#YEAHHHHHHHHHH IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT
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I like how we all are celebrating Halloween and it's spooky season too but then there's Philippines slowly but surely decorating everything that is Christmas theme and I love it
It's NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS BABY-
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🤍𝐀𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞 ~ 𝐩𝐭 𝐭𝐰𝐨🤍
𝕔𝕙𝕣𝕚𝕤𝕥𝕠𝕡𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕤𝕥𝕦𝕣𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕝𝕠 𝕩 𝕗𝕖𝕞
word count: 1.3k
genre/tropes: second chance, romance, lovers to strangers to...?
warnings: smut, gaslighting, dumbification, slight degredation if you squint, nothing super hardcore.
pt one
“How are you?”
“I’m…Are you okay?”
“You first.”
I snorted. “Not how this works.”
“Well I asked first,” Chris huffed.
“I’m fine. Why did you…what’s up?”
“I can’t call just to talk?”
I paused. “You said you didn’t know who else to call. Is something wrong?”
Silence grew in the space between us. My fan hummed above me, eliciting chills across my arms. “Chris?” I whispered.
“I love the way you say my name,” he murmured quietly. “I missed you. A lot.”
My stomach began to curl into knots. “I missed you too.”
“I know it’s late. I’m sorry.”
“Don’t be.”
“Are you okay?”
“...I’m not sure.”
“What’s wrong?”
I slid down to rest against my pillow, wet hair pressing into my cheek. “I have a lot of feelings about…you. And me.”
“Like what?” His words seemed to pull my mind open, hooking gently into the crevices of my brain and tugging it wide, gaping, vulnerability in its’ truest form, and I let him. How could I not?
“You were the first person I ever loved. And the first person I ever kissed…there were a lot of firsts with you. You make my stomach feel weird. I still can’t look at you when we pass in the halls.”
“How do I make your stomach feel weird?”
I let out a short giggle.
“I heard that,” he said, and I could feel Chris’s smile through the phone.
“You called and it tied up into knots.”
“Aww,” he mumbled. “That’s adorable.”
I smiled in spite of myself. “Don’t say that.”
“Why not?”
“Because,” I said, almost a whine.
“Tell me.”
“No.”
“Please?”
“Nope.”
“You’re gonna tell me eventually.”
I rolled over, shuffling my feet underneath the cool sheets to relieve the tension in my body. “Am not.”
Chris chuckled. “Okay, ma.”
My cheeks began to throb from the width of my smile. “Shut up.”
“Make me.”
I scrunched my nose. “You’re so sassy.”
“Sassy, really?”
“I said what I said. What’re you gonna do about it?”
He paused. “I can think of a couple things.”
“Oh yeah?” I said with a snort. “Like what?”
“Drive over here and find out.”
The breath shot out of my lungs and my toes curled at the edge of the bed. A moment, a lifetime of quiet, and then–“Yeah?”
“Come on, mamas,” Chris said. His voice filled my ear with warmth. “Come see me.”
“Okay.”
“Okay?”
“Yes. Be there in ten.”
“Good.”
“See you soon, Chris.”
“See you soon, pretty girl.”
My stomach dropped out of my ass and into the floor. “Bye.”
“Bye,” he hummed, and the line disconnected.
Holy fucking shit. What was that? What just happened? I’m…oh my god.
I slipped out of bed and shut off the TV. Keys, where are my keys, fuck, okay, wallet, wallet, dresser?yes on the dresser, shoes, door, shoes, on, on, on, hurry up, lights off TV off brain off, come onlet’s go, out the door QUIETLY BE SO FUCKING QUIET…okay down the hall, soft steps, can’t let Dad know I’m leaving, would freak out, don’t get caught do not get caught, come on come on come on, out the back door, to the car, quiet, car, quiet, car, quiet car quiet car okayokayokayGOGOGO OUT THE DRIVEWAY YEAHHHHHHHHHH.
I drifted slowly, so slowly, onto the dark street, shifted the car out of neutral, turned the engine, and as it roared to life, took off about as fast as I could. I didn’t bother to plug my phone in–I knew the way by heart.
“Thanks for the ride,” Chris said, making no move to leave the car.
“You’re welcome.” I blushed at his unwavering eye contact.
“What?” he asked. Chris’s head tilted and the corners of his mouth twitched up.
“Nothin’.”
He smiled and my own grin became so much harder to hide. “Nah, there’s somethin’. Why are you blushing?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” I said, lying through my teeth.
Traffic lights glowed above me as I drove, lighting up the interior of my car in phases. The tick of my blinker fell quiet in the silence I sat in. I couldn’t handle music right now.
“I love you,” Chris whispered into my hair.
I giggled–the sensation tickled against my sensitive neck. “I love you more.”
“Absolutely not.”
“Yes I do,” I said, taking his hand into mine and caressing his knuckles.
“No way.”
“You said you had a song for me?”
