literally 43 monthly listeners,, i found them by going down a rabbit hole on spotify and what can i sayy

ty @ray4youknow for tagging me!!

tags: @skenisasleb @fucksurass @idevourglass @azrielthedrawer

MB IF YOU WERE ALREADY TAGGED YOU GUYS ARE THE ONLY MUTUALS I KNOW THAT DONT MIND BEING TAGGED aghhh

reblog this with that one incredibly underrated/almost completely unknown song you're obsessed with

let's support small music artists together :)

feel free to tag anyone :3

thanks for tagging me @nirami-blogin!

huh who would've known (sarcasm)

tags: @fucksurass, @skenisasleb, @idevourglass

uhh yeah!! sorry if you were tagged previously

i made a little uquiz space related quiz,, it's kinda short

if we let em cook too long.. im not sure what would happen

thats great sweetie... maybe lets go back to the kids table..

they really don't know

thats great sweetie... maybe lets go back to the kids table..

art piece that i made with a friend over magma, apologies for slur usage

can you tell we're immature?

i have him.

choy looks like he would either really love peanut butter or completely despise it

What if someone made random headcanons for Choy. That'd be interesting tbh

MY BOY!!!!!! ITS HIM!!!!!

You won't believe who I saw today

i was meant for traditional art not this digital type shit istg (i feel like an old man when using csp)

also me when i forget i can actually draw and not some goober alien doodles

DAY 79

Wendy!!! ✨

Old art redraw!!

Tweek downing a cup of coffee

New Old

The tiktok @ is my old tiktok acc

That drawing was for a birthday vid for tweek and the backround is black because the image was transparent so heres a white one!

drew myself shrugs

oh my god that's so cute!!!!

I drew miku because I saw @spookyteeth drawing her and I wanted to try to draw her (I never did draw her before) also I think I won’t draw her much but I will definitely draw Rui Kamishiro :D

Doodles I have done over the days! None of which are digital, I like to only post digital art on here, but unfortunately, school happens. Ew right? But anyway take these drawings and kyle with a fishy stan au I had with a friend... and eugh randy. + creek

Ignore the spelling error, I was I credibly tired when drawing Randy (and it shows)*

little different then what i usually post about but a bit pissed off and honestly just a rant

Alright, basically for context, I guess: Autism, ASD, ADHD, dyslexia, etc. (but autism is important for this rant) runs both sides in my family; we're all VERY neurodivergent. Though we're usually high-functioning and can mask well, it's still very visible. (like the magnet thing where neurodivergent people make friends with neurodivergent people because they're like drawn to them,, or something??? I like to call it 'your people finder')

The rant: In my life, I've been diagnosed with ADHD, and I am currently on medication, though something we've noticed is that I'm also showing signs of high-functioning autism. which is like, 'Oh cool, I guess I should get tested because, honestly, why haven't I before? I'm most likely going to get a positive result, and I think a diagnosis would help my 504 and shit.' So I went through the testing, which was honestly really… weird? I felt like I was being tested on only one end of the spectrum to see if I had a good reaction time, if I could read social cues, and if I could decipher figures of speech. Which was like alright, okay, I guess that's some signs that should be written down, important knowledge, I guess. So I get my results in,, waiting 3 weeks for this,, did 1000+ questions for this,, did 3 hours of testing for this,, to turn up as negative. I'm not upset I got negative. I'm not one to glorify autism or make up some shit to feel special. I'm upset because I've been looking through the diagnosis system, and the place I live has a mindset of 'you're only autistic if you flap your hands, can't pick up on how the other person is feeling, you're good at noticing patterns, etc.' or just that low-functioning autism is the only way of autism and that's not fucking okay??? I understand how autism has not been around for like a really long time (which is actually very interesting; I would recommend reading about Donald Triplett), and we really only have studies on male-bodied people (which is a whole thing about how autism is represented differently in different sexes), but it's actually hard to get an autism diagnosis. Like if you're male-bodied or female-bodied, and especially if you're an intersexed person. (Like, come on, dude, it's already hard enough for one sex to be severely undiagnosed, but two?? Really??) Though, I guess I give props for them noticing I have ADHD and saying I most likely have anxiety and a small chance of OCD.

Conclusion: I don't give a fuck if I'm not autistic or not; this diagnosis system needs to change. At least where I'm from; I'm not sure how it is in other places.

SORRY ABOUT THE LONG ASS RANT, and thanks for reading!! Please don't feel the need to respond or comfort to this, I'm just sharing my frustration.

Adding: I know self diagnosing (the one that's actually well educated not the tiktok shit where they spread misinformation so they can get attention) is common due to this, I just wish shit like this was more.. easy? Like easy to go though the process of getting an actual diagnosis, or even the chance to get one. Which, I am lucky to have that chance of at least getting tested, I admit.