scopOphilic_micromessaging_228 - scopOphilic1997 presents a new micro-messaging series: small, subtle, and often unintentional messages we send and receive verbally and non-verbally.

Sooo lil story time So my best friend from middle & high school was this kid called Francois Xavier, french kid, i was in a french international high school in DC; in spanish the nickname for that name is Paco which i often called him, we got along great, two fun curious kids, wandering about he was as pure as can be; after his birthday one time in high school, where we all came to his house, we got a bit loose, and he locked himself in the bathroom crying about the negative aspects of this world, he rly wants a better place, he dsnt understand why ppl are bad well when college came, i stayed in the US, he went to Canada; i’d visit him, he’d come down and yeah, we were growing up, both of us got curiouser to the world, to beyond, adventuring, wandering..

he’d tell me how if he were in a conversation that was boring, even mid party, mid convo, he wld just do a spongebob meme and head out, no explanation... this went on to if he was bored, he’d grab his bottle of water and at future times a tent and he’d go for a walk, he’d spend the day out and come back, then days, then weeks, then he’d just spend months wandering the country, did that in Canada, France, Spain, parts of the US, we stayed in touch over skype in France, he saved up working at Burger King while growing mushrooms for himself at home; he’d be meditating since our high school days, he was always there for the soulful conversations with me; so he got into the heroic doses at home; he’d tell me how his mom would just pop her head in to check in on him from time to time, besides tht, chillin I think he mentioned to me he was gonna wander around Asia at some point.. Next time i hear from him, He’s been studying Muy Thai on an island in Thailand After a while not hearing from him, I reach out to his brother,

His brother tells me he joined a Buddhist Temple in Thailand with minimum contact, letting go of all earthly possessions, 

This was about 2 years ago

I recently got in touch with his brother, who’s like we need to talk

I’m a bit fearful..probably just me overthinking

Today is Paco’s Birthday,

Happy birthday bud

I sent you an email if that’s a thing To one of the OG Restless Wanderers

My roommate hates me. I don't know if we can make it through this... 😭😭😭😥😪 *violins playing in the background* #theresarightway #andtheresawrongway #thisisthewrongway #thisisthethirdtime #maybehewantsmetomoveout #maybehedoesntwantmeinhislifeanymore #toiletpaperdrama #thisisreal #thisishard @dhorton08 #loveyabud #nicelegs

Is it really crossfit if you don’t take your shirt off? . I want to take moment and give some praise and appreciation to a really close friend of mine. Man, I can’t give this guy enough praise! From playing college football to preparing for life, this guy is the definition of putting your head down and getting work done. . Brock Baumgran is by far the most humble, hardest working man of God that I’ve ever met. From transferring colleges to chase his football career, to injuries that have taken him out of college football, to his loyalty, his heart, dedication, perseverance, and how he treats his family and friends. . If you guys know Brock, you know just as I do that you can’t say one bad thing about him. He is so deserving of so much more that what he has. . He took me through a crossfit workout this morning at 5:30am! Whenever I’m back home I will always make time to catch up with this stud! . Here was our workout: 1) Ladder 10 reps down to 1 rep BW bench press (185lbs) superset with - 2) Ladder 10 reps down to 1 rep BW pull-ups 3) Ladder 8 down to 1, then 1 up to 8 and then 8 down to 1 Push Press and Burpee combo! . #loveyabud (at Minnesota)

My #Buddy #Enook. Don't tell anyone but you're #secretly my favorite #Eskies #Mascot AND #Esk. Ssshhhhh. #LoveYaBud. #FanPatriotism #GoEsks #Esks #AllConnected #Eskie #CFLGameDay (at Commonwealth Stadium)

Missing my bestie Keri something fierce these days... 💙 I thought Ottawa would’ve been out of your system by now @keriberi84 😒 #moveback #senssuck #loveyabud — view on Instagram https://ift.tt/2HBexRC

Holy crap have the years flown by. #best #friends #same #opposite #loveyabud #ehbud #darts #timmys #memories #forever @kodabear6

To My Dearest Family & Friends ... Dear Ferg Day 2 ..

To My Dearest Family

(Author Unknown)

To my dearest family,  some things I'd like to say.  But first of all, to let you know,  that I arrived okay.  I'm writing this from the Bridge.  Here I dwell with God above.  Here there's no more tears of sadness.  Here is just eternal love.  Please do not be unhappy  just because I'm out of sight.  Remember that I am with you  every morning, noon and night.  That day I had to leave you  when my life on earth was through,  God picked me up and hugged me  and He said, "I welcome you.  It's good to have you back again,  you were missed while you were gone.  As for your dearest family,  They'll be here later on."  God gave me a list of things,  that he wished for me to do.  And foremost on the list,  was to watch and care for you.  And when you lie in bed at night  the day's chores put to flight,  God and I are closest to you...  in the middle of the night.  When you think of my life on earth,  and all those loving years,  because you are only human,  they are bound to bring you tears.  But do not be afraid to cry  it does relieve the pain.  Remember there would be no flowers,  unless there was some rain.  I wish that I could tell you  all that God has planned.  If I were to tell you,  you wouldn't understand.  But one thing is for certain,  though my life on earth is o'er.  I'm closer to you now,  than I ever was before.  There are rocky roads ahead of you  and many hills to climb;  But together we can do it  by taking one day at a time.  It was always my philosophy  and I'd like it for you too;  That as you give unto the world,  the world will give to you.  If you can help somebody  who's in sorrow and pain;  Then you can say to God at night...  "My day was not in vain."  And now I am contented...  that my life was worthwhile.  Knowing as I passed along  I made somebody smile.  God says: "If you meet somebody  who is sad and feeling low;  Just lend a hand to pick him up,  as on your way you go.  When you're walking down the street  with me on your mind;  I'm walking in your footsteps  only half a step behind."  "And when it's time for you to go...  from that body to be free.  Remember you're not going...  you're coming here to me." 

Love this , can't wait to see you again bud ! To tell you all about the time i had down here and to tell you all about my kids (when i have them ) and every thing else ! You will probably already know but I'm going to tell you anyway lol! Love and miss you ferg, i don't think any of us really understand how much we will miss some one until that time comes and i hope this time don't come again any time soon! I don't think you even understand how much any of us miss you, you were a great kid that could have anything he wanted! you were taking way too soon from us, you can fitzy ! I'd do anything to have you back misss you so much and can't wait to see you again love britt!