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morganacorp · 1 month

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Lol

Grace getting her facial and her phone keeps dinging because Sadie's in the middle if her bi-awakening.

Text #1: where u at?

Text #2 & #3: Grace! ?

Text #4: i thought u were coming 2 spin class!

Text #5: i gave lola3 ur latte

Text #6: r u really not coming? i'll save you Aseat just in case

Text #7: nvmnd. this class is huge. tried to fight off an old lady to keep your bike open. Ur welcome

Text #8: omg grace this place smells like wet socks

Text #9: kimberkyn says ur getting a facial. rude

Text #10 & #11: lola says hi BTW. Hi

Text #12: *picture of Sadie and Lola and Kimberlyn* bout to get sweaty!

Text #13: the instructor said we can't have our phones. so peace out! ✌️😋

*missed call*

Text #14: ohmygod grace answer your phone!

Text #15: ok. it's nothing. it's probably nothing. don't worry about it. it's fine. i'll tell you later.

*missed call*

Text #16: ok. so this is probably gonna get long and there will be typosz bc i don't have a lotg of time bcz i had to sneak 2 the bthrm bc i need 2 tell u something but we can't have our phones on the bikes which is so dumb bc I can multitask its not like I'm gonna

Text #17: sorry. lola scared me. o thought it was the instructor. anyway listen there is this girl. no. not just a girl. she is a woman. like a sculpted by the gods woman in this class and she has like. The most insanely perfect ripples i have ever seen and like her eyes are nice too BTW but we were changing un the same room and she just

Text #18: sorry i think the memory made me black out. God. Like. Look. I know it's not okay to objectify someone just because we're in a environment that encourages tight fitting clothing and vigorous rhythmic activity but u don't understand grace. she is gorgeous and omg she laughed when I asked if she knew where the vending machines were and i think my heart kind jumped out of my body because she sounded so sweet. and I want to talk to her again but I also can't fucking breathe because spin class is hard and i already drank all of my water and lola's too and i hate that ur not here. There I said it. I can usually be more put together when ur arounfe but

Text #19: her eyes are green btw

Text #20: not even like gross green. they are like perfect and not even the same color which is somehow even better and they have like stars in them not even lying

Text #21: and she has her hair in a braid and she got kinda sweaty so there's little wisps sticking out around her face and i never like licking sweaty ppl but like if she asked

Text #22: oh shot. i didn't mean that. idk why my mind went to licking her face instead of kissing her like a normal person

Text #23: that would b normal right? i mean iv nver rlly thought abt it b4. not really. but i watched glee. i know it usually hits in high school and obvi it didn't 4 me so this is mayb just bc i only had two donuts this morning instead of 3

Text #24: omg she asked kimberlyn if I have ibs while I was gone. I hate everythibg

Text #25: fyi i took a quiz a minute ago and turns out glee lied

Text #26: i wanted to ask lola if she has like a booklet for ppl questioning their. Preferences but i think mayb it would b easier if u asked for me

Text #27: fuck this is all so weird

Text #28: but also not. it's scary nit weird. like I thought admiring Walker got a little too intense but this is. This is something else

Text #29: ive eaten some beef jerkey and i think it's too soon to think about kissing her. it feels too invasive. so I'm just gonna keep watching her ass in class

Text #30: thnx btw 4 all ur help grace. U r rlly good 2 talk 2

Text #31: ^sarcasm fyi

Text #32: omg her name is lena. isn't that nice? i think that is the most beautiful name in the whole wide world

Text #34: i think she waved at me

Text #35: damn. it was oneof her friends walking outside the door

Text #36: her whole name is lena kieran luthor. and her birthday is October 13.

Text #37: and no she didnt tell me that i looked through her purse while pretending to have ibs and hiding in the bathroom. she uses Christian Dior perfume. i think I have a problem

Text #38: grace can u please call me so I can just leave??

Text #39: i feel like everyone knows. they keep talking about me i can feel it

Text #40: omg she helped the little old lady in front of me asjust her settings on the bike. She's so nice. i bet she saves puppies and orphans in her spare time. angel in disguise right there

Text #41: how long is this fucking spin class?!

Text #42: lola was talking about a gay show called the bold type. will u watch it with me so I can see how a normal heterosexual would react?

Text #43: lena offered me a drink from her water bottle and i didn't even worry about germs. I just went for it

Text #44: how long is ur fucking facial?! Y haven't u texted me back?!

Text #45: only 5 more minutes. I can do this

Text #46: I think lens was flirting with lola and I wish I had laser vision so I could set everything on Fire this is awful

Text #47: my heart is broken

Text #48: nvmnd. she touched my arm and said she likes my shirt.

Text #49: I'm wearing one of kimberlyns work out shirts BTW but that's not the point. She likes it on me. So kimberkyn is never getting this back

Text #50: omg! Grace! Grace!

Text #51: she recommended we get kombucha after class. Idk what that is but I would eat anything for her

Text #52: Lola says kombucha tastes like ass and kimberkyn says we have to get back ;(

Text #53: SEE THIS IS WHY I NEED YOU HERE YOU COULD VOTE TO GO GET KOMBUCHA WITH ME

Text #54: NOOOO ILL NEVER SEE HER AGAIN. GOODBYE BEAUTIFUL GODDESS GOODBYE CRUEL WORLD

Reply: lol

Text #55: ur laughing. i bear my broken soul to u and ur laughing

Text #56: Not Cool Grace

ANON THIS IS HILARIOUS 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

Thank you so much for this, it has made my night! There's so many gems hidden in here... I'm in tears! 😂😂😂

#lena luthor #the girls on the bus #sadie mccarthy

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vtoriacore-rbs · 8 months

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rant abt my mental illness don't mind me at all it's just more thoughts going into the void

why do i feel like im faking my mental illness my problems feel so trivial to everyone else's is it possible to like fake it and then get a diagnosis for it anyway bc what if im forcing symptoms like is that a thing?

ive read about imposter syndrome but im not fully convinced bc what if i genuinely am forcing symptoms of my mental illnesses onto myself and i gaslit myself into placebo effect like did i manipulate myself into believing it or something??? like is that a plausible situation ive tried searching for it but i didn't get any results other than "how to spot people who fake mental illness !1!1!1!" like bitch that's not what im asking !!

i honestly wish this is me faking it so that the symptoms go away. maybe i can like convince myself I don't have it and then placebo effect ??? could i do that? maybe i should get re-evaluated to see if i actually have bpd and bipolar disorder even tho i have statements proving both bc it doesn't feel real? like the doctor's could've maybe by some slim very slim chance evaluated me wrong and maybe i answered questions according to my previous research subconsciously or something? because maybe i wanted to be mentally ill??? could that happen subconsciously? l

like i know im mentally ill to some degree but it could just be me faking it for attention or just wanting to be different or something ?? do i just want people to care about me more when i do this ?? like i also don't want this to be the case bc faking mental illness is just fucked up and i don't think im that kind of person but what if i secretly am and just have been pretending all along until it felt somewhat real? im actually gonna cry LMFAO

im gonna need to think about this for a hot second or two because i feel like maybe my mental illness is just me forcing it on for some reason. conversely it could be imposter syndrome but i really don't know lmao. might take the easier option and just distract myself and not think at all. i HATE feeling this way and questioning who and what i am and what makes me.

#probably will delete later anyways but im just so 😐

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mayor-david-prentiss · 1 month

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Hello. I love your posts about corto maltese. I was interested in asking: when did you first found out about Hugo Pratt and his works? does the place you live in have easy access to less known comics? Where I live it's basically impossible to find any corto maltese, and shipping is very expensive, so I just wanted to know if it's as hard as anywhere else. I imagine it would be easier for, say, italian readers. Anyway keep doing whatever you do, It's a ton of fun whenever you post something slightly unhinged but very relatable.

