it really took me until now to realise that i feel incredibly lonely, that i haven't seen any of my friends since the semester started 8 weeks ago. i haven't held a longer conversation with anybody that isn't part of my family for the same amount of time.
it's a weird feeling tbh. in our friend group chat we've talked multiple times about meeting soon, but without making concrete plans. i know that the others all have someone to talk to on a daily basis as they're living with roommates or their partner.
but i live on my own and all i've been doing is uni stuff really. i tried balancing it with activities i enjoy, but it didn't help. i feel stressed constantly and i just want to talk to somebody about it. i've now asked my closest friend from uni three times whether they'd like to meet up and i'd feel bad about messaging them again.
there are activities organised by the university for meeting new people, but i'm too anxious to go there completely on my own. it's sad that i miss all these things because i'm really awkward and stressed-out around many people i don't know. that's also why i can't just make new friends to hang around with. guess i'll have to try and make more of an effort to meet the ones i already have.
—Pre-birthday dinner part 2 #kobeyear 1. Our flight got super delayed but still grateful for the safe flight. 2. Surprise balloon at our villa 🎈💜 how’d they know I love purple? Coincidence siguro lol amfee 3. 5th slide - cheers w my loml 🥰 “healthy” drinks lol 🥒🍍🧉 4. Tom yum soup 🦐🍲 and spring roll 5. Pineapple fried rice 6. Seafood platter 🦞🦐🦑🐟 7. Hot pot 🍲 8. My favorite dessert 🥭🛟 ____ #EllaWillGoPlaces #EllaWillGoPlacesTheFarmAtSanBenito #thefarmatsanbenito #110622 (at The Farm at San Benito) https://www.instagram.com/p/CkqkpigpLRhV_0VmZabWhBhSrs95NhmVog706k0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=