if i disappear after saying that ive been assassinated no jokes aside if i take that down its not bc i disagree with it, you can still pin it on me as a belief that i think that shit should be said and ill put my whole ass behind it, but saying shit like that has consequences lmfao. also theres a time and a place to bring that up

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Valle and Ysayle discuss Shiva.

2022 words. Set during early Heavensward Road Trip. Early ship signs definitely visible.

From the first, Valle wondered what it was like to be Shiva.

The first time she watched Lady Iceheart transform, her heart nearly stopped in awe, so overcome by what she was watching that she had no ability to. She watched as the aetherical power of the gathered crystals was pulled into Iceheart's body, as large shards of ice wrapped themselves around her and encased her as she spoke, as the night sky rippled and auroras blossomed in the heavens as the world remade itself in that location, and as it transfigured and remade her. Ice swept the arena and turned a flesh-and-blood woman into what appeared to be ice-made-flesh, skin and hair varying shades of ice in hue.

The primal hovered before them, and the part of her mind that was still analytical noted the deep blue of the hands contrasting with the paler skin and how the hair narrowed into crown spikes of ice, and wondered if it was just coloration or texture as well. She radiated lethality and beauty in equal amounts, and for the first time, Valle understood why people would worship primals.

This being drew her in a way she had not been drawn to Leviathan, or Garuda, or any other primal she'd faced. She yearned to step closer, to be embraced by ice, to feel that aether stir around her.

Was this tempering?

It couldn't be. She had the Echo. She could not be tempered.

Could she be? The other primals she'd faced had been shaped by minds and hearts of the beast tribes, not by those of the main Spoken races, those who believed in the Twelve. And this being before them, clad in ice and full of righteous conviction, could well be a reflection of the Fury herself. Was that why she was swaying towards her, step by step, drawn in?

"Primal's active! Summon your carbuncle and fight," hissed a familiar voice from down and to her left. Broken from her trance, Valle startled, and switched to the fight, where the blizzard battered and beat her.

After the fight, when she laid in a camp with some fellow primal-slayers who worked for the Scions, her dreams were full of ice, and snow, of being battered by the primal that changed the ice into weapons to fling at her, and of course, of the woman who effortlessly controlled it all. When she woke, she sat near the fire with her journal, and wondered what kind of woman had the convictions and faith to use herself as a primal. To talk about her desire for resolving the war, that no sacrifice would be too great, to make of herself a sacrifice to the energies of a primal... What type of person was Iceheart? Valle yearned to understand the woman who could channel the power of primals, and didn't understand why her desire was so strong.

~*~

Months later, Lady Iceheart began to travel with the small group. She slowly ceased to be Iceheart and became Ysayle. Traveling with the woman whose powers had haunted her thoughts both sleeping and waking meant Valle's wondering about her had the chance to be answered, but she didn't want to come across like Alphinaud, incessantly asking questions about people's abilities with no regard for their feelings. So she watched Ysayle as they traveled, casting glances at her when she thought she wasn't looking, watching how she handled threats when they had to fight hostile wildlife, seeing how ice aether stirred around her.

"What does it feel like, to be Shiva?" was constantly on her mind, but she kept it from her lips, and instead engaged Ysayle in other types of conversation in the quiet nights of camping. Valle told stories of where she came from, of growing up on Vylbrand's shores and swimming like a fish. Then as they climbed into Dravania and further mountainsward, she told stories of what she remembered of living in Gyr Abania, contrasting the different mountainscapes. Talking about a lost homeland triggered Ysayle to discuss bits and pieces of her life before Ishgard and Coerthas fell to the snow with Valle.

"There's something else you want to talk about, isn't there?" Ysayle asked her one night, when the others had gone to bed and Valle was sitting the watch alone with only a carbuncle for company. "I see how you watch me."

Valle briefly considered a flirtatious joke. She _did_ find Ysayle, the woman, beautiful and compelling. Would have even if she didn't carry the Echo, Hydaelyn's blessing, and the power to become a primal but not one enthralled and subverted. But she suspected if she said, that she'd be in a different type of trouble with the lady. Asking about her abilities felt the safer option.

"I wonder about your magic," she said.

"About how I channel Shiva, without losing myself."

"Yes. How it is that you can pull the aether from the crystals into yourself, how you can manifest the Shiva ideal without losing your will, if it is the blessing we both bear that lets you do it without being subsumed... I've fought several primals that beast tribes summoned, creating them out of aether and them dissipating away. You're the first to enact one within yourself, and it just...fascinates me." She reached out and stroked her hand over the emerald carbuncle as she spoke, voice faltering as she worried she was being Alphinaud.

"So many questions," Ysayle said, pale eyes glinting a more greenish hue from the carbuncle's light. "I have no answers for you, for I don't think of it in such a _scientific_ way."

"You were taught to summon. I assumed it was at least somewhat scientific in the instructions. And I'm an arcanist, I can't quite help the scientific approach," she said a little ruefully.

"I was shown how to pull the aether into myself to empower the change," Ysayle corrected her. "Actually becoming Shiva... it's a matter of faith. I know of Saint Shiva. I believe in her. And then I become her, joining her will with mine."

"You see yourself as an avatar of her? Or as a vessel?" Valle asked.

"Do you see them differently?"

"Yes..." she said, then added, "a vessel is hollowed out and made into the puppet of another's will, an avatar takes that power and embodies it with control."

