spidergrotto
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stand for something or die in the morning.she/her — eighteen
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i never planned on making it to eighteen and now i’m here and im kind of scared!!
any mention of the potential future makes me angry and anxious “aren’t you excited to graduate?” no i’m not i would rather do anything else my body and mind literally shuts down at like the slightest mention of anything related.
my mom is used to me being upset and anxious she’s used to hearing me vent but i’ve always been fine so it doesn’t .. matter anymore? she cares but she doesn’t have the energy to help and she has her reasons for that.
but i’m really lost on what to do, am i ?? going to kms ?? or will the gap year idk put me in a better mental space? am i like gonna be living life ??
i barley enjoy anything right now and i just i don’t know ! all i KNOW is that i am sad and scared and very angry and this was not the plan.
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this applies to so many marvel movies and shows
#i could name them all if i tried#marvel mcu#sambucky#stucky#lokius#steve and bucky#sam and bucky#tfatws#civil war#captain america civil war#captain america winter soldier
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who would i run to when i have fic ideas . . . who would we be . .
happy 1 year of r&r :)
i know it's a lil cringe to like. celebrate the birthday of a series on ao3 but r&r is literally my child. my baby. i birthed this series. and you all signed up for this when u started reading my fics thank u
soooooooo thank u guys for all the support i've received over r&r i know it's hard to stay a consistent reader when my posting schedule is entirely non existent but i am so grateful for everyone who's stuck around this long and been with me for this journey (calling it a journey because a year ago i did not have any sort of overarching plot in mind and now we're 17? 18? fics deep and so many things have happened and i'm usually just as surprised as my readers) it's rlly u guys that have kept me going this long
ANYWAY. i rewrote this like 500 times cause i hate being like. overly sappy on this account because it's way funnier to act like a celebrity with a huge ego, but real talk i am so proud of everything i've done w this series & what it's become in the past year
i've been posting my writing online since i was like 10, so we're going on almost 9 years now and i don't think i've ever ever ever received as much support for something as i have for r&r and something about that is soooo special to me??? idk it's just so nice to see a completely self indulgent series become so loved by others, especially since the only other fics i had up before gmm&m were a little more on the "i'm gonna write what seems popular right now" side???
like shoutout to everyone who was here before/around when i started the series because my account was so empty like. 2 fics and one gets updated every 6 months. r&r pulled me out of the trench i fear. it also cured me of my very horrible disease that makes me delete all my fics after 9 months and then completely disappear from a fandom so everyone say thank you r&r
but yeah idk where i'm going with this i'm very grateful for r&r and all the friends i've made and people i've met through it because i was very lonely before i rejoined tumblr and r&r was like. 90% of the reason i made my account
AND SPEAKING OF FRIENDS. thank u to
@spidergrotto & @sapoteylx for being the first ppl i met on here to openly talk about and support r&r which i thought was so so cool even if you guys have become my haters in the past few months i've known you :/ thank u r&r nation u keep me humble and miserable (and i am very thankful for our friendship i think some aspects of r&r would be very different if we'd never met)
& ao3 user classactical because you've been here since like. a month or two into the series i think and i always always always look forward to your comments because i feel like if you comment, i did a good job on the fic LOL thank u for sticking around for so long, even if ao3 has been actively working against you for a whiiiiile
there's a lot more i want to say and a lot of people i want to mention but that would take a very long time and i always feel weird tagging a lot of people in posts so just know if u read r&r we are kissing rn. or high fiving idk whatever floats ur boat i guess
but yeah anyway tl:dr happy birthday r&r i'm very proud of this series & very thankful for everyone who has read any part of it ever u guys are so cool and hot and have amazing taste and i'm taking your kudos and bookmarks etc. as you swearing your allegiance to me and promising me your undying support no matter what (legally binding btw) thank u guys
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feeling insane + doing homework + breaking down + monster energy + i can’t cry properly + ???
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ned and peter trying to figure out what species of spider gave peter his enhancements and they find out theres a species of spider that walks on water
peter who doesn’t know how to swim and nearly drowned trying to explain to may and tony why he threw himself into a river
“listen— i could’ve been the spider version of jesus are you following?—ned tell them—”
#they do stupid things#marvel mcu#peter parker#spider man#spiderman#peter parker and tony stark#tony stark#found family#irondad and spiderson#ned leeds#peter and ned#may parker
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you know it’s getting bad when ur in bed at 9pm and haven’t been able to get through a day without feeling horrible by the end of it
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who? what? where? when? why? how?
fun little fic for the anniversary:) i mention this in the notes of the fic but i wrote part of this in nov 2022 which i think is wild. anyway any info that kinda seems weird or scattered will be answered once i put out the 2 fics that are supposed to come before this one. just thought it'd be fitting for such a day
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fun? little fic? fun? do i need to idk define that word for you??