He perked up and rolled over, tugging his phone out from under the backpack he rested on. “Yeah…this one.” Chris settled his wired headphones into my ears gently, letting his fingers stroke my cheeks as he released me. A hollow hum filled my brain, followed by a steady thumping noise, and then–a voice. Male. Pain. Love. Rhyme. Metaphor. A lot of this applied to Chris. I looked at him, and he nodded, still holding my hand.
“I love you,” I said, looking him in his stupid blue eyes.
“I know,” he replied.
When I turned onto his street, my stomach began to tingle and sink into the seat below me, butterflies thundering in the cage of my ribs. His house was the last one on the left. Somehow, it looked exactly the same and everything had changed.
“I hate you,” I giggled, trying to roll away from him.
“Nuh uh, get back here.” Chris snaked his arm around my waist and pulled me across the bed towards him, his muscles flexed against any attempt at escape.
“No!” I cried. I loved every second of this. His fingers found their way to my ribcage and I was assaulted with cruel, evil, very bad tickling. “Shit, Chris, please, no, I–eep! Quiiiiit, quit, I’m gonna pee, stop–”
Laughing, Chris agreed to a ceasefire and moved his hands up to my stomach, petting me gently. “Please don’t piss the bed. That would suck.”
“You can actually shut the hell up,” I murmured sweetly, kissing his hand to punctuate my words.
“Okay, thats fucking it,” he huffed, and the ceasefire ended as quickly as it began in spite of my yowling protests.
I switched the engine off and rolled along the curb until I felt well enough inconspicuous to stop. Pulling the parking brake, I turned the car all the way off and took a moment to get myself ready–a spritz of perfume, a touch-up of lip balm, a tousle to the hair–and I was as ready as I’d ever be. Now listen, I said to myself, looking hard in the mirror of my sun visor, You’re going to talk to him. Nothing else. Not even if he looks cute, not even if he begs. Just talk. With that out of the way, I took a deep inhale, stuffed my keys in my pocket, and stepped out of the car.
Chilled air covered my body as I closed the door and made my way up the drive. My phone buzzed, and I flipped it up in my hand, the screen coming to life as I did so.
Message from: Christopher Sturniolo
door open for you
like always
My chest twinged. “Sounds good,” I typed back, stepping carefully onto their porch. The Sturniolo’s had a motion sensor light and it flicked on as I crossed the simple concrete landing, making me jump. A few more deep breaths and I was inside, their front door snicking shut behind me. Chris’ room was downstairs and I crept through the pitch dark house by memory alone, trying desperately to ignore the increasing sensations of anxiety, fear, and excitement thundering through my body.
There it was. His door looked the same as it always had: one Lyrical Lemonade poster askew and faded near the top, the same four scratch marks near the base. I knocked softly. “Chris?”
“Come in, ma,” his voice rumbled, so much deeper than the last time I’d heard it in person.
Butterflies roared through me, my head was rushing, blood pounding, I grasped the handle, turned the knob, pushed the door open–
Chris sat on the bed, a loose pair of basketball shorts the only covering on his body. The moment his eyes, those stupid blue eyes, met mine, he slid off the mattress and walked toward me, taking my hands in his, towering over me with a look of heartbreaking gentleness. “Hey, kid.”
My heart lurched. “Hey Chris.”
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Part 3/3
>Back at the Broodals' house<
Topper: "I- Uh- What is this...??"
Rango: "I want to hear how it went! Spewey and Hariet got tired of waiting and went to sleep... But I didn't!! I made your favorite type of cookies and attempted to make coffee and I pulled out that little kiddie table from the back of the storage room to make this like a little mini tea party and put on some jazz and everything!!! So! Sit!"
Topper: "... Uhhhhh......"
Rango: :3
Topper: "... WHY are you doing this?"
Topper: "... I gotta get to bed, man... It's really late."
Rango: "What?? No, come on!! Please!! Stay with me!! I went through a lot of work to set this all up!!"
Topper: "I'm sorry!!! I'd love to, really... But I'm tired. There's not much to talk about anyways..."
Rango: *Looks devastated* "... Well, can you at least help me get all this stuff back to the storage room, then?"
Topper: "... Sure..."
Topper: "-And then I got home and here we are..." *Breathing heavily*
Rango: "Jeez... Well, are you okay??"
Topper: "Yeah, but... Now I worry for Plessie!! How can she live like that every day?? Her sister is nice, but... Her parents... They're fucking awful!!! I feel so bad!!"
Rango: "Hm... Y'know, Plessie is probably used to it... You may think her life is crazy, but that's just normal for her. And you likely just happened to witness her family's bad side... I'm sure they're not ALWAYS like that!!"
Topper: "I want to do something to get her out of that situation!"
Rango: "I don't think you can. But... Look on the bright side! She's almost eighteen! Just two more years! She'll be able to move out and be free from those monsters before ya know it!!"
