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thoughtsofanexcitedspacechild · 4 years

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My (Un)Official Gf application

Hi! So...um...I’m lonely tonight. Thought I’d just go ahead and submit my gf application for anyone who sees it.

The Basics:

Name: Hana Lee Zainea

Age: 17 (Still a minor y'all. Back off creeps)

Gender: Female

Height: 4′7.5 (yeah, yeah. I get it. I’m the little spoon.)

Weight: 125. I know it’s a bit heavy, but I’m working on it. I’ve cleaned up my diet entirely and work out almost every day now! We’re working towards 110 by spring.

Build: Curvy. (Hourglass figure? Not sure really) I’m not quite mid size either, but I’m working towards slimming down and building a more toned/muscular physique. Korra from lok is the end goal haha

Pronouns: She/her

Sexual preference: Bicurious? I’m not quite sure just yet, but right now specifically, I’m looking for a guy. I haven’t really come out yet and I’m not sure how my parents would react if I did.

Enneagram type: Shifts between 6 on bad days and 9 on good ones

Meyers Briggs: INFJ (So rare, I know)

Zodiac Sign: I mean I’m catholic, so I don’t really believe in that sorta stuff, but uh, Libra if that makes any difference.

Reasons to date me:

I’m small, so I’d always be the little spoon when cuddling.

I LOVE making gifts and will NOT hesitate to send you letters in the mail, give you candy, make you drawings and handmade cards, and make you any kind of crochet/sewn stuffed animal ur heart desires.

I do relatively good in school and can probably help you with homework judgement free.

I’m an artist, so once you’re my so, there’s a good chance you'll be used as a photo reference for a piece. You might get a sick portrait out of this.

I’m laid back as heck and can pretty much vibe with whatever

I already made us matching bracelets.

Available pretty much 24/7 to talk or at least text

I can cook pretty well and I personally think I thrive in a well stocked kitchen.

Reasons that you might not want to date me:

I’m waiting ‘til marriage. You don’t have to be a virgin at all, just know that you won’t get anything out of me until you put a ring on it and have seen me in a white dress walking down the isle. I just don’t want to give my body away to someone who isn’t willing to commit to me and my personality rather than just my body. We can cuddle, hug, kiss, etc but as soon as it gets dirty, it’s no. I’m sorry :(

I’m a bit clingy. I don’t mean to. I just get really excited about new people and want to spend time with them.

I cry a lot. I’m a bit depressed and will sometimes cry for no reason. It’s not anything ur doing. I just need to cry.

I’m also anxious as HECK and sometimes it gets so bad that I’ll think I’m sick. I’m prone to intrusive thoughts and OCD too and will often worry excessively about if people actually like me or not. If you get a text that says “are you upset with me?” it’s not because u did anything to make me feel that way. I just do and if I’m not actually bugging you, just respond “not at all!” or something else consoling and I’ll be fine.

As far as looks go, I don’t have much to offer. I have huge brown eyes that I think are pretty, and I kinda like my small lips, but otherwise I’m not a stunner. I’m not super ugly, I just don’t look good unless I put effort into my appearance.

I have a CRIPPLING case of body dysmorphia. I avoid looking in mirrors a lot and often beat myself up for missing workouts even if I’m sore and could hurt myself/eating something mildly unhealthy, so that’s fun.

Things we can do together:

Watch our favorite shows together. I like and will rotate between atla, the mandalorian, LoK, the office, the clone wars, and sw rebels, but we can watch pretty much anything together. I’m totally down for anything and I’d love to get into more mainstream and conventional shows. I attach to shows pretty quickly and the night will mostly involve us wrapped in a blanket and me pointing at fictional couples (mostly Kataang and sukka) and going “hey babe look! It’s us!”

Cook together! If u don’t know how, that’s ok! I’ll teach you! We can cook your favorite together! My repertoire ranges anywhere from fried rice and spring rolls, to tacos, to pasta.

Bake! Cookies, cake, whatever u want! My favorite are lava cakes that have an oozy chocolate center and lemon cakes with thick icing on them!

Work out together! Not sure what u like, but I really love yoga, and I’m trying to get into more light weight-high rep. stuff. Not full on bench press, but I’m working towards a heavier handheld weight. My goal by the end of 2021 is 20 pound weights, but we’ll see!

If you do art, we can create stuff together! If you don’t that’s ok too!

Go to all ur sporting events and kiss u before for good luck and afterwards for a job well done (even if u don’t win, you’re still my winner)

Road trips to Chicago! I live in MI, but I love going down there to spend the day. We can shop, go ice skating, go to the ghiradeli store and get ice cream, go to the art institute, go out to eat, etc. Then we can stay the night, have a nice breakfast in the morning, and drive back.

While we’re in quarantine, write letters! I make mine look really nice. U don't have to at all, and I just like getting stuff in the mail!

Couples costumes for halloween! I have wayyyy to many ideas lol. Depending on what u like and what u look like, I can pretty much do whatever, but my top choice is Sokka and Suki from atla.

Coffee and study dates around exam time

Movie night with each other’s families. Once ur in my life, ur in my family’s too! Come over and we can make popcorn and play with my dog and u can meet my younger siblings! They’ll love u I promise!

My requirements:

Be taller than me (I mean, it’s not that hard. I’m 4′7. I don’t think it’s too much to ask)

I get to be the little spoon. (Again, it makes more sense bc I’m really small. U can try to be the little spoon, but physically it makes more sense.

U don’t need to remember any dates EXCEPT for my birthday, (October 12) and our anniversary. (Don’t know when that’ll be) I don’t need gifts, just a nice text or a hug and a kiss.

Be 16 or older. Sorry youngsters.

That’s literally it. That’s it.

A little warning/extra tip: My expectations are kinda “high” bc of fictional men, but honestly, if u pick up on their romantic gestures, it’s really not that hard to please me. Some examples of things u can do that’ll completely have me simping for u:

Hugs!

Kisses! (Especially when YOU initiate)

Holding me

bringing me a tea

Stay loyal! I know I’m going to be. Like, for REAL. U got no competition

CONSENT. Again, I’m waiting til marriage, but still! I’ve never done this before, so if u touch me in a way that makes me uncomfortable, please respect my boundaries. I’ll respect urs too!

That’s literally it. That’s the application.

#girlfriend application

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karisutasan · 4 years

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Vent art of sheo and me

Please don't reblog, it's too.. I don't know, a touchy subject to me.

Life is just throwing a shit pile to me today, I don't know what to do, and my brother going to his boarding school at 15th August doesn't help at all,

And the fact that I will go to my boarding school at 20th ALSO doesn't help.

I don't know what to do, I have to catch my notes on subjects considering I slacked off in the middle of online studying.

8 days, and after this.. 7 days..

I just can't, not with this sudden announcement that I'll be back in a week, no, I can't, I'm not ready.

I don't know whether I should change school, since I would have to repeat a year, AGAIN, and I'm not having that shit.

My school is like, 4 years , I'm already in for a year, I don't want to repeat another school all over again..

I'm at loss, I don't know what to do, what to think..

And sometimes I grief my father's death too and it's just.. Not helping. My father died a year ago at 7th May and that day and month is kinda.. Depressing for me. Even if my birthday is at the same month, I just can't.

My father was also the one who told me, months before his death, to go to a religious boarding school, and I was like "What the ＦＵＣＫ" at first, but then I accept it, I want to be better myself.

My first thought at school was.. Heh.. It's nice, might live through it.

But then shit went wrong, some of the people there thinks I'm "not normal", "quirky" and a lazy-ass (yes I'm lazy but like.. I don't know..)

People sometimes use me too and I see it but I'm just.. Not that brave to tell them about it..

I miss my junior highschool times where I were able to shut some bullies mouth by challenging them and smack them, those were braver me times.. But these people are females now and I'm like.. The fuck should I do? Trash talk them? Considering my school would punish those who uses bad language, I swear at them at my.. Journals as I call it. And with a lot of them not understanding English..

It's good. Refreshing. Knowing that I'm safe.

Sometimes I imagine Sheo nowadays, calming me down, hugging and telling me that it's going to be alright.. And...it helps, really, it do.

But I miss physical affection too, and the covid sucks ass.. So..

Yeah..

For any of you that reads til the bottom of this, thank you. I hope you have a good day.

I'm going to sleep now, see y'all tomorrow, bubye 👋

#Callista talks #Vent vent VENT #Why is this happening hahaha #I don't even. Know anymore I dont feel like typing I hate everything #♡

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ultraclops · 4 years

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Semi-live Blogging: Return of the Mao Mao Episodes

Before we start, is it just me or is the animation like 10x smoother than it usually is? Also like I said with Nakey, there’s a lot more good expressions too!

Lucky Ducky Mug

Adorabat drinks from sippy cup like baby

"What, Mao Mao's ridiculous mug?" says Badgerclops, holding a cheap plastic big gulp cup he probably got from the grocery store.

How did Adorabat not notice the Lucky Ducky sticker on the Aerocycle

"Don't touch it" (Badgerclops proceeds to slam the table to move it) Ah Badgerclops, ever the contrarian

I'M SORRY DID MAO MAO BLOW THE ROOF OFF OF HQ BY SCREAMING

I love the way Mao says "PROFESSIONAAAL SILENCEEE"

Badgerclops trying to make his mouth disappear and failing made me scream with laughter

Are they seriously reducing Ratarang to 'the funny lil Italian guy'? C’mon guys you’re better than this

Wait why do they think Kevin is Adorabat?? They've seen Adorabat multiple times?? "But they're both blue!" You FOOL Kevin is TEAL there's a difference

Everybody gangsta til Mao Mao's ears start speaking morse code

They're doing surprisingly good silent but it's probably not gonna be that way very long.

Thank you, Lucky Ducky Mug, for catering to my niche interest in characters with neon outlines on black backgrounds.

Mao Mao thinking: Normal thoughts

Badgerclops thinking: Musical-esque singing

Adorabat thinking: Literally just heavy metal

The Sweetypies seriously think they're just playing a really intense game of charades huh,,,

(Mao jabs BC in the stomach with the fire net) HAHA GET REKT

The scene with Badgerclops trying to give Mao Mao Penny's mug is the funniest shit in the world I couldn't stop laughing...or maybe I'm just sleep-deprived

So the Sky Pirates are so similar compared to the Sheriff's Dept. that they can think perfectly in sync? That's cool

SKY PIRATES SONG SKY PIRATES SONG

Why is Snugglemagne throwing a random tea party & why did he only invite the Sheriff's Dept.

Yep there goes the plan. Both of their plans.

Am I going crazy or did the skin on Mao Mao's mouth tear apart like it was sewn shut?! Also yay they're talking again

"It's not gonna stop charging, so I'm just gonna let it explooode..." Mood

"What about the mega laser tube made by mega Losers?" Fsfhkfh

Hey, everyone learned something new from this experience! Are the Sky Pirates gonna try that Hive Mind tactic from now on?

Awww, they fixed his mug with gold - GOD DAMN IT I KNEW THERE WAS A CATCH!!

Lonely Kid

(Sighs) ...I said (SIGHS)

"I literally can't relate to that problem at all." says Badgerclops, who joined a gang because he wanted people to like him.

Shin just dropped off Mao Mao at a summer camp and expected him to make friends? Why does this feel like the plot of Camp Camp

I'm sorry the Mao clan has a freaking PARTY AERO-BUS??

NOO GERALDINE

That BGM is DEFINITELY an extended version of "I Love You, Mao Mao" and I want the lyrics NOW

So Bao was literally just a stray that Mao took home?? Would make sense as to why he wasn't trained

I have a feeling the Flimborg is some sort of sacred being the townspeople worship for some reason

How in the hell did Mao tie that guy up and why didn't he bother to untie him

HOW'D HE SET THE ROCKS ON FIRE USING PAINT

"And then you become frien-" "BEES. IN THE EYES."

"Everyone knows bees are our friends!" "Uh, actually, they were wasps." "Friends to no-one!" Usually I'd agree with BC, but I read an article about someone befriending a wasp and her babies so.

