#a beautiful vista is just a fact to check off. it doesnt like. speak to his soul man | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

isaacathom · 1 year

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i have so many vague and half-formed thoughts about my ocs in terms of small visual snippets and pieces of personality and i have basically no way to express any of it other than just like. rambling. at nothing and nowhere in particular. and sitting in my chair the way you do when youre in the car imagining an amv in your head to the song youre listening to. i dont even need the songs anyway sometimes the brain just goes brr. i went shopping earlier for light bulbs and spent the whole time thinking about a ttrpg oc who doesnt even have a campaign or anything hes just here to vibe in the mind palace

#anyway these thoughts brought to you by musing that florian is a very weird guy #in the sense that he loves small romantic gestures. and yet doesnt seem the romance in like. nature. in the stars #a party member made a dogshit flower crown for his crush and florian thought it was extremely sweet #but if he looks at the sky he feels like static. he doesnt get the vibe #a beautiful vista is just a fact to check off. it doesnt like. speak to his soul man #hes like. he finds beauty and romance in actions. in intent. but what intent is there is a forest or a river #an intent of a god or spirit? something so beyond and outside of him that he cant really comprehend it?#but the ramshackle hut built by a young lumberjack for his family? he gets that. that he understands #he understands the romance of what you do with your hands and your heart #theres no really coherent way to word any of that hence its in the fragmentary format of tags #its the kind of thing he could learn i think. i think florian could learn to find romance in the physical world #in the way trees bend in the breeze and the water wears down stones over years #but itd very much be something someone has to TEACH him. hed have to have a partner who found that sort of love #because i think he would try to learn. hes the kind of guy who would try to learn your interests i think #and would listen to you ramble about them and absorb like 25% of it #but its okay. because it just means you can talk more about it later :) and that makes you happy right?#anyway cool im now imagining florian in love and thats cool i cant do anything with this #also okay ive decided i think he could find the beauty in a tended garden as a gesture #but he would very much be like 'well. the flowers are nice i guess. but i love the care youve put into them #and the way youve clearly thought a lot about how to keep out the weeds. i think? augh'#does that make sense? its not the item as much as the idea of its creation #he is sentimental man. he still has a mask he got from zeke when he was like 18 dude. hes 34 #(when florian was 18. zeke was like. 10. im actually unclear on the age gap between my boys)

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