Topper: "... I just wish there was something I could do NOW..."
Rango: "Maybe... You could invite her over here more often!"
Rango: *Nods* "And perhaps one day, ALL of us could invite over our partners for a huge dinner event! That'd be so much fun!! You bring Plessie, I bring Koops, Hariet brings Roy, and-... Oh, well, I guess Spewey doesn't have anyone to bring... That's gonna be pretty awkward for him... Um......"
Topper: "... Yeahhhhhhhhhh..."
Rango: "I mean, if Dee were still around, then he could come... Mmm... Maybe I could bring Koops' mom, too? She could tell us more about Dieter's disappearance!! Or, do you think that would be too weird? Eh, I know I wouldn't want someone I never met to talk about my deceased partner at a gathering event in which that partner was meant to join... Hm... Maybe I could-"
Topper: "Rango."
Rango: "Yes?"
Topper: "Do you want to know a secret...?"
Rango: "Oh, sure!!! What is it??"
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Thinking about the logistics of Hali and Aymeric kabe-don. Both directions are equally difficult
For those who don’t know what kabe-don is, it’s when one person hits the wall with another person in front of the wall, like they are pinning the person to the wall. Basically this:
But yeahhhhhhhhhh, they really can’t do this to each other very well, because uhh well, just look at their height difference.
No, there are other methods that they employ in order to pin their partner down, which I’ll just leave that to y’all’s imaginations. 😉
Thank you so much for the ask @saccharine-azure!! 💖
#asks and replies#yeah life is tough when you’re in a great height difference relationship#but don’t worry they get creative
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hellooooo tagged by @delladucker !!!<3 yes it took me two weeks to remember and finish this don't worry about it
how many fics do you have on ao3?
- currently 10
what's your total ao3 word count?
- 52,149..... when did that happen
what fandoms do you write for?
- currently usually ducktales of course but I still mess around in my howl's castle series drafts every once in awhile. everything else is from when I was afflicted with being 14 and doesn't count
what are your top five fics by kudos?
- "giving off sparks" which I did not put much effort into but I guess the people needed more Castle in the Air content
- the singular thing that survived the post-tma purge, that michael mcfuckhands thing, which is allowed to remain simply bc it was a little funny
- "wednesday morning 3am" - yeahhhHHhHhHh
- "after changes upon changes" - I will never forget the day I found out there was a secret sixth verse to the boxer and I think I may have ascended. anyway yeah this one was cute
- "prodigal" yea
do you respond to comments? why or why not?
- I try to but I'm shy and my brain is made out of spaghetti and pop rocks so if you left one and I didn't respond. <3.
what's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
- in general? probably one wtnv fic from the Bad Times (freshman year). attached to my ao3 probably "a home she could not keep" I have thoughts about Goldie o Gilt
what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
- OUVGHGR idk I think that kind of depends on your definition of happy ending..... wednesday morning is cute changes upon changes is cute prodigal I definitely was writing the end like "this is so silly and sappy. POST!" but like idk I'm largely tired with pointless angst personally. like I'm okay with things sucking really bad for our heroes in the middle but ending a story on an upward trajectory is important to me when I'm writing
do you get hate on your fics?
- sometimes people say weird stuff about della in my comments and it makes me mad because she is just some guy
do you write smut?
- no I'd rather lock my barbies in the house and then shake it and yell EARTHQUAKE than make them kiss or heaven forbid.... anyway I have more important things to be doing personally
do you write crossovers? what's the craziest one you've ever written?
- no I do like the occasional silly au though like the howl pendragon/ben suliman/sophie hatter Vicious au which appealed to exactly two people and never saw the light of day
have you ever had a fic stolen?
- no can you imagine if someone broke into ur house and then stole only a spiral notebook full of crayon drawings and disney stickers. it would be like that to me and it would be so funny
have you ever had a fic translated?
no that would be sick
have you ever cowritten a fic before?
no but there was a time when ex wife and I were co brainstorming so hard it may well have been cowriting if you squinted
what's your all time favorite ship?
- howl and sophie jenkins-pendragon-hatter........... they were holding hands and smiling and smiling quite unable to stop....... I gotta take a walk
what's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?
- hallmark chronic illness sophie hatter christmas..... also I just found a document that's five sentences of Benjamin Chang actually stuck in a time loop in s6e1. cool
what are your writing strengths?
- I completely blanked because I think I suck at everything so I phoned a friend and asked my ex wife and he said "your writing strengths are themes and motifs and also sick ass metaphors" Thank you ex wife
what are your writing weaknesses?
- actually writing
thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?
- ummmm like I've written some stuff in French before because I'm proficient in it but I always heavily double check everything I've written so idk. I keep it to a couple lines at maximum because I'm not super comfortable with it
first fandom you wrote for?
