i keep seeing ana ppl being proud and feeling better than non ana ppl cuz they r losing weight, getting skinnier and they know many tricks to make meals have less calories, and im just, how? im so jealous, im so envious of always thinking about calories, of not enjoying food, of caring so much about how i look, how can u be proud? we r all so auto destructive, me r killing ourselves for a body that in 100 or less years will be nothing but rotting meat, im tired so tired i wanna be able to walk short distances without feeling like im dying again

mom was trying to hide the bag of Doritos she bought for herself, like girlie pop I'm trying to rel4pse i'm not gonna do anything idc 💀

i have two sides

this is how i wish to be described

yes i might be sleepy all the time, uncontrollably thirsty, having to go to the bathroom every 15 minutes, unable to focus, with a constant headache and utterly miserable but im also skinny and that's all that matters 🤑

to whoever said that you can eat your usual meals as long as you do it in smaller portions: I LOVE YOU AND SOMEDAY I WILL MARRY U

my bad i took the life energy of the queen so i had enough will power to continue fasting won't do it again

being 4na and lactose intolerant it's the ultimate power move

me: *eats two sandwiches instead of one*

me: omg i'm binging

i'm failing so hard to restr1ct that instead of calling myself an0rex1c i'm gonna start calling myself afailure

i lost my gag reflex,,,,,

being 4na it's realizing that drinking water it's fucking useless cuz you are NEVER getting hydrated no matter how much water you drink 😭

mom: when u where younger you couldn't stop losing weight! a problem you sure would like to have now haha

me:

cold showers suck but the feeling when you turn off the water and your body regains it's warm it's 🤌

1 year disordered eating anniversary! 🥳

shout out to my mom. she is always able to make me lose my appetite with her bullshit god bless

me calculating how many calories i ate today and seeing that the result is 666: