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saiharaiscuterthanyou · 2 years

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\\TW\\ Smut, if ur a minor, you do you.

Hi, so basically my bsd obsessed friend complained abt there being no good Kunikida smut. So imma change that. Yeah, that's it. You have been warned?

Also shout out to you, xoxo 💋

And don't bother the trashy English. This also be very short. NSFW UNDERCUT (if I figure out..I suck in Tumblr.)

The door opened. As he walked in, he aggressively took of his tie. Sitting down he let out a sigh. All he needed was a break. That's all. A break from work and most importantly, a break from that idiot Dazai.

He just needed a break and time with you. He misses you daily in work. As soon as he thought of you, he called your name.

“Y/n? Are you here?” he yelled.

“Oh! Hey ‘Kida. Didn't hear you, how was work?” you responded from the Bathroom. Coming out with wet hair, a towel, and your pretty smile. God, he really loves this kind of sight. But better would be seeing you without your towel-

“Kunikida? I asked you a question. ” you said drying your hair.

“Well it wasn't the best. I'm really stressed right now.” he blurted out, still in his dirty thoughts. You chuckled, “Let me guess! Dazai? He's the reason you're so stressed lately! And you seem pretty tensed from it.” . He laughs a little, “Yeah. He's just so busy killing himself and goofing around, that I had to do all his damn paperwork.” you sat down beside him, putting one hand on his thigh.

Well maybe you were right. He really was stressed. He really wanted to get rid of this stress that Dazai caused, but he needed help, your help. Kunikida wanted to fuck the stress out, besides, it is one of the healthiest way to relief stress. Ofc with consent!

“Lets go to the bedroom. ” he said out of nowhere leaving you kind of shocked.

As your face heated up, you asked, “To...to cuddle? Or..?-”

“The best and healthiest way to relief is to orgasm. Also its a good way of making up all the time we could've have sex. Is..that ok for you?” still in denial of what you just heard you nodded and went upstairs.

On the way to up your bed you already started to make out. Your pussy was already throbbing of lust. Just before getting onto bed, he stopped kissing you and pushed you down. As you landed on your bed, he hoovered over you. You could see the smirk growing on his face,

“Well then, let's start. And to remind you, this is gonna be a long night, darling.”

Oh boy, and you're going to enjoy it.

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Hi, again! Just saying that it sucked. But I would've made it longer if it wasn't 1am. So bye ig? Xx

#kunikida smut #chuuya nakahara #kunikidazai #kunikida doppo #bsd #bsd kunikida #idk why.

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taikanyohou · 2 years

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hi!! i saw your meta about vegas and when he started wanting pete, and i was curious about your thoughts on when pete started wanting vegas?

hiiii anon!!!!!

aaaaaaah. yeah. pete starting to want vegas!!!!!

i think with pete, for me personally, it's a lot more easier to understand and say.

pete hasn't shown any kind of want towards vegas at all until episode 12.

the only two times he has been sucked into the vacuum and black hole of vegas' lure and darkness is in episode 7, the torture scene, and episode 9, the temple scene.

but i wouldnt even call that want. it's purely "being sucked into". there isn't any sense of control within his pull towards vegas' darkness in those 2 scenes. he just looks dazed, completely hypnotized, almost zoned out and out of it, that's mixed in with a heavy dose of intrigue.

but its not what i'd call want. see vegas is big and bright and beautiful and shines. everyone wants him whilst not wanting him. he's irresistible whilst being unpalatable. he's literally the forbidden apple. the temptation to want vegas is so strong, the urge to sin for vegas is so strong.

but for pete, it's even moreso. because pete is the head bodyguard of the main family. he represents them. he leads by example. so vegas becomes even more of forbidden apple to him in particular ("i know exactly what i want. how about you pete? how do you like it?" "i know you're suffering inside".)

and i looooove that push and pull and can't and shouldn't but i need a taste of him of it all, so badly.

and it rears its head in episode 11. even at this point, pete doesn't want him. i'll talk about the wanting part in a bit. but i feel like i need to talk about episode 10 and 11 first.