"What an interesting distinction. Empowered or powerless." Ysayle's voice was suddenly icy.

Valle stared at the Elezen woman who had gone suddenly cold, mentally imposing Shiva's countenance over her face, seeing the similarities and differences. "I apologize if I've insulted you."

"I know you're just trying to understand it. I just can't help you," Ysayle said. "I have faith in Shiva, and it carries me through. That's all I need."

"Faith..." Valle repeated under her breath.

"What do you believe in?" Ysayle asked, after the silence had lingered long enough that Valle assumed the conversation was over.

"You're not the first to ask me that. Gaius Baelsar asked if I believed in Eorzea, in the Twelve, if they were primals."

"And what did you say?"

"Nothing. There was a fight going on," she said dryly.

"And do you?"

"I don't believe they're primals." If she looked at it logically, maybe they could be, but - she'd been raised in her faith in Rhalgr and He was not a primal who took from the land and the people and gave nothing back, not like Ifrit.

"Do you think someone could be an avatar of them?"

"I never really thought about it," she admitted.

"If someone could be an avatar of Halone, why not an avatar of a Saint?"

Valle sucked air through her teeth, not expecting Ysayle to have turned the questioning around on her like this. "I'm not sure."

"Seems like you have some faith of your own, even if you're not clear on it. You know what I think? That you ask how I become Shiva not just because you want to understand it from a scientific reasoning, to break it down into your equations," she said with a nod at Valle's grimoire, "but because you want to know if it's from our blessing. You want to know if you could do it too."

Valle hadn't been thinking of that consciously. She wanted to understand primal summoning to stop it, like the Scions' mission was for. Knowing the difference between Shiva, and Ramuh, and Leviathan and Ifrit, would be able to tell them so much. Thinking about _her_ becoming a conduit for that aether and power hadn't been on the agenda.

And yet, if you understood how it was done, didn't it mean you could do it yourself? In times of need?

Ysayle leaned forward, more animated now. "What would you sacrifice yourself for? What cause do you believe in above all else?"

"The pursuit of knowledge. The preservation of the world. Peace between warring factions," she said, but her voice was weak and unconvinced, and they both heard it.

"Not strong enough to use the power. You have to _mean_ your cause with all your heart, to pursue it at all costs, to be willing to lay down anything for it," and now Ysayle had become Iceheart and her eyes shone a more unearthly silver as she spoke. "Until you know that, you understand nothing of becoming an avatar, even if you had it dissected into a hundred of your tidy equations."

"You're right," Valle said. She felt ashamed that her conviction was weak, embarrassed to be so thoroughly taken to task, and the desire to look away from the intense gaze of the fervent woman before her was strong.

But there was a compelling counter-desire to keep staring at her and drinking in the power that radiated from her, not the ice aether that lashed out when Ysayle was Iceheart was Shiva, but the intensity of belief that made her radiant like the moon, luminous and impossible to stare away from.

"I wish I was like you," she blurted.

The moment passed, the fervor fading and the zealot becoming just another woman looking up into the sky as she laced her fingers together and cracked her knuckles, the pop echoing loudly in the quiet night air.

"It's not easy," Ysayle warned her.

"Being Hydaelyn's chosen never is. She picked us both for a reason. At least you know what yours is," Valle said.

The Elezen reached out and brushed her fingers across the carbuncle sitting between them. Goosebumps raced up the Roegadyn's arms as though her skin was what had been touched, to Valle's great surprise, since there was no sensory feedback with her aetherical construct.

"There's a greatness in you, scholar. When you set your feet on the path you must walk and cannot be swayed from, you'll find it."

"I hope you're by my side, then. To show me what to do," Valle ventured.

Ysayle smiled down at the carbuncle as she splayed her fingers across its back. "If you believe in bringing a peaceful end to the war and not allowing the Ishgardians free reign to slaughter, then we walk the same path."

"Thank you for letting me ask questions."

"'Twas nothing. I'd rather answer you about the power than the young Sharlayan or the Azure Dragoon." Ysayle's lips quirked slightly.

"I'm glad I'm more pleasant than them," Valle said.

"You always will be. Now go to bed and end your watch. I'll take over," she said.

Valle meant to protest and stay up longer, but she yawned deeply. Offering a sheepish smile, she said, "Goodnight, Ysayle."

"Goodnight, Valle."

The Roegadyn desummoned her carbuncle and walked back to her sleeping bag, trying not to read over-much into how she had trembled at the sound of Ysayle's voice saying her name.

~*~

In her dreams that night, she stood again in the amphitheatre. The winter tempest raged, the snow pulled into a vortex by the warped currents of ice aether. But this time, rather than standing outside and being hurt by it, she was cradled by it, safe inside the eye as the blizzard lashed out at the foes.

The Doctor with a Thousand Faces

Art by Paul Hanley

When I say the words "Fourteenth Doctor," what springs to mind? Perhaps you may say "Peter Capaldi," if you want to get super technical. Or perhaps, you may be thinking about Jodie Whittaker’s future successor. And to that point, you may already have someone in mind. Whoever he, or she, or they may be, there are key traits that you tend to expect. The Doctor may look and dress different, but they must also possess a certain "Doctoryness," about them.