Hi!!!!! Thank you for the kind words! To answer the question:

I found out about Corto very Very randomly one night while I was browsing Wikipedia (for an unrelated topic). I'd never been into anything but manga as far as comics go, but his design intrigued me, I read the TV tropes page, and set off to skim the series on readcomicsonline lol that was decently interesting, so I decided to see if there's anything for it on Tumblr, and well, no there wasn't... But I got talking to someone who'd later become a great friend and would sorts guide me through the series, and with the encouragement I bought some issues, and kept going. My area of the world (the Balkans) has a thriving comic collecting culture and decent publishers so, back in 2020, it was easy for me to buy up all the issues from two different publishers (it was a mixed bag bc one was lagging behind).

I've seeing that it's not quite so easy for others, though, which makes me sad... A friend in Russia could only get a few volumes BC they simply didn't publish most of the stories, while another person I talked to that's from Korea got around 5 issues in total... And I've heard that the American publisher is not fond of reprints or maybe uninterested, so they're basically impossible to get. When I went to Italy there were indeed a lot of different Corto editions, I did buy some...

If you don't mind reading online I could provide links to most of the issues in English, or even in Italian if you're not averse to using a screen translator like Google lens! I think it's too sad to pass up the chance to read this series bc of its general (un)availability, so pls do message me if you're interested!!!! I also love talking abt this series!!!!

#im way past the point of being hinged. i couldn't be normal abt this sailor even if i tried.#corto maltese #i really love hearing these kinds of comments from ppl who also like corto. warms my heart

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janesgms · 11 months

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Hi,

Thank you so much for opening your ask option!

You can send me an ask too if you'd like!

I'd like to ask for your opinion on certain solar return placements and topics

For context, it's easier for me to interpret other people's chart than my own. So I would greatly appreciate your response.

These houses aren't present in my natal chart so I struggle to interpret them.

What are your thoughts on these following placements?

- Sagittarius 3rd house stellium (Sun, Mercury, Mars)

-Taurus 8th house stellium (Moon, Jupiter, Uranus)

- Aries in 7th house in North Node, Chiron, Part of Fortune, Vertex

- Also having 29° in my Solar return rising to 12th House

Take your time.

If you have any questions, I don't mind answering if I knew the answer ~

Again, thank you for this!

Hey, I'm gonna try to answer it the best way I can, take what resonates. For what I understood, this is in you solar return chart, right? Since it's a solar return chart, the sun is always in the same sign so you're a sagittarius sun, I assume.

Sagittarius stellium in the 3rd house: This one is about combining the opposite energies of sagittarius and gemini, even if not directly. These planets in sagittarius mean that this year you're focusing on gaining more personal freedom, more knowledge and fun times using your essence (sun), your passion (mars) and your way of expressing your thoughts (mercury), all of this in the 3rd house meaning the area more affected by these planets is gonna be your communicative side, your intellect and mind. This is specifically favorable since mercury it's in here too. Basically this year, you're focusing in gaining academic and philosophical knowledge to expand your horizons of ego, mind and energy. Abt mars in sagittarius I explained it in my other post.

Taurus moon 8H: Your emotional needs this year may revolve around having financial comfort or just comfort at home, you might want to focus on the more venusian themes of life this year to fulfill what your emotions are asking for (self care, shopping, or even dating), all of this in the 8H energy where these themes can afect your darker side/your 18+ life. This can also indicate that if you focus on working in these topics, you can go through a significant transformation (more mental) this year, a new point of view.

Jupiter & Uranus 8H house: This year, you're gonna have both blessings and turbulances in said 8H area, so you need to be careful when trying to expand these topics or else you're gonna go through an emotional rollercoaster since the moon is also here.

7H north node, chiron, pof, vertex: also a huge focus of your life is gonna be focusing on others than in yourself to be honest, so if you're not careful you can end up giving more comfort to others than to yourself. with nn here, your soul journey this year is to learn more about relationships, but you may suffer in this area or just feel very shaken since chiron/vertex is in here too, however, this can bring you luck in the end if you know how to deal with it and see the positive sides.

Ascendant in the 29°: Being a leo degree and considered a fame degree, you may gain a short period of fame or just be very flashy when showing your style/physical appearance.

Note: I only look at the signs of your angles, moon, mercury, venus and mars in the solar return chart. The other planets/placements, only the house is relevant, in my opinion.

#astrology #astro notes #astro observations #astro community

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riewritten · 1 year

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what do you do when inspiration suddenly hits you? like do you just memorize it in ur head or note it somewhere or do u work on that idea immediately?? im very very curious about ur creative process PLEASE OVERSHARE because i believe there are things that are new to me. like you write and draw and it's amazing how tou do both! i'm more curious about ur writing process because i don't write much (nowadays i only journal or write diary entries, in the past i did write fanfictions but they're almost all oneshots or unplanned dropped after 2 or 3 chapters). (how) do you plan your storyline? do you consider yourself flexible (like are u comfortable with changing plans in a big project where one change could lead to other changes?). Do you beta read by yourself or is there anyone who does it? if you do it by yourself, what do you feel when re-reading your writings? i literally have sm questions but i don't wanna overwhelm you 😭😭😭 you don't need to answer if you don't want to, that's alright!!!

when u said i could overshare

for whenever the inspiration hits, i tend to start on it immediately. writing is such a mood booster for me and i'm in a low mood most of the time so i seize the moment whenever motivation comes :'D sometimes when i'm busy (let's say school/work) and a great idea pops in (usually in quote format), i just lay it down in my gdocs. for oneshots, 1 doc would suffice. for longfics, the docs per chapter are contained in a folder.

i don't think i'm great in fan arts (i just get the boost from those who draw well—like u!) so i'm glad you appreciate it as well <3

regarding my writing process, someone actually asked me about it before! but to generalize my answer there, i ponder on 3 things (plot, characterization, & chapter study). my first fic (and my first series in general) was dusk in the brightest. i worked on chapter study first: detailed sequence of events from C1-10, vague concept in 11-15, then the rest is just 2-3 sentences of how i want the story to end. the 2nd one, character study, was smth i learned from a professor in one of my subjects when i submitted a one-act play script to her and she heavily criticized my characterization (like so badly i still get jitters remembering it) 😭 since then, i've been very wary with getting things accurate and consistent with my characters. for my plot-heavy fics, that's what i'm most serious for.

i think my flexibility (i dont even think i got that) was v challenged during the last arc of DIB because i suddenly had a complete change of mind with the ending (exactly what u had mentioned: changes that would lead one thing to the other). it was def not comfortable but a great tip (i think) to work around it is that: go back to your earlier chapters, pick up the most random scenarios you had made, then come up with a reason why that random thing ensued. an example of executing it is how isayama worked around aot's first scene (child!eren crying & mikasa being the first one he sees) by connecting it to his last scene in the manga (ofc i wouldn't assume isayama just thought abt it midway. it's just with how he executed it).

i don't have lots of friends in this app so i usually do the revisions all by myself. i'm a type of author that releases chapters impulsively—i'd publish smth that i hadn't proofread yet, read it in the app, then just do all the editing there. i'll repeat the process until i finally get satisfied. i think it's easier for me to point out mistakes when i feel the urgency to do so (like omg i have to hurry in polishing this bc readers might click anytime soon 😭) though someone helped me change POVs (from 1st to 2nd) in DIB C1-13 and let me tell u that i never thought having someone help me beta read my work could bring me so much delight.

and pls don't worry about overwhelming me! using this app and dumping all my work here are literally what keeps me sane from the overwhelming things in my life atm. to have u appreciate it gives me joy & comfort. thats why i'd be honored to answer all of ur questions :'D

#can i also just say that i propelled a scream when u sent me this ask #LIKE 🥺🥺🥺#u have my whole heart #rie answers

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theloveinc · 2 years

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this is v v random and you dont have to answer if you dont want to bc it IS personal, but i wanted to ask abt ur experience on wellbutrin? in terms of like, getting energy or feeling tired, sleepy? im worried about it making me sleepy/tired/brain fog (im 26 n BUSY as heck) again, dont have to answer at all, just asking bc i know youre quite open n honest on stuff so i thought id give it a shot and ask about your experience n like. ur pros & cons if thats okay. anyways thank u lub u legend bye <3

🥺Legend, of course u can ask!! I'm probably not the best choice, given I've only been on it since early June (and some people, much longer)... but honestly, in terms of brain fog and sleep... I have had almost literally NO issues and am all positive reviews here (...kinda).