So the Mao clan's just known as the "Golden Cat Family Up The Hill?" Huh. I thought they’d have more recognition, especially since Shin says he went to that same summer camp at the beginning.

Man those kids are jackasses

"Say hi to your mommy!" "I would if she was here..." Excuse me wHAT

Noo don't cry baby boi - tHEN BAO JUST TACKLES HIM ASFHDKDL

"Go away! I don't feel like laughing right now!"

Look. You can see the EXACT point Mao developed his adult personality

I know Mao Mao means well but that is gonna go terribly wrong.

"I AM A HERO! I WILL BE LOVED!!" Okay first of all OUCH, second of all THAT IS PAIN

This monster empty, YEET

Awww it was just a sweet little puppy-ish monster...and it was his BIRTHDAY

"Hi, Aunt Gloria!" (Pulls out pitchfork) BETRAYAL

He didn't feel bad about ruining the festival because he made a friend doing it I 💞💞💝💝💗💗

Thanks for that 'different times' comment cuz I don't want kids thinking being beat is normal.

"Just like you found me...and I'm your best friend!" Tbh I thought she was gonna say 'Me and Badgerclops' & that would make a lot more sense

Why are they fighting over who's his best friend they're obviously BOTH his best friends

I'm sorry did Badgerclops just call Adorabat a "little mutant"?? ARE THE SWEETYPIES MUTANTS??

Awww his friends love him sm...and he feels so loved too...💓💓💗💗💕💕

Try Hard

No one gives a shit about Pinky being kidnapped lol

"K for Copyright Infringement"

"You'll never be like me!" Oof a little harsh maybe?

"You've gotta learn to be your own kind of hero, in your own special way!" So THAT'S where it's from

"You just gotta...try hard." Hey, title drop!

Ngl the moment Mao Mao said "Badgerclops take the shot" I immediately thought of The Confession 3 by TomSka

"Up in a tree, little old me, about to do something...UGLY..." 7-year-old me sniping people on Halo 3 like

Why is he shooting them with gelatin tho? ...oh. Oh THAT'S why.

Tbh if I didn't have subtitles on I would've thought BC was saying "beep boop"

This badger and cat empty, YEET

Adorabat walking into the Skyship with only a walkie-talkie is giving me some sort of vibes...OH, Silent Hill! Or Tattletail

WHOOP HIS ASS SWEETIE

"Mao Mao would hide the body!" Very unsubtle there, wonder how it got past censors

"Ratarang, say something!" "Pasketti?" "THAT'S THE BRAT!"

Wait a sec, they can just use Badgerclops' arm to power the ship? Why didn't they try that in CapturedClops?

"Good thing my head is in here cuz I'm a-scared of heights!" Ramaraffe. Whose whole schtick is making herself taller. Is acrophobic?

"Because she's Sheriff's Department, that's how! >:3" "Also y'all tend to be pretty incompetent >X/"

Why does she keep trying to use the elevator when she can fly? Nvm she climbed up Badgerclops' arm

"Ooooh I'm also hereeee"

"JERK BUTT"

Why is the Omega Field just a bunch of broken glass? And why doesn't she just step around it?

"I can fly!" "She can fly!" "SHE FORGOT?!" Ooh that's why

"You're the best thing to ever happen to a bat like me." 💝💝💕💕💓💓

Wait she's talking through the walkie-talkie and her molts are there but she isn't there where is she?

Oh she was freeing the other two from the gelatin. No wonder Mao Mao almost threw up, it was bug flavored.

GET HIS ASS, HONEY!! ADORASLAP!!

I hope that 'Nah' means Adorabat's realized she needs to be herself instead of her just rejecting her individuality like I think it is.

Scared Of Puppets

Oh, so this takes place after Sleeper Sofa! Praying it's a fix-it episode...

"DISCARD ANYTHING THAT DOESN'T BRING YOU JOY!!" Fuckin Marie Kondo up in here

Oh no PTSD flashbacks. He's scared of them cuz one's head landed on his lap as a kid? Understandable have a nice day.

Who tf collapsed into a sobbing heap on the floor then leaps back up and insists they're fine? Mao Mao, apparently.

Hairless ape? Is that what they call humans or are they something different in general?

"TAKE ALL MY MONEY!!" What did BC want an antique puppet for if he had no idea Mao was scared of them...

Mr. Din Dandalib!

"I...(eye twitch) love him too..."

IM SORRY DID HE FUCKING THROW UP OUT OF FEAR...holy SHIT

If I scared my friend and they threw up I would simply never do that again. RIP to Badgerclops but I'm different

(Badgerclops makes concrete blocks around the pothole) "Why didn't you just fill in the pothole??" "I AM TRYING MY BEST!!"

"I SIGNED YOUR DUMB CAST, NOW LEAVE!!"

...Illegal house plants? ...like marijua-

That was literally just that one video where a guy knocked out another guy in a mask jumping out of a trash can...

So it's a CPR class...AND a hair-styling class? How

I stg the moment Badgerclops walked in the door I knew he was carrying Mr. Din Danalin I SWEAR

"You're 10." "BUT I'M 6??" JFC Shin doesn't know his own son's age AND is partially responsible for his pupaphobia. And I called it on Mao Mao being six in the flashbacks

OH WIG

Can someone take the footage of the Annex exploding and add the ReviewTechUSA intro over it please

"How many Adult Learning Annexes have to be destroyed before you admit you're scared of puppets?!" is extremely funny without context

(Mao punches the wall cuz hes mad at himself for being scared) Kinkinkinkinki

How does one forget to drink milk

Oh shit the scene from the promo...

Yay he's starting to feel less scared - wait NVM it JUST STARTED TALKING??

OG SGUTVKC FGCJ OG SHKR OF DJCN JKKKKK

Oh it was just a dream - er, nightmare. FIRST NIGHTMARE SEQUENCE OF THE SERIES!

"I just gotta get my socks on...wait, I wear socks, right?" Dud e you wear NOTHING BUT A BELT...

"I KNEW SELLING THOSE HAIRLESS APE DOLLS WOULD ATTRACT DARK FORCES"

"There’s a lot of pu-" "PUBLIC DANGER"

Those puppets are alive I stg

"I'M A BIG BOI..."

Awwww she said what he told her at the beginning of the episode!

"I'M AFRAID OF PUPPETS" TITLE DROP YET AGAIN

Adorabat takes after Badgerclops sometimes I swear

Oooh shit sequel hook - oh NVM it was Badgerclops voice acting - NVM Mao Mao passed out. Dang

The Perfect Couple

Watermelon time babyyy

TRANSFORMATION TIME BABYYYY

Ah so he wanted to perfectly cut a watermelon in half, that's why he got so many?

"I need (counts on fingers) 600 more watermelons!" glad to see I'm not the only one who counts on my fingers

Why would Penny and Benny need 600 watermelons for their wedding? Also I called it on Penny & Benny being the couple

Mao Mao has to officiate the wedding? I thought priests did that

Please don’t throw up again Mao Mao

"I WILL BUY YOU A BAG TO HOLD YOUR STUFF..."

"A nondescript sack!!" Dude he just taking out the trash...

Nvm its just laundry

"I WILL TURN THIS BUSH AROUND"

Oh so THAT'S what Ramaraffe thought Kevin was Adorabat

"Why don't you buy me cake and do my laundry?" Are you implying you wanna marry Mao Mao, Badgerclops 👀

I lov Mao Mao's faces in this scene he legit looks like a bishouen anime protagonist

Nvm no transformation it's just his wedding outfit

Why did they invite Orangusnake and Boss Hosstritch to the wedding tho? What about when they hid in their moving truck and used their electricity - wait Badgerclops technically did that last one, nvm

Wait THEY DIDN'T TALK TO EACH OTHER BEFORE THE WEDDING?? What a perfect couple huh

Is Mao Mao having hallucinations just gonna be a regular thing now....

IS PENNY SERIOUSLY GONNA MARRY ORANGUSNAKE OUT OF SPITE ASFSDGFUK

Why did Mao Mao say "melons" in a Spanish accent I'm scared

"They're both terrible, so what does it matter if they get hitched or not?" They're definitely gonna change their minds now

"She lied because she wanted to protect his feelings! And he lied because he couldn't bear to hurt her!" Isn't that just the plot of The Truth Stinks?

OH SHIT HE CUT ORANGUSNAKE IN HALF HOLY FUCK

He made Orangusnake officiate the wedding as punishment lol

Why are they,,,stepping on the watermelons?? Damn right Badgerclops I'd cry over that too

"What's, uh, your credit score like?" "850. Why, is that good?" "It's perfect..." HE WANTS TO MARRY MAO MAO NOW ASDFHKL

#semi live blogging #semi-live blogging #//long post #// long post

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blckkittenorchid · 4 years

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Sephiroth -Final Fantasy 7 Remake-

He's the bad guy but he's not a "bad" guy..I've had a crush on him since I was 10 won't let anyone tell me different..

-Gotta go back in time for this one y'all, so follow me as we go back to the distant yr of 2000-

~~~nostalgic echo wave ripple thing~~~

It was December something and as an early birthday present from my awesome mom. She had bought me my first of three ps1(s) with the demo disc with like 15 mini games so yeah I was pretty excited.. being the middle child tho and having to share literally everything with my 2 sisters, my mom had bought games for each of us so no one got left out.. The original 3 discs Final Fantasy VII was mine of course 😁 while my sisters had their pick of some Bratz doll dance game and the ever awesome Spyro.. So there I was hogging the only other tv in the house besides the 30 inch Panasonic in my moms room, which was off limits unless she was in there too.. Anyway she had to work so she had given it to me and told my sisters that the day was mine and I got first dibs for a few hrs.. I played for a frustratingly 3 hrs before I had realized that I didn't have a memory card to save my progress so I was devastated when I had to turn it off after working so hard to finally kick the elevator robot boss's ass.. I didn't play the game for 2wks after that.. Fast forward past my birthday, Christmas break had come and gone also along with new years but I still didn't have a memory card, so by then I had decided that I wouldn't play til I had enough saved up from my allowance to buy it myself.. 2 months dude.. Feb 2001.. I remember having a bad day at school you know bullies and the like. I had walked to my grandma's house after school that day and told her about my day and cried.. She gave me advice, made me a pineapple upside down cake and to really cheer me up she decided to take me to the local Kmart and bought me a memory card and gamer guide for ffvii.. I went home still didn't play, went back to school the next day and beat the shit out of the girl who had cut my hair and I got suspended from school for a week.. I spent that entire week playing disc one.. I had no regrets and I enjoyed myself.. I remember finally making it to Nibelheim on disc 2 and finally getting to know who Sephiroth was and I was so enraptured by him I couldn't look away and since then my love for him has only grown.. With the latest game I fear I will most definitely lose myself even more with the detail that Square Enix has added to the already amazing awesomeness that is Sephiroth..

Great Job and thank you Tetsuya Nomura(?gosh I do hope I'm spelling that right) and the Square Enix team for letting me indulge in my childhood nostalgic crush all over again..

#Spotify

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marveling-chrisevans · 5 years

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Press Junket || Chris Evans x Reader

Description: You and Chris are in LA at the newest avenger movie press junket. You haven’t been part of the movies for a while, not since the first Capitan America, you were happy to be back on set, you and Chris fell in love.. and here is that. Contains Smut.

"y/n, come on we are going to be late. You know they don't like it when we are late" you heard him say as I took one last look at yourself 'good enough' you thought to yourself. "Shut up Evans I am on my way" you said as you walked out of the bathroom to where Chris was "Beautiful as ever" he smirked at you "now come on before our bosses are mad" He said back to you as he held out his hand and you took it.

"you know how much I love acting, but this press stuff is just the same questions over and over and over again." You replied to him as you walked out of the hotel room. You let go of his hand before you entered the elevator. The two of you met on the set of the last Marvel movie. No one knew that after the movie you started to date, we'll not really date. Hang out, would be the better word for it. Sometimes there was kissing and flirting. Chris sighed as you let go of his hand "you know they are going to find out anyways, eventually" "i just don't want this whatever it is to come out before the movie, I don't want to be asked a million questions, you know this is my first big opportunity" you replied back to him as you hit the button to the first floor as Renner ran up to the elevator door and stopped it from closing "uh Jeremy running late too I see" Chris smiled "you and y/n should carpool next time" Chris teased back "yeah face time with Ava usually does that to me, not sure what y/n excuse is" Jermey teased you, as you were friends since you met on set "does anyone know y'all are dating yet?" He wondered as Chris was always looking for you and You were always late which caused him to be late "wait what?" You wondered looking at Renner "uh not dating" you replied quickly not sure what else to say "don't worry wont tell anyone else" Renner replied as the elevator opened before you could reply to him or Chris to say anything. The first thing was the panel where all of you were sitting in one room. You sighed as you walked in and said hello to Scarlett as you two stood to the side and talked for a few moments as they introduced the man 3 men and Brie. Then Scarlett. You stood there by yourself till you heard the announcer say your name. You quietly walked onto the stage and waved coyly to the press. NO one really cared. You went and took your seat in the back row toward the end and saw Chris watching you. You gave him a smile as you sat down and listened to the rest of the cast take questions. Towards the end you heard your name "who what me?" You wondered out loud because you kinda spaced out. You heard Chris start to laugh as the interview guy was like "yeah you, what was it like being back after like 7 years?" "oh uh yeah, it was a lot of fun seeing everyone again, I mean it had been a few years for me, so I'm glad I didn't get dusted?" She said out loud

The Moderator nodded "well we are glad to have you back, We are glad to have you back on press as well" You smiled at them as Chris gave you a nod as another question was asked. After the conference was over, the team dispatched and you got a moment to yourself. You leaned against the wall with your eyes clothes as you took a deep breath. You felt someones arm wrap around your waist. You jumped slightly as you open your eyes and see a tall handsome man with blue eyes and a stupid grin looking at you "you okay?" He wondered You nod as you lay your head on his arm "yeah just overwhelming.. ill be good, do we know who everyone gets partnered with?" You wondered as you sighed "well Paul and Jermey are partners. Uh Sarjo and Brie, from what I heard which makes Robert and Hemmy together, and that leaves me you and Mark together" he replied back to you "and I think the the original six have some separate interviews but I think thats later" he finishes "oh so I have to deal with you boys all day.. Oh boy" You smirked as you walked away from him. You walked backwards as you winked, then spun on your toes, causing your hair to fan out.

You Walked away but you heard "Damn" quietly come out of his mouth as he watched your curly hair fall back into its place as an intern came in and got coffee orders. You got your normal and heard everyone else order around the room. They were breaking everyone into they're groups. And then taken to different rooms, where different places were set up, like E and buzzfeed and entertainment weekly and the what seemed like 100 of others. You guys had a limit. Each interview would last no more than a half hour, and then you would rotate. Hours later, which felt like weeks, to you. This was not something you were use to. You walked out of the interview room. Leaning on Mark, because you could "are we done yet?" You wondered as everyone started to walk out to the lobby. Hemsworth came up to you "you look tired want a piggy back ride y/n?" He wondered You laughed and nodded "yeah these shoes are killing my feet" you said as you jumped up on his back as he started to run around the hotel lobby. You couldn't help but laugh as you held on for dear life Robert looked at the scene "you guys wanna go out?" He wondered "in a little bit, I need a shower and a change, group chat" he said before he disappeared Hemsworth set you down, "yes drinks, Isn't it Pauls birthday tomorrow, and Roberts was a few days ago. We should Celebrate, also this might be our last press tour" He said as he then disappeared. Paul looked at them as he nodded "yeah I could drink" he said as he then disappeared and everyone got a text via group chat. You look over at Chris, as you him were the only ones left. He smiled as you both walked out of the hotel to get into your cars and head back to his house in the hills. Its where you stayed when you were in town, with or without him. In the car you two decided to share, not that anyone cared at that point. You looked at your phone and read over the plans that were being made "i don't wanna" you said with a pouty lip and let your phone fall to the ground Chris ran his hand though your hair as you rested your head on his chest as you closed your eyes and replied to the group chat "sorry can't make it tonight, too tired, next time" he said nice simple and sweet. "i hope you are not too tired" he said as they got to the house. The driver pulled into his driveway. You got out of the car, with your shoes off, and phone in hand "no I need food first" you said as you walked into the house and got greeted by a very happy puppy who jumped up on the two of you and basically since you were not that strong tackled you to the ground. Chris was able to catch you before you hit the ground "dodger" you said between laughs "yeah we missed you too" Chris took dodger out to play to wear off some energy, as you went into the kitchen and made you both a very simple meal. You had taken a few classes here and there, but today you stuck to simple pizza. Once it was in the oven you poured yourself and Chris a glass of wine. "this dress" you said as you were surprised you were still wearing it. You reached behind your back and unzipped it, and let it fall to the ground. You smiled as you didn't feel so restrained anymore, and free. You sat on the couch, just in your bra and panties pulling a blanket over yourself, gently setting your feet on the coffee table and finding something on tv to relax too. Chris came in shortly after, picked up your dress and walked over to you setting it at your feet. You could see he was biting his lip knowing you were not wearing anything under that blanket. You take a sip of wine and move the blanket patting the couch telling him to sit next to you he didn't hesitate and sat next to you. Chris smiled as he gave you a quick look of the glimpse that he got of your almost naked body. You reach over sent the group that you were not going to make it, personal commitments

Before you even got your phone set down your lips were connected to Chris. You got moved to laying on the couch the blanket still covering the both of you. You ran your hands down his body till you bot the bottom of the double layers he was wearing and pulled them off over his head. You let your hands rest on his abs for a second as he worked on getting your bra off. Chris shifted from kissing you on the lips to your jaw, leaving small kisses til he got to what he knew was the tender part of your Breast and gave it a soft nibble. You moaned slightly as your hands went to his pants pulling him closer to you, you could feel him getting harder from his jeans. Chris took your hands after you managed to undo his belt. He took one hand and pinned your hands above your head with one of his hands "keep them there" he said as he let his grip go just slightly to get at his button to his jeans "shut up and kiss me" you said back to him sneaking your hands out and pulled him back to you as you wrapped your arm around his neck, and helped with your other hand to get his jeans off. That is when he got aggressive with you. You enjoyed to see that side of him. He grabbed both your hands again and pinned them up above your head. Chris made sure to keep his grip this time as he got you out your panties and his boxers. He took his free hand and slide it down your body, he got to your clit, and felt how wet you were "damn babe" he said as he ran his fingers around the way he knew you liked it, sliding in a finger in and out just to tease you knowing it would drive you crazy You couldn't help but let a moan escape your lips "Christopher stop teasing me I swear to god" you said back to him. You saw that smirk on his lips as you knew he was enjoying this as you couldn't do anything, you were under his control, you didn't have use of your hands, and he had all the control. He leaned back down and kissed you bringing his hand away after he alined himself. You bite his lip rather hard as you felt him slide into you as you let out a gasp . No matter how many times his size still took you by surprise. Chris knew exactly what to do, he took it slow, rocking his hips into yours, slow and steady, slowly getting deeper and deeper, You moved your legs so they were up around his waist rocking your hips to the beat of his. The two of you enjoyed this for awhile, the connection between the two of you. Chris after a few mins in let go of your hands. You took your hands and played them around his neck as you went to flip the both of you, but being on the couch you both ended up on the floor, not missing a beat you were now on top, you readjusted as you played your hands on his chest to steady yourself. He couldn't help but laugh as you guys hit the floor. Dodger looked at the both of you then went back to what he was doing after making sure you both were okay. Chris held his hands on your hips, and your ass as he forced you further down. He threw his head back fighting his own moan. "y/n" he finally called out, which you knew you were doing something right. Before you knew it, you were back on the bottom of this. You look up at him as you could see the sweat cover his body. You could feel yourself getting close. The lower part of your stomach started to tighten, He could feel your canal getting tighter around his shaft, and that is when he picked up the pace. He slowly worked his way up to thrusting into you, Allowing you to ride your high as long as you could. Right after you finished you took a deep breath and a moan, as Chris thrusted a few more times, till he finished his high. You both stayed like that for a few moments. Just being with each other. He then pulled out and laid next to you on the floor. You closed your eyes in content as you just sat and caught your breath. You hear the fire alarm start to go off. You had completely forgot that you put a pizza in the oven as you were hungry about a half hour ago. You quickly got up and grabbed Chris T-shirt that was laying right there as you went and turned off the oven and pulled it out. Chris had sat up and looked at you and what you were doing, as you turned on a few fans. You walked over to him with a sad face "its ruined" you said "the poor innocent food, that did nothing to no one is ruined" she said as she went and laid back on the couch all dramatic like. Chris bursted out laughing as he reached with right hand to his left pec and leaned backwards "dont worry we can order take out" he said as he pulled you off the couch to lay with him "look at you being a real life super hero" you said back to him as you gave him a peck on the lips and laid your head on his chest as he grabbed your phone since it was closer and ordered your favorite you can read more of my work here: https://www.wattpad.com/user/AuroraBurrows https://archiveofourown.org/users/AuroraBurrows