Doctor Who is unique. Very few live-action shows have the ability to change their lead actor while maintaining the same character. Sure, they did it on "Bewtiched," but it never became part of the narrative. You could argue that Twin Peaks achieves this with characters like Laura Palmer returning in the form of Madeline Ferguson and Carrie Page. Or even more recently, American Gods with Media and New Media. But what about before that? What about a time before foreign Gods came to America, or certain Time Lords came to British television? What if the undying hero is part of our fabric as a species?

Within its title, Doctor Who has dared its viewers to ponder the question- "Who is this mysterious stranger?" I would venture to say the answer lies somewhere within the culture of the era. Our concept for who the Doctor is, and what they represent has changed throughout the years. As we change as a culture, our expectations of the hero change. The new gods of our pop culture mythology are still fallible, and therefore, subject to change.

It's a fairly popular fan theory that every one of the Doctors is a response to his or her predecessor. And there are even real-world moments when you can see the showrunners course-correcting a bit of bad writing. The Sixth Doctor was so loathed within the higher ranks at the BBC, that the Seventh Doctor is clearly a conscious response. Where Six was brash, Seven was quiet. While Mel was a screamer, Ace was fierce and brooding. On an even deeper level, because Doctor Who is so unique, you can also apply these course corrections narratively.

The Doctor's incarnations act more as avatars of an overarching hero of great power and intelligence. It would seem as though every regeneration is an opportunity for the Doctor, and us as an audience to ponder the identity of the Doctor. Christianity has God the Father, Jesus the Son, and the Holy Spirit, all aspects of the same one God. What does each of them imply about the other? Is each Doctor informed by an overarching consciousness? Is every aspect made in its image, or is the Doctor the sum of their parts? After all, the Doctor is still alive. We are actively watching the Doctor’s lifetime, which as of yet, is still ongoing.

In the Hindu pantheon, we get gods like Vishnu and Shiva who also take up corporeal form as avatars on earth. Much like the Doctor, these avatars are usually direct responses to their predecessor. Take Vishnu, for example. Vishnu incarnates in several different eras, usually as a response to some great imbalance in the world. But often times, their personalities explore a different aspect of Vishnu overall. As the avatar Rama, he lived so lawfully that, depending on which version of the Ramayana you prefer, cost him the love of his life. In his next incarnation as Krishna, he corrects this by being more anarchic, more bohemian, and much more free-loving. On the other hand, he was also more authoritative, as compared to Rama's gentler nature.

You could compare these two characterisations to the Third and Fourth Doctors. The Third Doctor literally worked with the military while the Fourth Doctor flew in the face of the Brigadier, hanging his feet out of the Jeep like a petulant teenager. While both Doctors have the same authoritarian streak, they're usually found in opposite directions. The Third Doctor's officiousness melts away into warmth, while the Fourth Doctor's charm burns away with his fury. All the while, each of them demands we as viewers continue to ponder the nature of our terrifying friend.

We’ll spend the entirety of the show pondering that nature. Because, as I stated before, the Doctor’s life is ongoing. Much like Vishnu sustaining the universe, Shiva’s dance has not yet ended, Brahma has not yet awakened. The dance of life continues. We can live in the past or the future, but we can never escape the present. Each Doctor stares down the barrel of their own demise. Even we as an audience see each successive Doctor as temporary. Their days are numbered, and no matter how many times you change your hair, your wardrobe, your gender, we all fear the reaper. So we focus on the now, when we’re alive. We focus on our own unique challenges.

Every son of God, it would seem, has their own cross to bear. Each hero meets a greater burden that speaks to the culture of a time. As Jodie Whittaker's Doctor is yoked with the incumbrance of sexism, so too was Colin Baker yoked with censorship. Conservative backlash has often times landed Doctor Who in the hot seat. "The Trial of a Time Lord," is a story arc that directly addressed the real-world accusations of the show's violence. In "Rosa," the Doctor goes toe-to-toe with the embodiment of a nasty internet troll in the form of Krasko.  

It's funny then, to view how this response to popular culture has changed throughout the years. Ben and Polly were practically Bible thumpers compared to the real world culture of hippies that were capturing the hearts and minds of people everywhere in the '60s. In their own way, they're a couple of squares that fly in the face of what was actually "cool," at the time. Even this goes against the mercurial trickster that was the First Doctor, who bit his thumb at your fuddy-duddy schoolmaster in the form of Ian Chesterton. Doctor Who of the '80s seemed like more of a "2000 AD" comic book world, which makes sense when you consider who was Prime Minister at the time.

Not only is the Doctor's personality explored throughout these incarnations, but the symbolism surrounding the Doctor as well. The name "Doctor," itself has been explored to some depth within the show. What does being a doctor mean to the Doctor? A doctor is a person who can bring us hope. They can also bring us dreadful news. Some of us don't like seeing the doctor because death seems to follow them around. The Doctor also carries a tool as opposed to a weapon. We're given the impression that the Doctor is a person who wants to fix things. Even psychic paper is a symbol for the Doctor's anarchic streak. "Badges? Badges? We don't need no stinking badges!" Psychic paper plays to that devilish side in all of us that wants backstage access and lies on our résumé.  The symbolism of the TARDIS has also changed over the years. Modern perceptions of the police may taint the image of a police box in the same way modern perceptions of America may taint the image of Captain America. However, I would like to think that both Cap and the Doctor represent the potential of what these things could become. The Doctor is what a good cop should be.

