#.... Idk what I'm supposed to do with this idea but I like it and now I'm stumped!
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I know you’re not working on any askblog things but will the sparklecare askblog ever return?
i've thought about this a lot, semi-recently. sorry for long post, i had a lot to say
see, the issue with asksparklecare is the fact it's supposed to "go along with canon events" and a lot of the time, the arcs will just abruptly end or change with no real connection between them. haunted was sort of my first attempt at putting a "story" on there, then again with the kissmas comic from 2021.
when i started cometcare for example, i wanted to take the generic "ask blog" format and turn it into a coherent, cohesive connecting story that just had interactive elements to make it engaging with readers as opposed to just making people ask the characters questions aimlessly. the main ask blog never really had that entirely, it was just sort of the classic 2010s-style ask blog, this is apparent in basically every arc on there.
it's stumped me quite a bit because now that i have this very different style of ask blog storytelling, the original ask blog feels weird to go back to and i don't feel the same passion or connection with it that i once did. it's a little bit frustrating. i tried to do an arc about the side patients but as you guys saw, i never even did it because i felt so out of touch with that old format of ask blog posts and i couldn't bring myself to work on it at all.
cometcare and darkermatters both have Stories to them, and each arc has a plot that is moved on by readers- even if i already have it written out, there are little things people can influence through the asks and it's a good way for introducing new characters or expanding on characters who we've already met. several times cometcare will return to specific characters to relay information or new details or exposition or something that their initial introduction didn't have.
it's a much more fun process for me to write actual stories in my AU blogs, instead of just....making the characters talk. and another thing- going alongside the main comic has problems, because sometimes there's information i can only reveal in the comic itself, and it's hard to keep up with it in general.
i enjoyed doing the kissmas comic because i got to do a "story" even if it wasn't interactive. i had fun repeating the concept on cometcare last december with help of the crew.
i'm sort of at a loss of what to do with the main ask blog at this point. as much as i miss doing stuff like that for main comic, i just don't find it FUN to do it that way anymore, i've become too attached to the storytelling aspects of my other ask blogs and it just doesn't feel the same exciting experience of watching people react to events and such.
if anyone has suggestions about what i should do with the main ask blog to solve this problem i'm open to hearing them, it would be nice to have some ideas because i'm really not sure what i want to do with it.
there was a time i had the idea of doing a backstory ask blog as an alternate main canon interactive story that followed similar mechanics as cometcare and darkermatters, but idk if everyone would be interested in that. that would probably be a separate thing if i ever did it.
thoughts, opinions, suggestions and ideas are all welcome in the replies or my inbox, i would love to have your guys' input since im making content you all would be engaging with after all
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Hi, do you have any headcanons about Rick with RJ and Judith after TOWL?
sure! most of these are about the grimes family as a whole because michonne is the beating heart of the family yk!!
under a read more because apparently i had more to say than i realized (shocking). some of these are copied from previous posts!
antony azor who plays rj is apparently very shy and reserved but opened up unexpectedly with andrew lincoln and so obviously this is also exactly what happened with rick and rj. father and son bonded INSTANTLY
part of this is because rj (like antony) is very shy and reserved and rick gets that and so they can just be quiet together and still feel like they're bonding. as rj gets older, whenever he needs to think something through he asks rick if they can do some sort of project together, and through that he works through whatever he has going on.
his first night back, judith asks rick to finish reading the wizard of oz to her because he never got a chance to. it takes a good five minutes for him to compose himself but she does finally get the full story from her dad. michonne and rj join them because they both love hearing stories the most when rick is the one telling them.