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Survey #206

“have you ever wished for death and prayed all night for your last breath?”

Do you always read the book before you see a movie based on a book? No. When you’re out with friends, do they ever encourage you to spend money you should be saving? 1.) I don't hang out w/ anyone now, 2.) but even when I did, they all knew I didn't make money. Is there anything you’re trying to save up money for? What? Perpetually tattoos, I want a PS4 super badly to play a novel of games I've been dying to play (SotC and Spyro trilogy remaster, I'm @ing you so hard), I need a car soon as I plan to at least try and get my license in the near future, I'd love to always have enough to immediately go to Sara's in case of an emergency, a trip to South Africa... but those are gonna take a good while to complete. I have my priorities straight for when I get a job. Have you ever watched a movie you didn’t really want to see just because a friend asked you to? Yeah. Did you end up liking the movie, anyway? There's been many cases of the above situation, so I'm sure in some instances I have. Heard any great songs for the first time lately? What songs? Hmmm, quite a number. "Radio" by Rammstein is great, and I love "bury a friend" and "bad guy" by Billie Eilish. What is your favorite urban legend? m o t h m a n and the joysey devil. Probably top two. GAH I love so many though????????????? Like Skinwalkers?????????????? And WENDIGOS????????? Have you seen all the cool shit?????????????? Do you remember the last nightmare you had? What was it? No, thankfully. Have you ever hopped on any bandwagons? HAHA. Freshman year, high school... I "liked" screamo or alternative-type bands I'd barely ever listened to or even enjoyed to fit in with the emos aldkjfalkwejr. Are you an elitist (even a little bit) when it comes to anything? What? Definitely not a complete one, but I can get pretty annoyed if in WoW we're in a heroic dungeon and people don't know the mechanics you should have already learned + read new ones that're right there in the goddamn journal laksdjfaoweir and then some people just totally ignore your advice and alskdjfwleiruwqoeif x2. Then again I've been that confused asshole in a couple raiding situations BUT LOOK they're harder and I had too much to catch up on okay. Still no excuse by WHATEVER. Have elitists on a fansite ever intimidated or talked down to you? I don't believe so. Is there anything you swear you will never do again? A few things with certainty. How late do you usually stay awake? I can literally go to bed as early as 7 to as late as 11 or rarely later. I do NOT have a schedule. Started months ago, and at first it frustrated and stressed me out quite a bit, but by now, I've just accepted it for me. Do you have pets? If so, how did you choose their names? Teddy: sister named him, but I'm sure it was the "cute as a teddy bear" type thing; Bentley: no clue; Roman: it sounded majestic, cats are majestic; Venus: pretty, and her coloration is similar to the planet; Kaiju: totally badass for an iguana that's gonna grow to be a big 'ole scaly boy; and Mitsu: I had a theme of giving my rats cutesy "M" names. Do you ever buy special treats for your pets? Occasionally. Is just being fond of something enough, or does it take more than that to be a ‘real fan’? Did a middle school student write this? If you're pretty fond of something, there you go, you're a fan. Sure, some are more intense, but that doesn't make the more casual ones not "real." What type of fabric is most comfortable for clothing? Idk, I don't pay attention. If you wear one – bras with or without a wire? Christ, without. If you wear one – are you able to find cute bras in your size? HA. No. It is RARE I'll find a cute one, and that's always only online. Make pretty ones for plus-sized women a normal find, jfc. Idk why, but I am very picky with bras. Like good fucking luck seeing me without a shirt, so like,,,, why do I bother????? What length do you like your shorts to be? UM you will NOT see me in SHORTS. Have you ever cut off jeans or other pants and made them into shorts? Perhaps Mom has when I was a kid? But I have no memory of this ever happening. Have you cut the sleeves out of T-shirts to make tank tops? I don't think so. Have you ever modified a piece of clothing and hated how it turned out? ^ What was the last disappointing movie you saw? Ah jeez, what's the last time I even watched one. Idk. What was the last disappointing book you read? And I haven't read a book in even longer. Is there anything you’re really excited about? JOB. OPPORTUNITIES. Do you ever watch compilation videos? Of what? Vines, like shit dude. I can go on massive binges. What was the last thing you rolled your eyes about? I don't recall. What would you consider the greatest song ever recorded? Why? Yeesh, that's a big thing to decide. I recently discovered "A Reason to Fight" by Disturbed though, and it is. Incredible. Just read the lyrics to refresh my mind, and yeah, goosebumps. Do you like Hellboy? If so, do you prefer the old movies or the new one? Never seen any. Favorite Disney character who isn’t royalty? Dory, probably. But man, there's too many to choose from. Last thing you purchased just for fun? *shrugs* Do you even like behind-the-scenes stuff or does it ruin the magic for you? IF I'm real into the product, I love that stuff!! I've seen like every little BTS Silent Hill thing there is, probably, multiple hours' worth. What is your favorite thing about Mac computers? They're small and lightweight. What is your favorite thing about PCs? They generally hold much more memory. What are some errands you need to run soon? I don't have "errands" yet. Have your parents ever tried to convince people there was something wrong with you, when their “diagnosis” wasn’t accurate? No. List 3 of your best memories, times you wish you could go back and repeat. In no order, just as they come to me: 1.) First hug with Sara when we met at the airport; 2.) THE LOOK ON SARA'S FACE when she saw me in her room on her birthday (probably fave memory of all time, actually); 3.) seeing meerkats for the first time at the zoo. Ohhhh or maybe the true realization I was happy without Jason. But idk, that was SUCH a gradual process where I didn't feel ecstasy in like one moment. What color was your high school graduation gown? Ew, it was this obnoxious red. The majority apparently voted for it, while I was on the navy team. Are your parents’ dreams for your life different than your own? Mom's pretty dead-set on me being a vet, but she doesn't try to push me into it or anything. I know she just wants happiness for me. I haven't got a clue about Dad. Have your dreams for your life changed? Of course. What are your dreams now? HAPPY, stable job that I thoroughly enjoy, well-off financially (I don't aim to be rich, just "safe," you could say), healthy marriage, own my own home, travel to a few places, did y'all think I was gonna forget "meet Mark???"... stuff like that. What was your dream as a child? It changed plenty of times, but my earliest goal was to be a paleontologist. Do you feel safe in your country? Sure, I guess. Safer than most places. If applicable, do you feel safe at your school? N/A Would you ever want to learn sign language? It'd be cool, sure, but it's not something I'm interested in pursuing. How many meals do you eat a day? 2-3. Sometimes just one "real" meal. Do you own any succulents? No. What color are your walls? A hideous puke green. Why. What color were the walls in the bedroom you grew up in? I don't remember at all. What was the last song you listened to on repeat? "Love Falls" by HELLYEAH. What is your favorite style (or styles) of dance? Modern. Have you ever performed a solo dance in front of a crowd? No. Have you ever sung a solo? No. Which insects are you afraid of? Most, really. Do you think it’s silly to be afraid of an insect, when it’s so tiny? It depends on the insect, of course. Even if I do know what it is and it's "safe," I'll still typically freak if it surprises me. When was the last time you had a deep conversation with someone? Hmmm. Sara, I believe? What are you waiting for? Jesus FUCKING Christ on a bike a job. What do you usually feel like doing the most at home? Stuff on the laptop. What grade were you in when you had your first crush? I don't remember... For "puppy dog love," I believe maybe the 4th grade, but I may be wrong. I'd say my first *real* crush was on a guy named Sebastian in my freshman year of high school. Shit man, did a lot go down my freshman year. I'm just reminiscing and crushes jumped between like five dudes 'til Jason won. At what age did you start experiencing sexual attraction, if any? Some time in middle school, I think? Like that's when I had my first bisexuality crisis: 6th or 7th grade. Have you ever split open a rock with a hammer, to see the glitter inside? No, but FUCK I WANNA. What type of tree do you see the most of where you live? There's a pine tree outside my window. Oh, and there's a pine tree in my back yard. Oh, what's that across the road? Woods of pine trees. Where do all birds in NC live? In pine trees. What does our air smell like? Pine trees. Where is your favorite place you’ve lived? My previous home as far as location; house itself, where I am now. It's got its issues, but it's cozy and a perfect size for just two people. What states have you lived in? Just 'ole North Carolina. Take me awaaaaaaaaaaaay- Do you wish you were someone else? Sometimes. What is your favorite thing about the month in which it is now? Literally just flowers. That's it. It. Everything else can suck a legion of dicks. Who were your best friends in high school? Hannia, Girt, Jason (if he counts), Alon, Maria... I had a few "best" ones. ^Are they still your best friends now? Girt is my closest thing to a "best friend" if you don't include my girlfriend. Do you live near the mountains? No, they're on the opposite end of the state. ;___; Do you live near a beach? We're like, two-ish hours away. What is your favorite beach that you’ve been to? Idk and idc, beaches aren't my thing. Do you collect seashells? Not seriously, but I'll keep a cool one if I find one. If you were to start a new collection, what would it be? If I was not ashamed of looking like a 23-y/o pre-teen in love with Just Bieber, I'd have more Markiplier merch than you'd fucking believe. (One of my biggest regrets in life was not buying the tasteful nudes calendar; I will eternally smite myself for being too embarrassed to have to explain why I would have that hanging above my bed rip.) If you had to pick one year and describe it as the best year of your life that you want to relive again, which year would it be? 2017 was fuckin litty titty. Is your world view the same as your parents’? In some ways with Mom, and I do know Dad and I differ on a few things. Well, if I learned more about his more political beliefs, I feel I'd probably disagree with most. What color are your glasses, if applicable? Black. Are you the person you thought you’d be when you were younger? No. Are you a confrontational person, or the peacekeeper? I'm a massive peacekeeper. I avoid confrontation like the PLAGUE. Do you like to read? Not nearly as much as I used to. Like all I ever read nowadays are RP posts as I obviously have to reply to them, but if they're long, it is common I procrastinate on reading it... ;_; Do you sleep too much or not enough? Probably too much, especially when I go to bed early. Although, I do wake up throughout the night and sometimes officially pretty early. Then some days I have a 1-2 hour nap, so that just adds to it. Who is your best friend? Sara. <3 How did you two meet? YouTube. How did you meet your current bf/gf? ^ How far away is your closest family member? Well I live with my mom, but she's at work atm. The last time you did something with BOTH of your parents was? BOY OH FUCKING BOY. My mom's the most bitter witch towards him, so even for family events, Dad usually only stops by to avoid creating a goddamn wreck, such as at birthday dinners. I think the last time they were in the same house was for my nephew's birthday half a year ago, I believe. What’s your favorite holiday? Halloween!!! Now that I have a niece and nephew who grasp the concept of Santa, Christmas is also really special to me. I don't want kids, but watching those sweethearts get so excited over their presents is magical. For me personally, the holiday has grown more and more about celebrating family, especially as we continue to branch out/go our own ways. So I guess I like the idea of Halloween better and would enjoy it more if I actually had something to do, but as far as joy goes, Christmas. Do you like pumpkin pie? I hate anything and everything pumpkin-flavored. The last time you went to the doctor, what were you there for? It was the see my psychiatrist. Do you take any medication regularly? Yeah. Is there any particular view you have on insane people? I see "insane" versus "sane" as far more of a gradient shift instead of a direct split; there're levels. I actually do legitimately think I at some juncture in the aftermath of the breakup qualified as slightly insane, yet I wasn't dangerous or entirely out of touch with reality. So if you tell me someone's actually insane, I'm going to fear them being the explosive, entirely unpredictable and loopy kind, but I know the person may be calm and somewhat stable on the outside, too. You gotta consider the severity. Do you believe in any conspiracies? 