People say Doctor Who shouldn't be political, but from a historical standpoint, that's impossible. It's always had the same character, fighting for freedom from unjust capitalism, to totalitarianism, to unimaginable callousness. The Doctor has never asked what a person's sexuality was before saving their life because the Doctor is an actual hero. The Doctor doesn't have to agree with your lifestyle to agree that life is precious. What kind of Doctor would they be if they went around allowing someone to die? That's no kind of Doctor at all. This is why Doctors sometimes need people around to kick them in the ass when they're being total kumquats.

Whether we call them assistants, or companions, or friends, the Doctor's fellow travellers remain cyphers for the audience, though some more than others. While on the other hand, it would seem as though the Doctor represents something deeper, something more conceptual. Like a doctrine passed from leader to leader. "Never cowardly, never cruel." Keeping humans around to keep the leader in check. We the viewer have this abstraction of our greater self, playing companion to the strangeness that is this existence. We love these stories because they’re our history, our world, and our trajectory. Past, present, and future. They're embedded in our religions and in our myths. So we keep the tradition of storytelling alive so that we might never forget these elements within ourselves. And to remember that no matter how bad things get, to appreciate being alive now.

Hello friends! For those of you who may be wondering, yes I have posted this article already. However, I wasn't completely happy with it, so I retooled it a bit. Sometimes you gotta do that! I've been up to rather a lot since we last talked. I went to see Andrew Cartmell speak in Leeds a few weeks ago, and that was great fun. He had so many wonderful insights into his era. We're still working on K9, but things have been a bit slow because of my pal's schedule. I've still got plans to write an Eighth Doctor article, but I decided to put it off for the time being. I'd like to go a little deeper into his audios and books now that I've finished his comics. I've also got articles planned for Doctor Who in video games, Doctor Who canon, and I might start doing profiles for villains I love.Speaking of profiles, I may also start interviewing some of my favourite Whovians. I know so many avid fans of the show with their own wonderful perspectives, that I wanted to incorporate them somehow! On the Twin Peaks front, I was thinking about sharing a series of comics I've been working on. Each comic explores a different theme in the show. I've also been toying with the idea of writing about other shows. Speaking of which, who all watched Good Omens? I loved it. What did you think?