I think rick definitely got back into farming post towl since that is his ~zen place. judith and rj have the idea to grow flowers for michonne, and the three of them plant her a small private garden as a surprise. they even build her a little bench to sit on and everything. after it's finished they have all their family picnics there :')
I think this is less my personal headcanon and more a collective fandom headcanon but rick DEFINITELY does call rj "junior" and he is the ONLY one allowed to do so. If anyone else tries they get the rick grimes head tilt and squint from both of them.
they as a whole family have all kinds of Secret Family Things (like the code names for security shoto/daito/brave man/little brave man). for example they have a family whistle that has different variants for different ~situations. it's kinda silly but they all get very into it and take it very seriously!
speaking of family rituals, family dinner is REALLY important to them!!! I'm always thinking about that one dinner scene in early season 9 where michonne, judith and rj are quietly/sadly sitting in that dark dining room with that empty chair where rick is supposed to be. NOW their kitchen is bright and loud and cheerful and they all cook together and use herbs and spices from their family garden :')))
during the week or so leading up to judith and rj's respective birthdays, Rick gives them each a gift for each year he missed. like an advent calendar of missed birthdays. Idk what he gets them exactly but rick king-of-gift-giving grimes would figure something out. michonne helps out a lot by filling him on the things they both enjoyed throughout their childhoods
(he does the same for michonne btw. a gift for every year he missed. they never cared about birthdays before but he's still making certain things up to her)
now that rick and michonne are back together they find it much easier to talk about all the people they lost. judith and rj's favorite stories are the ones about their brothers, carl and andre.
i love the idea of scene very similar to the one in towl 1x05 where richonne get mugged only to turn the situation around in .5 seconds only this time it's the whole family being badass and intimidating to a stranger who thought they could try it
as we know from towl, rick and michonne are fucking insane :') but eventually they realize judith and rj out-crazy both of them combined (much like carl did, rip king) and they are EXTREMELY proud :')
#richonne#grimes family#the ones who live#i know as soon as i hit post i'll have more to say but this is good for now i think#also reblog and add your headcanons PLEASEEEEEEEEEEE#oh re: that dinner scene from season 9 i mentioned. i honestly forget if there was a plot reason for them being sad in that scene#so my bad if i made some assumptions but i don't think it's a big leap personally!
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i like fuecoco but man it's so hard to fit into this world i'm crafting
#bwark#i would reeeeally like to have mc nemona and arven be represented by the three starters#i'm dead set on nemona being srpigatito that's no problem#the issue is that they're all angsty teenagers and fuecoco's goofy ass face doesn't fit that at all#ideally i would like mc to be quaxly and arven to be fuecoco. because i'm an ''arven would've gotten fuecoco is he was a companion in the#gen 9 anime because it's a food pokemon'' truther#tbh i think quaxly would be a good fit for him? but quaxly would also fit mc#meanwhile fuecoco fits neither of them#can't evolve it to it's middle stage either because 1. doing that with nemona and don't want a repeat#and 2. crocolor is also a goofy fucking thing#and i SUPPOSE i could just make arven a different species (not maschiff or mabostiff i have plans for that) but. hhh im really attached to#this idea i have. and idk what i would make him#actually i think skeledirge would REALLY suit clavell so i'm not fully opposed to the idea of sticker closer to game lore#but im still attached to my initial idea for now
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" The Bargainer "
Dormamu I've come to bargain- //COUGH HACK Wait huh who said that....-
Anyways, concept, also posting all the art in my drafts after this cuz it's cluttering 'n I need to make room ASAP but uh;
Post TotK, motherfucker goes mad cuz shit swear the Depths probably have weird bacterias 'n shit so this fool goes loco which either triggers
THE BARGAINER OF POES
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To come to light with him and make Kohga my precious pookie his little servant, or he just thwacked his head so hard he's in a coma.... Or another third thing I have no clue-
Ngl it's kinda ~~~~~~~~ .... Idk who this dude is I kinda just made him up on the spot and,,,, I want them to be a couple, but why should I do that if I actually haven't thought of a concept for this AU...
" Fetch me Poes and I'll spare your troubled spirit "
... Yeah but why- It goes kinda hard ngl but why what did he do wrong that Link DIDN'T do wrong with the Bargainer statues??