One of the reasons I was prescribed it actually was for excessive sleepiness and brain fog (I get horrible, horrible brain fog normally and I have for years.)... and even though the results have been somewhat inconsistent since I've switched dosages like three times (and was off for a bit), literally it's helped SOOOOO much.

Obviously, people's reactions are going to be different, a moot (who I can tag but don't want to like... expose)(edit: @ace-of-books in the replies of this post!!!) on here told me Wellbutrin actually keeps her awake to the point where she needs mild sedatives to sleep... but I've honestly found I have no trouble actually going to sleep once I actually decide to (I like to use my phone in bed so I partially blame some sleep issues on that, but... you know) and waking up has gotten way, WAY easier.

(Also, with my new dosage, I take it twice a day and it's the NON-time release pills, and I've noticed that actually I haven't been as tired getting into bed usually... but someone told me this would go away once I fully adjusted AND I didn't have that problem on the time released capsules I took initially. Also it could just be that I've been taking a lot of naps at 8pm LMAOOO AND it doesn't actually bother me since the brain fog has been very reduced! *skips and jumps and claps feet together like a little leprechaun*🤩🤩🤩)

So yeah. More issues with... not being able to sleep than with being sleepy in the daytime. Thought when I was taking my more concentrated dose, if I had caffeine with it, things would get a little WoOoOooooOOOOooo funny🤡!!! at first.

As for cons... it's so funny because when I switched dosages the first time, I was like "omg these pills suck they stopped working after like, a month..." THAT WAS NOT TRUE LMAOOO. I HAD JUST GOTTEN USED TO THEM, and when I moved on to a higher dosage (150mg once a day to 150 TWICE a day🥶😨😱), I literally went insane (crying over mild inconveniences IN PUBLIC. I could think too hard and I would cry. Keep me awake over anxiety literally non-stop type insane).

And then, when I subsequently stopped taking them and it faded(?) from my system, it became very clear I actually was... worse off without them and I was extremely happy to go back on

I could always get used to it again, but right now I feel GREAT and literally kind of spring out of bed when I need to be up. No more lazing about waiting for my mind to work, it just does for the most part.

(Though I do get tired in the day because my schedule is awful, and also still crave sleeping a lot when I am in bed, it's just when I do wake + get up the adjustment period from sleepy time to being awake is almost... instant. So that, I would say, is fantastic).

ANYWHOOOO, this is kind of a long-winded answer that I answered sort of... backwards (talking about lack of sleep vs. excessive sleep), but... my experience has been so positive, even despite the dosage changes and the fact that it obviously hasn't cured my depression entirely. I just haven't had any issues with it making me tired at all, and it's FIXED my brainfog, which I guess is the answer to your question!

BUT, and I'm just gonna say this for legal reasons cuz I'm sure you already know, talk to your doctor/a medical professional first before making any decisions! Don't base taking it entirely off of ME because I also know people who experienced nothing positive on Wellbutrin at all. Not me, tho. But that can be common.

Thanks for reading this all (and being sooo sweet I lub you too + am kissing you), if you did! And no worries if you didn't, but good luck with whatever ends up happening!💕💕💕

#me and wellbutrin are besties #except if theres too much of her...#(i had a very public breakdown)#then i need a break. but me and small doses?? THAT'S MY HOMEGIRL #would literally make out with my pills if i could (thats gross sorry)#and ig some other things to consider:#i really experience nothing negative from birth control pills either so... idk if that changes anything #but it could be i'm just okay with medicine #and also i tried uhhh prozac and even tho nothing bad happened really... actually my grades tanked BUT...#it really just didnt work #so those are my other experiences with medication and idk if add or take away from this #but yeah!! i'd really recommend it for issues like preexisting brainfog and tiredness #not sure if it will ... make things revert for you #but yeah!#i'm super super busy too and it really didn't affect me much except positively #like when i started taking it i was on a break.. BUT when i started it a second time ... i had no problems adjusting with my schedule #which was nice #anyway i'll go now and im hoping this is helpful!!!#and not confusing #BYE.#<3333 #caitie answers #anon

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larrysballetslippers · 3 years

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Have H or L ever tolked abt bdsm ??? I’m genuinely confused, no hate … (I’m not exactly new to the fandom, but I don’t know a lot of the stuff 😅) I hope this ask did not make u uncomfortable 😊 sorry if it did

This is called edging.

Hey sweetie, sorry for the late reply, I had to gather some stuff. Also, it doesn't make me uncomfortable at all, it's very interesting. To answer your question, ummm yeah kinda yes. Well, it's a very vague thing. I will link you some stuff, but it's not the complete thing and also my interpretation. Make up your own mind.

To start off, most of this is Harry, because he apparently has a thing for showing off to the public about his sex life, sorry Louis No Control is a little too vanilla.

Louis has talked about BDSM in two or three interviews. But it was, like all of his interviews, completely unbelievable. In this interview(9:45), the interviewer asks if he likes kinky stuff and he basically just denies it, like he doesn't even know what it is. But then you have this interview where Louis probably does have a clue. "Being used" yes yes.

I would say Louis has very dominant energy. "Always the boss." "Anything to add, Harry?" "What else, Harry?" "He told me he was intrigued." Sorry, that's just me, my interpretation, just ignore me. Louis' dominance isn't only with Harry, Louis is just a very... interesting friend. Like he's you know edging Niall, get it... okay moving on.

Harry on the other hand is... a little bit more open. From saying he has been in handcuffs to actually wearing a proper BDSM collar in a photoshoot. He might even have a day collar, even before the blue one. That's a collar so people in your "normal" life don't need to know about your other lifestyle, not that Harry minds. Also his SSC tattoo. Sorry, see the handcuffs... Just for the image I'm trying to show.

Calling people daddy in the most sub way. The chains incident. The other chains and whips incident lately. His SNL skit. Last night... the edging part just hmmm. Going on his knees a lot. Stockholm Syndrome and the beautiful analysis by @bluewinnerangel. Also this beautiful analysis by @swimmingleo . The whole Medicine song.

Larry together is just omfg. Harry is Louis' baby, we know that. We have this handcuffs incident. This interview bit thingy, like nah. They have a thing for... public affection... okay. How they stand or sit, it doesn't really say anything particular, but the way they present themselves is very important. Louis stands wide, demanding space. Harry is always very tiny, taking up as little space as possible.

The thing with BDSM, it's not about chains and whips. It's about power exchange, between two or more people. Because you're new to it I'm not really going to plant any ideas in your head, you have to see for yourself. If you think it's not the case, fine great. I just feel a certain vibe they both give off that just very dom/sub relationship. I know this is a very taboo subject, but why should it be? It's just another part of someone's 'relationship and it's nothing bad or disgusting. Anyway, I hope you had a great time seeing all this stuff.

If you have any other questions, please send them to @fookinlittleshits. This blog isn't supposed to be so serious and I have minor mutuals, so I like to keep it a little clean. There I can talk about anything you want :)

Also thanks @bottomharrykingdom for all the great content. It was much easier to find.