5 SEP 2020, SATURDAY 9:31 PM IST - NITHYANANDA SATSANG - ENGLISH GIST *TAPAS MEANS BREAKING, DESTROYING, NOT ONLY THE RESTRICTIVE PATTERNS, RESTRICTIVE LOGICS, RESTRICTIVE BELIEF SYSTEMS ALSO. THE VERY CONSCIOUS FOUNDATION WHICH RESTRICTS YOU, THE PRINCIPLE OF MAYA - BREAKING IT IS TAPAS! JUST SWALLOWING IT AND DIGESTING IT IS TAPAS! *I AM TALKING ABOUT THESE 36 TATTVAS: SHIVA TATTVA, SHAKTI TATTVA, SADASHIVA TATTVA, ISHWARA TATTVA... *FIRST I EXPLAINED ABOUT THE SHIVA TATTVA, SHAKTI TATTVA, SADASHIVA TATTVA - NOW I AM GOING TO EXPLAIN ISHWARA TATTVA. *THIS IS THE ZONE WHERE HUMAN MIND AND PARAMASHIVA - BOTH OF THEM ARE MEETING. *TILL SADASHIVA TATTVA, IT IS ABSOLUTELY UNREACHABLE, INCONCEIVABLE FOR YOU. *ISHWARA TATTVA IS A SPACE WHERE YOU AND ME, YOU ARE PARAMASHIVA MEET! *YOU NEED TO HAVE AN INTRODUCTION TO TAPAS. *TAPAS MEANS NOT JUST BREAKING RESTRICTIVE PATTERNS, NOT JUST BREAKING RESTRICTIVE MENTAL SETUP, NOT JUST BREAKING RESTRICTIVE LOGIC, BUT BREAKING THE RESTRICTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS ITSELF. *ONE DAY, THERE WAS A DISCUSSION BETWEEN MY THREE GURUS: VIBHUTANANDA PURI, YOGANANDA PURI, ISAKKI SWAMIGAL. USUALLY THEY COME TO A CONCLUSION, DECISION AMONGST ALL THREE OF THEM, FOR ANYTHING RELATED TO HOW I SHOULD BE BROUGHT UP. *THEY COMPLETE AMONGST THEMSELVES ON WHAT KIND OF TRAINING, MANIFESTATION SHOULD BE DONE. ALL THREE WILL SIT AND DISCUSS: “IS THIS TRAINING NEEDED, IS THAT TRAINING NEEDED” - THEN IMMEDIATELY, MY GURU, VIBHUTANANDA PURI WILL GO FOR GETTING THE AUSHADAS NEEDED. *BUT THIS TIME, THEY THREE DID NOT COME TO A CONCLUSION. THEY DISCUSSED AND THEN THEY WENT TO YOGI RAMSURATKUMAR. THEY EVEN REACHED OUT TO TIRUCHI SWAMI - ALL THE OTHER SIDDHAS WHO WERE IN THE BODY AT THAT TIME. *WHEN THEY TRIED TO REACH OUT TO ALL OF THEM, I REALISED THERE IS SOMETHING SERIOUS AND THEY ARE DISCUSSING AND PLANNING. *I HAD A GREAT FORTUNE, A DIRECT BLESSING FROM PARAMASHIVA: ABSOLUTE TRUST ON MY GURUS. WHATEVER THEY DO, I KNOW FOR SURE, IT IS GOOD. *MANY TIMES I WON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY ARE DISCUSSING. ONLY AFTER THE RESULT I WILL KNOW WHAT THEY DID TO ME, THE TRAINING ON ME. *ONE TIME, VIBHUTANANDA PURI, BROUGHT A HERB AND POURED ON MY EYES. I DID NOT BLINK FOR 3 MONTHS. NO PAIN OR SUFFERING; I JUST BECAME KUTAKESHA - NO SLEEP FOR 3 MONTHS! THE BODY MASTERED ‘NO SLEEP’. *SO MANY WONDERFUL THINGS I SAW BECAUSE OF MY GURU PARAMPARA. I AM NOT THE PRODUCT OF ONE GURU. SO MANY OF THEM SINCERELY AND INTENSELY WORKED ON ME AND MADE ME. *NITHYANANDA IS THE FRUIT OF THE TREE WHICH HAD MULTIPLE ROOTS. EACH OF MY GURU IS ONE ROOT. THE CONTRIBUTION OF ANNAMALAI SWAMIGAL, KUPPAMMAL, RAGHUPATHI YOGI, ISAKKI SWAMIGAL, TIRUCHI SWAMIGAL, YOGI RAMSURATKUMAR, PANDURANGANAR; HE IS NOT JUST A SCHOLAR, HE LIVED SHAIVISM. I CANNOT FORGET OR MISS OR UNDER RATE, DISRESPECT ANY ONE OF THEIR CONTRIBUTIONS DIRECTLY IN MOULDING ME. *NEXT IMPORTANT NAME I HAVE TO OPEN UP HERE IS HAMSANANDA PURI. ALL THEIR EXTREME CONTRIBUTION IN EVERY LEVEL MADE ME TRUST THEM SO BEAUTIFULLY, INTENSELY. *SO THE DISCUSSION WAS WHETHER TO MAKE ME A BRAHMACHARI, CELIBATE, JUST CONSCIOUSLY OR THEY SHOULD WORK ON MY BODY ALSO AND MAKE IT AS A PERMANENT FEATURE OF MY SYSTEM. *THE DISCUSSION WENT ON. BECAUSE IT IS A MAJOR DECISION, THEY ALL WANTED TO HAVE A SECOND OPINION. ONE THING I AM SO HAPPY ABOUT IS, ALL DECISIONS ABOUT MY TRAINING, EVERYTHING WAS TAKEN ONLY WITH THE SPIRITUAL CONTEXT AND SPIRITUAL REASONING, SPIRITUAL LOGICAL ANALYSIS - NO LAWS OF THE COUNTRY WERE ALLOWED TO INTERFERE AND DESTROY MY EVOLUTION, MY TRAINING. *I AM ABSOLUTELY THANKFUL TO ARUNACHALESHWARA FOR THAT GREAT BOON: NEVER EVER ONE MORE NITHYANANDA