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I know it can be hard to write and post it online for people to judge! And you are literally so brave for doing it! I have wanted to write too but I'm too scared to actually post anything so i haven't done that yet
I hope you get better in touch with your regression! It really sucks when you can't just relax and regress when you want to :(
Again, sending lots of love to help you out!
P.s. : the last line was exactly that. A reference to our lovely and sweet Dr. Reid.
Thank you for this support and encouragement! If you ever post your work, tag me! I wanna support you too!
This means a lot to hear, so thank you.
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Heyyy just wanted to ask if you are doing okay? If yes, then I'm glad and i hope things keep going up and if not, then I hope it all gets better! Send loads of happiness and kisses! Because kissing is better than hugs! Less germs!
Hey! This was a really sweet in box to receive! I kinda lost my writing spark for a bit. It felt like everyone had an opinion on what I should have written instead or opinions on my art. I kinda lost my will to write and I am working on getting it back.
Tbh my regression has been stunted and I’ve been stressed due to the stunt. I’m doing better now, and I’m working on getting better!
(The last line is giving Spencer Reid trying to convince his crush he greats everyone with a kiss.)
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Can I ask if you write fem, nonbinary/gender neutral or male readers??
Hey, I haven’t been writing for a bit. My goal is to get back into writing. I personally prefer non-binary or fem reader, I have never experienced life as a male presenting so I’m willing to write it, it’s just not my comfort zone!
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Growing pain: Johanna Mason x little reader
Summary: Johanna and (Y/N) find ways to live after the pain.
Wc: 4k
Tw: hunger games details, mentions of death and gore. Less that The Hunger Games , but more that the average agree fic.
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I feel like I’ve lost control of everything since the games ended and the rebellion succeeded. After years of torture, it was over but I wasn’t over it. Mentally I was never free. I feel it lurking around every corner, in my brain and physically.
I see the faces of the people I killed in the arena and for the rebellion. I see the faces of those I lost: Finnick, bogs and so many others. I see the torture I endured in the capital and in my district. I cannot sleep due to this haunting.
I’m lucky enough not to be alone. After the rebellion won the therapist said both Johanna and I should not live alone. We both quickly decided we tolerate each other well enough, so we would rather live together than have a “babysitter”. We still have mandatory therapy appointments but most are done on the phone.
Johanna was loud and harsh a majority of the time, she seemed to have calmed down slightly since our freedom was established. She was outspoken still but she was honest and genuine. She always tried her best to calm me during my episodes, she has improved her ability to empathize but still struggles.
She says I help ground her too. I never feel like I do, but I suppose I can’t determine how she feels. She sometimes talks about how we met, she talks about how she saw me during my games while she was the mentor, and she discusses the past and who we were. Johanna has grown nostalgic, talking about the innocence in my eyes during my first interview. It’s hard to remember. I’m only 21 now, but it’s hard to remember when I was a child or when I had a childhood.
Even before the games, I fought to survive and help my family survive. I trapped animals by the fences and worked for anyone willing to pay. And not to talk about the horrors from after my first game.
Now we live in a house on the edge of the woods in district 7. Johanna has started building a log cabin farther into the woods, as she has wanted to do for a long time, it’s part of her therapy I think. I meet with my therapist meets with me every Saturday morning, and so far she’s said I’ve made no improvements.
She wants to actually meet in person this weekend so we can try a new method. I agreed, only because I knew Johanna would be in the woods. She would probably stay close enough to hear me if I scream, she’s always nervous to leave me with strangers.
Johanna had left early for the woods, claiming she wanted to get a lot of work done. My therapist showed up with a large bag over her shoulder. She made herself comfortable in Johanna and my living room. She accepts my offer of water, rejecting coffee or tea.
“So how have you been sleeping?” She asks, as soon as I sit across from her.
“Umm… The usual amount… I guess maybe a little more…” I reply shyly. I hated that question.
“That’s good that you are increasing your sleep, even just a little. That’s a huge step for you!” She said, she was sincere, but I always feel like she’s being sarcastic. “What about nightmares?”
“No change,” I said almost too fast. It’s not that there was an increase in number, it was an increase in severity.
“Okay, now I was hoping you would be willing to talk about what you were like before the games?” The therapist asked.
“God it’s been so long, I guess I was a normal child? I mean I had a family, I went to school, worked. I was the average kid in my district.” I reply.
“So what I’m hearing is you never really had time for those key parts of being a kid?” The therapist asked, “Did you feel like your needs were being met in all capacities?”
“Yeah! My family gave me the best life they could!” I yell, I felt like she was spitting on the efforts and the fight they put into providing the life I had.
“I didn’t mean to offend you, I simply meant compared to that of perhaps a capital child!” The therapist explained, “the reason I brought it up is so I could be positive that this therapy had a chance to be helpful.”
“What is this therapy?” I said reserved again.
“So it’s called age regression. It is a coping/therapeutic method that helps you reconnect to your inner child, to a point where you were safe and felt loved.” The therapist explained, “what it is, is you revert to a childlike mental state where you will have a chance to engage with like like you are that age.”
I grumble, almost embarrassed that this is even a suggestion. I think about how Johanna’s therapist told her to build the house she wanted and acknowledge the way she feels. AND I GET TURNED INTO A BABY?
“You don’t seem thrilled by the idea, however, I would really like you to give it a genuine try.” The therapist said, “I won’t ask you to attempt in front of me as I know you aren’t ready for that yet. But I would also like you to reflect if there was any time you might have accidentally or unintentionally regressed okay?”
“Yeah, I guess I can try to do that.” I signed.
“Okay, I will leave you with this bag of different items that might help you regress. And how about we call next week and meet in person the time after that?” She asked.