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#MASTER-K0HGA#Ary / Kohga Chronicles#Ary / Kohga OCs and Works#Kohga#TotK#.... Idk what I'm supposed to do with this idea but I like it and now I'm stumped!#TEUJGEETTJ BUT I DID THINK OF A COOL ABILITY THE BARGAINER GIVES HIM TO AID HIS TASK#HE GETS THE ABILITY TO USE THE SOULS OF GENERATIONS AND DECADES OF PREVIOUS MONSTERS#IN ORDER TO EASILY TREK THE REALM OF POES AND CLAIM THE SOULS FOR THE COLLECTOR#DARK NUT KOHGA!! DARK NUT KOHGA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#FUCKING GIBDO THE BOYO OR LIKE STALFOS THE BITCH I WANNA DO THAT SHIT AAAAAA!!#I JUST WANNA DRAW DARK NUT KOHGA CUZ THAT'S SO COOL HHHHHHHRGYJRKRYJJEYEJJTEJJRGDFSG#...... Hol shit- That means that would technically be the spirits of Gerudo right if we go by OoT logic??? Hhhhhhhhhhhhoooohhhh....#.... Anyways that's enough from me...
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so i went to reblog some fanart earlier and started to tag it #oh this is. incredible actually, and then paused and thought, @self why the 'actually.' what is that adverb conveying. and i contemplated it for a bit, and finally concluded: well, shit. it's reflexive deprecation.
the thing is, deprecation is my starting position pretty much always, and that's a problem in itself, but mostly my problem; but when you're talking abt somebody else's work, and you start backing defensively away from imagined negativity before anyone's even actually voiced any? you may think you're playing bodyguard, but in reality you're the vanguard of the assault, opening a wedge for enemy forces to strike.
i was talking a couple of weeks ago abt seeing ppl tag that kristin sue lucas name-multiplied-by-one post with tags like 'this is art To Me' vel sim., and honestly i think it's a similar sort of reflex—i think exposure to the tumblr vernacular often leads people (very much including me!) to produce turns of phrase like this, that ultimately serve to convey roughly
'i, a clever girlblogger,¹ am, yeah, engaging with this frivolous hai pollai²-coded material; but my relationship to it, unlike that of most she-ple, is Intellectual and Analytical and Examined! and to make that clear, i'll be dropping in these little verbal particles from time to time, in order to distinguish my own, elevated examination of the subject from the state of risible naivete³ i'm implicitly ascribing to the other, more ordinary audience members i'm conjuring up only to instantly put down—but like, it's fine, i'm a free-and-easy girlblogger(TM), so you can't think i'd ever deliberately propagate establishmentarian prejudices! never mind the effect my rhetoric might subconsciously be having, on me or on anyone else…'
and i think this framing is worth squinting at, and worth attempting to excise from one's speech and from one's mindset, because when you get right down to it? it's just yet another insidious manifestation of respectability politics, that's gotten people to adopt it via the cuckoo-chick strategy of positioning itself as cutesy tumblr idiolect.
and like, circling back around to that fanart i mentioned at the outset: yeah, the tag did feel weirdly prosodically truncated to me without that 'actually'! but this way, if the artist ends up seeing my discussion of their work in their notes, they won't be getting slapped in the face with a wet dead fish first, so like. what's more important, you know?
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¹ ""(gender neutral)""
² https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hoi_polloi in the feminine, if i haven't totally fumbled my declensions…
³ phrasing nicked from a comment of @proudheron's.
