the new lesserafim x overwatch song about a fun girls night sits with me so wrong considering blizzard subjected numerous theyre female staff to terrible working conditions facing humiliation, rampant sexual harrassment for years only to be held accountable for it in 2021. and in turn only after the lawsuit has been settled the ceo now denies it ever happened in the first place and idk, decided to place a little kpop sticker over it. like its obviously not the girls fault but its gross anyway
I do actually want to see my family because ever since my cousin with munchausen’s has discovered tiktok her self diagnosis game has been insane and I want to see what new illnesses she’s developed
im gonna like. at some point go through stuff in my blog and tag some posts that are like really close to my heart or making me happy or whatnot along those lines with a specific tag, so that i can find them later in a time of need for good vibes or happy thoughts or whatnot
and i just really wanna use the tag ‘xoxo’ for that
luther hasn’t said anything he hasn’t been thinking for years. every failed training practice when he could no longer get the team together and make them stay motivated, every time he watched a sibling walk out the door for the last time, every time he opened each of their doors hoping they’d suddenly changed their mind and came home, every day he looked up at ben’s photo on the moon, every day he looked at himself in the mirror and wondered the exact moment things went wrong.
he was not the leader that ben deserved. he was not the brother he deserved, either.
it’s not his fault, none of it was --- but their father is so good at making him feel like all responsibility lies on his shoulders ( he was just a kid, a kid with the weight of the world on his shoulders and a team he should’ve just loved instead of pushed. ) every time they set out for a mission, that look in his father’s eye was too haunting to forget: lead them to victory. fail, and it’s on you.
ben died, the team fell apart, and luther was not the kind of leader who could bring them back together. it was his fault, he was sure of it --- every single member of this team should have been protected, so why wasn’t ben? because of him.
@bentacled: “i never want to hear you say that again.”
❝ ben. ❞ he mumbles his name ( it’s still so weird to say it without the weight it once carried, but this time it comes with a certain level of sternness, not from a leader, but from that of a big brother. ) ❝ do you know how long i’ve waited to tell you that? ❞ or how scared he was to ever face him, too hard on klaus in hopes that he would never want to conjure their brother, because he didn’t know what he would do if he had to face ben again. he never felt he deserved it.
❝ can you just---- can you just let me speak? ❞ he waves his hands in front of him absently, flustered, because part of him knows he should just listen to ben, but he needs to say this. maybe it’s selfish, needing to get it out instead of respecting ben’s wishes to not hear more --- but he has to do it. ❝ i should have been able to protect you. no, i know, you don’t think it’s my fault, but--- but i hate that i couldn’t do that. i hate it. i hate that i let you down.❞