#I'm more of an academic than a creative so this is my fave kind of thing
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gay man lookin for a marvel matchup here!
20, he/they, kinda shaggy black hair, pasty lil white boy, brown eyes, 5'4, kind of a pathetic twink. i wear glasses. average outfit would be all black, sweater, skinny jeans, big stompy boots, and an assload of rings and necklaces- i guess one could describe it as like, the dress of a comfy elder emo. but i really want to incorporate dark academia into that mix. i'm a silver jewelery kind of guy, my fave color is black/blue/purple and my favorite crystal is iolite. i'm very picky about textiles and the feel of things.
my music taste is pretty much 80's-2010s rock, divorced dad rock, 2000's-2010's pop, and country, but i'm quite picky about country - i enjoy rascal flatts and carrie underwood, as well as musical theatre. my favorite musical is jekyll and hyde :)
i'm a huge nerd, especially when it comes to dnd, lord of the rings, horror, and various other types of media, and my favorite thing is getting people into them. if I've met someone who has never watched lotr, or perhaps never listened to black sabbath? brace yourself. i'm the type to infodump through a movie, and i enjoy others doing the same. tell me everything that goes on in your mind, you know? watch me hold it up to the light and be unfazed.
i also enjoy history and classic literature, and will infodump about queer undertones in it. all this to say, i'm just very passionate about things. especially space. i also collect! i collect many things - bottles, trinkets, jewelry, crystals, animal bones, things pertaining to my interests. my room reflects my mind- cohesive in its own way, but cluttered, spacey.
i'm creative, kind of a dreamer with their head in the clouds, my goals are in the stars but i have the know-how to make them happen. cap sun, aries moon, Leo rising, intp, generally quite shy until i get over the mortifying concept of being known, then i swing wildly between pure chaos and complete catatonic, like a pendulum. academically i work under unbridled spite and determination. when i ask what people like about me, they say i'm funny, inspiring, charming, and gifted in creativity. i'm an artist, a writer. they say that i'm good at reading and profiling people. i enjoy looking at people's natal charts not as a way of judgement, but as a way to look into them as a person.
that being said i try my best to make others happy, even if at the expense of myself. i tend to be neglectful of myself in that regard, both physically and mentally. i struggle from a lot of mental health issues that involve severe dissociation and memory loss, so luckily, i have some coping tools under my belt, but i'm unable to recall past events both short and long term, so i keep a list of the things i love about people so i never forget them- forgetting the people i love is a fear of mine, as well as heights, and the ocean, and large crowds. i also struggle with sleep issues, paranoia and anxiety. i try to handle these things on my own, lest i bother someone with them. it's difficult to both ask and receive help. through complicated reasons, i'm familiar with the concept of guilt and shame. i know more than most how it feels like necrosis rotting away at your insides, and i know that it one day will subside into a dull ache in the back of your head. i also suffer from chronic back pain and migraines. my main vice is anything that will fuzz my brain and help me escape for a little while. i'm working on that, working on staying grounded, but it's hard. if someone was capable of noticing and pulling me out, i'd be forever theirs. i'm also horrifically terrible at confrontation and shut down whenever it happens.
my taste in men kind of feeds into my martyr complex 😭 i'm the type to go "i can fix him." except i'd also love them regardless of the mental state and position they're in, because i myself would have wanted that as well. if i could love someone through it all and be a bit of relief, that's all i'd be satisfied with. i want the fire and passion, but i also want to be their peace. i connect to the broken minds because i know what that's like, in a sense. i think i just crave understanding, i want someone to know me, and WANT to know me in the way i go out of my way to understand others. i want to receive, not just give. i want reciprocation, i want, i yearn, i desire, all in my head. that being said romantically i tend to NOT gravitate towards golden retriever types- they're always my besties, though!
i hope this all makes sense. i tend to ramble on like a madman. good luck, and godspeed o7
This was like reading the odyssey my guy i had to stop and reread things multiple times (/pos)
== Marvel ==>
I match you up with…
Bruce Banner (This one was very mixed for me, so I did my best)
Yeah you can fix him (but you can also love him how he is).
When you mention connecting best with broken minds, a lot of marvel men came to mind, but I think Bruce is a special sort. He’s someone who feels so strongly that he literally broke himself, and I think he’d need someone like you, and you him.