#anyway like. this for sure isn't the definitive post abt this#and really what i'm getting at is just another facet of 'self-deprecation isn't usually actually separable from disparaging others'#but i do think there's a particular subtle flavor of it here that's worth sticking under the microscope in its own right#for those of us who may have breathed it in without noticing‚ and now be spreading it‚ again without noticing‚ in our turn#i mean. obvs also extremely possible i just *think* i've put my finger on something important bc it's late!#but like. imagine tagging‚ idk‚ the winged victory or sth with 'this is art. to me'#it would be SUCH a weird rhetorical move! but consider: it's *always* a weird rhetorical move‚ actually.#bc fundamentally it's a speech pattern that's seeking affirmation of yr own taste/authority/status as Critic#at the expense of the thing you've evaluated—#like‚ you're going 'i think this is neat!! (but that might just be me 😔)'#and then other girlbloggers are supposed to be like 'yeah no i totally see what you mean!!!' and affirm you! but the thing is—#the '(but that might just be me 😔)' part doesn't just undercut yr discernment‚ it undercuts the praise *predicated* on yr discernment#so it's like. you're dissing yourself in a way that's supposed to earn you affirmation‚ which. is fucked up actually‚ lol :)#but—it's one thing when you do it to yourself; when you incorporate it into the foundations of yr compliment#you've actually totally undermined that compliment and rendered it an insult#(not to mention undermined the idea that the thing might have merit in itself‚ beyond yr authority to bestow or withhold—#like. if you're speaking in terms of what's good/deep/Art/&c To You? you've effectively already ceded the main field of universality#and retreated to defend only yr own walled garden—and implied you'll cede even that small ground if it's disputed)#so like. in the context of yr social relationship with yr followers‚ those sorts of qualifiers are affirmation-seeking moves—#though like. also ones that reinforce yr rhetorical passive-victim positionality‚ in a way you shd perhaps consider *not* reinforcing—#but in the context of yr interaction with an OP? they're negging.#and i just think like. i get it and i'm @-ing myself here as much as anyone else! but it's not‚ like‚ a healed-world way to behave. lol.#so like. consider: tagging things 'art' without the cutesy little qualifiers. praising things without the hedging.#i'm not at all good at that but. i'm going to try.#metatumbling#language#the psyche#'close readings no one needed for 300‚ alex'#(extremely tempted to just scrap this writeup tbh but like. the thinking was worth doing‚ so a record of it is worth keeping)
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It's a little funny losing friends when you're this old. I'm 27! I'm supposed to be mature about this! I'm supposed to see my own faults and flaws in why it's falling apart, and improve on them! I'm supposed to be capable of having conversations and fixing things through direct communication. But here I am
#I think im a little bit more bitter about this because I actually TRIED fixing things and it did just nothing#Then I tried being direct with her about the distance between us. To make it obvious were nothing but casual koledzy now Not actual friends#It didn't work either. Clearly. Because she's still using me for venting and nothing more. We never talk about anything else#Never ever. Like. Never. We just dont#Idk what the fuck else am I supposed to do#Am I at fault? Probably. But I tried looking at myself critically and it's just--#Like I'm just out of ideas HOW ELSE could it be my fault for being treated like that. It's not like I'm an endless fucking well of toxicity
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i hate vague plans i hate vague plans i hate vague plans i hate vague plans i hate vague plans i hate vague plans i hate vague plans i hate vague plans
#i'm spending a few days at my friend's (already a bad start. a few days means nothing to me. she wasn't clear on when i should leave#she said she'd like me to still be here on saturday but she also said she couldn't drive me back saturday night so it's like. ok so when am#i leaving) anyways she was in town today to work with my other friend on a music thing and she just said she'd text me when they were done#and that it would probably take a couple hours#which means that i was ready for her to come pick me up by 5 ish#it's 6:45 now and she still hasn't texted and i've just been waiting#i can't start anything bc she could text at any moment and i'd have to leave whatever i'm doing on hold#so i'm just waiting#i'm sitting in a chair watching seinfeld on my phone and waiting for her to pick me up#and i have no idea when that's gonna be bc it was supposed to me any moment two hours ago#i hate waiting i'm wasting so much time i'm in limbo idk what to do
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Your anger and sadness are so fucking justified. Stealing someone's oc is ridiculous. There's NO need to do that! You don't even need that much creativity to make your own, and if you're really stuck (like I get sometimes) just look towards canon characters or blogs dedicated to help building ocs. What's worse is tumblr's blocking system because, unless you block them on anon, it simply blocks their blog. They can log out and still view your blog! God I'm so sorry that this happened.
