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Part 1 | Part 2 | Friends with benefits!Exo

“....none of what they were doing was fair but nevertheless,she still craved his touch on her skin...”

The day remained quiet while her gaze traveled on his books,the setting sun’s color becoming darker with the passing seconds.A sigh filled the room,mixed and tangled emotions that seemed to be chasing her figure finally found the soul,all of them rummaging on her mind.

It had been a few weeks since she let herself go in the relationship,unlike what she was like before,she became carefree.Calling in the desperate hours of the night,not only because she was needy but also she needed have him next to her became a normal occurrence.He slowly adjusted to this new girl who was ready to take all he offered,a girl who was so far away from the person he first met.

His affection was now being received rather than being rejected.She leaned against his touch in kisses now,let him have the time to take a shower with her or simply,feel her body against his when killing time.The relationship became something else than a beneficial two way exchange for the both of them,it was filled with sweet mornings and smiles,very different things they both agreed on.

Although he didn’t mind this new side of her,a side that was just ready to all of him,he wasn’t sure where it was gonna end up.They were supposed to be just friends,not anything else and now that what they had seemed like a couple relationship,he was worried about the end.

There were no promises,no expectations which forced them into a new road.This wasn’t a usual relationship two would have.Sure,it was filled with sweet love making as well as their laughs against one another but she didn’t see him as her boyfriend,he was well aware of that.He was a person of pleasure still,someone to look forward to but not someone to share her late nights with.

It was complicated for her as well,it was all new to her:this whole thing with having someone.She was known to have very few connections,a person of small talk she usually was and having someone next to her,offering an overwhelming amount of affection and pure care was all too much to handle at once,she needed a moment and some time to figure out what she thought of it but meanwhile,decided to make the best out of it.

She saw her come inside his study,a few buttons undone while a tired grin appeared on his face.It was rare that he got to see her like this,laying down on the sofa while waiting for him,simply vulnerable in every way possible.Tossing his jacket to the side of the room,he hovered above her on the leather sofa,a few pecks on her lips and moved on to sitting down and letting a sigh out.

She watched him gulp while staring,observing every behavior he exerted to truly get to know him.The sun kissed his skin under the sunset that took over the room,different shades of yellow and orange filling the walls.The changing colors of the sky shaped the way his face looked,ever so changing with time.

Her legs rested on top of his while they stayed seated on the sofa,eyes locked while they tried to figure something out,something that would get them out of this mess they created.She wanted to stay,to be with him and have his soul around but her mind said no,the tiny possibility of him leaving and her heart being filled with sorrow didn’t seem appealing at all.

She also wanted to walk out,it would be much easier anyway.Yes,she would miss him at nights while the moon talked to her,she would want his body next to hers and also miss his smell,his laugh and even his habits but separating herself from him seemed to be the easy option for quick recovery,or so she thought.

A kiss under the sunset,with their hands on each others’ hair and her mind was made.

Laying down on the bed while staying still,different thought traces crossed your mind.It was about anything and everything:work,social life,him.You had a free week,far away from any responsibilities you decided to ignore until the very last minute,because you had things to enjoy.You looked outside to the blue sky,saw the clouds moving slowly while the body next to you breathes steadily.

Worries rummaged through your mind,there was so much to think about while he laid there,right next to you during the morning.You could stay:have a few couple months you would enjoy your time with him,a good time where you would hold onto each other like you would never let go,only to erase all of the memories altogether just after a few months.Or you could go:walk away with a huge bag of emotions you would drink away right after being alone,you could avoid him at all costs and act like he was just a breeze,even though your emotions would create a thunderstorm inside you.

He rolled over slowly,his arms wrapping around you and you could see that he was half-awake by the way he held onto you.He saw it all,your turmoil of emotions that seemed to make their way up to your eyes,still peeking through even though you did your best to avoid them.

And he was okay with all of that.

He was alright with all of your doubts you seemed to have.You thought he didn’t know you as you only shared a bed and nothing else,but he was good at getting to know someone by their acts.He knew the faces you would make when you were sad,when you felt vulnerable and when you felt the need to be alone.He was aware of all the habits you had,whether it was playing with your nails when you were nervous or how would play with your hair when you felt a little bit good about yourself.

He was fine with however you chose to come to him,doubtful or full of confidence,he was happy to be with you let alone any doubts you had.He knew it wasn’t supposed to turn out like this,he knew that you would fool around with him for a few months and got into a small argument,an excuse to leave and you wouldn’t see each other again but that argument never happened because he was soft with you,he took it easy and you didn’t leave,you didn’t let go,at least not yet.

You felt his presence all around you,his smell overwhelmed you with his hands around yours.You let out a sigh,goosebumps on his skin while you kept looking at the ceiling this time,deciding to stay at his place today.The white sheets made their sound,filling your morning with utter and complete tiredness.You looked at him,seeing his eyes being shadowed by his hair,it was too long and he had to cut it sometime.

Soon,you were filled with the breakfast he had made you,sitting on the couch in his living room while he switched channels every now and then while still watching your figure with the corner of his eye.It felt comfortable for the first time in a long period,it felt like things were normal and you weren’t out of space.A smile formed on your lips,the content feeling in your head still warming your whole body.

After a few hours,you found yourself lining up his hair while he sat on a chair,paper towels on the floor to keep it clean while you slowly chopped his hair off.His hair was getting too long and eve though he was aware of it,he chose to do nothing.Somehow,it brought him to this moment where you were staring at him intensely,trying to make sure his hair was all lined up.

“Do you want me to do the back of your head as well or you’ll just grow it out?”you breathed out while the afternoon slowly passed away.He looked at you and shook his head before breaking out into a smile.

“I don’t know,really.”he blinked at you,your senses slowly melting under his gaze.“What do you think?”he breathed out this time,making sure to keep eye contact.

You sat on the floor after his words finished,looking up at his smiley face while a million thoughts crossed your mind.His hair looked good and you didn’t know what you were doing in his apartment at this hour,cutting his hair and taking care of him.It wasn’t usual that you spent time with him,at least not this way but it felt warm,it felt like the heavy burden in your chest was gone and that you were finally able to breathe,able to take a step back and say,this isn’t that bad.

He understood your thoughts from the way you looked,a little sad but content.Somehow,he was aware that it had caught you off-guard,you didn’t expect to feel this comfortable around him without sleeping around.He was okay with that,with his heart on his sleeve,he looked at you and just took it all on.He didn’t know how many days like this would be possible for the both of you,how many precious moments that would be stuck forever in his mind.

You giggled a little,finding it amusing how serious he seemed about his haircut but also how indecisive he was about a lot of things.He looked down at the floor to see your face light up,see it sparkle and glow while his heart screamed at him to confess once again,even though he had already done so countless times.

So he let go.

His efforts of trying to make you stay slowly faded away,you received the affection from his part nevertheless but they way he delivered was different.Soon,you grew to understand that this was his way of saying,you can stay or you can go but either way,I’ll be happy for you.His selfless acts didn’t change neither did his contagious smile and the more he let go of you,the more you felt the need to stay.

Ramadan Mubarak everyone!!!

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