fun little fic for the anniversary:) i mention this in the notes of the fic but i wrote part of this in nov 2022 which i think is wild. anyway any info that kinda seems weird or scattered will be answered once i put out the 2 fics that are supposed to come before this one. just thought it'd be fitting for such a day
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r&r anniversary is the most important thing that happens every year this is my national holiday this is my new years
and you aren’t gna believe me but i only really started using tumblr because of ur fics i read them and thought i need to know what happens next and then i found ur tumblr and then i went insane and now i am insane so thank you for that
happy 1 year of r&r :)
i know it's a lil cringe to like. celebrate the birthday of a series on ao3 but r&r is literally my child. my baby. i birthed this series. and you all signed up for this when u started reading my fics thank u
soooooooo thank u guys for all the support i've received over r&r i know it's hard to stay a consistent reader when my posting schedule is entirely non existent but i am so grateful for everyone who's stuck around this long and been with me for this journey (calling it a journey because a year ago i did not have any sort of overarching plot in mind and now we're 17? 18? fics deep and so many things have happened and i'm usually just as surprised as my readers) it's rlly u guys that have kept me going this long
ANYWAY. i rewrote this like 500 times cause i hate being like. overly sappy on this account because it's way funnier to act like a celebrity with a huge ego, but real talk i am so proud of everything i've done w this series & what it's become in the past year
i've been posting my writing online since i was like 10, so we're going on almost 9 years now and i don't think i've ever ever ever received as much support for something as i have for r&r and something about that is soooo special to me??? idk it's just so nice to see a completely self indulgent series become so loved by others, especially since the only other fics i had up before gmm&m were a little more on the "i'm gonna write what seems popular right now" side???
like shoutout to everyone who was here before/around when i started the series because my account was so empty like. 2 fics and one gets updated every 6 months. r&r pulled me out of the trench i fear. it also cured me of my very horrible disease that makes me delete all my fics after 9 months and then completely disappear from a fandom so everyone say thank you r&r
but yeah idk where i'm going with this i'm very grateful for r&r and all the friends i've made and people i've met through it because i was very lonely before i rejoined tumblr and r&r was like. 90% of the reason i made my account
AND SPEAKING OF FRIENDS. thank u to
@spidergrotto & @sapoteylx for being the first ppl i met on here to openly talk about and support r&r which i thought was so so cool even if you guys have become my haters in the past few months i've known you :/ thank u r&r nation u keep me humble and miserable (and i am very thankful for our friendship i think some aspects of r&r would be very different if we'd never met)
& ao3 user classactical because you've been here since like. a month or two into the series i think and i always always always look forward to your comments because i feel like if you comment, i did a good job on the fic LOL thank u for sticking around for so long, even if ao3 has been actively working against you for a whiiiiile
there's a lot more i want to say and a lot of people i want to mention but that would take a very long time and i always feel weird tagging a lot of people in posts so just know if u read r&r we are kissing rn. or high fiving idk whatever floats ur boat i guess
but yeah anyway tl:dr happy birthday r&r i'm very proud of this series & very thankful for everyone who has read any part of it ever u guys are so cool and hot and have amazing taste and i'm taking your kudos and bookmarks etc. as you swearing your allegiance to me and promising me your undying support no matter what (legally binding btw) thank u guys
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me arms waving around mind descending into insanity while i try to explain the significance of lobster ice cream to my future partner ( “so peter right he’s in new jersey and then tony and then it’s like oh no and he’s all want lobster ice cream and then PUNCH” )
#this is niche#pbpsbff lore drop to my kids when im fifty#the grip fan fictions have on me is concerning#ao3 recs#ao3 fanfic#marvel mcu#peter parker#spider man#spiderman#peter parker and tony stark#tony stark#found family#irondad and spiderson
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you know a fic is good when you have to close the tab and prepare for what comes next, it’s always the fics i have to let boil before coming back to that hit the hardest !!
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r&r drops and ao3 has to prepare because they know it’s going to be WORLD ENDING
i rlly know how to time a fic drop
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REAL SHIt
everybody cheered
mmmmmjust a warning before u read this i wrote this part over the course of a couple months and finished writing it with the worst caffeine withdrawal headache ever so if there are errors or inconsistencies please tell me
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turns out it was because i forgot to eat oops
i am so overstimulated and overwhelmed oh my god i might die
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i know what you are.
everybody cheered
mmmmmjust a warning before u read this i wrote this part over the course of a couple months and finished writing it with the worst caffeine withdrawal headache ever so if there are errors or inconsistencies please tell me
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OH MY GOD NEW FIC JIST DROPPED BRB
everybody cheered
mmmmmjust a warning before u read this i wrote this part over the course of a couple months and finished writing it with the worst caffeine withdrawal headache ever so if there are errors or inconsistencies please tell me
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i am so overstimulated and overwhelmed oh my god i might die
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