please look at this happy lil banette I drew for the wallpapers i'm making for patreon 🥺❤️

my bag may not be as ✨aesthetic✨ as some people's but IDC IM HAVING SO MUCH FUN!!!!!!! all my little things on display yayyyyy

wouldnt be complete without my "nether star" on the side :3c

Hmmmmmm I think some is wrong with my copy of OMORI

I was wondering if there are any rare happy ritsu moments in ur zombie au since hes always miserable I think,, like is he always miserable or is he happy/not miserable and feeling kinda good sometimes?

VWHDGDGD NO YEAH OFC HE'S HAPPY SOMETIMES im just horrible and enjoy putting him through misery

ive never been able to get a genuine smile to look right on his face in my art style either i think thats part of it. as ive said his face is just built to be mildly uncomfortable and bothered and i lean into it sm it's starting to get kinda funny

but yes ritsu is happy plenty! i think, canonically, he just seems like the type of person to me that tends to turn lemonade back into lemons. he's easy to scare and his first reaction to things is often Dread and Anxiety. he dwells on the negatives a lot and seems to be a "hope for the best, expect the worst," kinda guy, but there's a section in this post abt shigeo always loving the little things in life, and ritsu steadily learns throughout the journey on how to do that and how healing it can rly be. even if he had to grow up too fast during this whole thing and learn things a kid should never have to, the journey also gave him some good insight and lessons in other places! ritsu is smart, he figures it all out

in terms of little things here n there he's the happiest lil guy on the planet when he finds one of his favorite foods—swings his legs while he sits and munches on a kitkat bar like he's got absolutely nothin in the world to worry abt. sometimes mob does smth funny that he laughs at; for the longest time i've had this silly image in my head of mob accidentally knocking down a bucket from a store shelf and it lands on his head and he just kinda stands there and makes noises.when the noises continue out of pure curiosity about the weird echoey quality it's giving them ritsu cannot help but lose it

besides tiny things tho, when tome comes around ritsu in general is a lot happier, just cuz he has somebody to talk to that will actually respond in some way. they're sorta reluctant partners in crime at first (at least on ritsu's end) but over time and over bonding they grow to rly like each other's presence. they bicker constantly but it's almost always fond eventually, and they shove each other and playfight until mob gets antsy enough to get worked up about it. rly, tome is a godsend to ritsu's mental health—after months and months of being effectively alone with his thoughts, he finally has another person to converse with. a person His Age, too!

tome is rly good at knowing when ritsu is thinkin himself into oblivion and she's Also rly good at being the most annoying girl on the planet to yank him outta that and replace any misery with Oh My God Get Off Me You Freak. she doesn't even do this on purpose at first, but over time she learns how to tell when he's thinking too hard and, ofc, she's grown attached and she cares, so she's as obnoxious as possible to lighten the mood

when they find reigen n teru, ritsu gradually gets Much happier still. now that he knows they're safe and the gang is finally back together (and now that there's an Adult present and he can relax a lil and let himself be taken care of) his stress levels r exponentially lowered. having teru back is another instant lift to his mood—im always a big fan of teru and ritsu friendship, and i think adding tome to their dynamic simply makes it more chaotic. truly a trio of the 3 most normal teenagers in existence which will surely bring nothing but good (reigen sweats offscreen)

actually this makes me feel bad for forever torturing him im gonna go draw happy zau ritsus brb ,.,.ok imback <3

we need a lovely and sam audio where lovely breaks down over how sam got to keep a good part of his abilities when he was turned but lovely got nothing 💔💔

Sanji knows Usopp loves him. He makes it so obvious. He showed him with kisses and 'I love you's when he's bored, he comforts him when he's scared, tells him funny stories when he's embarrassed, listens when he begins to open up about his trauma, he loves him. Sanji knows Usopp loves him, but he hates himself too much to believe it.

Ah, yes, the classic "you have to love yourself before loving someone else" thing that I don't agree with. But you know the funny thing about this trope with Sanuso? That I think it goes both ways. Differently, but it goes both ways.

I think they both have a hard time trying to process that they're loved and why. They have so many insecurities, and that's why they make such a perfect couple. Because they understand and support each other.

I think Sanji hates himself and thinks he's unworthy of love. He genuinely thinks Usopp would be better with somebody else and that being with him will only end up hurting him at some point. It's like-- He feels like there's something wrong with him. Broken. He thinks he will never be able to have the right to be loved because he doesn't feel human enough to receive it even when he's constantly giving all of his love to others. Usopp makes him see that if he can't love himself, Usopp will just do it for both of them until Sanji believes it. There's this guilt inside of him whenever Usopp does something romantic for him, but it fades away over time because Usopp always makes him see the best parts of himself. He just needs to learn to let himself be loved and helped.