#my post #I spend the whole day making this haha #what I do for my lovely anons #sorry if I made any grammar mistakes

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murdertoothpick · 3 years

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I’ve been going through a rough patch and I can’t get therapist tech out of my mind. could you write a fic sort of abt that? if not it’s ok

therapy

Pairing: therapist!Tech x gn!Reader

Warnings: None really, may be angsty but its covered by fluff.

Word count: 745

A/N: hi anon i really really hope things are better than when you had sent this request :) and i hope this does something to elevate your spirits. my dms are open to anyone who wants to talk, whether about your problems or you just need to distract yourself from life by simping over the clones or something ahndkjadjbsjd,,, please take care!!

also yes i keep writing tech comfort and fluff fics omg but i love him <3

'Talk to me, please,' he follows you through the door as you enter the barracks, unable to get you to stop.

Again, you don't respond, swiftly making your way towards your bunk, sliding under the covers without a word. You turn your back to Tech, who's now seated at the edge of the mattress, watching you in silence.

'Mesh'la,' he pulls at your foot, 'talk to me.'

Your response is muffled from under the covers, 'I don't want to talk to you.'

He sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose. Why you were upset was beyond him, but now you won't talk to him about it?

You feel the mattress decompress when he stands up, frowning at the sound of his footsteps as he makes his way to the door. You hear the door open and shut, leaving you alone.

You curl even further into yourself, face warm with shock, then confusion, and then helplessness. You didn't expect him to actually leave.

The door opens again but you don't hear it, wallowing in your despair. You are pulled out of your self-absorption upon the noise of a chair being dragged across the floor, the sound of the friction making you wince. The person sits by your bed.

'Let's get started. What's your full name?' It's Tech. You turn your head to look at him, peeking out of the covers, your brow raised in question.

'What are you doing?' you prose, taking notice of the way he's seated facing you, sans helmet with a datapad in hand.

'I'm therapising you,' he answers, voice unusually chipper.

'You're what?'

'Therapising you,' he repeats, 'Just go with it.' You roll your eyes and he smiles, 'So, how are you feeling?'

You narrow your eyes at him, 'Tech', you warn, attempting to stop his unsolicited role-playing from going further.

He shakes his head, maintaining the act, 'It's Dr Tech.'

'Well, Dr Tech,' you mock, unamused, 'I don't need 'therapising.''

'The way you stormed out of the Marauder upon landing says otherwise.'

You purse your lips, glaring at him, 'I did not 'storm out,'' you defend, though he's not completely wrong.

He hums, pleased, prideful? 'Now we're getting somewhere.'

You huff, turning to stare up at the ceiling, a sign of your stubbornness.

He tries again, 'How do you feel?'

The answer comes easier this time. 'Annoyed,' you deadpan, somewhat wishing that he had left you alone right now. He ignores your retort, pressing further.

'What's on your mind?'

'Nothing.'

'I want to help y-'

'I don't need your help,' you grumble, sitting up to face him, knees brought to your chest, 'That's what's bothering me.'

He doesn't say anything at that, but you see his eyes flit between yours, observing the features of your face, distressed and confused. There's an uncomfortable silence around you, and the longer Tech is unresponsive, the more you want to curl back under the covers. The clone, whom you adored even through his incessant rambling, disturbs you with his silence.

After a breathtakingly long minute, he clears his throat, pushing his glasses up the bridge of his nose. 'Help me then.'

You look at him with a curious gaze, silently asking him to elaborate.

'Let's say that, hypothetically speaking, there's this person I really like, not like my brothers, though I wouldn't say I exactly like them, but this person, that I hypothetically like—I would like to spend some more time with them.'

The corners of your lips raise into a smile, 'Do you now?'

'Yes, so I offered—I mean, pretend I hypothetically offered to help them with some repairs, and I hurt their feelings. Not that I would be trying to, I just wanted—want to...you know, 'hang out,'' he explains, attaching air quotes at the end. 'What should I do?'

You bring a hand to your chin, dramatically stroking it in thought. 'I think you should be honest.'

'I am.'

'No, as in you should tell this person how you feel. I think they'd forgive you then,' you smile.

He returns the expression, rising from his seat to scoot beside you on the bed. 'I could, but something tells me they already know.'

You laugh. Tech sees it as a welcome noise, resting his head on your shoulder.

You speak up, 'I would love to spend more time with you.'

Mission complete, he thinks to himself.

Maybe after the war, or in another life, he'd make a good therapist. Hypothetically speaking.

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schizosupport · 3 years

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does it still count as a delusion if I think I'm stupid to believe that and that its obviously its not real but I still have like flight/fight/freeze to the thoughts/wrongly percieved event/things in the corner of my eye, or get really scared? Like I don't think that I'm correct in thinking the thing and I don't think it makes sense/has been proven wrong by the person and by testing it lol but also I have a reasoning behind it and still think it? Esp if some of the specific paranoias are very transient (or don't come back) and sometimes triggered by horror content (damn tma t-t) or v stress related ??? I'm trying to figure out if I'm just prodomal probably (bcus I have like a million environmental and genetic risks and Im 16) or actually having delusions now lol ¡¡p but it might be substance induced so :p this stuff has been going on since like, last june maybe and when I started smoking almost everyday since august

(2) HI IM THE PERSON TALKING ABT THE DELUSIONS AND POSSIBLY BEING SUBSTANCE INDUCED !! I think I've also had an increase in negative symptoms in that approximately 1 year time frame than before, even though I'm autistic so experience a lot of the things they list in that stuff :p but that could be because I went through a traumatic relationship or because I've been unmasking over time since I'm not in public and been trying to acknowledge my needs during quarantine :p (3) hi sorry for using all caps yesterday :(((( I didn't mean to make anybody distressed in any way. Also is thinking as a kid that people may be controlled by larger beings like sims and whenever we die thats because they got bored with us normal weird kid beleifs or ?? Or like after watching truman show I was always thinking abt if I was like it and I still kinda act like there could possibly always be a camera on me or someones watching me but my dad talked about putting cameras around the house and one time when I was getting on my phone because he had taken it away from me a notification popped up on his computer that I was using my phone and if he wanted to look at my screen so maybe its just me being scared cus of that even tho I dont live with him anymore :p and I have no reason to believe he or anyone else actually has access to my phone but they do and its really scary :'((((

Hi anon!

No need to apologize, you’re good, and you didn’t distress me!

I am very brain-tired there days which makes it hard for me to respond thoroughly, but I’m going to attempt anyways.

The exact definition of delusions vs magical thinking, paranoid ideation and anxiety can be hard to figure out, and the professionals may have varying opinions as well. The main question, to me, would be - are you very distressed by these thoughts? Are they hindering your ability to live life to its fullest?

If the answer is yes, then I find it less important what they are, and rather I would urge you to look into getting some help managing these symptoms. At the end of the day, knowing the name of what’s going on with you can feel empowering, but it doesn’t actually help much if it isn’t accompanied by an increase in support, understanding and potentially treatment.

Another thing is, you said you’ve been smoking almost every day - from the context I’m guessing you’re talking about weed?

I know that a lot of people do feel like weed can alleviate some discomfort, and I’m not the authority on drug-use by any means, but I think that a daily intake of any drug, can be a cause for alarm. - No matter if that’s alcohol, weed or “harder” drugs. Especially in people who are susceptible to psychosis (which you seem to be), weed can have a negative effect, and it can definitely increase some symptoms, or even increase the likelihood of a full-blown episode.

I know it’s easier said than done, and you probably have your reasons for smoking as much as you do, but from a mental health perspective, it does blur the picture. And it can make it harder to get the help you need, because you risk either professional writing off your symptoms as “purely druginduced” or alternatively, they ignore the smoking, and think that you’re more psychotic than you would normally be, which could also lead to the wrong treatment.