I think you’d relax him with your music and sense of passion. He’d love listening to dad rock with you while you regale him with paragraphs upon paragraphs of your interests.
The two of you definitely have LOTR movie marathons monthly, and you’ll both feel a calm that seems unreal.
Waking up afterwards with limbs twisted together and bathed in warmth, it’s such a nice change of pace from the turmoil.
You easily become one of the people who calms him down when he’s enraged or hulked out.
In turn, he’s the one who writes little reminders of dates and people for you, and always leaves a note telling you how much he loves you on the bedside drawer.
He’ll also find comfort in your art, and you’ll find it plastered everywhere around you shared house. He sets anything you make as his phone background, and just looking at it fills him with love.
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So I've been seeing a lot of back and forth about fandom and demographics and sexism and so forth surrounding FGO and the lack of content for male characters, and a lot of good points have been raised but there's a factor that seems to be consistently missing in a lot of these discussions:
Have you ever noticed how eerily quiet this fandom is for its size?
I mean, the trickle of fan content beyond glamour paintings and pinups of individual faves. Cosplay photos rarely focus on what the characters do, only on making the subject look attractive, to a far greater extent than in other fandoms I've cosplayed for, and if you think the male characters are underrepresented in FGO canon, well, try and find any cosplays of some of them (I am working at becoming the first 3rd ascension Siegfried I've ever seen). Fanfics are pretty uncommon. Fanfics that focus on the relationships between established characters rather than someone's Gudasona, even rarer - and I'm not saying this to say there's anything wrong with self-inserting, especially not when it's all but begged for by the canon, in fact I love and adore all my friends' Gudasonas, but it illustrates something about the composition of the fandom as a whole. It's especially fascinating and unsettling because - look at this franchise. No, really, look at it. It doesn't just demand self-insertion; it is the ambitious crossover of almost everything in the public domain, with an extensively built yet flexible world (the rules are what they are until they're dramatically convenient to break, there are multiple canon timelines, etc.); it is the kind of thing that is BEGGING for fan creativity and unofficial stories, and they just...aren't there.
Or, well, they are there, but not nearly as much as you would expect when this franchise, with such a great formula for fan creativity, has been going for like 20 years and you can survive on nothing but official licensed Fate series merch. No, really. Click the link.
Normally if you gave that much merch to a fandom this (seemingly) small, it would be the biggest and most obvious financial blunder since Cave Johnson, yet somehow this series keeps churning as a massive success.
Meaning there is a quiet, often silent side of this fandom.
So let's talk demographics and fandom behavior.
Fandom behavior exists on a spectrum from curatory to transformative. On the extreme of the curatory side, there are the supercollectors, the people who get into debates over wiki accuracy that make literary academic fights look tame, the people who sit down and review the canon 20 times to show the most accurate timelines possible that we all check as religiously as if they were official - the curatory side of a fandom is the people who are Just Here For The Canon. On the extreme of the transformative side, the people who ask "hey what if this character from my OTHER favorite game was the self-insert protagonist for THIS game?", the people who create big ambitious crossovers between Demon Slayer and Spongebob with guest characters from a dozen other pieces of media set against the backdrop of the Great Molasses Flood of Boston, and the people who, just through trial and error, understand the mechanics of how that time Goofy fucking died in Kingdom Hearts was actually pretty poignant in context (hint: ANYTHING can be if the viewer is immersed enough).
Of course, it's a spectrum. Most people are not either of those extremes. Most fanfic authors like to maintain a little more connection to canon, many people both write fanfics and collect figures (hi, I'm one of them), most AUs try to maintain a certain level of paralleling canon, and fanart can be ANYWHERE on this spectrum as can cosplay (ask me about my Berserker!Sieg cosplay in progress! ), but for the most part fandom happens in the middle.
But, there is a demographic trend. Namely, men tend to lean more curatory, and women tend to lean more transformative. Or, to go even deeper, straight men tend to lean curatory; women and queer people of all genders tend to slide more transformative, and in my experience disability also often makes people slide further toward the transformative end - because ultimately, while this isn't always the case, transformative fandom is often a response to clicking with a piece of media but being unable to shake the fact that this was...definitely not made for you.