9/11 was orchestrated by the government and you cannot change my mind. I'm not totally sold on this one and lean more towards "nah" (I think), but the "we live in a simulation by a future civilization" is not that far-fetched at all if you actually look into it. It's very interesting, whether or not you're sold on it. Hell, Neil deGrasse Tyson firmly believes in it. Out of your friends, who is the funniest? Girt makes me laugh at the snap of his fingers, it seems. Anything you need to get rid of? I'm sure somewhere... Do you have any wasted talents? Animal knowledge and compassion, probably... I know I could make a fantastic rehabilitator for animals, among a plethora of other animal-related preservation and protection actions I could actively engage in. Well, I'm going back to school for zoology, but even now, I want to do more. There is a wildlife rehab place I may be able to volunteer at soon, tho! Mom's talking to a guy at work about me helping there. DAMN, livin a dream. Do you let the little things get to you? The issue could be as small as a single cell and it could still bother me. How often do you cry? Maybe once in a week, possibly longer. I don't know if you mean like really cry or just tear up/lightly cry. The latter is pretty common, but the other, not so much. Even if I want to cry, my jaw just entirely locks the hell up and I physically can't get it out. Is there anything you’re trying to prevent? I mean besides the common sense things everyone takes action to avoid, hm. I feel like there's so much, yet nothing is coming to me? Well, actually, it's usually a daily struggle to prevent at least one OCD cycle. When was the last time you were told you were cute? *shrug* When was the last time you were truly, completely happy with your life? It's been quite a while... At least over a year ago, when I began to get antsy with wanting a job and later going back to school. It just all started when I realized I was healed from the breakup and ready to move forward in life, but I wasn't. Do you miss the way things used to be between you and someone else? Multiple people. What colors has your hair been? Dirty blonde, brown, red, and purple. I've had red and purple highlights, and I naturally have blondish ones, too. I'm ready to dye it again, jfc. Most attempts are failures because my hair does NOT take color well whatsoever. It's only ever worked perfectly with the brand Splat, and my hair soaked in the dye for a LONG time before washing it out. Have you ever gotten burnt by a cigarette? No. Do you and your parents like any of the same bands/singers? We share interest in plenty of the same bands, Mom especially. Is there any food in your bedroom? What? No. Do you know anyone who has road rage? Who? MY LITTLE SISTER. Haven't seen the woman in three years, but I can promise you Jason's mom still has it to a legendary degree. How expensive is too expensive for a pair of shoes? I haven't looked for shoes in so long that I don't even know the average price. What kinds of cereal are in the cupboard? Honey Nut Cheerios, normal Cheerios I think, and we have a little bit of the chocolate chunk Special K cereal left over. It's got to be stale by now (it's not even closed fully); I need to remember to toss it. What’s the last thing you spent over $10 on? Ummm I'm not sure. Over $30? I think my tongue piercing was $40? Maybe even lower? Or slightly higher?? I don't remember. Do you know who lives three houses down from you? I think so. The one time I was locked out of my house in the snow with Teddy and I waited like a fucking hour until I broke down, absolutely freezing (I was in my pajamas, dude), and walked down the road to try and get help (I needed to call my mom, obviously, and I didn't have my phone), I believe it was the third neighbor who answered. Turned out being a retired deputy who was super intimidating yet kind at the same time; he let Teddy and me stay in his house (mind you, Teddy is incontinent and didn't have his diaper on, which I warned him about) while Mom was on her way home. He gave me a jacket and some water, even when I said I was fine, but you could tell he wasn't totally sure about trusting this random, sobbing girl at his door because he asked me a thousand questions about my story and quizzed if I really did live in this area. Obviously a good cop, but after a day like that, I was just terrified of an old man who appeared a bit gruff. But thankfully Mom got there to save the day and I am forever grateful for that guy. WOW what a story for a simple question. Is there a bulletin board in your room? No. Is your mom a big health freak or your dad? Or neither? "Health freak" seems a bit extreme for both of them, but Mom is more concerned about health in general. Do you know anyone who wants to be the president one day? No. What kinds of chips are in the cupboards? We just have tortilla chips, I think. I try to keep snacks out of the house to avoid temptation, and who eats plain tortilla chips. Do you have your mom's or dad's hair? Mom's. What’s the first thing you see when you walk into your bedroom? Most would probably notice my Nightmare Before Christmas poster first, being as big as it is and on the wall opposite the entrance. Do you prefer the truth, even if it’s harsh? YES. I NEED to know this kinda stuff, even if the truth is really hard to hear. Do you have any friends who have naturally red hair? I don't think so. Have you ever cried when a teacher retired? I think I did when my very first band teacher did. EVERYONE loved him. Like, the entire school. Does your kitchen look like it was designed in a completely different decade? No? When’s the last time you wore heels? Great question. Probably not since my sister's wedding in '16. Do you have your mom’s or dad’s eyes? My grampa's on Mom's side. What’s the best date movie? Probably a rom com? Have your parents ever been out of the country? No. How many pairs of jeans, all together, are in your house? Zero. Do you swear and yell while playing video games? I'll swear under my breath or seethe in frustration, but I never yell. Is there any alcohol in the fridge? No. Has a best friend ever ditched you for a girlfriend/boyfriend? Pretty much. Whenever she starts dating a guy, she dips, and whenever/if ever we talk, she rambles absolutely endlessly about him. Do you know anyone who has grossly skinny eyebrows? I couldn't possibly care less about how your eyebrows look. Do your pets chase after bugs? Roman and Bentley sure do. Bentley is a Professional Fly Moncher, specifically. When’s the last time you were so excited you couldn’t sleep? Why? Uhhh good question. Probs the night before Sara got here for my b-day. What is your mom’s favorite movie? Hm, good question! I'd ask her, but I don't want her to ask me why I am lmao. What TV family reminds you of your own family? Probably none. Did you ever really believe that the stork brought babies? No. I don't remember what I thought, but I know it wasn't that. Do you have any relatives who really spoil you? No, I think? Well Dad gives my sisters and me way too much money for Christmas and always tells us to ask him if we need anything, but I pretty much never ask him for said things, so I don't know the extent he'd go. Are there any drawers in your house that are just filled with junk? Pretty much. Is the last person you spoke to in love? That's my mom, so I doubt that with all I know. Do you know anyone who has security cameras in their house? I don't believe so. What was the last movie to make you cry? I think the last was Coco. Moana may have made me tear up, but I can't remember... Has anyone you know ever pulled the fire alarm in school, joking around? Not to my memory. What time do you usually go to sleep at sleepovers, if ever? I haven't been to a sleepover in God knows how long. Who was the main character in the last book you read? Alice Liddell. Who are the last people you saw kiss? Via YouTube, Jeffree and his boyfriend. Irl, I don't know. Have you ever posted a fan fiction on a website? No. Do you ever fantasize about your future wedding? Who’s the bride/groom? Not very much. Like I've had brief daydreams about it, sure, but it's not something that's on my mind a lot. Still got a long time before that happens. What was the last unpleasant thing to wake you up? My cat not knowing how to keep his mouth shut. Would you rather look at clouds or stars? Stars. Well, it depends; stars if we're in a completely isolated area where you can see them crystal clear or the clouds are boring, but otherwise, clouds if their design and colors are cool. Do you have any relatives who are expecting a baby really soon? No. Do you ever wonder what the opposite sex do at sleepovers? No. When you get married, who will be the maid of honor/best man? My mom, no questions asked. When’s the last time you broke plans? Why? I wasn't feeling well. I was supposed to see my VR coach that day. Have you ever been in a wedding? What were you? Yes, my sister's. I was a bridesmaid. It was an absolutely awful experience because I was hot as fuck, it was triggering as HELL with me still grieving Jason, and I felt positively hideous in a dress when I was at such a horrible weight. I wish so dearly I could redo that day; I fell like I put a serious damper on my sister's big day. Would you feel safer with an alarm system or security cameras? Hm, depends on the scenario... I guess an alarm system? Like security cameras will show a murderer climbing through my window, but they're not gonna wake me up to save my ass. Does it matter to you what kind of shampoo you use? So long it smells nice, isn't watery, and doesn't only add oil to my hair, I don't care much. Has a stray dog ever tried to bite you? No. When riding a bus, do you prefer to sit in front, in the back, or in the middle? Hm... idk. When I took the bus home with Jason, we always sat in the back, and that's really the only time I took a bus regularly. I think otherwise, I'd prefer the middle, closer to the front? I think I usually did that on occasions like band competitions and such. Have you ever been on a cross-country train ride? No. Are you normally a person to tell people off? No, that's rare. Is there any TV show that ended that you wish hadn’t? Meerkat Manor. Though I would hope they'd lessen down on the false story-telling. Stick to the true KMP events. When you feel stressed, do you take things out on the wrong people? Sometimes. Do you even wear any jeans other than skinny anymore? I don't wear jeans period. What did you talk about at lunch today with your friends? N/A Are you sensitive to caffeine? Definitely not. My system's too used to it, probably. How do you usually get around? Mom drives me. I'm 23. :^) Which languages do you wish you could speak fluently in? German. Have you ever been accused of being too clingy? SURPRISINGLY no, at least to my memory. Do you like Vitamin Water? Never tried, don't want to. What was the last thing you took a picture of? Dad and me on his birthday. Do you know anyone that uses Sprint as their phone carrier? Idk. Well, I think. When you go to McDonalds, what drink do you usually get? Coke. Do you have a Kindle or iPad or neither? Neither. Would you rather read or write? Write. When was the last time someone took a picture of you? Sometime during Bobby's visit literally days ago. I already forgot who took it... and who else was in it lmao. Do you own a pair of slippers? Yeah, two. A meerkat pair and then a far less extra pair that're closer to socks. I think they have cats on them? I got them for Christmas I think and haven't worn or seen them much. Would you rather see Taylor Swift or Carrie Underwood in concert? Not a fan of either, but Carrie Underwood is more tolerable and even has a couple songs I enjoy. Name something negative that you hate about yourself: I'll jump to a conclusion within .02 seconds of something negative happening. Or not even "negative" or something that's purely in my head. Is your house currently hot, cold or just right? The house itself is fine, and my room is just right because I have my fan on. Is there a Dead End road near where you live? I can't think of one off the top of my head, but it's likely, really. There's lots of those here. Growing up, did you see your cousins often? No. We live many states away on both parents' sides. Where was your first job at? GameStop. Who are you tired of seeing in the news a lot? (Celebrities) It's been like two days and I'm over seeing the James