so i mentioned, and talked a lot in my meta for vegas, about pete's defiance, and how that was the only trait that made him human, in vegas' eyes. now. pete uses defiance as his sole tool to survive. his uses disobedience as his sole tool to survive. the smiling back at vegas whilst vegas tortures him? is his defiance and disobedience. its his "what's the worst that you've got?". and pete's smile has always been unsettling. its probably something vegas has found as being the most annoying thing about him from since their 1st interaction up until episode 11, because vegas knows how fake that smile is. what a mask it is.

so. episode 11. the start of it is really intriguing. bc vegas is feeling pete up, hands roaming everywhere, and its the 1st time vegas has Touched Pete. yes, its intimidation. but its that One Moment, you know, The One, where pete is talking to his grandma on the phone, and vegas does That Thing to pete's neck and pete just, for a second, shuts his eyes and leans his head back and .... feels it. feels that stir in his stomach from it, and vegas smirks because he knows he's having the exact desired effect on pete.

and part of me thinks that when pete screams at vegas "are you happy now?", its also him taking that anger out of Letting Himself Feel That Stir In His Stomach from vegas doing whatever he did to his neck, onto vegas. its him taking that shame out, that "i shouldnt have felt that but i did, and i hate that i did, and you're such a fucking dick for it."

so yeah. another point to note from that scene is how pete catches on right away that vegas' dad is an abuser. he sniffed it out straight away. and its the 1st time vegas is humiliated like that, on that level, in front of pete. and pete sees the effect that has on vegas: he rages, he slams the table and knocks the stuff off from it. so pete picks up on the pattern: vegas' dad abuses vegas and that leads to vegas taking his anger out on something. until he points the gun at him and pete thinks, this is it, i can finally die now.

and vegas doesnt kill him. and pete doesnt get it. doesnt get what he means by vegas calling him a pet.

and then we don't see anything for a bit in episode 11 except for pete's defiance and disobedience to vegas. until vegas nurses him and treats his wound and kisses the medication into his mouth.

and THAT. that knocks pete out mentally. bc what the Fuck was that? the sniffing the neck is One Thing, but his was vegas' mouth on his mouth, and "you only kiss those who you like" right?. but vegas Doesnt Like pete, so what the fuck is this meant to mean?

and then, they talk about their fathers. and i think, for pete, that conversation really just clarified everything to him about who vegas is a person. what his motivations are. why he feels so much rage and anger. why he is so envious of kinn. and pete is someone who is extremely empathetic, who understands people's emotions, so its not hard to get why he starts to develop an understanding for vegas.

and then, when vegas goes and makes him a fresh bowl of hot noodles, pete is once again surprised, i guess, by vegas' show of humanity. that, oh, he can be this human too. he can show kindness and consideration too.

and pete begins to latch onto that. yes he does. even if its unconsciously, but he begins to latch onto these moments of humanity from vegas. and that includes the way vegas dresses in his most casual and comfortable and worn in clothes - his pyjamas, his white tshirt and grey joggers. it all plays a part. its all a sign of vegas' humanity. of a side that no one else has seen of him in a way pete has.

and in the vegas meta ask i talked about the episode 12 blood type scene, and how that scene was All Human. and pete reciprocates that same interest vegas had in wanting to know more about him. and pete's enjoying it just as much as vegas is. until "sensitive" and "you need love" comes up. and pete isn't scared of vegas' reaction of him kicking the book out of his hand, its more so that he's .... lost in thought over what was so wrong in what he said about how sensitivity =/= weakness, and the mention of the word love.

and pete gets his answer when the hedgehog dies. and i honestly feel like pete, at first, did not know what to do with vegas crying and mourning like that. the only thing he could not do, was to leave him. because pete is too kind, and pete is too empathetic, and pete falls for vegas' humanity, and this is as human as he gotten, and pete is the type of guy to help and revel in the role of being a protector, a guardian angel, because that's what his role is as a bodyguard. he service lies in being a protector. so it makes more than enough sense to understand why he stayed. because he couldnt leave an emotionally vulnerable vegas like that. that goes against everything in Pete, The Bodyguard's DNA as well as Just Pete's DNA.