And in my observation the quietest (and most obnoxious) place on the spectrum is Curatory Lite - i.e., you're collecting stuff, you're probably a canon purist, you might be one of those obnoxious dudes who quizzes female cosplayers on the timeline of the media they're cosplaying from because you think the Only Way To Fandom is to be as obsessed with canon trivia as you, but you're probably not getting into fights with other dudes on the internet about illustrated timelines or bitching on Twitter that you don't like this canon twist so they NEED to change it for YOU because fanfic is beneath you.
This is, unfortunately, probably our silent majority.
This is, unfortunately, probably where the money is coming from.
Now, I don't think this means we should stop saying "hey, guys, this is fucking ridiculous," nor am I saying it's hopeless.
What I'm saying is, if you're wondering how this can continue despite the fact that damned near everyone who's TALKING hates it, even the straight men, even the official artists...look at how many people are talking, compared to how much merch is selling.
The point is that it's, uh. I fear it may be more of an uphill battle than the near unanimous discussion makes it seem.
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@firstofoctober dedicatedly does this fandom meme at the end of every year ever since back in lj days and i am bored so here we go
even just calling this a "meme" is so dated now. love it
1. Your main fandom of the year: It was probably Borderlands by definition for a majority of the year, although in that sort of waning way where different things monthly would catch my eye. Ah the slow end of an era...
2. Your favorite film this year: Oh my god wtf movies did I watch this year. I think basically by default it's No Way Home because it's the only film I can remember watching from 2021 flkhghlg... it was certainly the movie I was most anticipating, by which I mean also the only movie I was anticipating and the only one I braved a movie theatre for in the past two years.
3. Your favorite book this year: Much like the above, I only read a few books, and right now I'm hard-pressed to remember what I read, when. The pandemic's a blur. But I am certain How to Pronounce Knife by Souvankham Thammavongsa was 2021, and I did enjoy it. I like short story anthologies. The other one I've been working through is a Shirley Jackson collection.
4. Your favorite album or song this year: According to Spotify wrapped it was Red lmfao. I also got into Sour like, six months after everyone else.
5. Your favorite TV show this year: Arcane apparently?! Sneaking in just below the deadline.
6. Your favorite Tumblr game this year: I'm using creative liberty since a) no fave tumblr?? and b) this meme is not designed for Gamers and I played way more games than I watched movies or read books. Anyway Psychonauts 2 was my GOTY! I absolutely loved it, what a gem. Fun to play, great script, incredible level design, unique look and feel. I played a lot of good games this year, but Psychonauts 2 takes top slot.
7. Your best new fandom discovery of the year: I guess I have to give it to Arcane despite only being around for like, two weeks, it's the first time in years something sort of wholly took over my thought process after finishing and made me want to write fic, etc.
Runner-up mention will go to Spider-Man just because god I consumed so much Spider-Man this year lmao... two Insomniac games and their DLC, every movie including Spiderverse and all the MCU ensemble clips. It didn't really give me the same level of intense emotional investment, but it sure did give me something to, like, academically study lol.
8. Your biggest fandom disappointment of the year: Man I actually... can't think of anything that really stunned me? I guess I was lowkey disappointed we didn't get Harley Quinn s3 but that's not really the same. Also the Harley Quinn TV show comics sucked ass, so maybe that.
9. Your TV boyfriend of the year: Viktor Arcane, the latest in my long line of beloved white men with sad puppy eyes. I am nothing if not consistent.
10. Your TV gamer girlfriend of the year: I'll give this one to Alex Chen. I really wanted to like True Colours, of course, but I was still surprised by HOW MUCH I liked True Colours, and particularly Alex herself. What a wonderful, nuanced character. The whole game rests on her lovely empathetic shoulders.
11. Your biggest squee moment of the year: "Squee moment". This meme is so old. God bless. I'm actually not sure? I can't think of any big announcement or ship development that made me lose it this year, lol. Maybe seeing No Way Home just because it was cool to be in such an excited, cheering theatre, especially after two years of pandemic. And now I am back in covid 2: christmas boogaloo lockdown anyway, so it was kind of a last hurrah lmfao.
WAIT NEVER MIND it was the announcement RTD is coming back to Doctor Who?!?! !?? What the fuck!! Return of the king... Roll on 2023
12. Your most missed old fandom: Don't have one. I do have an old fandom I wish I could stop hearing about forever because mention if it brings only pain and bitterness due to a creator's radicalization. No points for guessing.