On the other hand, Usopp genuinely can't believe Sanji loves him. It's just irrational. Stupid. How could somebody like Sanji love somebody like him? It's sort of the same sentiment, except that it's not like Usopp feels he's unworthy of love. He just thinks he's not what Sanji needs/has been looking for. Which makes sense due to his massive insecurities and also having a boyfriend who keeps swooning over girls and is the most romantic guy in the world (not to mention the internalized homophobia he definitely had to fight to get into this relationship). So Usopp is just constantly worried he might not be enough for Sanji, even if Sanji couldn't be more obvious about his love for him. Being together with Sanji helps Usopp realize that he's more than what he thinks he is and that Sanji would never be happy with somebody that isn't him. But this is more of a personal journey, accepting himself and becoming the hero he wants to be. A journey he has to do on his own, but that doesn't mean Sanji can't be there to help him a little too.

Do you know where I'm going with this? I think both of them are insecure but it's two different types of insecurities. "I'm not worthy of love/I only hurt the people around me" and "I don't understand what you see in me". But Usopp helps Sanji by staying by his side even when things are rough, and Sanji helps Usopp by reminding him how valuable he is.

There's also this layer of understanding between them because they're kind of... Very left out when it comes to the Strawhats? Like, not really left out because they're all a family. But I've talked before about how they feel they don't belong there, but being together alone next to each other helps. "We're fucked up but at least we're fucked up together" type of thing.

What might happen to Theon in The Winds of Winter

it is So Weird how working on my comic makes me feel like i have more free time. and gives me more free time. logically, working on 3 comic pages a week would mean i have Less Time. but no. despite everything, i'm getting more done and able to use my time better now that i'm working on comic pages again. what the hell is up with that.

ok since tears of the kingdom is coming out like. insanely soon i figured i’ll just dump how i’ve been feeling abt it here. i wont tag for them and i dont intend to share any but because i have been actively seeking out spoilers i will vaguely reference them here so… idk really long musings on this game and my feelings abt it

(im just writing this out mostly for myself since i really kind of just. want to really figure out how i feel about this)

i… am not excited for totk?

i’ve figured out a bit ago that my severely waning interest in botw and general anxiety and discontent surrounding totk is just that… these games arent for me. i dont enjoy open world games with half a million things for you to do like it’s basically a sandbox. i struggle to really enjoy singleplayer minecraft. the space stage in spore gives me genuine anxiety, both when i played it as a kid and again when i reached it as an adult.

botw and totk are not games for me, and that’s cool. i’ve figured that out.

so why am i getting so damn anxious about this new game?

i am getting totk- not entirely of my own volition, i live with someone who is very genuinely excited for it, so it’s pre-ordered digitally on our switch. i am going to play it and complete it at least once.

the gameplay and world of botw never really got to me, and even what snippets of gameplay i see for totk dont really entice me. it just makes me anxious to think about the sheer amount of new stuff i’ll be dropped in the middle of and how i really dont care about this version of link or zelda or anyone else in botw’s hyrule

and some of the story spoiler stuff and general direction this game is going in has me just worried that the zelda series is moving away from what it used to be into an entirely new direction, that being a direction that it seems like i wont enjoy as much as everyone else seems to

so then i guess my main worry outside of totk is that i just end up struggling to really feel connected to the rest of the community about this? being a contrarian is fun until everyone is enjoying something you for some reason can’t get yourself to

i dont have a lot of hope in the story of totk to harken back to… ANYTHING of worth that past games have built up and made to be so important and interesting. hype is a dangerous thing for a not-yet-released game, and while i think the insane amount of speculation and theories and hype around totk will cause a lot of people to be disappointed with the final story, i dunno if i really wouldve liked it even if the story actually piqued my interest

maybe totk’s gameplay will really hook me. maybe i’ll enjoy the massive open world and gmod-ass gimmicks. but what ive seen of the story makes me less interested and the snippets of gameplay i see just make me remember how bored i now am with botw

at the end of the day this is just a video game with tags on this site i can blacklist and videos i can ignore and lore i can brush aside because at this point loz canon is a suggestion more than anything

i just cant shake the discomfort of once again being an outlier as everyone i see loses their mind about this new game while i just feel overwhelmed by it. i have played botw for a long time and have long since worn it out. i played age of calamity to completion and have not touched it or cared for it beyond the music since. i am not excited about totk and i feel like i am in the wrong due to my opinion

You see, the real April Fool's joke was Vash's placement on my F/O list.

This right here? A farce.

Now this? This is the truth.

excuse me, mx. donut, have you been informed that you're great yet today? either way i hope your day's a good one ^^

Visual representation of me reading this ask:

ALSO AHGSF!!! TY!!!! YOU'RE TOO SWEET >~<!!!!,,, I spent like a whole 3 hours straight doing math homework and it was not very pleasant actually. I did read the ask during that time tho and it helped me get through it so,,, ;w;. You're the bestest

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Never thought I'd say this but Elden Ring is fast becoming one of my favorite games ever

im normal sometimes i feel like clinging to yoomtahs arm crying and screaming and begging for her to love me and never leave me but i rlly am normal

Hm.

i wstched the eras tour movie yesterday