CAN BE PRODUCED IN INDIA ANYMORE. IT IS NOT A CURSE. I WILL NEVER CURSE. *NO, I DON’T WANT TO SAY THAT ALSO. I WANT MORE NITHYANANDAS TO BE PRODUCED IN INDIA, BECAUSE ARUNACHALA IS THERE! *THE DISCUSSION WAS GOING ON FUNDAMENTALLY WHETHER TO USE THE GARUDA MOOLIGAI. I WAS DOING RESEARCH ABOUT IT - AN AUSHADA MADE WITH THIS GARUDA MOOLIGAI NEEDS TO BE USED. *THIS HERB HAS TO BE COLLECTED AND ADDED WITH A FEW MORE HERBS AND ONE PART AND SHOULD BE MADE INTO JUICE, AND I SHOULD BE MADE TO DRINK, AND ANOTHER ONE PART SHOULD BE PUT ON MY MALE ORGAN. AND KIND OF A MUTATION SHOULD HAPPEN IN MY SYSTEM MENTALLY PHYSICALLY, PSYCHOLOGICALLY UP TO THE DNA LEVEL. *ONE FUNNY THING: MY PARENTS WERE SO DEEPLY DEVOTED TO MY GURUS THAT MY GURUS NEVER FELT THAT THEY NEEDED TO DISCUSS WITH MY PARENTS. SOMETIMES THEY WILL INFORM AND SOMETIMES THEY WON’T EVEN INFORM THEM OF THESE THINGS. *I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR THE DEDICATION MY PARENTS HAD TO MY GURUS. IF MY PARENTS WERE NOT THAT INTENSELY DEVOTED, MY GURUS WOULD HAVE FELT A LITTLE INSECURE AND THEY MAY NOT HAVE HAD ABSOLUTE FREEDOM OVER ME. *MY FATHER, MOTHER, GRANDMOTHER, MY GRANDFATHER - THE GOOD THING IS, IT IS A TIGHT KNIT FAMILY - IF ONE PERSON IS CONVINCED EVERYONE ELSE WILL BE CONVINCED. *MY FATHER'S MOTHER AND MY MOTHER’S FATHER - BOTH ARE BROTHER AND SISTER. IT IS ACTUALLY A MARRIAGE INSIDE THE FAMILY. SO, MY FATHER'S MOTHER AND MY MOTHER’S FATHER - BOTH ARE DECISION MAKERS OF MY LIFE. *SURELY I WAS BELOW 12 AT THAT TIME. I AM NOT ABLE TO REMEMBER THE EXACT YEAR. IT WAS BEFORE 1991, BECAUSE ISAKKI SWAMIGAL WAS ALSO THERE IN THE DISCUSSION. THE DISCUSSION WENT ON WHETHER TO INITIATE ME ONLY MENTALLY, PSYCHOLOGICALLY INTO BRAHMACHARYA OR MAKE A PERMANENT INSTALLATION OF BRAHMACHARYA ENERGY EVEN PHYSICALLY IN ME THROUGH THE ALCHEMY SCIENCE. *IT IS A VERY POWERFUL ALCHEMY SCIENCE. AND I WANT TO PUT ON RECORD HERE: I AM ABSOLUTELY GRATEFUL FOR THE DEDICATION OF ALL MY GURUS AND I WILL EVER BE GRATEFUL TO THEM FOR GIVING THIS GREAT GIFT TO ME FOR WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO MY BODY, MIND AND CONSCIOUSNESS. *MY EXTREME ABSOLUTE GRATITUDE TO MY PARENTS, GRANDPARENTS, FAMILY AND WHOLE ECOSYSTEM WHICH HAD ABSOLUTE TRUST ON MY GURUS AND GAVE MY GURUS COMPLETE FREEDOM TO DO ALL DECISIONS ONLY BASED ON THE COSMIC LAW AND SPIRITUAL ENLIGHTENMENT SCIENCE AND SPIRITUAL SCIENCE AND SPIRITUAL REASONING. NEVER A LOCAL COUNTRY LAW COULD INTERFERE, IMPACT AND INTIMIDATE THEIR TRAINING ON ME, THEIR ALCHEMY PROCESS ON ME. *I AM ABSOLUTELY GRATEFUL TO PARAMASHIVA, GURU PARAMPARA. I AM INVOKING THE WHOLE GURU PARAMPARA TO FLOW THROUGH ME AND EXPLAIN THIS WHOLE SCIENCE CLEARLY IN A DETAILED WAY. *IT IS FIRST PREPARING THE MIND FOR ABSOLUTE BRAHMACHARYA, CELIBACY. THEN PREPARING THE CONSCIOUSNESS, THEN LETTING THE CONSCIOUSNESS ENTER INTO THE BODY AND MAKING THIS SUPERCONSCIOUS MUTATION PROCESS HAPPEN. *SO, IN MULTI LEVELS, THIS NEEDS TO BE DONE. ALL MY GURUS DID NOT DOUBT IN WHAT SHOULD BE DONE CONSCIOUSLY, MENTALLY, PSYCHOLOGICALLY. BUT WHEN IT CAME TO WHAT SHOULD BE DONE PHYSICALLY, TO THE BODY, THEY ALL HAD A DISCUSSION, BECAUSE THEY ALL WANTED TO DO THE BEST TO ME. *THEN ALL THE THREE WENT TO ANNAMALAI SWAMIGAL AND DISCUSSED. VERY RARELY I SEE ISAKKI SWAMIGAL GOING TO MEET OTHERS. THEN ALL THREE AND ANNAMALAI SWAMIGAL WENT TO MEET RAMSURATKUMAR ALSO. *THEN, THEY REACHED OUT TO TIRUCHI SWAMI; HEAD OF KAILASH ASHRAM IN BANGALORE. TIRUCHI SWAMI USED TO COME TO TIRUVANNAMALAI FOR KARTIGAI DEEPAM FESTIVAL. *FINALLY THEY REACHED OUT TO HAMASANANDA PURI WHO USED TO STAY IN KASHI, WHO IS MY SANYAS GURU. *THROUGH HIM THE SANYAS INITIATION WAS GIVEN TO KEEP THE VEDANTA