bestie being a fellow DM just makes you even hotter. now come sit in my lap so I can fill up that empty hole and jerk you off while you tell me about all your many NPCs
JABEKSBSK okay yes please 😳😳😳😳
i guess ill update yall after my session tomorrow??? i didnt realize any of yall cared djsbksjd
I called her baby, as a joke. She laughed and asked me if I was big on petnames - if I would be, if we were dating. I laughed back and replied 'yes', bdcause yes, of course I would be.
I can't stop thinking about it. When I was seven I wanted to be a princess and when I was eight I wanted to be a spy and when I was nine I wanted to be loveable and charming and alive.
And somehow I ended up becoming a whole new person, consciously aware of it as I evolved. As I changed. I made the effort to change how I interact, how I speak, how I love and live and love some more.
And really aren't those two the same? Loving and living and loving again, no wonder their spelling is so similar because what else could living be but falling in love with something new every day?
I remember watching a movie where the main character used petnames for their friends and family and partners, and I remember thinking that that's love. Little signs, small words, small affections.
I call my friends sweetheart and baby and honey and darling because I do, I really do love them. And one day seven eight nine years from now I will have new friends who I have loved and lived and loved again.
But right now? Right now, all I want is to call you babe. To kiss your hand like a princess and go on adventures with you like a spy and charm you and love you as I wished to be when I was young.
Because I love and live and love again, and I worked hard to love myself enough to love living and to love loving and really, babe,
One time I had a dream that all the dreamies were mermaids, but chenle was different. Instead he had the top half as a dolphin and the bottom half was human legs. And he ran around with a beach ball and would dolphin laugh while he threw it at people's faces... -anon (╥﹏╥)
You know life is so shitty for me most of the time I feel like I’ve been stuck in the same place for forever and although I’m not totally depressed sometimes I’m just like fuck it I’m gonna indulge in some audio porn/gifs/kissing channel
Does that make me a disgusting person? I mean I’m not an addict not really I only do it once in a blue moon surely if I was an addict I’d make the effort to do it every day right? Sorry for venting but you’re an awesome person and I feel like this is a safe non judgemental place
Thank you! I'm glad that you're finding my blog a safe place to say this things. 💙 And I'm sorry that you're feeling this way 🥺 I think you're not the only one who feels the same (like stuck) but ofc in a different kind of way. I wasn't feeling mentally good a couple of days unfortunately (i can only play games kshdjjs the only thing i can do) and same here, I admit that I also go look at some p*rn/sexy gifs cause admittedly it somehow helps to give something in my brain (?) lol i mean, i know not everyone might agree but, it sends this whatever in my brain and helps keep me distracted to whatever i feel or thinking. so i think it's alright to look at those things, or like touch ourselves from time to time. it doesn't make you a bad or disgusting person.
when i was younger, i also think those things or even feeling such things are disgusting, but later on i realize it's just part of being human, like getting sad, angry, happy, etc and including, horny - a taboo thing to feel. but there's this common saying that says (idk the exact words), too much is always bad for ourselves, in any means: too much eating, too much drinking, sleeping, sex, watching, you name it, is not good for our being. so you're okay as long as it's moderate, as long as it's not like some kind of vice or is affecting your personal life, health and relationships, or every aspect in your life, in general. don't overthink about it too much! you're okay! (◡ ω ◡) again, it's normal to feel these things and do these things as long as it's not harmful to you and others! 💙
2. talk about the girl who made you realise you liked girls
well as i said before i kinda always knew i liked girls? it was very natural to me and i always thought of girls the way other girls thought about guys and i didn't care? BUT sjdhjs this is very fucked up but when i was like?? six? seven? me and my cousin were best friends, she was like my second or third cousin idk, and we really liked playing pretend and we would always act like we were married and fake kiss with our hands over our mouths and kshdjj IT'S FUNNY TO THINK ABOUT THIS NOW BUT yeah it's the closest i could get for an answer