Charles/Tati drama everywhere. You can't be interested in the YouTube community without being drowned in that shit right now somehow someway on any YT-coverage page and YouTube itself. Have you ever had to call and complain about a product you bought? I personally haven't. Would you date someone who’s shorter than you? I very openly and severely judge you if fucking height means that much to you. Do you mind being the third wheel? Not really, no. I'd only feel uncomfortable if they were getting pretty intimate. Has a kiss ever made you weak in the knees? Um I didn't know that was actually a thing so no. Do you feel comfortable buying condoms? Never been in that position. Have you ever dated two people at once? No. Have you ever been tested for STDs? No. Well wait, that time I gave blood I probably was just out of safety protocol. Have you ever run into your ex with his/her new sweetie? No. Have you ever felt guilty after doing something sexual? When I was in that "wait does this break the abstinence rule" phase, yeah. God was I technical. Have you ever had a condom break during sex? N/A Do your parents know if you’re having sex? Well considering I'm with a girl and she lives states away, that answer's obvious. Do you eat chips or crackers more? Chips. Would you rather be a singer or a dancer? A dancer. Would you rather be a musician or a painter? A painter, maybe? If I could play the electric guitar, though... idk. What social media sites do you visit the most? Facebook. What did you hair look like in high school? Long, thick as fuck, brown (or dyed black) with some sort of highlight, and it was split to the left with the hair swooped over my right eye. Basically "I want the emo swoop but my hair is too fucking thick to obey hairspray." :^) Which dollar store do you shop at? Depends on what's closest, usually. We rarely ever stop at one unless it's for candy to bring into the movie theater, seriously lol. I think usually Dollar General? Do you prefer candy corn or conversation hearts? WE DON'T KNOW EITHER. Skeletons or scarecrows? s k e l l y b o y s Has anyone ever given you the silent treatment? Yep. What’s the weirdest thing you’ve ever had in your mouth? I learned on that day I hate giving blowjobs. Has anyone ever threatened you with a knife? No, thankfully. (If you’re a girl) Has anyone ever called you ‘shortie’ instead of girl? BOY I would fucking cackle. I hate that word. No. Do you ever watch The Simpsons? No. Have you ever sent an embarrassing moment of yours into a mag to be printed? OH MY GOD I remember that!!! But no. What IS your most embarrassing moment? Too lazy to go through the novel of 'em to pick the worst. Do you think you’re more cute or sexy? You assume I find myself either. Do you own any mini skirts? I don't own any skirts period. Do you draw little hearts and stuff with eyeliner next to your eyes? No. What’s the most expensive thing you’ve ever lost? Idk. Has your mom ever lied to you? I'm sure she has before. Do you have a deep voice? For a girl, yeah. When’s the last time someone made breakfast for you? *shrugs* Exclusively for me, probably never. Do you do something new with your hair practically every day? No, it's the same everyday. When someone knocks on the door, who do you think it is? Delivery guy. Has anyone ever licked your foot? Ew no. Do you play games with boys/girls, like ‘hard to get’? I'm not 15. Has a guy ever quoted a romantic Shakespeare line to you? No, and I'm glad, as I'd cringe into another realm. Is there a Sonic where you live? Yes, I LIVE- Do you smile with your teeth? Usually. I look less high, at least. What did you eat for lunch today? A pb&j. What do you like on your pizza? Pepperoni, jalapenos, or meat lovers. What is in the back seat of your car right now? I don't own a personal car. Mom has a a load of stuff in the back of hers, at least I think... That's super rare, but she's been so ungodly busy idk if she's had time to clean it out. I haven't paid attention so can't recall. What was the last thing you threw up? Idr. Menthol or regular cigarettes? I don't smoke and never have, so idk. What is your favorite episode of Friends? I don't watch it, and I haven't seen many episodes at all if for whatever reason I was in a room and it was on. Does anyone have any blackmail on you? No. Have you been to a strip club? No. What’s the last sporting event you watched? Hell if I remember. It had to either be my 16th birthday when Jason's family was all together watching the Super Bowl, or a hockey game with my dad. Last person’s house you were in? Besides my own, my sister's. Who is the last person you sent a message to on Facebook? Nicole. Ever go to camp? No. Were you an honor roll student in school? Yeah. Do you have a tan? HA no. How old do you want to be when you have kids? I don't want kids. Are you someone’s best friend? Yeah. Favorite gemstone? Dragon's breath opal. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? Drive thru, almost always. Does your first memory involve your dad? No. When was the last time you went swimming? Last summer at the beach. Holy fuck the water was so perfect. Has your luggage ever gotten lost? No. Have you ever thought it would be cool to smash a guitar? No. Like... just why. Do you ever get flu shots? No.

#survey #quiz #questions #random

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master--wayne13 · 6 years

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Picture This.. One Day You're Minding Your Business Right.. All Of A Sudden Comes This Young Man.. You Don't Really Pay Any Attention To Him 4real Cuz You Not Interested.. Well Eventually He Gets Your Attention Because, Well, You Have His.. Y'all Get Along Just Smoothly. Probably Cuz Y'all Infatuated With Each Other Or Whatever.. He Tells You He Don't Do Relationships Cuz Of His Last One, Ok Cool, That's Fine.. So Y'all Eventually Talk All The Time, See Each Other All The Time. Y'all Got This Dope Ass Bond. This Shit Carries On For Couple Months.. Then Some Shit With Ya Boyfriend Happens & He Stops Talking To You For A Couple Months.. So Eventually He Talks To You Again, But At First He Makes It Seem Like It Was Yo Fault That Y'all Wasn't Talking.. Lil Flirty Kinda Shit.. So Eventually, Y'all Start Hanging Out Again & This Time, It's Wayyy More Than Before.. Like From Couple Hours Everyday To Like 24/7 Type Shit.. Everywhere One Went, The Other Went Just About.. You Break Up With Your Boyfriend Because This Young Man Became Like Your Bestfriend.. Everything Your Boyfriend Wasn't Doing, He Willingly Did.. & Not Even In A Sexual Sense.. He Was Just An Amazing Sweetheart.. You Loved This Man With Damn Near Everything In You.. The Sex Was Amazing.. Damn Near Liked The Same Shit.. Y'all Bond Was The Shit.. But He Would Lie About Petty Shit For Whatever Reason.. Then Some MORE Bullshit Happens Because Of A Fuckboy & He Stops Fucking With You AGAIN Because Of Some Old Shit.. But Of Course He Comes Back Around Again.. & Y'all Hang Heavy.. Ya Birthday Comes Up & He Gets You Something He Saw You Eyeing In The Store.. It's Amazing..

Then Boom.. He Slowly Backs Away.. Stops Texting You Back.. Then Just Ignores You Altogether Honestly.. So Y'all Don't Talk For A Couple Days.. He Calls You Saying He Misses You & Wanted To See You Before He Left For A Trip.. You Get There & Then He Barely Talks To You.. Don't Even Sit Near You. So You Leave, You Don't Wanna Stick Around Somebody That Acting Like That Towards You. Couple Days Go By & He Eventually Tells You "I Have A Girlfriend, I Hope We Can Still Be Friends.." You Respond *Hours Later* "Sure, We Can." Why? You Ask, Because At This Point, You No Longer Had Feelings For Him.. You Looked At Him As More Of An Extremely Close Friend.. Like You Felt, Well Thought That Friendship Meant Something To You.. Couple Days Go By & He Texts You Basically Saying To Stop Talking To Him & Y'all Can't Be Friends Anymore..

Have You Ever Been At Work & Felt Your Heart Drop? Have You Ever Been Told Some Extremely Heartbreaking Shit WHILE AT WORK?! Not Something You Wanna Experience..

Wanna Know What It's Called When You Lose What You Felt Was Like A Best Friend? The End Of The World......... Or At Least That's What It Feels Like... 😕

It Was Like A Slap In The Face.. How Could Somebody You Loved So Much Do Such A Thing? What On Earth Would Make Them Do Something So Hurtful To You? Tragic Right..

So You Immediately Distance Yourself.. From Just About Everybody.. You Get High Damn Near Everyday To Try & Forget Everything.. You Try Entertaining Ppl & It Never Makes It Past The Texting Stage.. He Still Texts Or Calls From Time To Time & You Still See Him Around.. It Got Easier To Let Go.. Fast Forward Thru The Year, You Eventually Give A Chance To This Guy That's Been Liking You For A While.. That Shit Was Going Smoothly Til It Wasn't Anymore.. It Was An On & Off Thing For A Couple Months Cuz He Was Always Busy.. Then He Got To Ignoring You & You Were Over It..

THEN, You Meet This New Guy.. He Knows Who You Are But You Don't Know Him.. And Of Course That Excites You. You're Asking Around Like Who Is That?! On The Inside You're Like I HAVE To Get This Mans Number Before He Leaves.. And With The Help Of Friends, You Get It.. Hella Excitement! So Couple Days Go Buy & He Asks To Hang Out.. So Yall Chill.. It's Cool.. Thats That.. Something Crazy Happens To You & He's More Concerned Than Your Parents Were.. (Crazy Right).. You Get Home, He Comes Rushing.. Spends Time With You, Looks After You, Just A Goddamn Sweetheart.. Whatever.. Y'all Start Hanging Out Heavy.. He Comes Over Before & After Work.. He Introduces You To His Son, Who You We're Nervous About Meeting In The First Place!! He Pops Up At Your House Just To Hang Out, Y'all Chill & Watch Movies All Day, Sex Is Thee Bomb Dot Com, You Start To Form A Bond.. He's A Bomb Dad.. He Likes You, You Like Him.. Y'all Go On Dates & Double Dates & Shit.. He Pays For Shit.. Real CUTE Shit..

Then Boom.. He Doesn't Really Reply To You Anymore.. 🤔 What Happened.? 🤷 So You Just Confused.. Then, He Shows Up To Your House Drunk, Telling You How Much He Misses You & All This Mess.. So Y'all Start Talking Again Blah Blah.. He Also Tells You He Doesn't Want A Relationship.. This Time Hearing That, It Hurt You A Little Bit But You're Like Whatever, That's Cool, Me Either.. You'd Rather Have A Friend First Anyway.. So Fast Forward There Was Some Shit Going On In Your Household So Y'all Talked About Moving In Together Because He Wanted A Roommate & You Wanted To Move Out.. Cool.. Fast Forward Couple More Months.. Y'all Live Together Now And It's LIT.. Sex When You Want It.. Somebody Who Hugs You When You Come Home Or They Get Home.. Somebody Whose Presence Alone Is Just Greatness.. Y'all Don't Get Into It About Anything Cuz Damn Near Everything Is Done Together.. Then One Day He Tells You, "We Can't Do This Anymore.. My Girlfriend Would Be Disappointed.."

*sigh* What? Alrighty Then.. So Now Your Mind Is All Over The Place.. How Long Has He Had A Girlfriend, Why Didn't He Say Something A While Ago, Just All Type Of Shit.. So You Ask If He's Serious Or Just Being Petty......... He's Serious.. Whaaaaat?? None Of This Makes Sense To You.. Somebody Who Was Just Preaching About Not Wanting A Relationship & Never Getting Married, Gets A Girlfriend Out Of The Blue.. Make That Make Sense.. Your Feelings Are Hurt Of Course Because You Obviously Considered Y'all To Be Friends. I Mean He Let You Be His Roommate, Y'all Gotta Be Friends Right? So You Have Your Moment(s) Or Whatever Cuz You're An Overthinking Emotional Wreck.. But You Pull Yourself Together.. You Ask Questions Blah Blah Blah.. So You Pull Yourself Away.. What Else Is There To Do When The Person You Spent Hella Time With, Gets A Girlfriend.? He Takes It As You Having An Attitude.. He Basically Tells You Your Feelings Shouldn't Be Hurt Cuz He Don't Owe You Any Loyalty, Mmmk.. Then Tells You The Attitude You Have Towards Him Is "Not Fair".. Shame.. But Before This, You Got Info That He Doesn't Have A Girlfriend. 😦😦 Whaaaaa?? He Found Himself Catching Feelings & He's Supposedly Distancing Himself.. Is That A Pride Thing Orrrrrrrrr??? But He's Still Saying He Has A Girlfriend.. So Now, You're Not Quite Sure What To Believe.. Cuz None Of It Makes Sense Anymore..

Remember That "End Of The World" Feeling.. Yeah.. That Shit Hit Again.. Hard.. When Ppl You Consider Close Friends And Somebody You Care About Break Your Heart, It's A Different Kind Of Hurt.. Only This Time, You're Not Gonna Let It Get To You Because You Have To See This Man Everyday.. And You've Experienced This Before So You Should Know How It Works By Now..

Not Only That, You're A Fucking Adult Who Made A Decision. You Put Yourself In A Position & Now You Have To Deal With It.. You Can't Be A Baby Anymore & Run From Every Problem..

Seeing This Makes You Sound Dumb For Sticking Thru Any Of It, Right? But You Cared So Much About People Who Kept Hurting You? Why? Did You Think You Were Helping Them? Were They Using You? You'll Never Know.. But, You'll Get It Together.. Trust Me..

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cl3rks · 6 years

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Tagged by: @transjonstark love u my dude thanks for this i was bored so this helped 😁😇

nickname(s): doodlebug, gaylord, mom, stilts, "the tall one over there" and lex (my middle name is alexa)

gender: idk these days im feelin fluid and so I'm trying to figure it out

star sign: Sagittarius

height: 5’10 ((I'm 5'9 1/2, don't take this from me))

time: 1:43 cst

birthday: December 12th binch

favorite band: anarbor, highly suspect, royal blood, there's so many tbh

favorite solo artist: myself? Idk uhguh post malone

song stuck in my head: lydia by highly suspect

last movie i watched: logan (2017)

last show i watched: dude it was either ER or justified and I can't rmr which