- there isn't a way to answer this that isn't incredibly embarrassing so I guess that time I wrote a self insert character who was kind of weird and not like anybody else and got sorted into ravenclaw (I was eleven)
favorite fic you've ever written?
- oh how to choose! if I've posted it in the last two years I like it. I reread prodigal the most and people seemed to like it a lot but whenever I reread Wednesday Morning 3AM I'm like wait this rocks. wed3am is like my eldest daughter carved immaculately from marble that I forget exists and prodigal is the son I worship despite his formatting errors (they are part of the charm I'm not fixing them. I'm too stubborn)
tagging..... @justaboot @aaandbackstabbed
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React: "Return to Me" (from the POV of Someone Averse to RomComs, Part II): I Become a Bonnie Hunt Fangirl
Continued from Part I (see here)
Minnie is saved!
Um... Bob's not doing too well. He wants to walk the dog. Charlie has already walked Dog (my muse from Part I.)
"Okay. Thanks."
Charlie's following him around but he respects Bob's unspoken need for distance.
Charlie's really taking it hard, but I know Bob's going to have an epic meltdown once the ice thaws (to loosely quote Grace Kelly's boyfriend-character Mark in Dial M for Murder: "Later, you're going to have a beautiful cry.")
Ohhhhhhhhh, got it. The dog (Mel? ...still better than Bob) waits by the door for Jane Bennett every time.
They kicked up the 90s slow memory sequence.
And Bob's crying.
Okay, he's really crying.
Okay, I dig this.
Bob, you've endeared me to Bob. I shall lay "the bit" to rest in peace. ...With Elizabeth.
Look, I know that was a low blow, Bob, but it had to be done.
Old grandfather prays to his favorite battle saint for Minnie's heart.
Bonnie? the mom friend is an actual mom wrangling her entire family, including the older generations.
Old grandpa Marty is devoted to his candle and prayers.
More 90s slow mo--
I was going to say this reminds me of the 90s slow dance slow mo sequences I typically think are in romcoms and now it's back to Bob while he continues to sob on the floor as Mel (who is no longer my stand-in, I suppose, you can't come back from a name like Mel) sits there, unfazed.
Oooh, look--
beautiful shot.
Grandpa is the only one awake-- prayed that heart back to life.
And the camera goes back to Bob when the heart starts beating again, waking him up.
Coincidence? With Tuscany and vacations and romance to be had???
Minnie Driver's painting. Good for her representing the artistic girlies.
Old men bonding over music while grandpa keeps an eye on his granddaughter. Is this how we and our mutuals sound?
Methinks he will sniff out the jig and bring all the pieces together by the end (because there's got to be a 3/4 misunderstanding, right?)
I like how casual Bonnie Hunt's style is-- it's a gentle, lived-in world.
Grace, as we shall now call her, bikes in the street with kids-- not, as her grandfather cautioned, on the side of the road.
Doctor's appointment!
"Oh, of course I'm happy. What else am I going to be?"
..................Yeahhhhhhhhhh, you're not happy.
Grace: saved from death, still insecure about her scar, and slowly bumping herself back to life. An imperfect survivor, a normal human.
A mood.
"I'm alive and someone else is dead." A mild form of survivor's guilt, I see, I see.
"He's a great listener" was a great joke.
Bob is grumpy and determined and driven I see.
Two morbid souls will collide at the zoo over the rubber monkey enclosure, I reckon.
Another girl, another mood:
It's been a year and friend Bonnie finally convinces her to mail the "thank you for your heart" letter.
"Okay, everyone clap for Auntie Grace, she just mailed a very important letter." Amazing.
Bonnie shoving everyone past the construction workers was also amazing.
Bonnie's a fave (and love that she gave herself-- if this is the same Bonnie-- a great role that doesn't outshine the main leads. It's respectful and kind.)
Bob still obsessively guards Jane Bennett's memory.
The heart's pumping again. Pumpity pump pump.
Bow chicka-- nope, they missed each other.
But Grace felt something and highlighted that her heart beating didn't hurt (hmmmmmmmmmmm foreshadowing.)
I CALLED IT the gorilla's doing the hand thing that he used to do with Jane Bennett aka Elizabeth... lastnamehere, ahem ahem.
Bob's mad and tells off a board room.
"I'm here because of my wife. You got it?"
Thank you for that shot, Bonnie.
I'm becoming a big Bonnie fan, as you can tell.
Charlie is setting his man up with a date only a year later, right after he tore apart a board room AND is working his men overtime for his late wife??? ...Charlie, my man, you're going to have to work miracles. You should meet Minnie Driver's Catholic grandpa, he'd adore you.
Wait, Charlie's a vet? Oh, wait, yeah, he works at the zoo.
Introducing new kid on skates.
"Look at you! Where are you going?"
"I don't know!"
This is the quality content I hoped for.
Skates boy holds down the fort-- a valuable guy.
