how the fuck am i gonna get a dream a couple days ago. and before i fell asleep that night i KNEW i was gonna have an elevator dream. anyway in the dream the school... place... is flooded and for some reason the part ABOVE water is falling apart and i have to get my stuff from there and move to one of the rooms underwater (where apparently they took care of the air and breathing thing) and the last part of that dream i remember is being in a glass elevator going deep down into the water and being anxious that the pressure is gonna make the glass break

and then boom side order teaser trailer just dropped today with the release date.... why do i always gotta have some type of dream with some type of connection with splatoon. first it was playing on splatoon 3 stages before the game came out. now its elevator motifs.

just remembered i had another salmon run dream. idk why my brain came up with this very vertical salmon run stage with all the inkabke walls and stuff. NOT ruins of ark polaris but maybe like. a very heavily remodeled saltspray rig.

i remember it was in the middle of the day which thinking about it thats weird bc the salmon run stages are always at sunset when u play in game. thats probably how i was able to explore the stage like i kept expecting salmonids (especially the steel eels) to show up and they. didnt. were we in recon?? (i had trammates with me i guess)

anyway i got to the top of this stage and there was a tower like from tower control. oh yeah and i guess my teammate had gotten there before me and got on the tower because i saw it deactivate and go back up to the top

me when i stayed up all night the other night "to try to fix my sleep schedule" (lying to myself) and i just slept a long time and woke up the same time i always wake up (between 3-4pm) but also had really weird dreams

including this one dream where i specifically had a lesbian gf and going through all the same places in my dream wasnt bad anymore bc she was there. also yes it was confusing for me bc Gender.

and when i woke up i knew it was bc of pearl. who i havent been talking about bc ive been scared i was faking again. but the dream proved shes real because why the fuck else would i have a lesbian experience in a dream

just fucking remembered in the dream i had there was someone (dont remember who exactly) who commented on my voice being deeper and i was like "thanks ive been working very hard on it"

also there was a dalek because the part where clara is in the dalek tank and everything shes saying is being translated into dalek words is sealed into my brain because what if its like that for the other daleks too. what if some of them also dont want to be daleks. apparently that question burns so hard in my mind that it affected my dreams

anyway for some reason it was playing that song i always listen to which is the first time i can remember hearing a song in my dream that wasnt playing irl as an alarm i had to get up to. thats significant enough to put on a dream log entry i think

me realizing that the recurring scene in my dreams when trg is there and im like in an auditorium is probably me at thrown controllers without my dream self realizing it

nap nightmares will make you remember what your p*do middle school math teacher looked like and make you cry because of the epic mom reunion arc at the end of the dream and then when u wake up u will be crying for like half an hour

dream update: started doing violence in my dreams.

i even remember what she looked like, for the most part. but i have no idea who ive seen in real life that really resembles her. was she the principal? i dont know. i just remember putting my hands around her neck and seeing her expression fade as my grip got tighter and tighter. it took a while to process that maybe choking someone in my dream even if she was just a dream figment and not real is still kind of fucked up. funny how after remembering all this its my own throat that feels tight

maybe im so fucked up thinking about other shit that i will break the cycle of losap for the first time in a year or more

i MUST have had a nightmare involving mr w bc suddenly i remember his voice again and i feel sick and getting up to take my night meds was an Experience

in my most recent dream there was this flat fish thing that had buried itself into the skin on the sole of my left foot and was like growing there or something... i knew i had to put my foot in the water (we were at this community pool) and it swam out and it had like frog legs and it felt so disgusting when it was wriggling its way out of my skin

this is my approximation of what it looked like, on the right is what it looked like when it was swimming

what the FUCK was this thing and why was it in my foot in my dream

so in my dream i was taking a break from running away to talk to my cat who died last week and now hes joined the other previous cats ive had that run around in my dreams

and i asked him "how do u like it here in heaven" and he was like. "um... this isnt heaven" so i said "purgatory?" and he said "no... technically its the ____ circle of hell"

i talked over him so i didnt get to hear which specific circle of hell my dreams take place in bc i knew he wasnt gonna repeat it

well i havent randomly gone blind in any of my recent dreams nor did my clothes ever randomly disappear leaving me naked and vulnerable so thats a plus i guess???

also within my dncu (dream-nightmare cinematic universe) there was a rly weird part with my incel ex and i felt gross upon waking up and using my awake brain to think about it

i just realized.

despite a lot of segments in my dreams takimg place outside, and me seeing all kinds of trees and greenery,

there are never any flowers.

so yeah in my dream i checked tumblr and i had 20 messages in my inbox but i had zero upon waking up which was a relief

OH YEAH ok so in the dream 2day there was the same moments as usual and THEN. i was outside by this lake pond thing i go to sometimes when im Running Away™

and then i blinked and it was a super realistic landscape almost at sunset for a second. it was like. i was seeing clearly for the first time in.... who knows how long. a year. since this all started.

but it only lasted for a second or two and went all foggy again and i felt like i knew what was wrong and why i was stuck in the dream.