how's the job hunt going? would you ever relocate for a job love?

Oh wow what a question lol! Honestly i dont expect to be able to find anything new till this strike is over, the competition is insane right now. In the meantime my plan is to teach myself faster hard surface sculpting in z*brush using hockey gear \o/ mostly because i dont want to pay the $150 a month for maya, that shits insane. Like a fucking health insurance payment.

For the second question - i dont think i've ever experienced love like that. I think it would take a lot of devotion and sacrifice to give up your dreams for someone else. Admirable, for sure. And also a sacrifice that historically women are the ones expected to make. Every time. :( For a job? Lol, i would move in a heartbeat. I stayed in pittsburgh 6 years after college for my dream job - i only left when i lost it. Knew the next dream job wasnt going to be there, so made my way to LA. And now im having to come to terms with the idea that the dream job doesnt exist as i imagined it - or only exists for a very VERY select few.

And actually, thats not totally true about me and love. I think if i thought for one second that nick could love me back like i diid him, id already be in new england. When i applied to this one job, that sounded like a dream come true it listed the salary, and brian and i just read it and gaped. We looked at each other and i was like i dont even know what the fuck i would DO with all that. And of course the first thing that popped into my mind was i could buy that sailboat nick always talked about. When i was writing my programming textbook a decade ago, and really going through it, and nick and i were up until 3 or 4am every night painting theater sets, he'd talk about his sailing adventures, teach me rope knots, that sort of thing, basically a mental escape. And so last week i texted him like 'hey no promises but what if im suddenly actually making good money. Do you still want that boat?' Because, nick's worked so long and so hard and all he's gotten to is the point of still working on boats other people own, and its just not fair how devalued physical labor is, you know? And his immediate reaction was to launch into our very old daydream - the whole 'yes and you're coming with me, sail off into the sunset' stuff. And that hadnt occured to me - my idea was just- id give him the boat, and he'd fix it up, and id maybe demand photos or a visit or two every so often. Because i think finally -finally- im at a point in my life where being in love isnt enough - i want the other person to love me back. And lol definitely not someone who declares love one minute and then stops talking to me for weeks or months, and the cycle repeats over and over. I think its possible to love someone enough that you recognize you arent the one for them, but still want them to be happy? Happier than you could make them.

So long answer is yes, i would relocate for love, but i have learned the hard way to know when i shouldn't.

Halva Zanjabil – Persian Ginger Halwa

Halva zanjabil is a traditional Persian halva originating from Tabriz. As you know, Tabriz has various sweets, and this halva is one of them. Ginger halva is known in Azeri-speaking cities as a sweet that is consumed with tea. This halva should be soft and tender so that it melts when you put it in your mouth. With the amount of ingredients included in this baking recipe, you can prepare ginger halva for 4 people. If you want to make more or less ginger halwa, just multiply or divide the amount of ingredients.

ingredients

1 cup of wheat flour is equivalent to 125 grams

1 cup of powdered sugar is equivalent to 100 grams

1/3 cup of chopped walnuts or almonds is equivalent to 50 grams

Butter and solid oil total 70 grams

Cardamom powder 1 teaspoon

1 tablespoon of ginger powder

How to prepare ginger halva without rice flour

First step: roasting the flour

To prepare Tabrizi ginger halwa, we first sift the wheat flour twice, then put it in a suitable pot and put it on a low heat and fry it a little until the raw smell of the flour disappears, but it should not change color, it should be cooked on a low heat for about 30 Fry the flour for a minute and after smelling the rawness, sift the flour and return it to the pot.

Second step: adding butter and solid oil

To achieve the good quality of ginger halva, a mixture of butter and solid oil should be used so that it has a soft texture, so we pour the mixture of butter and solid oil in a pan until it melts, and then we add fried flour to it and fry it. We give it until it becomes a golden color and the oil is absorbed by the flour.

Third step: adding powdered sugar and nuts

Remove the pot from the heat until it cools down, then add the ginger and cardamom powder to it and stir it a little until the ingredients are crushed. Add and stir until the powdered sugar is incorporated into the halva. This halva is in powder form.

Fourth step: Preparation of ginger halva

Choose a rectangular container and spread oil paper on the bottom of it and pour flour into the mold and press the halva with the bottom of a spoon until it is smooth and then pour walnut powder on the halva and let it harden. Leave it in the freezer for 30 minutes, then let it cool completely, and then cut it with a cutter or a knife in any shape you want, for example, a lozi lozi is a beautiful model, and slowly remove the parchment paper from the mold, because this model of halva has a crispy and fragile texture. It has We arrange the halwa in a dish. You can also use silicone molds to prepare this halwa to make it more beautiful. Pour the halwa into the mold and mix well with a spoon, then take it out of the mold for 1 hour in the oven. Put in friers, then slowly remove from the mold. Drink

Tips and tricks for making ginger halva recipe

You can taste the ingredients after adding powdered sugar and increase the amount of powdered sugar according to your taste.

The temperature of the halva must be lukewarm when you add the sugar powder, otherwise the sugar powder will melt and you will feel it under your teeth later.

With this amount, you will have about 24 to 30 pieces of ginger halvah.

This halva can be stored in a closed container in the refrigerator for 1 week.

You can use different brains to prepare this halva.

The amount of ginger to be added depends on your taste, you can add up to 2 tbsp.

Do not use liquid oil.

The color of this halwa is light and it should not be too dark, so be aware of the flour while frying and do not leave it alone.