"C'mon, pal," Bob chastises because Mel won't kick the "wait for Elizabeth" habit. (In the first part I likened the dog to be my self-insert. This dog is nothing like me, and I am immeasurably disappointed.)
Subtle touch of immense irritation at someone knocking on the door.
Is it time to reenact how happy he was compared to how mad he'll get at Mel now? The set up and payoff?
Here we go.
"Eat back here like a normal person--"
Chuckle worthy, but also.
He softens up; but the dog doesn't budge too much.
"You made it halfway."
That's the theme, I'll bet.
"You gotta snap out of it, buddy."
This makes Bob reflect, and he decides to kick some of his own Pavlovian responses-- and ends up on a truly horrendous date.
At least, I know that part's coming up and I'm pumped.
The old men's song convo comes back: they were selecting music for their restaurant. Nice touch.
Grandpa surprises her with tickets to Italy to paint cuz he was staring earlier at her painting earlier and it's these little moments that make me repeat words like "earlier" too frequently.
The waitress lady missed Grace's initial reaction and is put out. The banter is epic.
And Angelo talked the grandpa into it and Minnie knows this and thanks them all in a way that reflects their separate bonds. Good storytelling.
Angelo set her up with a hair transplant man (reminds me of a joke Bill Burr? told about stapling ants to your head for vanity's sake.)
Angelo's taste in vacations? Top tier.
Angelo's taste in men? Absolute bottom tier... though the guy's cheerful, so there's that.
I love this.
I don't even need a romance at this point I just want to watch the two live their separate, slowly recovering lives.
Enjoy!
#Return to Me#react#DD#Part II#from the POV of Someone Averse to RomComs#I Become a Bonnie Hunt Fangirl#mine#txf#but not#analysis#Minnie Driver
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Oh I listened to some Ethel Cain btw I liked it American Teenager lives tent free in my head now I think I heard of her for the first time from you so thanks
YEAHHHHHHHHHH YIPPEEEEEE IM SO HAPPY U LIKE HER MUSIC im extremely not normal about her heheh. one of my fave artists ever in the world
#asks#AMERICAN TEENAGER IS A GREAT SONG#that whole album is so special to me PREACHERS DAUGHTER NO SKIP ALBUM FOR REAL‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️
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Recently I have been going under a radical period of self discovery and it is just. Wild.
Idk I have been having a hard time digging into some stuff on my blog cuz of how personal my Path has become but I think that really it has nothing to do with my blog and more to do with the fact that I have a hard time talking about myself in general?? But I think I know why.
First and foremost, and definitely the biggest thing that I've been dealing with - I'm autistic. ASD. I am only recently discovering and exploring this.
I've always dealt with sensory issues and overstimulation - especially with sound - and I wasn't sure where it was coming from. If it weren't for this fact, I wouldn't have looked into this at all. But the fact of the matter is I'm sensitive, I get overstimulated, and it HAS to come from SOMEWHERE, right?
I looked into me being autistic once and did only surface level research and then kind of laughed it off. Then maybe 3 or so months ago I considered it more seriously and. Yeahhhhhhhhhh
Things just started to add up and click into place. I have other sensory issues and Textures that make me 😤 while I do think I was depressed at one point in my life, I think that most of my depression was actually Autistic Burnout. Actually, this graphic was MONUMENTAL for me realizing all of this in the first place:
One thing that I really struggled with though is that. I'm good at socialization? And have good social skills?? Like that's why I went the past 25 years without even considering this in the first place. But this leads me to what I've been dealing with for the past couple weeks: Maskingggg
Hooo boy. Turns out I am NOT good with social things. Or at least not as good as I thought. Like for example this is something I've known about for years and didn't think about: I don't know how to comfort people?? Like I literally had to GOOGLE how to comfort people, and things to do and say, and to this day I still do those things, albeit uncomfortably.
Turns out the biggest source of my anxiety is actually due to masking. I spent basically every single conversation/social situation thinking "what is the correct thing to say/do here?" A lot of it was figuring out the "correct" thing to do so that people don't get upset. Yeahhhh that's... not good. It took up SOO much of my energy. Like I did that all day/every day. Exhausting.
I've been working on unmasking lately, and it's crazy to see just how much I actually masked. Masking bad sounds/stimulation (shoving down those feelings), forcing myself to endure overstimulation, SMALL TALK (god I hate small talk sm), BURN OUT.
I mean I've been so ungodly busy for months. But I've been masking and pretending that everything is fine for a while. As soon as I dropped that facade and let me actually see/feel how burnt out I was, I immediately crashed alsksjdh I've called out the past two days at work. I needed it.
But here's the thing: figuring out that I'm autistic and learning exactly which ways I am has helped my life IMMENSELY. You can't fix or deal with a problem if you don't know what it is in the first place. Delving into all of this not only has given me more validation, but it's given me tools to navigate the world more healthily and also with more energy.
