Eu simplesmente amo meanspo

Se cada vez q vc abrisse a boca pra comer, vc tomasse agua, ja estava magra sua idiota.

Jesus, I'm feeling so tired, my backs are killing me! I just wanna go home but seems that hours never pass!

I wanna fucking cry!

ANA DIARY

DECEMBER 02, 2023

I consumed around 600cal per day for 4 days (there was days that I have ate a lot less than that, around 250cal), and today I'm starting a 24 hrs fast, maybe more, let's see, I will let your guys know.

Can someone explain me the relation between having an ed and start smoking and listen to sad music?

Cuz everybody I know who does have an ed at some point star smoking or at least think about that and love listening to sad songs

My legs are tingling,

I'm feeling a little weak,

And I love it!

I don't care if you're healthy or unhealthy, 100lbs or 280lbs, if you're trying to lose weight, reblog this and I will follow you. I need support and I'm sure you'd all like some too. We're all in this together.

ANA DIARY

NOVEMBER 28, 2023

Yesterday I was thinking about breaking my fast, but I decided to just drink some energy drink, which, unfortunately, wasn't the non-caloric one because the place didn't have any, so at the end of the night I consumed 487cal in Monster.

I'm not proud that I consumed so many calories, but at least I'm glad it was liquid and not food. Besides, I resisted the barbecue they were having very well and didn't eat anything at all.

I was hospitalized and couldn't eat for three days, it was the easiest fast of my life!

Sometimes I wish I just got sick in a fucking coma and just woke up really skinny

I NEED to buy a new scale, doesn't know how much I'm weighing it's killing me!

ANA DIARY

NOVEMBER 27, 2023

My girlfriend and I decided to hangout with some friends of her to watch the soccer game. They're eating barbecue, and I fucking love meat! Damn god, whyyy???!!

At least I'm resisting well!

ANA DIARY

NOVEMBER 27, 2023

So, today's fast was well succeed! I'm thinking about breaking it with some juice and tomatoes.

Apparently the ideal weight for my height is 131lb, I'm weighing 159lb, it's going to be a long walk to reach the "ideal" and even longer to reach MY ideal.

Wish me good luck!

ANA DIARY

NOVEMBER 25, 2023

So, I've been missing for a while, I've been out of the community for a while because a lot of things have happened.

In short, my life turned upside down, I moved to another city, I started dating again, I tried to commit suicide, I lost my best friend (she didn't die, we just cut ties), I had to stop going to college until I reestablished myself, I moved to live with my girlfriend, so you can all imagine why I haven't started the ana diary yet.

Regardless, I'm feeling well enough to give it another try, so I'll start posting about my eating routine and life if I find something interesting enough to do so.

ANA DIARY

MAY 21, 2023

I'm very upset, I've fasted all day and haven't lost a single pound.

I didn't drink as much water as I use to drink everyday today either because I was really busy at work and I had to finish a college seminar as soon as I got home, which I finished just now.

I was planning to meet a girl that I've been talking to at her house too, but her parents were at home and I couldn't go over there because, well, I don't know if that's a part of my life that you guys will want to know about (let me know in the comments), but we weren't just going to talk if you understand me.

In a nutshell, the only thing that wasn't a mess today, was that I could manage finish my seminar.

So... I've been wondering what I should write in my ana diary, but I'm not sure. So please tell me things that you would actually like to know.

ALERT: If you do not have an eating disorder, or are in recovery - please block my account - I will post very triggering contents. I intent this to be a safe space where I can share my experiences, life, routine, struggles, and things like that with other in the community. I'm not trying to trigger or incentive anyone.

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I intend for this to work like a ana diary, where I will tell things about my day to day and share tips, experiences and my evolution until I reach my UGW. I don't promise bodycheck for now, but maybe someday.

ABOUT ME: I have been dealing with my anorexia since I was 13 years old. Not a lot of people in my life knows about it. I was raised by my grandmother, and since I can remember she always criticized me for my weight, for being too fat, until at the age of 13 when I started to care a lot about it, since she said that no one would ever love me if I continued to look that way (I have Abandonment Issues). That's when I started not eating, to restrict food, exercise till exhaustion, at the time I didn't know what anorexia was and obviously I didn't know I had it, today I understand. I was "recovered", until almost a year ago, when I looked in the mirror and thought I was absolutely horrible, I thought "I lost control", I need my perfect body again, I miss feeling good in my own skin, or at least feel better than I do now. Just to be clear, I'm pro-recovery, I don't wish this for anyone but myself.

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I Will Be Updating The Information's Below

FIRST UPDATE: May 19, 2023

LAST UPDATE: May 19, 2023

SHE/HER|AGE: 20|HEIGHT: 5’5”|BMI: 26,5

SW: 159.1lbs|CW: 159.1lbs|UGW: 100lbs

GOALS:

155lbs 🔒 | 144lbs 🔒 | 133lbs 🔒 | 122lbs 🔒 | 111lbs 🔒 | 100lbs 🔒 |