your tags on coffeebanana’s self praise poll today because thts just the kind of writer I’d like to become. Second is the way you personality-typed adrien some months ago because I am infp 7w6 and he is my All Time Number One Blorbo Just Like Me Fr Lol Pain Lol.

Lastly on this special occasion I hope you take in the full extent of how worth it all the time and heart and thought and work you put in to that big heavy novel was to so many people .and I’m sure your original fiction will slap and resonate(bass guitar)

AAHHHH THANK YOU I FEEL SO VALIDATED THAT YOU AGREE WITH MY MIRACULOUS ENNEAGRAM POST THAT NO ONE ASKED FOR!!! i'm going to nickname you pathfinder, since the 7w6 is called "pathfinder" or "entertainer." between you and me, i think both nicknames suit adrien really well too ❤️❤️❤️

knowing my fic meant something to somebody out there is already enough to grow my heart three sizes. but omg, it having an impact on somebody? knowing that people will gladly read what i write now because it was me who wrote it? that's just. ahhhh. it's so much for my poor little 9 self to take. thank you so much for letting me know my words mattered, and not only that, but that you enjoyed them too! feeling that electric guitar riff in my soul right now 🎸

ahhhh hiiii thank you so much for your super sweet response to my last ask!! 🥹🥹

I'm so glad that it being really long and rambling didn't bother you bc I always get really self-conscious about if I'm annoying people 😅

and also no need to apologize for not responding right away! none of my asks are urgent and you really only ever need to respond to them if and/or when you have the time and energy ☺️☺️

okay but omg him praying for a dragon has me in TEARS 😭😭 the poor baby!!!!!!!! I can actually almost see it happening like in Lilo and Stitch when Lilo is praying for a friend and she's like "send me an angel - the nicest angel you have" and then it just cuts to Stitch climbing out of the fiery wreckage of his ship and he's just like maniacally laughing

like I can just see baby aemond being like "send me a dragon - the nicest dragon you have" and then it cuts to vhagar, this absolutely enormous, terrifying, old battle-scarred dragon just like looming menacingly over the castle 😂

okay and also completely random and totally unrelated, but I know we were yelling about fall out boy together when the new album came out, and I was wondering if you were familiar with the australian pop/punk/rock band Tonight Alive? I only ask because on their second album the other side, they have this song called "complexes" and it is soooooooo aemond-coded to me. like, esp in relation to his father and re: what you said about his father barely even caring that aemond got hurt and just that whole super painful scene. idk it just seems to very much kind of describe his feelings towards his father after everything that happened. but also I'm incapable of being normal about media and I always end up listening to music and instantly thinking of my blorbos, so this may honestly just be something that makes sense in my brain 😅

ummm okay that's all the random thoughts I have today!!

sending you so many good wishes always!! ❤️

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Not at all, dear! Like I said I love long messages and it is never annoying for me!

Omg NOT LILO & STITCH THAT'S TOO SWEET!!! and super fitting lmao! yet another fire ass take!😅 ok but adding to our previous ask, it's very interesting to note how, Aemond must have prayed for his dragon, yet it wasn't necessarily given to him directly, rather he claimed it. Vaghar was just there within his reach because her previous rider had passed; the object of Aemond's desire, so to speak, presented itself but it was up to him to prove he was worthy of taking what he wanted before anyone else could take it from him (which is what leads to the confrontation that results in him losing his eye). In answer to his prayers, the gods must have put it in his path, but it was up to him to either grab it or not. He took and thus had to pay the price, which if we go back to his faith - the bigger our desires, the bigger the price to pay for them.

ALSO TONIGHT ALIVE!? OF COURSE!! omg you're taking me back to my warped tour days!! yes I do remember them but I haven't listened to them since my warped tour days lmao! I'm gonna have to listen to that song because I'm always on the look-out for Aemond songs for my playlist, so thank you so much for bringing it up! And honestly, me too. Once I have a blorbo in my mind, I swear I'm like hyperfocused on finding songs or quotes that fit them. I almost always make a playlist for my fictional silly guys and it ends up being all I listen to for entire seasons 😅 so I'm right there with you!

Sending you many good wishes right back, and a lovely start to your week, my dear! thank you so much for all the random thoughts. They're always a treat to read no matter how random, in fact, I welcome the randomness! ❤️

Hello friend!

I know we don't move in the same fandom circles anymore since we fell out of love with Marvel, but I still get unreasonably happy when I see you on my dash. Just wanted to send you some love, you're a real one ❤️❤️❤️

(And, you're still one of my fave authors to this day. Your fanfics SLAP)

AHHHH hello hello hello! It's wonderful to hear from you! Yeah, Marvel Fatigue™ hits us all at some point, I reckon. It's good (I would even say necessary) to not spend too much time invested in any one fandom. Who knows, I may even return to it someday. It's happened before!

But anyway. Thank you for sending me this note—and the love that came with it 💗 I hope you're doing well and staying creative (and enjoying the blorbos from your shows)! 😄