For example, overstimulation!! Now that I know what things cause overstimulation for me, I can avoid those things, and avoid that. Sometimes I can't avoid overstimulation, though - but that's okay! Now that I know I'm autistic, I've learned from other people how to deal with it - spending time in an understimulating environment and doing some special interest stuff.
Soo yeah. Honestly I could talk about this for hours - it's been a very big part of my life lately. But something that is interesting to think about with all of it that I might make another post about sometime is how I think that blends with my spirituality, and my Path.
One other thing I wanna mention that is veryy new that I don't have a whole lot of thoughts on yet but I need to get out somewhere - I think I'm non-binary??? Yeah okay this post has gone on long enough. I'll talk about that another time.
Anywho. If you're still reading this - I hope you have a wonderful night!! 🥰
Blessings!
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[about the ask thing - not good at being a good person so it will be shit blah blahb lah you know it]
JAMMYYYYYYYYY !!! LA TOXICA !!!!!! YEAHHHHHHHHHH
you are the silliest kitty car evur . talking to u makes me reall y happy all the time because THE SILLINESS IS CONTAGIOUS
and yeah !?!?!? i think ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
im eating a pringle rn
SIIIII LAS TOXICASSSSSS
Also oh my gods?-??-?-? I always panic when I talk to you bc internally I’m like “SHIT ITS A BAD BITCH” but in the way of like. you see someone super fucking cool irl YFM????
it’s so comofrting to see someone {YOU} that has the same thoughts as me tbh. shoutout to sliver fr
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Hey Holly :) how about 💥🎁 and💡 for the ask game?
Hey Becky!! I hope you're doing well! 💖 Absolutely I can answer those!
💥 What is one canon thing that you wish you could change?
Ohhhh interesting question. I think I'd go with Shadow's overall characterization in IDW (though Boom too honestly). He's got so much promise and depth and it's underrealized. 😭
🎁 Have a piece of a WIP you want to share?
Sure! This is from a oneshot called Spinning. First draft and all that, subject to change 😋
“This is stupid. A pointless waste of time.”
“Doesn’t matter what you think, sugar,” Rouge shrugged, a bottle of top shelf vodka tucked safely in the crook of her arm. “You owed me and I called in your favor. Your the one who stupidly left it open ended.”
Shadow growled under his breath and clenched his jaw as he reluctantly followed the bat toward the two story brick home Sonic and his two-tailed brother called home. Rouge was right. It had been stupid to leave his ‘I owe you’ open. He thought she’d ask for a Chaos Emerald for fuck’s sake… Not this!
“Chin up, it’s not that bad.”
Shadow glared. A party was that bad in his mind. A claustrophobic gathering hosted by the most obnoxious hedgehog in the world and all his cronies? Shadow felt his ears tip back and his mouth turn down in disgust. It was the worst possible way to spend his evening.
💡How many WIPs do you currently have?
*cries*
So many. lol At least 7 multichapters and 3 short continuations, and 3 oneshots, plluuussss I've already had an idea for this year's holiday fic so yeahhhhhhhhhh
Fanfic Writer Ask Game
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Did you see People's sexiest man alive 2022? It was announced about an hour ago, and I think you may like him 😏
FUCK YEAHHHHHHHHHH AT LASTTTTT
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you probably used readmore for a reason but unfortunately i am in your walls! i am bursting through your door! first of all as someone who gets into fandoms via fanlore and primers etc the rookie respect primer made me absolutely insane and more so than other primers because you! know! how! to! tell! a! story! sorry this is more of me howling about the primer continuously but it's just. you're so right and you put into words my OWN relationship with transformative works so. first of all thank you for that. second of all YEAHHHHHHHHHH ME AND THE HOMIES LOVE APPLYING TEXTUAL ANALYSIS TO SPORTS PRESENTED AS MEDIA!!! god i need to read more perspectives on sports and other "real" media presented with narritives and the awfully thin line between fiction, reality, and self prophecy anyways YEAHHH ME AND MY HOMIES LOVE THE DEATH OF THE AUTHOR!!!! sorry i dont thibk any of this makes sense i am trying to do a degree in english and i find your works and analysis particualrly insightful especially in the field of transformative work and also. birdcage. i am horribky drunk right now. also i need to write a proper response on your LOVELY COMMENT on my foc that made me WEEP sorry for. spamming your inbox. continously. if i was less scared of you i would become an emoji anon unfortunately i do believe i am flying too closely to the parasocial relationship sun
ANON YOU ARE SO FUNNY I HOPE YOU DRANK WATER BEFORE BED. all your asks were delightful but i am responding to this one. anyway i put it under a readmore bc i didn't want people to see unnecessary hrpf navelgazing. also it was 1am and i was trying not to step on anyone's jock wrt how uncomfy it makes me when people look up players' venmo accounts. like i love piecing together, y'know, this player posted this photo on his public, verified insta acct and in this article someone on the team mentioned how funny he is and so through this we can assume he has a personality and loves his homies. just makes me uncomfortable when people are getting photos from someone's gf's locked account and cross-referencing with money he sent his bro venmo and assuming something. (which i have seen.) don't love the latter, do love the former. which is my own personal boundary i think. engaging only with the information a player himself puts out to the public on purpose with the knowledge that it will be accessed by everyone. idk. that is i think where i draw the line, though ofc ymmv and that is a decision you have to make for yourself. i'm trying not to judge anyone, i think that is just what my personal line is. tl;dr i love being the athletic but gay
i hope you have a very happy new year my friend!! i think it will be a good year for both of us 💙💙
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Writting a little note for each of my quadrantmates cuz i think they deserve it
Aradia: Okay but she was actually super sweet? A lot of people remember her as kinda creepy but honestly? You just have to get to know her better, plus... scary girls were kinda my type i guess hehe :/3! She was always so interesting.