and i think its also worth noting that even up until this point, pete has never once felt like vegas could ever want him sexually and intimately. like. yeah he may have kissed him in ep 11 when feeding him his medicine, but everything's a mindfuck with vegas, and i think pete just doesnt even see himself as someone vegas could ever be remotely interested in (and now that i compare this to my vegas meta, where i talk about how pete has already caught vegas' eye from so so so early on, its just ..... DELICIOUS).

and i think it isnt until vegas says "i know you're suffering inside", that something shifts in pete. thats a loaded line in relation to pete. thats a line that has pete realise that vegas has seen him in a way no one has, that he's managed to be able to dig so deeply into pete, read him so well, under all of these masks he puts on, that he could take them all apart one by one, then cut him open, put his hand inside, and pull out this hidden suffering.

and when vegas says "let it out", i think that's the final piece. thats what does pete in. bc finally, finally, someone is letting him be, in whatever capacity pete wants to be in. someone wants him enough, that much, in such a way, that they're telling him to not hold back in being who he is to his full potential. no suppression, no censoring, no judgement at all. vegas just wants to see pete for who pete really is.

and thats made even more glaringly clear to pete when vegas pulls away and tells him, that he needs to give in to him, give into him completely, not as a saviour or a protector, but as a human that has desires and needs and urges and a darkness to them.

so yeah, sexually and physically its then, that pete wants vegas. and what follows is just ... all pete. pete wrapping the chains around his hands and wrists when vegas eats him out, pete giving vegas the ropes and his entire trust of his body to vegas. pete enjoying the sex, pete finding himself in it, pete finding vegas' humanity in it. pete giving vegas one of his most truest, darkest and honest smiles to vegas yet, that has vegas' own smile falter.

and its important to distinguish when pete wants vegas sexually and physically vs when pete wants him emotionally, bc a huge part of pete's character development is based on what he gets from and takes from vegas physically and how that fulfills him. bc even here, i dont think pete wants vegas emotionally just yet.

the sex was enthralling, gripping, mind-numbingly good. but it does nothing when he realises that he's gone from being treated as humanly as ever, to becoming a pet again.

and that leaves pete hollow. so, so hollow.

so when does pete want vegas emotionally? its when vegas walks away from him at the end of ep 13, at the back of the club. i would have said that no, it was the scene where pete's about to escape and he touches vegas' face one last time before knocking him out. but i think that's more pete just ... feeling sorry about the entire situation. sorry that he cant stay, sorry that they're both in a mess like this, sorry that he could see the potential in vegas but he needs to leave, sorry that vegas wants to try but its not in the way that it has to be in, sorry that they're doomed. even when pete is crying into his food, that's him missing vegas' touch, that's him craving vegas physically. because he shouldnt be missing that, and yet, he's sobbing his heart out whilst doing so. so i'd say it's the club scene. bc thats where pete can't kill him, when he could put an end to it all. thats where he realises vegas has come to see him despite that fact that he shouldnt even be out on the streets. that vegas this time is just apologising, with no other intention but to apologise, not to make pete stay or make pete make a promise to him. none of that. and then pete touches his face.

and oh. god. that moment. its then. bc this is the vegas pete wants. this is the vegas he's become fond of. this humanity vegas displays. that he's humble enough to hold pete as he cries into his shirt and then sit on the ground with him, press their foreheads together, hold his hand with a gun between their bodies, and just apologise, as he lets pete cry. that moment, when he touches vegas' face there, is him acknowledging vegas, him seeing vegas, him wanting THIS vegas. and how cruel is it, that he couldnt have this vegas for long enough, yet at the same time, how human is it, that vegas this time chose to put everything aside to come to see pete, including his own safety.

because im certain that by episode 14, pete knows what he wants. he just acts on it when he sees vegas mourning his dead father, bc of the implications that carries ("everything that i love left me"), and how pete knows that if he doesnt make it to vegas in time, there will be nothing left. and yet, pete needs vegas to know that he is still there. that there is still something worth living for. that they, together, could be something worth living for ("you're the most important person in my life."). and something worth killing for. and something worth trying again for ("come here, don't be shy".)

#faiza answers #pete's was a Lot more easier to write out tbh?? but yeah then again pete's side of it just feels .... so tragic.#idk why.

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