when did i create my blog: jfc uhm late 2013 or but I didn't use it til 2014

what do i post: some dumb shit bois (i reblog nhl, memes, wwe, and anything interesting I've latched onto)

last thing i googled: when tf the blues are playing

sideblog(s): god so many but the ones I wanna peep for my stories are @fuelthatfire / @apocalypse-central / @innocence-drowned / @thewitchcameback / and my aesthetic blog @precisionkills /

do i get asks: sometimes I mean I say hmu and all y'all DONT

reason for url: smth mr sark said on YouTube and I don't have the heart to change it

following: 2626

followers: 369 😋😉

average hours of sleep: 5 or 6 probably, I wake up a lot at night

lucky number: 7 or 13

instrument(s) i play: I'm trying to teach myself guitar and piano

what am i wearing: my step up extra reject clothes (joggers, sweater, snapback)

dream job: i have a lot so: voice actor, hockey player, softball/baseball pitcher, and sfx artist but I'm probs gonna end up selling my soul to a corporate office that doesn't give 2 shits about me so

dream trip: the fucking moon idk wherever colton parayko would be that he'd notice me

favorite food: Chinese food

nationality: american

fave song: steady as she goes by the raconteurs

I'm tagging @stardewspirit and @motherofkittens94 bc they usually do these if they're interesting (but y'all don't have to if u don't want)

#about me

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espieviolet99 · 4 years

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Guys

While I’m watching The Futgitive (1993( for the UMPTEENTH time), EVEN WHEN I WATCHED THIS AS A VERY, VERY YOUNG TEEN, I COULD TELL KIMBLE WASN’T POSSIBLY NEAR GUILTY - AND NO MURDERER WOULD EVER WANT TO LEAVE THEIR DNA OR CLUES TO BE INCRIMINATED - I HATE THE CHICAGO POLICE!!! AAAARGH

Noah Newman now very much appeals to me. I’ve always found Harrison Ford and Tommy Lee Jones handsome - but being a fully grown woman... Newman... mmm.

I wonder how Ford acquired that scar - he had it in Kingdom of the Crystal Skull, too. Which I do enjoy as a film. I used to crush so hard of Shia Lebouf, but now I just tend to watch it every so often because why not. It’s not un-entertaining.

THAT GUY VOMITING IS OBVIOUSLY BEING SO SUS but also what a nice guard that he still wants to protecc - but too bad he snitches on Kimble at the hospital WHEN HE SAVES HIM TWICE!! But duty and all that, I suppose. YOU ARE A HORRIBLE PRISON GUARD, OTHER GUARD!

Copeland, you fuck XD

NO - DON’T TAKE THE WEIRD KNIFE THING OUT - nevermind

KIMBLE IS A HERO

I’m not drinking, you are.

Ooof... Kimble must really be questioning his existence after that Train Wreck.

I love this film so much btw. It is my favourite thing to watch with my grandad. Ever since I was like... fresh teen. That and Under Siege. And Stalag 17 - which is a black and white obscure film which can be found on youtube, as far as I am currently aware.

TOMMY LEE JOOOOOOOOOOOONES

Also, Newman. Mmmm. Adult me has other fixations on this film now. Hehehe.

These Police departments are ridiculous. But plot, I suppose.

That Guard.... CUNT.

TLJ to the rescuuuuUUUUUUUUUUUUUE

FARMHOUSE, HENHOUSE, ETC. ICONIC! LOVE IT!!! Also referenced in B-99

Who is Wyatt Earp?

“You know we’re always fascinated when we find leg irons with NO LEGS IN THEM!”

FARMHOUSE, HEN HOUSE, DOG HOUSE AND OUTHOUSE

ICOOOOOONIIIIIIIC

I could probably do better than 4 miles an hour, won’t lie. But then I’m a week away from 21 and have the legs of God knows what.

Tommy Lee Jones has such a handsome face.

THINK ME UP A CUP OF COFFEE AND A CHOCOLATE DOUGHNUT WITH SOME OF THOSE LITTLE SPRINKLES ON THEM

Kimble was very intelligent of what to do very quickly and I respect him so much for it. You go avenge your wife, sir! Unravel that mystery! Bunch of cunts!

Harrison Ford was like 50 in this film and daaaaaaaayuuuuuuuuum

Mr Johnson XD

You!..... fucking prison guard...

Why did you nick an ambulance.... nevermind... Erin Poole is the best

Joe Pontaliano is awesome, lol

TOMMY LEE JONES IS SO AWESOME

“GO CATCH THE FISH THAT ATE HIM!”

I don’t have the alcohol tolerance to continue this - but my god. I have watched this film so many times and I cannot stress enough how good it is. How much I love it. And Harrison Ford and Tommy Lee Jones in it. I’d love to get my Grandad their autographs.

DID A GODDAMN PETER PAN OVER THIS DAMN

Can we go home no?

#the fugitive #us marshells #tommy lee jones #harrison ford #fugitive #90s #joe pontaliano #november #2020 #films #drunk #7 days til my birthday y'all #21st

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winchesters-love · 7 years

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Get To Know Me!!! A Little Too Well

1. Name: Nicole 2. Nickname(s): Nik, Nikki 3. Birthday: June 21 4. That makes you: 18 5. Where were you born: Nebraska 6. Location right now: Same place 7. Shoe size: 7 8. How many piercings?: None 9. Tattoos?: None, but I'd love a few <3 10. When you wake up you're: Confused and even more tired 11. When your about to sleep you're: Wide awake 12. Zodiac sign: Cancerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr/Gemini 13. Chinese sign: Rabbit 14. Righty or Lefty: Righty 15. Innie or Outie: Innie 16. School: Out of school :P Section Two: Looks 17. Nationality: White 20. Weight: 110 lbs 21. Height: 5'6 22. Braces? No 23. Glasses? Yes Section Three: Private Life 24. Do you have a boy/girlfriend? I do! 25. If so, who? The love of my life, Nate 26. If not, do you have a crush on someone? My boyfriend 27. Who has a crush on you? No one haha 28. Ever cheated on your bf/gf? Nope 29. Who was your first kiss: Nate, he kisses pretty good 30. Who was your last kiss: Nate <3 31. Are you a virgin? Yes 32. Ever had a threesome before? No 33. NQ- Ever been swarmed by ladybugs?: Nope 34. Have you ever been in love? Yes 35. Broken any hearts? Not that I know of 36. Got your heart broken? Quite a few times 37. Ever liked a friend? Yea 38. What happened? We started dating

Section Four: Past Relationships 39. How many relationships have you been in? 1 40. How many were serious enough to count: I'm in it 41. Who were those serious ones: I've only been in 1 42. NQ- Who USED to be your best friend: Well, he's still my best friend so 43. What made them different: Nothing 44. What happened: We started dating 45. Best boy/girlfriend: The one I'm dating 46. Worst boy/girlfriend: N/A 47. Ever been kissed: Yes 48. Who do you want back: No one 49. What do you regret: Focusing too much on guys 50. Why? Because I would've done so much better in school Section Five: Favourites 51. Song: Sound of Silence 52. Movie: Zootopia 53. Food: Anything really 54. Drink: Apple Juice 55. Store: Gamestop and Hot Topic 56. Television show: Stranger Things and Mom 57. Holiday: Christmas 58. Book: Grace Lost Series 59. Ice cream: Mint Chip 60. Sweets: Chocolate 61. Crisps: Doritos Jacked 62. Type of music: Pretty much every genre 63. Artist: Singer is Luke Bryan, Painter is Bob Ross 64. Word: Loquacious, vernacular 65. Time of day: Evening/night 66. Dressing: Ranch 67. Alcoholic drink: Don't drink 68. Colour(s): Blue, Red, Black, and White 69. Piece of clothing: Beanie 70. Character: My fursona 71. Smell: Fresh rainfall 72. Shampoo: Fructis 73. Soap: Fructis 74. Smiley: >3 75. Board game: Too many tbh 76. Sport: Soccer 77. Number: 5 78. Quote: "The only thing we have to fear is fear itself." Franklin D. Roosvelt 79. Animal: Wolf 80. Actor: Ryan Reynolds/Chris Pratt 82. Vegetable: Sugar snap peas 83. Fruit: Grapes 84. Place to be: In my room 85. Thing in your room: Pictures 86. Gum: 5-gum 87. Shape: Circle 88. Country: Europe 89. Mall: Any mall 90. Car: 67 Chevy Impala 91. Boy's name: Christopher 92. Girl's name: Chrissy 93. Family member: My brothers and my dad 94. Restaurant: Johnny Carinos 95. Movie place: The theater 96. Person to go to the movies with: Myself 97. Noise: Falling rain 98. Brand of Shoe: Airwalks 99. Brand of clothing: Aeropostle 100. Body part of a chicken: Thigh 101. Swear word: Asshat 102. Month: December 103. Possession: My ring 104. Team: Don't have a favorite 105. Season: Winter 106. Radio station: Pop station 107. Magazine: Don't read them 108. Favourite grade: Senior year 109. Least favourite grade: 5th grade 110. Teacher: Kindergarten 111. Least favourite teacher: Math teacher in 5th grade, he was a douche 112. Subject: Art/Choir 113. Subject to talk about: Anything and everything Section Six: Family 114. Who's your mum?: Not here 115. Who's your dad?: My role model 116. Any step-parents?: Yea, had a few 117. Any brothers?: 2 118. Any Sisters?: Nope 120. Coolest: Older brother 121. Loudest: Me 122. Best relative: My cousin 123. Worse relative: No one 124. Do you get along with your parents? My dad, yea 125. With your siblings? Mostly, we game with each other 126. Does anyone understand you? Yea 127. Do you have any pets? Nah 128. If so, what kind and name? 129. If not, what do you want as a pet? I want another dog, we had to get rid of ours Section Seven: School 131. Are you still in school? Nope 132. Did you drop out?: 2.75, I didn't pay attention freshman and sophomore year 133. Your current GPA: No thanks 134. Do you buy or bring lunch?: School bill paid for it 135. ABC's?: Know them 136. Favorite class: Choir and art 137. Play any sports at school?: Played soccer 138. Are you popular? With the outcasts 139. Favourite memory: Being the only girl good at soccer 140. Most humiliating moment: Falling in front of my close guy friends 141. Most funniest moment: Hitting someone in the face with a soccer ball 142. Most scared moment: Graduating Section Eight: What do you think of when you hear 145. Chicken: Bawk bawk 146. Dog: Soft puppy 147. Christina Aguilera: Music 148. Ricky Martin: Who? 149. 50 cent: Rapper 150. Poop: Emoji 151. Beach: Sand 152. Dessert: Cactus 153. Water: Blue 154. Osama: Bin Laden 155. Love: Life 156. Your little brother: Xbox One 157. Butt: Nice 158. Clowns: Pennywise 159. Wonder: Over Yander 16o. Brown: Pants 161. Banana: Yum 162. Sex: Rope 163. Parents: One 164. Homosexuals: Jensen and Jared 165. God: Father Section Nine: Do you believe in 166. God: Yes 167. Heaven: Yes 168. Devil: Yes 169. Hell: In a sense 170: Boogey man: No 171. Closet Monsters: Nah 172. Fortune telling: Nope 173. Magic: Nuh uh 174. Love at first sight: Depends 175. Ghosts: Nope 176. Voo-doo dolls: Nah 177. Reincarnation: Nope 178. Yourself: Ehh, not really Section Ten: Do you 179. Smoke: And kill my lungs? No thanks 180. Do drugs: Pfft, why would I? 181. Drink alcohol: Again, I'm not trying to die at a young age 182. Cuss: Yea 183. Sing in the shower: Sometimes... 184. Like school: Yea, it was the best place to be! 185. Want to get married: Mhmm, and I'm glad I found someone 186. Type with all of your fingers: Not really 187. Think you're attractive: Most days 188. Drink and drive: Fuck this 189. Snore: Sometimes 190. Sleep walk: Nope 191. Like watching sunrises and sunsets: Best place to be honestly Section Eleven: Have you ever 192. Flashed someone: On accident 193. Gotten so drunk til you threw up everywhere: I don't drink 194. Told that person how you felt: Yep 195. Been arrested: Nope 196. Gone to jail or juve: No 197. Skateboarded: Yes 198. Skinny dipped: In a bath 199. Rock climbed: Do it every summer 200. Killed someone: Nope 201. Watched porn: Nah 202. Gone on a road trip: Kinda 203. Went out of the country: Nah 204. Talked back to an adult: Yes 205. Broken a law: Nope 206. Got pulled over: Don't drive 208: Cried to get out of trouble: I don't usually do anything bad 209. Let a friend cry on your shoulder: I'm supposed to, I'm there to listen 210. Kissed a brother's or sister's friend: No 211. Kissed a friend's brother or sister: No 212. Dropped something on the floor and let someone eat it anyways: Nah, I usually eat it 213. Mooned someone: Yes, once 214. Shop-lifted: No 215. Worked at McDonald's: No thank you 216. Eaten a dog: A hot dog! 217. Give money to a homeless person: Yea, I've fed them too 218. Glued your hand to yourself: Yes 219. Kissed someone of the same sex: Playing Pocky 220. Had a one night stand: I have two right beside my bed 221. Smoked: Nope 222. Done drugs: No 223. Lose a friend because of your ex: I don't have any exes 224. Slap someone for being stupid: Yes 225. Had cyber sex: Sexted?? Kinda 226. Wish you were the opposite sex: A lot more often than I should sometimes. But for completely different reasons 227. Caught someone doing something: Yea 228. Played a game that removes clothing: Strip truth or dare ;) 229. Cried during a movie: All the damn time 230. Cried over someone: It's hard not to when you can't have an actor love you 231. Wanted to hook up with a friend: Yea, and I did 232. Hooked up with someone you barely met: Nah 233. Ran away from home: Nope 234. Cheated on a test: Once Section Twelve: Would you 235. Bungee jump: Nope 236. Sky dive: Hate heights 237. Swim with dolphins: Yes 238. Steal a friend's bf or gf: That goes against girl code 239. Try to be the opposite sex: No 240. Lie to the police: Hi officer my real name is Nicholas... Cage 241. Run from the police: No 242. Lie to your parents: Done it before 243. Backstab a friend for your own well being: That's just plain rude 244. Be an exotic dancer: Only for my boyfriend <3 245. NQ- Kill the president: Nah Section Thirteen: Are you 246. Shy: Yes, especially around new people 247. Loud: Extremely 248. Nice: I try to be 249: Outgoing: I fake being outgoing haha 250: Quiet: Yea 251. Mean: Depends, I'm mean to those I like 252. Emotional: Sad to say, but yea 253. Sensitive: Mhmm 254. Gay: I'm very happy 255. Strong: I wish, need to start working out 256. Weak: Yea 257. Caring: Yes, especially towards animals 258. Dangerous: Well, does this include caving? 