SAMPRADAYA ALIVE. THE 230TH GURUMAHASANNIDHANAM GAVE ME THE ACHARYA ABHISHEKAM, NIRVANA DEEKSHA ETC TO KEEP UP THE SIDDHANTA SAMPRADAYA, AND HAMSANANDA PURI DID VIRAJA HOMA AND KEPT UP THE VEDANTA SAMPRADAYA. *THE WAY THEY WERE DOING THE DISCUSSIONS AND PLANNING, AND HOW ALL THE WAY FROM KASHI, HAMSANANDA PURI CAME, I KNEW SOMETHING BIG WAS GOING TO HAPPEN. *TAPAS MEANS NOT ONLY BREAKING THE RESTRICTIVE LOGIC, MIND, PATTERN - BUT BREAKING THE RESTRICTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS ITSELF. *EXAMPLE: IF YOU HAVE SPONTANEOUS LYING AS A RESTRICTING PATTERN FOR YOUR INTEGRITY, DECIDING TO GO ON SILENCE IS TAPAS! *TAPAS IS NOT JUST SITTING AND COMPLETING, BUT ABSOLUTE SILENCE UNTIL WE REALISE HOW TO BE TRUE, INTEGRATED TO THE CONSCIOUSNESS! THAT IS TAPAS! *MY GURUS WERE PREPARING MY SYSTEM DOING THE WHOLE ALCHEMY PROCESS FOR ME TO MANIFEST THIS SUPERCONSCIOUS ENERGY, ESPECIALLY THIS SUPERCONSCIOUS MUTATION. *SO FINALLY, THEY ALL CAME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT THEY SHOULD GO AHEAD AND DO EVEN WHAT IS PHYSICALLY NEEDED FOR THIS SUPERCONSCIOUS MUTATION. *THE DECISION WAS MADE. THEN THEY REACHED OUT TO HAMSANANDA PURI WHO USED TO STAY IN KASHI IN MANIKARNIKA GHAT AT THAT TIME. HAMSANANDA PURI BROUGHT ONE OF HIS CLOSE ASSOCIATES, A SANYASI - NAGA BABA WAS HIS NAME. *HAMSANANDA PURI HAD JALA SAMADHI, MEANING AFTER HE LEFT THE BODY, THE BODY WAS GIVEN TO GANGA, HE DID NOT HAVE BHOO SAMADHI. *IN AKHADAS, ALL NAGA SAMPRADAYAS - NEVER ONE SANYASI WILL INITIATE YOU. THE PANCHA PURI - FIVE SANYASIS - WILL INITIATE YOU. ONE WILL REMOVE THE SHIKHA, ONE WILL REMOVE THE YAJNOPAVITA, ONE WILL CONDUCT THE VIRAJA HOMA - YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO CONSIDER ALL THE 5 AS YOUR GURUS. *HAMSANANDA PURI WAS LEADING THE TEAM AND HE HAD OTHER FEW SANYASIS. HIS ONE ASSOCIATE, THE NAGA BABA - I REMEMBER THESE TWO ONLY PLAYED A MAJOR ROLE IN TRAINING ME, MAKING MY BODY SETTLE WITH THE SUPERCONSCIOUS MUTATION PROCESS. *I WANT TO PUT THIS ON RECORD: WHATEVER WAS DONE TO ME BY MY GURUS, MANY THINGS I HAVE NOT REPRODUCED IN ANY OF MY DISCIPLES DUE TO VARIOUS REASONS. THIS PROCESS IS ONE OF THE PROCESSES THAT I NEITHER DID TO ANY OF MY DISCIPLES, NOR I FEEL I WILL EVER BE ABLE TO DO TO ANY OF MY DISCIPLES EVEN IN THE FUTURE. MAYBE THIS SCIENCE WILL JUST DIE WITH ME. BUT LET ME PUT IT IN ON RECORD. AT LEAST THIS STORY WILL BE KEPT ALIVE FOR THE FUTURE, FOR THE SAKE OF HUMANITY. *HAMSANANDA PURI CAME WITH HIS TEAM, A FEW SADHUS. HIS ASSOCIATE HAS A SAMADHI IN TEL GHAT, HOWRAH. KOLKATA.HAMSANANDA PURI’S GURU PEETA IS KASHI MAHANIRVANI AKADHA. *I AM TRYING TO GET SOME OF THE DETAIL, PHOTOS ASSOCIATED WITH WHAT I AM TRYING TO NARRATE AND SHARE WITH ALL OF YOU. THIS TAPAS MY GURUS DID ON MY BODY IS NOT A JOKE! THEY HAD SO MUCH LOVE, DEDICATION, THEY LITERALLY PUT THEIR WHOLE LIFE ON ME. *THE PROCESS NEEDS CERTAIN ITEMS LIKE AKASHA GARUDA HERB. THAT NEEDS TO BE SOAKED IN HUMAN BLOOD, MEANING SOMEONE HAS TO PRICK THE FINGER AND GIVE BLOOD. AND FEW MORE HERBS SHOULD BE TIED TO MY MALE ORGAN AND SHOULD BE BOUND BY NINE METAL CHAIN (ORI). *IT SHOULD BE TIED ON MY HIP FOR CERTAIN NUMBER OF DAYS. THIS HERB, AKASHA GARUDA, IS CAPABLE OF EVEN BREAKING THE IRON ROD. I WANTED TO DO SOME RESEARCH AND SHOW YOU ALL. STILL THE HERB IS AVAILABLE. *I MYSELF HAVE EXPERIENCED THE POWER OF THESE KIND OF HERBS IN MY LIFE. *THE PROCESS NEEDED FOR THIS HERB AND FOR SUPERCONSCIOUS MUTATION IN MY BODY IS: THE HERB NEEDS TO BE SOAKED IN HUMAN BLOOD AND THEN OTHER HERBS NEED TO BE ADDED TO IT AND TIED TO MY MALE ORGAN. AND ORI - THE 9 METAL CHAIN - NEEDS TO BE TIED TO MY HIP. *THERE WAS NO SECOND THOUGHT - YOGANANDA PURI DECIDED HE WILL GIVE THE BLOOD. AND VIBHUTANANDA PURI BROUGHT ALL HER GOLD JEWELLERY INCLUDING HER MANGALSUTRA (TO MAKE THE ORI CHAIN) WHICH IS TOO SACRED FOR ANY MARRIED WOMAN. SHE WAS MARRIED. *THEIR EXTREME DEDICATION, TAPAS, DEEP LOVE FOR ME. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO PUT THIS IN WORDS: ONE THING I CAN BE SURE, DURING THIS PROCESS, DUE TO SOME REASON, EVEN IF I HAD DIED, I WOULD NOT HAVE CURSED THEM. I WOULD NOT HAVE FELT I WAS WRONGED! I WAS SEEING THEIR LOVE FOR ME, THEIR FEROCIOUS DEDICATION FOR ME. THEY WERE PRACTICALLY READY TO GIVE THEIR LIFE TO DO ANYTHING TO MAKE IT HAPPEN. *ANYONE OF YOU WHO HAD EVEN ONE SMALL BENEFIT FROM ME, YOU SHOULD KNOW ABOUT THE GURU PARAMPARA. THEY ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR ANY GOOD DONE TO THE WORLD THROUGH THIS BODY. THE WHOLE CREDIT GOES TO THEM! LET THIS BE ON RECORD. *FINALLY THE DECISION WAS MADE AND THEY GATHERED ALL THE PERSONS WHO ARE EXPERTS IN MAKING THIS PHYSICAL PROCESS OF SUPERCONSCIOUS MUTATION HAPPEN. THE NAGA SADHUS ARE EXPERTS IN THIS. *OF COURSE, PHYSICAL PROCESS ALONE IS NOT ENOUGH; SUPERCONSCIOUS PROCESS, PSYCHOLOGICALLY EVOLVING, EMOTIONALLY EVOLVING, AND THEN PHYSICALLY MAKING IT HAPPEN... THE WHOLE PROCESS NEEDED TOO MANY PEOPLE’S CONTRIBUTION. *IN THOSE DAYS THERE WAS NO FLIGHT, THERE WAS ONLY TRAIN. I DON'T KNOW IF FLYING WAS THAT FREQUENT IN INDIA IN THOSE DAYS. THEY CAME TO CHENNAI AND FROM CHENNAI TO TIRUVANNAMALAI, I WAS TOLD THEY CAME BY TRAIN. *THE HERB WAS PICKED UP AND BROUGHT AND YOGANANDA PURI GAVE HIS BLOOD AND SOAKED THE WHOLE HERB IN THE BLOOD. THEN HE HAD HIS FIRST AID - BAND AID, IT GOT HEALED. HE HAD A GREAT POWER OF HEALING HIS BODY JUST LIKE THAT. HE HEALED IT JUST LIKE THAT. *THEY TIED THE HERB ONTO MY BODY AND TIED IT WITH THE ORI - NINE METAL CHAIN AND LEFT IF FOR THREE DAYS. *AND THEN ALL THE OTHER TRAINING - WHICH IS THE MOST POWERFUL AND MOST SECRETIVE... I DON'T WANT TO GO INTO THE DETAILS OF THE WHOLE TRAINING. BUT IF SOMEBODY IS TRAINED IN THIS, HOW THEIR BODY BECOMES, I CAN SHOW YOU BY A VIDEO OF ONE SADHU WHO HAD THIS KIND OF TRAINING. *WHENEVER THE GURU SUCCESSFULLY MANIFESTS THIS SUPERCONSCIOUS MUTATION PROCESS ON THE DISCIPLE, THE DISCIPLE IS BLESSED AND TOLD TO GO AND MANIFEST THIS POWER. SO, ONE OF THE SADHUS WHO SUCCESSFULLY MASTERED THIS SCIENCE, WHO WENT THROUGH THIS SUPERCONSCIOUS MUTATION PROCESS PHYSICALLY, WAS SENT BY HIS GURU TO PULL MY CHARIOT IN KUMBH MELA. THE GURU OF THE TWO SADHUS WHO PULLED MY CHARIOT DURING KUMBH MELA, WHEN HE TRAINED TWO OF HIS DISCIPLES AND THEY MASTERED THE SCIENCE, HE TOLD THEM TO GO AND PULL THE CHARIOT OF SWAMIJI BECAUSE HE MASTERED THIS SCIENCE, DIRECTLY WORKED ON HIS BODY AND MADE HIM MASTER THIS SCIENCE. *TWO VIDEOS I NEED TO SHOW TO ALL OF YOU - AKASHA GARUDA HERB WHICH CAN BREAK EVEN A THICK STEEL ROD, ANOTHER ONE VIDEO IS NAGA SADHU WHO MASTERED THIS ALCHEMY SCIENCE ON WHOM THE SPURECONSUS MUTATION WAS DONE ON PHYSICAL LEVEL. *TAPSA IS NOT JUST BREAKING THE RESTRICTIVE THOUGHT CURRENTS AND RESTRICTIVE LOGIC. IT IS BREAKING THE RESTRICTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS ITSELF. TAPAS MAKES YOU ISHWARA. *THE ISHWARA TATTA IN THESE 36 TATTVAS, STARTS MANIFESTING IN YOU THROUGH TAPAS. WATCH THIS SATSANG 2 - 3 TIMES. I HAVE EXPLAINED ABOUT ISHWARA TATTAV, WHAT IS TAPAS, AND TAPAS DONE ON ME BY MY GURUS. *TAPAS MAKES ISWARA TATTVA MANIFEST IN YOU. MY GURU PARAMPARA AND THE TAPAS THEY DID ON THEMSELVES AND ON ME IS THE REAL ASSET, WEALTH I HAVE. I BLESS YOU ALL. TO WATCH THE DISCOURSE: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z_Lv4TWsQ1E Read the full post here: https://www.facebook.com/138595819561610/posts/4317793681641782/