(Say for example, you’re smoking to cope with a certain set of symptoms (eg. adhd)- then that smoking causes psychotic symptoms - they treat that with antipsychotics. Now if your original problem was adhd, you would have been better off with a prescription for that, instead of having to take two mind-altering substances as patches on patchwork solutions)

Honestly I’m not the best to ask about the border between delusion and anxiety - professionals have repeatedly told me I’ve long since crossed the border (hence why I’m diagnosed as schizophrenic) but in my own mind I’m still just “a very anxious person”...

I hope this was at least a bit helpful, my computer is lagging and so is my brain, so I’m going to wrap this up here.

Best of luck anon!

Cat

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dangan-happy · 3 years

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hi uhhm

[[ENOSHIMA I'M BALD]]

heya this is 2 any1 but honestly if kyoko's involved that'd be pretty damn poggers yeah

my name's Jay (he/him)

cw for death and s/h

idek where to start but someone I love said I need to talk abt my feelings more instead of repressing so uh here i am

i uh. lost someone close to me. like, really really close 2 me, he died.. and life's gone back to shit without him. i can barely live a normal life because me and him had so much shit we used to do together, like every morning I'd go 2 his house and he'd kiss me & we'd eat breakfast together. every week her take me to the park and we'd sit on the swings & just fuckin talk. he always comforted me when I needed it and he never even questioned me that 1 time I started crying out of nowhere (i was under hella pressure that day and was just too stressed) & he hasn't called me weak like other ppl, he hasn't made fun of me

but without him

this'll sound pathetic

but im scared. im so scared without him

i don't wanna live in a world he's not in but im part of a system

and i self harmed for the first time and my dumbass didn't do it in the inner world so they found bruises on the body and i

i just want comfort that I'm not weak and that I'll be ok

if that's alright

- jay.

I’m so glad that you opened up about this and decided to talk about your feelings instead of repressing them, Jay. The person who told you that really is right about that; repressing would only prove to be worse and even more painful. I thank that person for encouraging you to open up, and let me just say that I’m proud of you for opening up. That takes a lot of courage and strength, after all.

To start off with, I truly am sorry for your loss; I can’t begin to imagine how you first felt and how you currently feel now. Losing someone close to you like that makes your feelings completely understandable and valid. However, I must cut through your words about how your situation will ‘sound pathetic’, because it doesn’t sound pathetic at all! You’re simply being honest about how you personally feel, and actually opening up about that to someone is not pathetic whatsoever. If anything, it’s the opposite of pathetic; it goes to show just how strong you truly are, Jay. As such, let me further reassure you by saying that you’re not weak at all, and that you’ll be okay. I have hope in you, and I have hope that you’ll be able to get through this and that you’ll be okay all throughout this grieving of yours! Of course, as repetitive as this may be at this point, it will be tough, and you’ll experience many more moments where you might just... want to give up. But I must stress that as hard and tempting as it may be, you shouldn’t give into this despair you feel! I’ll cut through your despair and do what I can to give you the hope that I feel!

As for your recent self-harm, you’re not dumb at all. Self-harm is normally done with little to no stable thought other than that overflowing, overwhelming, despairful thought of, “I have to get rid of this terrible, suffocating pain now.” I get it, Jay; I really do. And I can understand why you may not want to be in this world anymore, now that this person who was very close to you is no longer physically there. But honestly, as weird as this may sound, I’m glad that you’re a part of a system. Granted, I can tell that’s possibly the only thing that’s currently holding you back, but even so, ending your life... it truly isn’t the answer, as obvious and clear as that may sound. This person may not physically be here anymore, but he’ll always be here in spirit; emotionally; within your memories. And sure, I may not have some crystal ball like that sea urchin guy, or unrealistic ‘physic powers’ like that bootleg Hatsune Miku, but what I do have is lots of hope. And I have true hope that this person you once were close to wouldn’t want that; he wouldn’t want you to end your life or to even self-harm. Instead, he would want you to keep his memory alive; to cope properly and in a healthy manner; to take your time with grieving but to also not stay in the past forever. So please, while it’s easier said than done, remain hopeful and keep living, but not solely for his sake; remain hopeful and keep living for your sake as well.

Before I conclude my side of the case, I want to suggest some alternatives to self-harm. One common one is using a rubber band, putting it on your wrist, and snapping it on your wrist until that urge goes away. Squeezing ice cubes or taking a cold or even hot shower might help as well. Another sort of common alternative is to draw on yourself with a sharpie. Specifically, use a red sharpie to draw pretend wounds on where you might want to self-harm, and if you want, wrap the area you draw on with bandages. I could... go on and on, but I’ll wrap this up with one more alternative: Find a fine ballpoint pen to use and make lines on where you might want to self-harm. While it’s unlikely to actually cut through skin, don’t keep drawing over a line over and over, or else you’ll potentially cut yourself! Of course, not all of this may work for you, so just give these alternatives a try and see what works best with you. Just remember these important pointers: You opening up about your feelings isn’t pathetic, you’re not weak, you’ll be okay, and I have hope in you. Keep that in mind, okay? Take care now, Jay.

I personally requested Hajime answer before I do, now I will proceed with my part.

It’s not pathetic to be afraid of being without someone, I have never gone through something like that. Sure, I lost someone close to me…but I never knew him, so I can’t fully relate to you. However, opening up about this is very brave of you, you aren’t holding back any feelings. That is definitely a step forward instead of suffering in silence, if you will.

Relapsing is always rough, don’t beat yourself up too much about it, alright? Using tactics such as snapping a rubber band against your wrist can help you snap out of it before it happens again. Your loss is not something that you’ll heal from immediately, it will take time. And even then, some scars never fully heal. I don’t just mean scars as in psychically, I mean mentally and emotionally. The loss of a person is an example of those kind of scars, don’t think you’re pathetic at all. You’re quite the opposite Jay. None of this makes you weak, you’re still trudging on and trying to stay strong.

Hajime essentially took the lead here because I had asked him too, so I will do my part in reassuring you that you’ll be okay. I have the upmost faith in you. Life is a big rollercoaster of ups and downs, you won’t be happy all the time. But the same can be said for sadness, you will not be sad forever. It takes learning from experiences that we have throughout our lives that we take and grow from. Whether they be bad or good experiences, we learn something from them. We’re human, we make mistakes. And you relapsing isn’t a sign of weakness. You’re recovering in a way, and I’ll remind you that you are worth more than you think! That’s the truth, I assure you of that.

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yourpreciouslilbub · 3 years

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park woo jin ft lee dae hwi pt. 1 (random imagines)

member: park woo jin ft. lee dae hwi

genre: fluff, au

warnings: wrong grammar, cringiness (read at ur own risk)

summary: daydreaming about changing lives by imagining having swapping bodies with a celebrity

• y/n is so done with her life.

• online classes just make her behavior worst and tired than having face to face.

• tends to isolate herself from her main accounts not minding chats and notifications.

• it's not that you don't care or mind about other people, you just don't feel communicating lmao

• prefer spending time by spazzing, watching k-dramas, or playing.

• on a night with a full moon, hearing those unstoppable sounds of dogs in your neighborhood.

• y/n suddenly thinks of having a different kind of life she has.

• kinda corny but wishes to experience those (be careful what you wish for)

• being weird and an overthinker she just let it pass, finally decides to sleep.

• next morning came, y/n wakes up with a bright vivid light that comes from the window.

• slowly progressing what happened on the verge of 'your mind is still asleep'

• a loud 'bugsh' was heard when you fall from your bed

• white long curtains, teddy bears and other cute stuff, a mini piano with lots of music sheets scattered on it,

• colorful post-it that you also read, "you can do it" "well done." "fans are waiting for you" "love myself too" "music is hard but it's all worth it".

• and a sweet smell of vaporized candles lingers around the room.