259. Crazy: Uh huh 260. Spontaneous: I am the most random and spontaneous thing out there 261. Funny: I try to be, I fail at it 262. Sweet: To eat ;) 263. Sharing: With most things, but not my food 264. Responsible: Most of the time 265. Trustworthy: Definitely, if you want a secret kept come talk to me 266. Open-minded: Depends on what you mean 267. Creative: For the most part 268. Cute: Um, not even close, no matter how many of y'all say I am 269. Slick: They don't call me Nik the Slick for nothing 270. Smart: Yea 271. Dumb: I act like it 272. Evil: No 273. Ghetto: If only 274. Classy: As in sassy 275. Photogenic: Nope 276. Dependable: Only on a few select things 277. Greedy: Only with food 278. Ugly: Yes, 100 times over 279. Messy: With my life 280. Neat: With everything else 281. Perverted: You can say cookie and it'll go bad 282. Silly: Yea 283. A B****: I can be if you want me to be 284. A Good Listener: Mhmm 285. A Fighter: If you make me mad enough 286. A Party Animal: I'd rather read, thanks 287. A Game Freak: YES 288. A Computer Freak: I literally want to work on computers Section Fourteen: Future 289. Dream job: Animation 290. Dream house: Somewhere out in the country 291. Husband/Wife: My sweet redheaded boyfriend 292. Kids: 2 293. Names: Something with Ns 294. Pets: Literally so many 295. Car: Anything that gets me places 296. Age you would want to get married: I wouldn't mind getting married in the next few years 297. Best Man/Bride's Maid: My best friend Elena 298. Honeymoon: Anyplace that has a bedroom Section Fifteen: Your friends 299. Best friend: Elena, Nate, Jasmine, Kelsey 300. Known the longest: Nate 301. Craziest: Elena 302. Loudest: Elena and I 303. Shyest: Jasmine and Kelsey 304. Best hair: Kelsey 305. Best eyes: Kelsey 306. Best body: Nate 307. Most Athletic: Me 308. Hot-Tempered: Elena 309. Most impatient: Me 310. Shortest: Nate 311. Tallest: Kelsey 312. Skinniest: Me 313. Best singer: Me 314. Funniest: Literally all of us 315. Can always make you laugh: All of them 316. Wish you talked to more: Elena 317. Wish you saw more: All of them 318. Who drives you insane after a while: Elena, but in a good way 319. Who you can stay around forever and never get sick of: All of them 320. Ever lose a friend because you took it to the 'next level': Nah, I'm dating Nate 321. Whose always been there when you need them: All of them 322. Who is like your family: All of them 323. How many friends do you have?: Quite a few, and I love each and every one of them 324. How many are really close? About 10? Section Sixteen: The last 325. Thing you ate: Poptarts 326. Thing you drank: Apple juice 327. Thing you wore: My hoodie 328. Thing you did: This meme 329. Place you went: The store 330. Thing you got pierced or tattooed: Nothing 331. Person you saw: My dad 332. Person you hugged: My dad 333. Person you kissed: Nate 334. NQ- Person you beat to a juicy pulp: I wish I had done that to a couple jerks 335. Person you talked to online: Nate 336. Person you talked to on the phone: Nate 337. Song you heard: Vulnerable by Secondhand Serenade 338. Show you saw: Mom 339. Time you fought with your parents: Um... about a month or two? 340. Time you fought with a friend: Haven't for a while 341. Words you said: Fuck you is what I said Section Seventeen: Now 343. What are you eating: Poptart 344. What are you drinking: Apple juice 345. What are you thinking: About my boyfriend 346. What are you wearing: My hoodie 347. What are you doing: Writing this up 349. Hair: Down 350. Mood: Tired 351. Listening to: Spotify 352. Talking to anyone: Yea 353. Watching anything: Nah Section Eighteen: Yes or No 354. Are you a vegetarian: Mostly 355. Are you a carnivore: Nah 356. Are you heterosexual: Yes 357. Do you like penguins: Yes 358. Do you write poetry: Yes 359. Do you see stupid people: Yes 360. You + Me: No 361. Do you like the Osbournes: Yes 362. Can you see flying pigs: No 363. Do you sleep with stuffed animals on your bed: Yes 364. Are you from Afghanistan: No 365. Is Christina Aguilera ugly: No 366. Are you a zombie: No 367. Am i annoying you: Yes 368. Do you bite your nails: Yes 369. Can you cross your eyes: Yes 370. Do you make your bed in the morning: No 371. Have you touched someone's private part: Yes Section Nineteen: This or That 372. Winter or Summer: Winte 373. Spring or Autumn: Autumn 374. Shakira or Britney: Britney 375. MTV or VH1: MTV 376. Black or White: White 377. Yellow or Pink: Pink 378. Football or Basketball: Football 379. Mobile Phone or Pager: Mobile 380. Pen or Pencil: Pencil 381. Cold or Hot: Hot 382. Tattoos or Piercings: Tattoos 383. Inside or Outside: Inside 384. Weed or Alcohol: No 385. Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi 386. Tape or Glue: Tape 387. McDonald's or In-n-Out: In-Out Section Twenty: Opinions 388. What do you think about classical music: I like it 389. About boy bands: Nah 390: About suicide: Talk to someone if you're thinking about suicide. It is a very real thing and should not be joked about. I don't want to find out that any of you are no longer here because of suicide. I've lost 2 very close friends that way. 391. About people who try to force their opinions on you: They can kindly fuck off 392. About teen pregnancy: Only if they know they'll be able to take care of the baby 393. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years: With my husband in some country town 394. Who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: Nate, Elena, Kelsey, Jasmine, hopefully all my friends 395. About gay men: They're human too Section Twenty-One: 396. Do you have a website: I'm working on building one 397. Current weather right now: Cold as balls 398. Current time: 7:00 399. Last thoughts: Byyyye

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10 years ago today, it was my 33rd birthday. For reasons stated below, it's one I will never forget.

10 years and 7 days ago, on another Sunday, I was called to my Dad's house. He'd fallen and they needed my help. I rushed over and tried my best to help but due to his size and condition, we needed the brute strength of the fire department guys (whom to this day I still go out of my way to thank profusely) to get him back up off the floor.

I left and went home and was quite anxious that day. I was full of nervous energy, to the point of re-arranging the living room. Maybe I knew something was going to happen. I won’t spend time pondering this incident.

About 5pm, I got a frantic call to come over. I think I broke every single speed limit to get there, and possibly running the occasional red light, too. O_O I don’t recommend it - ever.

I walked into my nightmare. I had seconds to prepare, seeing the faces of the guys from the fire department.

That nightmare was that Dad died. He fell asleep in his chair and didn't wake.

My (former) step-mother was a wreck. There was no one else to help. I had to make snap decisions on what to do and how to go from there. I had to turn off the emotions, put them aside, and be an adult. That give-a-damn stayed broken for about 3 months.

My Sis, God love her, was willing to drive 9 hours to be by my side. I told her I'd need her desperately the next weekend.

I was a complete mess and had to strap on my dragon sized britches and make decisions, some of which were financially crippling for a time.

He had no will, no power of attorney, etc etc etc. 3 weeks before, he'd filed for bankruptcy, because of medical bills. (FYI - having a respiratory arrest when you aren't working will do it. He didn't tell me everything and I only found out these things afterwards. Call that another shock.)

That week, my SM was of little help. Everything fell on my head. So many decisions had to be made, so much to accomplish those days. I couldn’t fall apart. Too many needed me to be strong, accomplish too much, and not take the time to grieve immediately.

I called work and spoke to someone, explained I wouldn't be in for a while, and didn't bother with them again. There were banks to deal with, funeral homes, paying for everything, including the bankruptcy lawyer (caveat - those guys only take cash - not a check. No installment plans there, folks.)

Suffice to say, there wasn't much I really remember now of that week. I was drinking, sometimes heavily. This went on for months. Not at work. Not before 5pm. In the midst of intense grief, I kept some discipline. Go figure. I quit drinking heavily a week before Christmas. My Sis was there those two nights. I don’t remember them in my drunken haze. She can’t remember them either, thankfully.

What I do remember is my husband being my rock that week, including finding a way to pay for the funeral. (that wasn't cheap at all, b/c of SM insisting on some things.) I remember that my husband willingly gave his body to fuck me daily, so I could function with some normalcy. (We didn’t know ‘til years later he was Autistic.) That was the only way I could sleep - and he couldn’t.

I remember crying on my BFF’s shoulder for an hour the next morning.

I remember my Sis coming into town, and doing things that I couldn’t do at the time - grocery shopping, laundry, cooking, and cleaning the house. She saw a need and did it - unasked.

The visitation was on a Sunday night. Dad’s best friend drove 9 hours to be there. Cousins came up. Step-siblings were there. So many lives he touched over the years.

So many were there, including some I didn't expect, like my father's former step-mother. Growing up, he was bounced around between families, because his mother was a Jehovah's Witness and the parents didn't want her to have custody of him, taking him off on her missionary trip with her new husband to South America.

So the second wife of my grandfather abused him - horribly. Granddad was off in Korea, in the Navy. My father rarely spoke of those days but when he would, there was a rage that I didn't fathom or comprehend 'til I was older. Those abuses shaped him in ways I didn't understand 'til these intervening 10 years.

Dad’s former step-mother showed up to the visitation. This elderly woman, probably in her mid 70s, begged my forgiveness because she couldn't do it to my Dad. I could have been an asshole but I wasn't. I took her at her word and thanked her for it, and buried the hatchet on his behalf.

I realized only later that it was cowardice on her part, begging my forgiveness, when I wasn’t the one who was hurt, and wronged.

My grandmother wasn’t there. Alzheimer’s already took hold and she wouldn’t haven’t understood well enough. I made the hard decision that she wasn’t to be told.

It would have upset her greatly, with her not realizing why. I wouldn’t do that to her not in that condition.

My sis was there, along with my BFF. They are amazing, were then and still am.

Thanks to another Aunt... we had bar-b-que from a good place. I dunno how i remember that. There was also a huge birthday cake. There were a slew of birthdays to celebrate the night of the visitation. This included giving my nephew (with his parents permission) his first beer. I also let him cut the cake, reserving the only piece for my Dad, who had his birthday 1 month later. The nephew was turning 18. His younger sister, 11. My favorite Aunt (the following week) - 75.

Dad would have been 59.

The next day, I buried my father - on my 33rd birthday.

He always did make a spectacle of it, one way or another. And the last thing I could do for him, even if it was full of surreal irony - is that he always asked for a posh address.

I gave it to him, as his resting place. It’s nice out there. It was part of a dairy farm. The wildlife out there can roam. The feel safe that Dad doesn’t have a gun in hand, hunting impotently.

It went as best as I could manage things, including getting bent over a financial issue that the institution wouldn't bend on. I had to go back to work - eventually - and it sucked so hard for a week.

Out of his pride, he let others take financial advantage of him. When he did ask for my help, Hubs and I paid for most of their bills for about 8 months - gladly. That's how they kept the house and the lights on, and food on the table.

I tried to make amends with the financial institution, but to no avail. They wouldn't deal with me, only him. They were assholes. I relished fucking them over, like they did to my dad when he was financially bereft.

10 years...

And I've learned that I needed a second baptism in fire. I learned compassion, a little more patience, and that wrath is a poison that only affects you, not the one you are furious at.

He never forgave his abuser. That was his right, including never dealing with her. I still don't blame him for it. I blame her for being a witch to him, when he was a child in need of support and protection. I blame my great-grandparents, who (in their opinion) were protecting him from my grandmother, even if they abdicated raising him, leaving him for his absent father.

The step-family is gone, severed. Things happened in the intervening years. I don't miss them. I do miss my dad, only to have someone to bicker with. I miss his generosity - which he was almost too much with. His giving nature was taken advantage of repeatedly, but he still would open his door and his dining room table for anyone in need. He needed it, the validation of giving.

I still have my Mom - a pain in the ass sometimes but I actually like her. But the ones I cherish are my found family. They are the ones who have been there through the painfully thin, and the best of the thick. The Hubs. The BFF. The Sis.

Y'all ask how I can be so wise, sometimes? Because I lived through my nightmare and while tempered in fire, I survived it and am better for it.

My boggart changed after that moment. I will have other testing moments, which I don’t want to think about. Those boggarts have yet to come.

But ‘til then...

#Dragon's thoughts #Highly personal #replies only please #Queue up for the Dragon #Will eventually delete

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