opened my rheumatology intake papers (for a very serious rheumatology clinic that's HELL to get into because you need to be like, On Death's Door for the referral to be accepted) and they started out like "is your whole family dead yet?? how young were they when they kicked it?? what hospitals have you been in for more than a day in the past year?? what major surgeries have you had??" and i was like "god Damn, okay, i think i'm NOT sick enough to come here. there's nothing wrong with me at all actually. i'm wasting the time of these doctors who should be taking care of patients whose entire families are dead"

then i got to page two.

which was like, "please tell us about your quality of life over the past week with these fatigue/pain/fog/functioning scales, plus check off new symptoms that have appeared in the last year from this long list, also please shade in the parts of your body that experience pain on this diagram"

and.

uh.

well. folks.

i am Definitely sick enough to come here.