thank you 😭😭 i'm like so just horrifically angry right now that idk if i'm overreacting or if i was seeing things that weren't there, but no, the more i look and the more i match up the timeline of posts, it becomes extremely apparent to me that their oc is a copy of diana, and that really really hurts. and yes, i've cried a lot about it, because i talk about her so often and how much she means to me and how much just creative energy she gave me this year and the fact that i even write consistently now, so it hurts. i put a lot into her, so it's just really unfair, and like you said, blocking people on here is like hardly even effective
#asks.#anonymous#thank you for like validating my anger because i often feel a lot of guilt with my reactions and um idk like i feel like i am not allowed#to get angry in the first place because of like imposter syndrome and all that nonsense. but i just kept seeing things from that oc's story#and not just backstory but little facts or what were throw away comments and it just... everything. i could connect to diana. and the#colour scheme is similar too and the heights and the timeline and the little things about like ex-husband. working at nest. close to the#birkins. saw al as an annoyance at the start lmao like there's so much i could connect. and now seeing that their oc also injected themself#with a virus on a whim which i've talked about many times with diana doing and that he got very overprotective and worried afterwards with#it. like. all these things in isolation. fine. whatever. but when they all add up... it's ridiculous. like i'm just so hurt because i#constantly talk about how special diana is to me and how special they both are to me and i don't know what to do because i don't feel the#need to reach out and like accuse directly but it's like. they get away with that. and my ideas. and my character who has been around since#feb. i made her on valentine's day. i'm not even joking. so. i didn't post about her until early march. well i did but that's the earliest#in her tags because i delete posts a lot. went and looked at my oc blog and no there are still things from feb. but on here the earliest is#march. i'm just not doing great with it all i suppose. especially because i had something happen last week that made me really upset and i#was just getting back into like okay i'll post on here more often. and then i notice this and idk i'm rambling but i just feel really sick#like the realisation sunk in and i felt sick to my stomach so it hurts#but um thank you for saying all of this like it does mean a lot to me to know that my reaction is justified so thank you
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That slow dance in Goncharov
#Emile's Arts#Goncharov#Unreality#vibes from the Goncharov theme caramaiaadio posted#I'm activly simmering on it and when I get a better idea of some colors I want to use I may come back and paint it#right now I'm happy with it as a shadow/lighting thing#I'm in a very slow dancey mood lately and idk what's up#I was doing dance studies the other day and still have it on the brain I suppose#this song had something in my brain and it's still there and I have more#I just don't think it's good or people are gonna care#nor do I think I can convay it right#This is about all I needed to get out I'll simmer on the rest#much like my current brain full of FairyTail stuff I don't think I'm gonna get it out properly#I'm just gonna have to sit on it
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mother stop fucking with my hair challenge
#i really liked the way my hair looked tonight bcs i'd just showered so it was kinda curly and when i mentioned it to her she asked to brush#it#and i always feel weird refusing if someone asks to do smth to my hair bcs idk it feels like the sorta thing you're supposed to agree to?#but my hair is this really weird texture and honestly i'm still figuring out how to care for it#which means whoever wants to do stuff to my hair won't have any idea what to do#one of my friends begged to give me braids and i let her (back when i had a lot of hair) and that night it was so painful trying to get#them out bcs my hair had frizzed and tangled around it and ugh it hurt so much and i didn't want her to do it in the first place#yknow. /everyone/ stop fucking with my hair challenge#kiwifae says shit#if we're close friends i'm okay with like. touching it but god don't try and brush it (only My brush doesn't hurt it) and please don't try#and put styles in it😭😭😭😭😭#but yeah my hair is a frizzy mess now🙄
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all chemistry classes DIE. like NOW.....i am done joking
#i know god gives his toughest battles to his silliest girls but idk how longer i can gaslight girlboss gatekeep in these conditions#guess who just failed that fucking class with the exact same grade as the last exam....TAKE A WILD GUESS#i have two classes holding me back AND THEY'RE BOTH FUCKING CHEMISTRY#and i have NOOOOO idea how tf i'm supposed to pass one of them#and NOW i have to wait until february to retake it and possibly retake the lab part AGAIN for the 3rd fucking time (i didnt have to this yea#and it's the first day of my period so yeah i'm pissed#and i gave up my apartment bc i didn't have enough classes to warrant what i was paying#and NOW if i have 1 class in the 2nd semester let alone TWO bc that ochem bastrad#*bastard prob won't let me take it in the 2nd semester if i flop the 1st bc his criteria for retaking the class are RIDICULOUS#so i have to stay there the entire week bc the classes start in the morning until late afternoon past the last train....like ok bitch if u#like they had to open the class in the 2nd semester bc the fail rate was like 90%#insist on failing me pay me the 200/week i have to spend so i don't sleep on the street....#and STILL he barely let's anyone who failed it go to the 2nd semester and only picks the ones who were closest like#what's the fucking point of that??? i s2g i'm *this* close to going full fucking joker and now my day is ruined#i know they think i'm scrooge mcduck with so much money idk what to do with it to keep paying full tuition for their 2 classes alone#but i'm really not and i'm just really fucking tired and demoralized tqfh#wow anna said something#anna's shitposts#delete l8r#txt#i have to stay in the hotel now and it'll be veryyy expensive on the 2nd semester bc classes are on tuesday and thursday