13. Your fandom you haven’t tried yet, but want to? None comes to mind.
14. Your biggest anticipation of the New Year: Lots of video games lol... LIS Remastered, Oxenfree 2, Horizon Forbidden West. Killing Eve's final season. Harley Quinn... hopefully...
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Rick! also the Graham Reaper
Hello again!
Rick Pratt
Sexuality headcanon ~ This boy is very, very gay. I think we all agree on that. 😂
OTP ~ Vyvyan. As I've said before, I love Rivyan. I think Vyv's the only person who could deal with Rick, anyway. 😂 He knows how Rick works, he knows how to get him to give in when he's being annoying. Rick could do with hanging around Vyvyan anyway - someone's got to stop him becoming the middle class Tory voter he was destined to end up as.
BrOTP ~ Rick has no friends, next ques- I'm joking, I'm joking! 😂 Though they get very little screen time and Rick isn't particularly nice to them, Sue and that other guy from his sociology course seem the people he should have some kind of rapport with. Maybe all the sociology students go out for drinks now and then. Rick's obviously the hanger on of the group - the one no one really wants there - but maybe Sue and that guy have more patience?
NOTP ~ I don't really ship CoolPoet. Rick sucks up to Mike far too much for him to end up anything but heartbroken and I don't want that for this little shit, this bastard for whom I hold affection. 😂 That said, I'm not anti-CoolPoet and you lot should know by now that Rick and angst are my favourite ingredients to combine.
First headcanon that pops into my head ~ My first thought was the headcanon about Rick liking The Smiths but I'm far from the first person to headcanon that. There's also the extended family of Riks headcanon I have and the arguable subtext of Rick fancying Dr Morrison and Cliff Richard. But something fresh? I always, in the back of my mind, headcanon Rick's birthday as being in August. That's because August is the last month in the academic year in the UK and I need Rick to be the youngest of the four in every sense 😂 he just is. Astrologers amongst the scumbags might agree with me if it means Rick is a Leo.
Favourite line from this character ~ It's not possible for me to say definitively but this is a contender: "I HOPE YOU'RE SATISFIED, THATCHER!"
One way in which I relate to this character ~ I think... The desire to be a creative and a force for social progress rather than a hindrance to it, though I promise I don't just want to look cool like Rick does. And also I know, I'm cheating 😂 we both have an interest in sociology and politics. Actually, Rick being a sociology student was one of the first things that drew me to him and amused me. I will be arrogant now though and say I know more about both sociology and politics than our beloved prick.
Thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character ~ Rick is so attention seeking and antagonistic almost on principle. I mean, these two things are part of why I find him so funny and I wouldn't change them. I just think we should be allowed to reach through the screen and shake him every now and then. 😂 Thank Cliff for Vyvyan, eh?
Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? ~ Aha, I pose a third option: sinnamon roll. 😏
Graham Reaper (The scumbags gave Death from Maurice Dobbs Makes a Movie a name... Although since Death is actually just meant to be a man playing Death, I guess Graham has become his own entity?)
Sexuality headcanon ~ Asexual? I feel like supernatural immortal deities would probably either be sexless or sex mad.
OTP ~ His scythe.
BrOTP ~ The other three horsemen of the apocalypse, specifically the ones from the TYO episode Interesting.
NOTP ~ Maurice Dobbs. I'll admit, I only actually watched the last few minutes of the film featuring Rik but I got the impression that Maurice is a bit of a pillock.
First headcanon that pops into my head ~ I like the headcanon that he is somehow responsible for the existence of Alan B'Stard. 😂
Favourite line from this character ~ I only watched the clips once. From what I remember, he was a bit like Fred. I'll take the loophole and go with his hysterical laughing from the credits.
One way in which I relate to this character ~ I like Halloween. He seems like that would be his scene.
Thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character ~ Nothing really. He is originally a minor character in a niche film I haven't even watched in full yet. 😂 As for the fanon version, the fact he's responsible for Alan - that's got to be pretty #embarrassing. Rather him than me, ammarite?
Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? ~ That entirely hinges upon whether he is generally a benevolent or malevolent deity. Knowing Rik's characters' record, it's likely the latter so he's a problematic fave. The original guy seems like a cinnamon roll, though.
Thanks for the ask!
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