• y/n is amused yet nervous especially when he heard the door opens.

• "daehwi-yah we will eat now, what are you doing there on the floor? still asleep?"

• woong said, questioning y/n then laugh before closing the door.

• ofc you know him. it's woong the main vocalist and fake maknae of the k-pop group that you've been stanning since their debut ab6ix.

• confused still half-awake y/n decided to check her face by looking at the mirror (more like a routine or habit daehwi does lol every morning)

• "oh my god" y/n said in Korean that made her more shocked.

• purple pajamas with messy hair but still looking handsome on it is the image that you saw in front of the mirror.

• "how did this happen?" eyes are both wide open checking if this is freaking real.

• still not syncing into reality you decided to pounder thoughts

• when you heard the other members yell daehwi's name

• so your feet take you to the familiar and at the same time unfamiliar kitchen of ab6ix.

• "why are you so weird today, daehwi-yah?" woojin asked sending his signature sparrow gaze into you.

• you suddenly feel the urge to curse bcs first you are star-struck, second, it's bared face ab6ix your idols, third park woo jin is freaking asking you why daehwi is weird, lastly, daehwi is your bias and you are in his body?

• can't process the whole information, so you just shrugged at woojin's question then sit on the empty chair beside donghyun.

• everyone is busy chit-chatting while you just eat your food silently.

• the next hours went by smoothly except those kakao messages that came from other celebrities that you know too (daehwi being a social butterfly)

• and when your manager calls you for dance and vocal practice today along with the other members

• ofc you are nervous you don't sing and dance, and daehwi's prob professional especially when writing songs how are you supposed to do that?

• with cold hands you and the other members enter the practice room.

• woojin leads it and play a warm-up song first.

• y/n is very nervous but amused at how daehwi's body moves along the beat.

• you enjoyed vocal lessons too as you kept making vibrations on the songs.

• little you did know that woojin is observing you since this morning (y'all know that park woojin is the member whose daehwi are most close with so)

• you let out a big sigh when the classes are finally over but immediately taken aback when manly arms wrapped around your shoulders.

• "we should talk," woojin murmured then drag you until you two reach his room.

• woojin's room is a combination of black and white a typical minimalist person would love this adding his collection of action figurines.

• he's so manly, you thought to yourself.

• "daehwi-yah, spill it," he said breaking the silence between the two of you.

• "i-uh is there something that i s-should spill?" you want to slap yourself for stammering in front of him.

• while he gave you his 'oh pls btch stop acting like you don't know anything at all'

• when he realized that you don't have any plans to answer his question

• "YAHHHH PARK WOO JIN"

• "see? daehwi is not like that," he said while crossing his arms in front of you.

• did park woo jin literally brought his face closer to the point that you two could kiss and thinking of it happened a few moments ago made your face red like a tomato.

• "daehwi's not minding it but you— who are you?"

• y/n's heart suddenly beats faster than normal, she wants to defend herself but no words would escape from her lips.

• "sweetie, don't be afraid it's just me park woo jin" he said smiling showing his snaggletooth.

• intimidated. that's what you're feeling right now. seeing him this close makes your heartbeat wild adding that he's interrogating you.

• you didn't have a choice it's now or never so you told woojin everything.

• at first he didn't believe it but when he challenged you to make simple sentences for lyrics he started to believe you.

• months past like that, woojin is there guiding you every time he sees that you prob gonna ruin smth

• y/n and woojin always spend time a lot together after rehearsals, practices, classes, gym, or even if you don't have anything scheduled for the day.

• you know him for being clingy with daehwi as you always watch their behind clips but damn having skinship with woojin really hits different

• it made your heart flutter every time he does it (but u only keep it to yourself)

• he kisses you sometimes on your cheek when you two are alone

• that's how park woo jin and y/n became close.

• today y/n is super hype bcs she saw the first snow

• woojin messaged you on kakao stating that he has a surprise so you two agreed to meet

• knowing him, maybe it's another prank or somehow something nice happen for him to celebrate it

• so you decided to wear daehwi's purple balenciaga sweater partnered with burberry coat and ofc his favorite dior bag that you can't forget to bring with

• you really like to dress up that's why you don't find it hard to style daehwi bcs daehwi already have a lot of designer clothes that made it easier for you

• before heading out, you sprayed daehwi's saint laurent perfume enjoying your personal favorite scent among his collection

• "y/n, you're late" woojin called as he waves at you.

• "i am not, you're just early" you rolled your eyes at him realizing that he wears his balenciaga pack again.

• others would find it weird but you call it 'pack' bcs his overall fashion is all balenciaga and it makes you roll your eyes more at him bcs you already know that he's freaking rich

• does he want to slap on my face that he could buy this entire house just for me to say that he's freaking rich? you thought.

• woojin pulled your wrist making you sit beside him

• it's not that you feel awkward with him, what's with the pulling and the intense gaze that he gives you right now

• y/n can't look straight at woojin bcs of her wildly beating heart.

• woojin held your chin so that you could have an eye to eye contact and when you two have—

• "woojin i—"

• "y/n i—"

• you both said at the same time.

• when you broke eye contact and decided to stand up woojin stop you but this time he held your hand.

• he stands up filling the gap between the two of you

• y/n stand there froze don't know what to do

• again woojin approach you, slowly, pulling you closer to him (tho there's not that much diff abt hwi and woojin's height)

• "i like you, y/n" he said while seriously looking into your eyes

• and like instructions that you follow to do, next thing you knew you found yourself closing your eyes waiting for his lips to touch with yours

• but you suddenly feel dizzy,

• then started to feel hot, mixed emotions.

• "y/n?" "y/n?"

• you open your eyes finding yourself in front of your monitor having online classes

• "y/n, show us your talent now"

• you don't know what to feel, felt crying bcs finally you are now back with your original body, happy bcs woojin confessed to you a while ago, sad bcs you can't see and bond with them now, and there's a big question mark on why and how you returned in the time of your online classes.

#park woojin imagines #park woojin scenarios #park woojin au #lee daehwi scenarios #lee daehwi imagines #wanna one imagines #ab6ix #ab6ix imagines #wanna one

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honeybee-babe · 5 years

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How can you excuse all of the abusive things Luther has done to his siblings (especially Klaus) throughout the series? And don't pull the "he was drunk" card. And without implying that Luther locking up Vanya isn't intentionally cruel or intended to hurt her? He has the ability to think logically, unlike Vanya he isn't experiencing a literal psychotic break down.... Please, explain this to me logically. Thanks.

~ wowowowowowow i clenched my jaw all night thinking about this ask~~

Yikes. You’re not asking me why I “excuse his actions” (I don’t), you’re asking why I see him as a human being with flaws and trauma which need to be addressed rather than the literal devil. And why I don’t think he is irredeemable based on a few terrible choices (when he has also made some great ones and showed affection for his siblings in the past). I honestly think people hate Luther because it’s easier to have clearly good characters and clearly bad characters, even in a show that actively and artfully avoids that dichotomy.

Why do you care that I like Luther? I’m not bashing your faves or causing any harm to you? I am not trying to tell you to like him or convince you he is a great character. I know he has flaws.

But if you really want to know how I “excuse all his actions” (which…. I don’t?), I’ll humor you, but I’m answering the question you’re really asking:

Why Do You Not Despise Luther?:

This response is really longwinded but THIS QUESTION IS REALLY OVER-SIMPLIFYING(!!!) so I feel it’s warranted.

First, I’m gonna address the “abusive things Luther has done to his siblings throughout the series:”

I am not excusing any of the things Luther “does to his siblings,” I’m just saying we should extend the same amount of courtesy to him in sympathizing with him and understanding the motive behind his actions (just like we all do with Vanya). And also consider the fact that he is deeply traumatized and has literally been gaslit his entire life into thinking he has to follow a specific model that was set out for him as “leader.” Literally he has been taught that he is nothing without the UA and being a leader, and I don’t think people release how damaging that is to a person?