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now that i think about it the kingdom hearts games have done a really shite job of convincing me that riku and kairi are friends for any reason besides sora. like they both saw that kid and thought the exact same thing and while i couldn't tell you what it was, i have been given no indication of any reason they'd be friends outside of their mutual affection for Mr McSunshine Ass and i think it's hilarious
#esp bc the first game tried so hard to convince you riku was doing everything for kairi#but like. it doesn't hit for me at all.#and then during the 358 timeline. he just leaves her on destiny islands lol#like on one hand it's a form of protection bc ig there's no danger on the islands now#but sheesh homie she's supposed to be your friend and you ghosted her#tho to be fair he ghosts sora too so perhaps the point is moot#in any case they spend a ridiculous amount of time developing sora and riku's no homo i swear totally no homo friendship#and they tell don't show sora and kairi's relationship (platonic or romantic is unclear but implied through 'boy and girl make eye contact')#and maybe this is bc i haven't exactly studied up on the games to properly source my argument#but i feel like i can name three times riku and kairi were in the same room onscreen without sora also being there#like. there's yen sid's tower in bbs 0.2#there's the world that never was in kh2 in the leadup to the final xemnas showdown#and there's the final world or w/e it's called in MoM#tho they were only together in MoM bc they're looking for sora so does it really count#idk it's hilarious they're a core trio but i have no idea what riku and kairi's dynamic is in canon#if anyone who knows more is willing to drop into my askbox and infodump about them#i would absolutely preesh that#(and no i'm not counting kh1 as being in the same room bc kairi's heart wasn't in it)#(aka she was literally unconscious like. that shit doesn't count and you know it)#kingdom hearts#sora#riku#kairi#there let's see if this hits the tags#i'd like people to talk to me about them#not kpop#shut up vic
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man (school’s website goes down right when i manage to drag myself into looking at their course listings + enroll)
#yes i was supposed to do this like three weeks ago. but i don't really have the most functioning brain#when it comes to getting enrollment stuff done by myself#i wonder if 'have someone else enroll me in classes after i tell them what electives i'd be interested in'#is a 'reasonable accommodation' since i'm not interested in switching majors or anything. so like it'd be like high school then#i think it would GREATLY ENHANCE my schooling experience since getting it done on my own is The Fucking Worst#like i'm gonna be real with you it would probably be a 10x more powerful accommodation than deadline extensions#'what if you get a shitty prof??' then i'll deal; like in high school. or maybe i'll switch classes myself!! idk!!!#bc at least w/late assignments i'm *used* to receiving assignments n doing them; i trained my whole life for that#doing the eight zillion steps to enroll in classes myself?? PAIN!!!! AGONY!!!!!!!!!!! esp since i started failing classes#and have no idea what my course path should look like now that i've transferred n stuff n just#*screams into pillow until i die*#the worm speaks
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aaaaaa i wna writeee
#🌙.rambles#there's so many things in my notes of like#ideas and aesthetics#i do write from time to them but god it's been ages since i#since i've last wrote smth with a proper storyline hhhh#just some bittersweet lines from time to time that i think of ? that relate to things/charas i love or my own feelings#damn bro my writing is such a mess and it reflects how i am myself#sigh but i think what's been holding me back for a while now is#idk what charas/fandoms to write for ? idm if i write and don't get much notes but i don't even know who to write for#recently i've been more in contact w my own reality which is nice bcs i typically feel distanced from the rest of the world#nah even now i always feel that sense of loneliness and distance lingering in the back of my head#but oh angst shit aside i've found it harder to#hmm no i still love fictional charas but idk bro i'm sick of dreaming i want it to be reality#sigh i really want to fall in love irl#but i'm not in any rush. i'm my own priority. it would be nice though if i find love without even looking for it#aaaa i keep on dumping my emotions on tumblr tags smh. habit i suppose#my selfish desire is romance :< i want my own story someday#but i guess i'm afraid.#but i genuinely am fine with shouldering all this pain. someday perhaps it'll be my time to... to idk but yes#helping has always been among my top passions after all !#and that also includes myself...#if i could just wish that#nahh#thinking abt it n at least the things i love like ffxiv and gbf put into words#the things i'm still hesitant to outright say
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I think TMA is bleeding into some of my D&D worldlore. Some of my gods are more like... people who have committed themselves so much to a concept/ideal (eg. luck, ambition, family) that they became the gods of those things. And then some of them are just... the raw, unfiltered/unworshiped ideals themselves.
