he paints the same thing over and over and manages to amaze me every single time.

Water painted by Ivan Aivazovsky (1817 - 1900)

Breakup sex with my vampire girlfriend call that the last nail in the coffin

coriolanus be like "a spiral aint nothing but a shape to me"

dealing with abandonment issues is so draining. its so jarring. i hate putting people i love through this. its like going into a blind rage, having no common sense when those feelings hit you like a truck. no one ever wins. if i convince myself someone is going to leave, its like written in stone, even if this person countlessly proves themselves, even if they show me they wont leave in the moment, my brain convinces me that if they dont leave now, they will soon, its just a matter of time. like what the fuck man, what wires are missing in my head. i wish i was a better person, i work on these issues, and when they dont surface for a while it feels like i've completely healed. only for the disappointment to be astronomical when they eventually resurface with potency, like it was charging in hibernation. idk anymore man, people underestimate how fucked abandonment issues are.

there are so many things on gods green earth that are not platonic but are also not romantic. the erotic, the familial, the unconditional, weird codependency, weird codependency (hatred edition), etc. let us all broaden our horizons

i refuse to defend my favorite characters. They did that horrible thing bc they suck really bad

forever amused (read: being eaten alive by a bazillion ants) that on this site, playing the world's best-selling video game in history and posting a video makes you instantly a plague on humanity. yes, people's personalities and beliefs ARE a monolith and yes, the block game IS the devil. this is an intelligent and well-reasoned opinion that normal critically-thinking people hold. i feel like a preschool teacher trying to teach a toddler shapes but they keep insisting the triangle is the same shape as the square because they're both blue. if i attempt to explain they're different shapes i am told to kill myself over it. i've been here 4 years btw

rachel zegler has those eyes that could convince anyone that shes in love with you. LOOK AT THEM.

“We could've had a drink. A dance or two. Like we had all the time in the world.”

society is actually wrong. u can like poem and talk about it to ur friends

where would they be? c!quackity would be on his way to REQUEST that someone draw them making out

where would c!tntduoblr be today without that one really well drawn imagine of c!quackity and c!wilbur making out. where would they be

Coriolanus and Lucy Gray Baird, respectfully.

guy who says "FUCK!" to every minor inconvenience x guy who says "oopsie daisies" to earth shattering catastrophes

You know what I love and just applaud Rachel zegler for doing so well? Making Lucy gray’s mannerisms and tone slightly different whenever she’s performing for the cameras e.g the scene at the zoo when she was being asked questions

More than that I love that in every scene with Coriolanus she doesn’t do that tone or mannerisms EXCEPT THE LAST SCENE SHE HAS WITH HIM BEFORE SHE DISAPPEARS

Like everything about it from the tone of voice to the way that she said “I’m not made out of sugar” to the way that she smiled was just so eerily similar to the way that she acts when she is preforming for an audience

Like I cant be the only one who sees how different she acts

Look at that! that’s a woman PREFORMING if I ever saw one

But what’s so important is that SHE IS preforming, she’s made her choice, she knows she has to leave but she also knows that she is talking to someone who is extremely volatile and has shown that he can kill so she has to bide her time and play it perfectly to disappear like she needed to

So she preforms to stay alive, just like she did in the games, Lucy gray’s last performance was actually this conversation- not any song.

the leftism leaving people's bodies when you tell them making fun of someone's appearance is always objectively scummy even if the person they're making fun of is bad

John Wick is not an “action series” it’s an urban fantasy leaning heavily on fae rules such as a hidden world overlaid over the mundane world, miraculously out of sight despite its vastness, operating by strict and bloody codes of fairness. AND it’s an action series

do you ever say something and then think "wow this isnt even a bit. im just like this"

there was a moment when the people in the movie theatre and the capitol audience in the stands were laughing at the same things, having the same reactions to the games, to the deaths, to flickermans jokes, to the doctor's announcement...i wonder aren't we watching it for entertainment too

suzanne collins' books may exist in popular culture as "dystopian", but they have always been a meticulous and startlingly close social critique of our world. at what point does our own idolization of the movies and the books repeat that story? we watch just as the capitol audience does.

all dystopia eventually crosses a line from realistic futurism to current relevancy. how long will it take us to realize we've already crossed that line with these books? and the very people who need to realize this are the ones in that audience...real or fake, we're the same: consuming and consuming.

I’m sure someone has talked about this before but one thing I absolutely love about tbosas is how Snow’s descent into villainy is never once presented as something that was inevitable

So many villain origin stories portray this idea of a person who tries incredibly hard to be a good person, who takes every opportunity to be kind and to better themselves, but are ultimately doomed to fail by the narrative. Their environment and their circumstances make it impossible for them to be a good person, and while this is effective from a storytelling point of view it’s not exactly accurate to real life

In real life there is always a point where a bad person makes the decision to do something bad, they make the decision to prioritise themselves, their own power, money or desires over someone else. That’s how real life dictators are made, they are presented with every opportunity to be good, and they purposefully choose to not take it

This makes Snow’s storyline so effective because he is given so many opportunities to do the right thing and yet, at every single turn, he chooses to serve himself instead, exactly like how real dictators are made

Snow, unlike most people we see in the capitol, is in a unique position where he could genuinely have the chance to understand and relate to the people from the districts. He, unlike his classmates, is poor and spends most nights going hungry, he witnessed firsthand the cruelty of the capitol when Clemensia was bitten by the snakes for nothing more than lying about doing her homework, when his sister was forced to sell herself on the streets in order to feed the both of them

Throughout his book, the three people he is closest to are Tigris (who dislikes the hunger games, is a rebel, and a victim of the capitol forced to turn to prostitution), Sejanus (who is originally from district 2, dislikes the capitol and knows he will never be accepted there, and also a rebel) and Lucy Gray (who is a victim of the hunger games, from district 12, and is also treated horribly by the capitol). These are all people who gave him an opportunity to realise the cruelty of the system he was in, a chance to directly confront his prejudices and see that people from the districts are just the same as him, and yet he still refuses to take the chance to change

He is given every opportunity, he’s sent away from the capitol to be a peacekeeper in the districts, he forms personal connections with people from the districts, he helps Sejanus perform funeral rites, and yet at every moral crossroads he comes to he makes the wrong decision. He didn’t have to become a villain, and yet he made the choice to do so anyway, despite every chance he was given

I think it’s a really effective portrayal of Snow as a character, and it’s a very effective villain origin story for the type of villain that Snow is. It never once excuses him from his actions because it highlights just how accountable he was for his actions