But also hot take: I don’t think Luther is abusive towards his siblings at all? Not until the last two episodes for sure. I think he is insensitive towards others’ emotions at times, but he is never cruel just for the sake of being cruel. I honestly think Luther is incapable of picking up on emotional cues to some extent.

I’m re-watching right now, I just finished episode 7 and I have yet to see any signs of him being abusive towards the others, and not Klaus specifically? The choking scene was vile and physically violent but I don’t think it’s abusive because it was a one time thing and abuse is a cycle. Luther isn’t particularly awful to Klaus, he is just dismissive? The only person he ever is really verbally mean to is Diego when they get into fights and Diego is just as bad if not worse, and also intentionally tries to get an emotional rise out of Luther (which is…. just as awful and cruel?).

But yeah I finished episode 7 and no abuse so far… maybe my dumb ass who was abused for my whole life just doesn’t understand what abuse looks like? Okay that’s kind of a joke but I’m actually being serious, my abuse is pretty similar to Luther’s and my body dysmorphia/eating issues are similar to his too which is a lot of why I resonate with him, so I could be missing signs because I’ve probably acted the same way. So please point out to me where specifically he committed an act of abuse, and not a one time act of violence or simply being dismissive of/not picking up on someone’s emotional needs.

Also I honestly think Luther is just in denial of others’ emotional needs because he is in denial of his own emotional needs. He has been taught to push everything down, including the needs of others, with the only goal being completing the mission, and protecting everyone/leading everyone to safety. Also I mean, he hasn’t been around human beings for 4 years (so of course he struggles to relate to them/communicate healthily), and he was always taught not to engage with his siblings but just to lead them because that was his role.

Also Klaus and Diego (especially Diego) are just as dismissive of Luther’s trauma? And like yeah Luther covers it up but it’s pretty freaking obvious…pointing out how big he is specifically.

Diego literally sees Luther shirtless after the chandelier falls on him, sees how self-conscious he clearly is, and then never asks about it or checks on him (yet continues to joke about it – also Klaus makes fun of his muscles when he first sees him which is just insensitive). And in the first episode the way Klaus jokes around during the family meeting about cucumber sandwiches when Luther is trying to plan a memorial service; it’s obvious that Luther is grieving and paranoid (and also that he has been manipulated enough to love Reginald!!!) and Klaus is just making jokes and not addressing this? And then they both just ignore his obvious paranoia over Reginald’s death and just call him crazy and walk away? And don’t use the “he was high” excuse for Klaus being a prick (just like I can’t use the ‘he was drunk’ excuse for Luther, which I never did once btw, y’all just want more justification 2 hate on him).

Also: Yes, Luther tells Diego to stop talking shit about Reginald at the memorial service but like, from his perspective, that is someone bashing the person he was closest to AT HIS FUNERAL!!! He starts the fight with Diego but only after Diego provoked him, clearly intentionally, and Diego continues to fight him and throws a fucking knife at his arm (but physical violence is only not okay when Luther uses it right?).

Also HUGE THING Y'ALL ARE IGNORING: Klaus finds out Luther had nonconsensual sex while drugged out of his mind and congratulates him………. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh idk about you but I think Klaus has been around the block when it comes to drugs and sex (and consent) and should realize that someone on drugs for the first time losing their virginity is nonconsensual, or even if considered consensual still pretty icky? Like Luther is clearly ashamed and upset and doesn’t want to talk about it and Klaus just laughs abt it. That is so not cool.

And another thing:

Luther is very, very protective of Five which is so so sweet, yet people just completely overlook it because they only want to see the bad things he’s done. When he and Allison run into him in the hallway at the end of Run Boy Run and see him looking distressed Luther asks him in a soft voice, “Are you okay? Can we help?” and reaches out to touch Five’s face. Five grabs his hand to stop him but this was very sweet? Like it’s clear Luther has a soft spot for him because he’s small.

But Diego? After he finds out about Patch he bursts into his apartment and goes to attack Five; Luther has to pick him up to restrain him from beating up their brother who has the body of a 13 year old. All because he blames him for the death of the love of his life (just like Luther is afraid of Vanya after she killed Allison). But in Diego’s case, Patch is already dead; Diego only wants to hurt Five out of vengeance, not because he’s trying to protect Patch. And he doesn’t apologize or anything after????? It’s just never brought up again!

SO IN TERMS OF LUTHER BEING AWFUL TO KLAUS THE WHOLE SEASON: is he? is he really? is he really abusive? and is he really that much worse than his other siblings?

And now I’ll address this nonsense:

“And without implying that Luther locking up Vanya isn’t intentionally cruel or intended to hurt her? He has the ability to think logically, unlike Vanya he isn’t experiencing a literal psychotic break down…. Please, explain this to me logically. Thanks.“

…….sigh.

Luther is absolutely not being intentionally cruel or doing this to “punish” Vanya, he’s doing this because he’s freaking the fuck out and doesn’t have any idea what she might do. Yes it’s a bad idea but we need to keep in mind that he’s not thinking logically, he is emotionally distressed. Yes he could talk to her but Allison had just tried to do that…. and look where the fuck that got her?

Do you seriously believe Luther was mentally stable and thinking logically in this moment? Do you not realize he was literally going through a breakdown and identity crisis of his own?

He just found out maybe two days ago that his entire life was a lie and the person whose approval he sought the most didn’t give a shit about him, found out he was isolated from humanity for no reason (which….. as if being isolated in itself wasn’t traumatic enough), after he was mutilated against his will, and now he has just witnessed the person he loves most almost die and he couldn’t do anything about it. Luther is experiencing a breakdown and I think a big part of it is control: he realizes he’s had no agency his whole life/has never had control, he just lost control/agency over his body on drugs even more and had nonconsensual sex while intoxicated, and then after this he sees Allison dying and he can’t do anything to help her (he can’t even give his blood)!!!! His superstrength and locking up Vanya is the only thing he has control over, he feels it’s all he can do to prevent the apocalypse/protect everyone.

Not only that but the idea of control as contol over powers: Luther has super strength, he has to be super careful and controlled all the time so he doesn’t accidentally hurt the people he loves… the thought of someone’s powers being out of control is probably the scariest thing in the world to him. And yes, he gets in fights with Diego but he doesnt use his full strength (just like Diego doesn’t either) because if they did then they would actually hurt each other, they have a lot of control over their powers. But Diego can control his powers by just… not throwing things and having temper tantrums. Luther doesn’t need to be angry to fuck up with his powers, we see that in the very first episode when he punches the model airplane. Luther can never escape his powers and has to constantly control them, and the idea of uncontrolled powers is his worst fucking nightmare.

So Vanya tells him, “we got in an argument and things got out of control” … like just imagine what must be racing through Luther’s mind when he hears that!

Yes what he does in this scene is awful but you can’t convince me he is doing it with the intention of hurting her. Literally you can see in his eyes as he is choking her how pained he is by this. And he apologizes to her: why would he apologize to her if he was trying to hurt her? And if that was intention… why wouldn’t he just fucking kill her?

I absolutely don’t agree with his decision here but like…. he absolutely is going through a mental breakdown and it doesn’t just stop during The Day that Was/Wasn’t and to act like he is completely stable and in his right mind when he locks Vanya up is just grossly oversimplifying everything!

Y’all demonizes him over this but completely overlook some of the awful things his siblings have done (Diego going to beat up Five because he blames him for Patch’s death, Vanya killing a ton of random people because she was locked up)…. Like yes: Luther is insensitive, dismissive, and cruel in this scene but it is not his intention to be cruel, it’s obviously his intention to control Vanya’s out-of-control powers, protect his siblings (esp. Allison), and prevent her from causing the apocalypse. It is awful and yes it is cruel but to act like he just doesn’t give a shit about Vanya and/or is doing it just to hurt her is just….. so beyond what the show is portraying.

And I get that you guys really despise him for this, and if you’re going to hate him, fine: but you completely overlook the terrible things all the other siblings do throughout the whole series and write Luther off as evil, which is not cool. Seriously, y’all portray Luther as the literal devil just so that your faves seem like infallible angels and your headcanons and fanfictions seem nicer and more simple………. and honestly I just can’t reason with you. I think some people just hate on Luther and love everyone else because his abuse situation is more complex and they’re just… literally too lazy to do the mental math, so they stick with stanning everyone else whose trauma is more obvious? Even though Luther covering up his trauma (literally) and refusing to talk about/deal with it is a huge plot point in the show, y’all perceive this as him just not having any trauma, or just overook how his trauma affects his actions.

This show isn’t supposed to be “everyone in the family are wonderful, perfect victims and deals with their trauma like angels EXCEPT LUTHER HE IS STOOPID AND EVIL AND ALSO HIS TRAUMA ISN’T DEEP ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!”…… and if you think this then I think you need to do some soul searching? Or actually do some research into abuse and learn that it comes in many different forms and has many different effects?

Again: I don’t dislike any of the siblings. I used them as examples but I love Diego, Klaus and Vanya!!! I respect and understand them all and view them all as troubled souls who are trying.

This show is complex and it’s designed to be uncomfy, and if you simply write it off as having clear victims and villains (except Reginald, he a dick) then you are not respecting the writing or giving the show justice.

Gerard Way says he wrote Luther based on his own experience of body dysmorphia, isolation….. the show designers say he has self-harmed before, and Tom Hopper has said Luther has been suicidal in the past…. but you know what, go on portraying his trauma as “having it easy” and using violence/cruelty just for fun, even though the show clearly portrays him as a broken man.

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I had a question abt the answer you gave for that recent Sofia Coppola ask; does the movie industry really consider Jane Austen adaptions as "lesser" works that good/experienced directors don't consider worth their time? Also, as a side note, I'd give up a body limb for any Austen adaption with a completely POC cast.

I hear you, anon. Black Dashwood ladies are my own personal headcanon and no-one can tell me they aren’t. There’s historical precedent and it totally works.

In thinking of Austen adaptations I gotta draw a line between what I wish would happen and what I predict will happen. There’s kind of three types of directors that have, in the past few decades, been attached to Austen adaptations; and this does, in part, depend upon the kind of release an adaptation is going to get, and how it’s marketed.

First you’ve got what I’d call the major players--the widely-known and well-regarded ‘Hollywood’ professionals who will, on occasion, throw the Austen fans a bone and do a lusher feature film adaptation of a novel. These are not without the adaptational pitfalls of shorter running times compared to miniseries, but being a more condensed story, they are easier to pitch. I’d flag up the three directors/adaptations I see as falling into this category--Ang Lee’s Sense and Sensibility, Joe Wright’s Pride and Prejudice, and Whit Stillman’s Love & Friendship. Wright is perhaps right on the edge because he’s more BAFTA than Academy Award, but I would say the higher profile of his more recent films and the release/fanbase they’ve gotten nudge him more into the major players category. (Rozema’s Mansfield Park was a feature film with an ostensibly similar release-style to the other films I’ve mentioned, but her career, though garnering awards-nominations elsewhere, hasn’t really seen her break into the boy’s club of Hollywood.) Ang Lee’s S&S came right as he was breaking into that scene, so perhaps that adaptation is more prophetic of the rise of his American career rather than indicative of how well-thought-of he was in the Americanized industry, already. And these guys tend to be much less prolific than other directors of Austen adaptations, so their works are brought forth and marketed in different ways. When it’s an awards-nominated director making his a film for the first time in several years, it becomes a bigger deal than it might otherwise be.

Where I say I think it’s unlikely that Sofia Coppola would then ‘stoop’ to direct an Austen adaptation--even one of these higher-profile adaptations such as the three major player feature films I’ve just mentioned--it’s because she doesn’t quite mesh with the Austen director archetype...which is basically men. And these men’s films were still not guaranteed blockbusters, by any means. Their success seemed to almost come as a surprise to many, and compared to many other Hollywood films, they’re still not that successful, however well critics and audiences responded. They’re not going to draw the same kind of bank and pomp as a superhero comics adaptation. Even the ‘biggest’ Hollywood Austen adaptations tend to be handed off to men with respectable film credits, but nothing close to the cachet of being a Coppola. She’s got the major awards nominations, but the tendency of her film work is drawing her more away from what we’re used to seeing with Austen adaptations, not towards it. Of course anything could happen and I could end up eating my words, but trends wouldn’t lead me to place any money on Sofia Coppola directing an Austen adaptation.

(Sofia Coppola’s film work also tends to be 99% exclusively written and produced by her, as well; so unless she makes that decision, herself, that she wants to do an Austen project, I don’t see her being likely to just pick it up if it’s someone else’s script or production, her involvement tends to be so thorough.)

For the lower-status films and minieseries, usually produced by British broadcasters, you get a slew of ‘jobbing’ directors with smatterings of small-screen and theatre directional credits to their names. Again, most tend to be well-regarded within their corner of the industry, but few have broken through to major awards nominations and whatnot. Roger Michell is maybe dancing along the cusp of that, but it’s worth noting that his Persuasion did get a feature-film-style release which is arguably in part responsible for the follow-up success of both Lee’s Sense and Sensibility (which had a staggered release in cinemas between the UK and America to capitalize on buzz surrounding Persuasion and the 1995 P&P as well as attempting to market it as an awards-worthy film,) so the producers took a greater risk on that Persuasion as a made-for-TV-film which then helped kick off the Austenmania trend of the mid-1990s.

Now I’m gonna list all the names no-one really recognizes: Diarmuid Lawrence, Douglas McGrath, John Alexander, Jon Jones, Iain B. MacDonald, Adrian Shergold, and maaaybe you’ve heard of Simon Langton because the swirling pink-satin credit-sequence is permanently etched into the darkness behind our eyelids at this point. Anyway if you’re doing a more lowkey Austen adaptation you’re more likely to get the job of directing if you’re a man whose name is Jon/John than if you’re a woman, basically. These are the less adventurous telly adaptations that get churned out to us on Sunday nights by the BBC/PBS with not much to surprise but aren’t their dresses pretty?

Thennnnn there’s...well, I don’t wanna say counter-culture Austen adaptations, but it’s worth noting that here is where the majority of women directors are to be found. Patricia Rozema’s Mansfield Park adaptation gets slotted in here because I feel it has more in common with the other films in this category than with the big-budget Hollywood features OR the smaller-scale period-drama standard miniseries, in terms of actual risks she was willing to take with how she put together her story. Here we also find Amy Heckerling’s Clueless and Gurinder Chadha’s Bride and Prejudice. These films are definitely in a league of their own compared to the boys’ club movies and TV serials, but in a sense they’re also just...more interesting to me, because of the risks they dare to take and the fun they have. Does it always result in a ‘better’ movie? That’s an argument for another day; but to me it’s clear that when women take the chance to direct these adaptations, they bring a hell of a lot more heart to what they do, because those chances are so few and far between. Would Coppola’s Austen have more in common with these films than with the male oeuvres of Lee, Wright, and Stillman? It’s hard to say without actually having a film to look at and compare. But just speaking speculatively, the differing statuses of Austen adaptations, the divides between British and American styles of period-drama productions (though sometimes there are collaborations,) and the gender gap in the industry make me feel it’s unlikely Sofia Coppola will end up directing Austen unless she firmly makes up her own mind to do so.

(It’s been a very long week of yelling about Gender in Hollywood, hasn’t it?)

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