Rose: Oh absolutely delightful! We started out in the wrong foot cuz she thought i was a bit too naive but we quickly made good friends! And when we finally got together it was super sweet, she was actually a huge dork :]
Sollux: The best moirail in the world. When he was feeling overwhelmed and anxious and self-depricating i would make sure that he was alright and whenever i was down on the ground he would always cheer me up. Miss the little games he'd program <>
Nepeta: Best rival ever to be honest. Couldn't find a better person to hate in the world, she always kept it interesting and made sure i would keep my fuschia blood privileges checked >~< i like to believed i helped her be more open about her feelings.
Tavros: Absolute sweetheart and very chill, he had so much potencial and everything i could have asked for in an austispice. He always let me know whenever i should be a little softer or whenever to get away from certain topics and he did good. Love him.
YEAHHHHHHHHHH WOOOOOOOO
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please know i am now thinking about jack and the twilight using milo and grace to literally communicate through to the other
YEAHHHHHHHHHH
it is slightly funny givin ive been thinking about like. The Negative Affects of god possession so its like
jack:milooooo i need to talk to the twiliiiiiight
botanist, mouth covered in burn scars:cant i just build you a scarecrow
jack:nahhhhhh were gonna be fighting anyway this is easier anyway to the back of the brain you go!
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anniv3 card liveblog dump. updated as i go. spoiler warning!
luke
i’m gone TT (it’s actually all still pretty fluffy and sweet. barely a hint of angst)
YEAHHHHHHHHHH HIGH SCHOOL!ROSA MY BELOVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (ah i forgot to show you guys her new outfit in this card, she’s v cute, i’ll screenshot after this flashback scene)
agh. this expression. always so cute TT rosa it is an honor to be able to play as you 🫡
a;dlfjadkl okay i know the card wasn’t hitting (yet) but like. now with the new bgm i’m really feeling something :’) perhaps we will be budgeting for anniv3 after all
HADFJA;LDKJF;LAKJERLAJLEKRJAKLE
omg poetry reference. truly the bread and butter of this blog’s analyses
ok the interactions: i mean, they’re nice. the animation is very fluid and there’s definitely more motion and more variety than in normal card art animations (though those have been advancing over the years too!) lol i think the knowledge of how purely-fanservicey this is kinda limits how excited i get over this part
overall: i mean it’s a good card but doesn’t make me lose my mind over it like luke’s previous anniversary cards; like this is closer to the caliber of a birthday or top-up card. nothing necessarily bad about it but... i think the most emotion i felt was because the combination of a new bgm (or at least new to me) + high school era lukerosa which i have a soft spot for.
anyway. off to watch vyn’s, which is my last hope for this anniversary really delivering on the card stories :’) also based on my quick glance at his interaction video they might have fixed the piano keys...?? BIG if true
ahhh almost forgot the keepsake!!
BIGHEAD ROSA!!! ahh i was wanting to draw her but mhy beat me to it lol
vyn
omg already >100 comments on his video. yes. my brethren. we are all broke and watching the video instead of getting the card 🤝
55 other people are watching the video literally right now. hell yeah
omg. they really did fix the piano keys XDDDDDDD
me trying to zoom in on the sheet music. LET ME PLAY IT
wow. reference to a very famous and iconic vyn card moment in this story. hint it has to do with water
what the fuck dude extreme weather even showing up in the tot cards TTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
whoaaaa okay worldbuilding: svart has its own language i guess? there are labels written in it, and the narrative calls it svart language and not like english or french or whatever
i think a fun thing about backgrounds being reused is that everyone probably has different scenes that they most strongly associate each background with. for me, this is the winery from food for thought. vyn infodumping about how to cultivate wine grapes. mixing wine with sprite. that’s MY reference to a previous vyn card for this story
VYN HAD HIS MOTHER SEND OVER THE PIANO FROM HIS CONFESSION AS THEIR MOVING IN GIFT????????????