For instance, there isn't really a god of war, but there is just straight up War, an entity, or the essence of war itself, which... exists.
I guess to some extent, the more concrete/person-shaped gods could be taken as avatars of the more essential forces/ideals.
I'm still not sure exactly how I want to do my pantheon, to be honest. I have a few gods developed, and some have names and take on physical forms, but others are... thereish.
#i kind of like the idea that the base entities/forces/ideas Exist but don't really interact with the world beyond abstract influence#and it's the named/worshipped “gods” (who were once people) that do things by channeling elements of the entities#but they don't necessarily worship those things.#so far the only god who canonically was once a person is the god of ambition. which i suppose is kind of fitting.#imagine being so ambitious that you become a god. like. that fits.#and then the only decided abstract god is War#maybe some of the gods were once people (eg. ambition) but then others came about through worship and mythology as#avatars of the Forces but they themselves don't “worship” those forces so much as they are strongly influenced by them#it does kind of bring about the question though of like... what happens to clerics and such? do they eventually inevitably become gods?#to me it would be deeply sad if the god of family was once a person because that would mean that their whole fam is now dead#so i'm thinking that one came about through like... abstract Feelings Of Familial Closeness#or to be honest could be an abstract entity that has a physical form because like... if people can become gods#maybe gods can become people (like immortal powerful people but like... with emotions and fleshy forms)#to be honest maybe my gods don't need to be super consistent or systematic i think that fits things in a way#mainly i am thinking abt War because one of my players succeeded a sword in the stone type puzzle andlike...#technically now they're a paladin of war but i'ven't given that god a name#i see war as an apathetic distant figure but unfortunately the trial already happened and it was partially a morality trial of like...#“please don't kill civilians” and it generally focused on the Horrors Of War which... idk if the apathetic figure of war would do that#dante dicit#might delete
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Yesterday I deleted my blog and I kinda miss it now :(((( I know I can get back but I have my reasons to delete it (<- a thought got into my head and couldn't find a specific post I don't even remember if it exists but I couldn't leave my phone until I find it. Therefore I deleted my blog cause I was getting stuck for too long)
#thinking of changing usernames too‼ I went 4 years with that blog I think it's the longest that survived#I've had this app since 2014 and always delete my blogs idk why#well I do know why. I get bored. but the other one (neongreenangels) I was stuck in a cicle#this months are horrible for me and lately! life doesn't seem real! so I got paranoid that actually once I rbed a bad post#idk what the bad post was or if it even exists! I tried searching and nothing came up#Then I got the brilliant (dumb) idea to look in every. single. post. I had. since I created that blog#I had a total of I think 45.000 posts. impossible#yet I tried cause I'm kinda dumb and also I was scared someone would accuse me of being secretly bigoted (??????)#now with more clarity I sincerely believe I made it up. the supposed bad post I supposedly rb doesn't exist#but! not the first time it happened in that blog. I did the same last year bad decided not to delete and just take time offline#this time I thought I was fine lmao clearly I wasn't#at least I don't interact with anyone with this blog so I don't have to worry#I'll create another one to interact tho <3 I'll be extremely careful <3 I was thinking a study blog#I liked having a blog just for politics but like....... all my blogs turn political lmao it's just how it is with today's world#and I really like study blogs <3<3
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