Dreamy I miss you! Somehow.

Sleepy, darling, I miss you too!

I'm right here though, whenever you wanna talk 💕

Hell, it's been a really long time since I logged into this account, right? Ahah....

I probably don't have an excuse, but I still owe at least some explanation to the people I've been talking to here, because going nowhere... just rude? Okay, let's go. (I don't even remember how to work with text on Tumblr, what can I talk about lol)

This post may look like a total disaster and im sorry, i don't really remember how to formate lmao

Kinda a lot of text below, so yeah 

If I remember correctly, my last visit was around March 14-18 – at this time I had to pass my coursework – my final work in 3rd year of college. But these dates became a stumbling block in the whole story – we were quarantined and we couldn't do anything about it. In Russia, the number of people infected with coronavirus began to grow sharply, and our college had no idea what video chats were lol.

The next couple of months after that were literally hell – people started buying up all the products, the mask regime and the fear of infecting their relatives, there's not much to talk about. Or is there?

 I don't remember mentioning it anywhere, but I'm a Medical college student, and who is needed most during an epidemic? Doctors, nurses, anyone with the idea of holding pills in their hands. And although our College gathered people at will, I signed up to be a volunteer and work in the Red zone – where patients with coronavirus lie. Not that I like to help people in principle, but I needed to know what the disease is, to know how it goes. As they say – the best defense is an attack, yes?

And so I worked for a couple of months. But then something happened that I least expected – I myself fell ill with the coronavirus. It would seem that here I am with my friends running around the stadium, which has been converted into a hospital, helping patients of different ages, smiling and helping them emotionally survive this nightmare, but... here I am lying, and they are running around me. Worried.

I will not go into details about how the disease occurred, probably, there are already many articles on the Internet "in the first person", I will only say that it was not very fun. I was treated for a month. On the calendar, meanwhile, it's mid-July.

And it seems that studying is over, I am also healthy (relatively) but at home everything was not as smooth as I thought. Repairs, family fights, whatever.

And now, September. It seems that the number of infected people began to fall, and we went back to college. But I realized that this is my last year, I have to write a diploma, pass a professional exam, and in General a lot of things.

However, growth took off again, and the College decided to start gathering students for work in red zone again. So I signed up. But this is what will happen in the future.

 And so, in short, I went through hell and beyond, although it might seem that I had a lot of opportunities not to disappear so quietly, so everything is much more complicated.

So that….

If this fandom is still alive, and if at least someone remembers me, at least 1 person who is ready to write with me again, I am ready.

If not, then I killed myself with such a sharp loss, and it will be my punishment, I think. I will also answer all the questions, because I think I wrote this text quite incomprehensible, so yeah...

Hey just finished your fic "They know you walk like you're a god(they can't believe I made you weak)" and I was wondering if you're ever gonna update again? Since I saw the last update was in March... Would be amazing, because it's a really great story! xx

Heyyyyy... sooo this was asked quite a while ago so I'm not sure if you still follow me (if you do, thanks for sticking around despite the deadness of this account 😅 much love ❤). I've only just been active on tumblr the past week or so because exams are almost over and also lockdown ://. About my fics.... after season 3 happened I kinda lost interest in the 100 so I pretty much ran out of ideas and motivation to write. The last time I touched this fic was way back in May 2016 (yikes) when I was halfway through writer chapter 10, got writers block and told myself I'll come back to it eventually and finish it off. Spoiler alert: I didn't lol. Only recently did I decide to go back into all of my fic drafts from my clexa days and ohhhh boy was it a throwback. I even found shit I don't even remember writing! I've got a DETAILED plan for a GoT AU plus a small draft for chapter 1, and complete first chapters for a Warm Bodies and Bridge To Terabithia AUs. I really wish I kept up the momentum I had at the time and actually finished them, plus my HPAU, but I was approaching my final years of high school at the time and wanted to step up and focus on my studies (I am quite the nerd hehehehe but got into a good course at a good uni!). I plan on rewatching the 100 soon though so maybe that'll give me more inspo to finish these fics when I return to being full-on clexatrash even more so than I am now. I dunno how many of you following me actually read my fics, but for those that do... Thanks so much for reading and I'm really sorry I haven't updated in literally years 😅. The clexa fandom has been integral towards me accepting myself for who I am and it'll always have a special place in my heart. Logging back into this account after all these years, everyone seems to have moved onto better (and I hope less heartbreaking?) things, but our clexa spirits are still very much alive and I'm glad to see y'all still posting gifsets and being salty 😂 and also NOT ONLY STARTING A CONVENTION BUT ALSO GETTING CLEXACON TO GO INTERNATIONAL??? you guys really did that and I'm so proud of y'all 💕