VYN WROTE THE SHEET MUSIC!! NEON MELODY CALLBACK????? (HUGE WIN FOR ME PERSONALLY)
ok only halfway through the card rn but i Need to sleep. back tmrw to finish this and to watch marius’s (even though i’ve barely seen any of this recent cards... whoops)
WAAAAAAAAIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT HOLY SHIT THIS FUCKS SO HARD ACTUALLY??? THIS REFERENCE THEY’RE DOING?? WITHOUT STATING IT OPENLY AAAAAAHHHH THIS IS SO POWERFUL TTT
ok here’s vyn’s illustration. wet rain-soaked little meow meow
rosa forgetting about the instant noodles she’s cooking. just like me fr
hmmmm kinda criminal that they’re supposed to be playing piano here and the bgm is one of the ones that DOESN’T have piano
ok yeah they definitely fixed the piano keys. just compare this to the original anniversary PV you’ll see. NOW FIX THE SSS CARD SYSTEM NEXT
one comment saying the sheet music is liebestraum which i was kinda also suspecting since structure is very similar but some of the measures don’t match up exactly (at least not against the copy of sheet music i have). however, the section behind vyn’s right shoulder is pretty much measure 25 and the part behind his left shoulder is close to m35-36. (which... is not a song that vyn wrote xDDD we’ll say he’s alluding to or remixing it for their purposes)
you’re telling me his hand accidentally hits the piano and there’s a “pleasing sound”??? he’s falling backwards onto it and playing chords???
ok back to checking the sheet music (my priorities are exactly where they should be)
i think the two sheets here (behind his left shoulder and under his left hand) are the same page (which we said before was m35-36). it’s the only place in the song where the key signature change looks like that (in the upper right; it’s definitely the sharps pattern and not the flats) and the following sections match as well. so i think that pages goes like this:
line 1: m34-36 (and key change where five sharps are made natural)
line 2: m37-m39
line 3: m40-m42
line 4: m43-44 (not sure if that last note should have a slur tho)
it was kind of throwing me off earlier since some of the chords that would be octaves didn’t seem far apart enough on the card art, but maybe it’s a combo of perspective + shrunk down + artistic license
ok i can’t rly find a keepsake investigation video yet and i’m still just watching the interaction in the bg but this card is fine. i know i got really excited at one point but it’s because i’m especially interested in the plant motif (still have not fully stated what the exact reference was bc i’m sure i’ll point it out later). so far the cards feel like nice top-up cards (since those always make sure to have spicy/fanservice-y parts) that are trying hard to reference previous events. i checked the comments of BOTH vyn and marius videos and there was someone (different people!) asking which of the cards had a better story (because what they’d seen so far was disappointing).... does NOT bode well ufnfortunately
edit: i will say that these even feel a bit worse than top-up cards since those usually try to grapple with substantive potential issues in the relationship, while these anniv3 cards don’t. also still haven’t watched marius’s yet but yamashina jin just translated artem’s card and even she’s disappointed by the writing quality so like... widespread disappointment i suppose 😔
marius
ok yeah this is a very good continuation/evolution of the idea from tideborne romance. unfortunately i was also meh on that card
omg... marius is gonna make himself the present isn’t he....
OKAY THERE’S AT LEAST ONE (1) THING I LOVE ABOUT THIS CARD 🥺🥺 (doesn’t even get a mention in the story it’s just a visual easter egg in the bg)
artem
halfway through pt 2 and i’ve figured out how to describe how i’m feeling. you remember marius’s 1st birthday card when they were just kinda doing random things to fill up time in the plot? it’s kinda like that. (though it doesn’t have the weird ooc-ness of that card and it’s not as long)
the bear from his bday event and the eyemask from wandering heart!! actually maybe my favorite part of these cards will just be the little easter eggs in them
ok so after the “reveal” of what artem is Actually up to, i do like the card more. i really like what his true plan, i just kind of dislike how MC is kept in the dark again. it’s not even bad this time around, like it’s very much a cute surprise between lovers, but i think that stuff in his engagement left a bad taste in my mouth about it and i didn’t want to see it again lol. also, i feel like it would have been cute if mc was the one to propose moving in together (just a random thought since for all the these, it was p much the LI bringing it up)
ok this is one of the better illustrations for anniv3 cards tho.
alright. finished the card. umm nothing more to say xDDD
on the keepsakes tho; these genuinely fuck so hard. also artem's a protective charm from cloudbreak temple and red beans and he recites The Lines again.... literally why can’t we have this kind of energy in the actual card story TTTTT
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YEAHHHHHHHHHH HI!!! And of course! but if you want, we can tell you who's fronting, like, it's delilah right now hello :)) I don't actually think we've met before? my memory's shit so I might be wrong lmao. But hi, im a transfem revivedbur, she/he/they :))))
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Hallooo, Delilah!
I'm about 98% sure we haven't met before. But good to meet you for perhaps the first time!
would you like a lobster
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