“Yeah, that will work for me,” I said staring at the bag as if it could come alive at any point.
She was quick to leave after that. Once I was alone, I picked up the bag. However, the door goes flying open, and in comes Johanna. She tried to play it cool, but it was obvious she wanted to make sure I was okay.
“What’s in the bag?” Johanna immediately asked, pointing her ax at it.
“Apparently stuff for a new type of therapy…” I gave up the information.
“Yeah? Morphling? That’s some good stuff to help you forget the pain.” She jabs at herself, she had an intense addiction after she was held in the capital.
“Umm… no… I don’t know exactly what is in it…” I didn’t lie, I technically didn’t know exactly what was in the bag.
“Okay,” She raised her hands as a surrender, “I have to get back to work, but I’ll be back before dinner tonight.”
“Okay, be safe,” I reply.
“Obviously, got a lot to do still!” She replied.
With Johanna gone, I brought the bag to my room. I closed to door and immediately started going through the bag. I was almost embarrassed to say that I was excited, it felt like I was getting lots of gifts.
On the top of the bag, I pulled out fake stuffed animals, a bunny, and a bear. I giggled lightly thinking of how Jo and I presented, the stuffed animals looked like us. I was fast and jumpy during my games, like a bunny. Johanna was strong and sturdy with her axe during her games, like a bear.
I go into the bag again and find a few types of dolls. Then I pull out diapers, I yelp at this. I placed the diapers very far away, I wasn’t willing to try that! I grab another item quickly to avoid lingering on the diapers. The item I pull out is a storybook. It was a picture book, it looked like something I would have enjoyed as a kid.
I dove into the bag again, this time pulling out a coloring book. I could do that and not feel too embarrassed. I continued pulling stuff from the bags, primarily toys, pacifiers, and teethers.
With everything laid out, I decided that I was willing to try the coloring books and teethers/paci tonight. The stuffed animals somehow already made themselves at home on my bed. I guess I should put on something comfortable and try what the therapist said.
Once cozy, I lay on the floor and begin looking through the coloring book. I settle on a picture of a Pegasus with butterflies. I begin coloring the picture, I start on the butterflies, coloring the wings a burnt orange. I was cautious of the edges.
Soon enough, I was done coloring the butterflies and I am feeling slightly fuzzy in the head. It was odd, it felt like when I would go to the parties in the capital and would drink the strange bubbly drinks, that always made me giggly. I was giggly now too. I notice I am not holding the crayon correctly anymore. I am gripping it in my fist, and rubbing it against the page.
I feel light, almost weightless. It is nice to feel so carefree, I am childlike again. I feel like when I was 7. I dive back into coloring, one page turns into two turns into a handful. My drawing begins to ignore the lines and I pick the most fun colors rather than the ones that would work together the best. I start sprawling on the floor, rubbing my eyes with my balled-up fist, and haphazardly swiping my hair out of my face with no grace.
I suppose it must have been a while since I began my session. Because it grew dark in my room, as the light from the window faded out of view. I whimper at the change in light, I feel silly being scared of the dark but I was so small. Smaller than when I was 7, I wanted Johanna. I always felt safe with her. However, I couldn’t let her see me like this. I felt embarrassed that this made me feel better, I should be able to deal with it like every other victor. But here I am sprawled on the ground giggling at the pictures I color, as my thumb migrates toward my mouth. Just as it passes my lips, the slamming of a door startles me. Johanna always was rough on the doors after a long day.
“(Y/N)?” She yelled out from the living room. I freeze, think big thoughts, think big thoughts I repeat to myself.
“Yes?” I yell back, I sounded wrong. I move to get up and go to the door, hoping she wasn’t set on coming into my room as there was no time to get everything hidden before she comes in. I was lucky enough to slip out before she made it to my door. I smile at the sight of her sweaty frame, she had been working hard on the cabin. Seeing her like this was always slightly domestic, she had a slight smile and her axe was left at the door.
“What have you been up to, birdie?” Johanna asked, she called me that as the first time we met, I squawked like a bird. I did not mean to she startled me and now she wouldn’t let me live it down.
“I was doing something that the doc wanted me to do…” I reply shyly, It was scary to talk about treatment. Johanna would want to know, making a comment about ‘supporting’ each other. She acted like it was important to us, but I think she just likes being nosy. “I meant to make dinner, but I go distracted…”
“You sound off, weird almost,” Johanna said bluntly, she didn’t mean it in an offensive way she just spoke like that. “How about we cook up some soup now? We got that rice from district 11 that you liked, we can try to make the rice soup seeder made that one time.”
She always seems to remember the small things that I liked. Last week, she decided to visit Finnick (He was alive but had some nasty scars from the muttations.), and came back with a Tupperware of the same dessert Annie made for her baby shower. I mentioned once that I wish I had the recipe so I could remake it, but I knew it was an important family recipe for Annie so I didn't pry.
“I would like that…” I reply, I sounded small and innocent still like a child. Johanna said nothing this time, I suppose she didn’t care enough to point out that fact.
“Start filling that pot up with water, I’m gonna clean up a little,” Johanna says walking to the bathroom, Johanna has gotten better with showers and water in general. She doesn’t freak out about water she knows is going to touch her, but surprise water still gets to her. Puddles, rain, and any splashes.
Once the pot is filled up, Johanna is out of the shower. She is dressed in a tank top and sweatpants. She looks so pretty.
“All filled up, what is the next step chef?” I asked my voice almost back to normal. I still felt slightly fuzzy in my head.
“You are gonna chop up some broccoli, and I am going to make the base and rice.” She said she was always good at delegating work.
With that, she’s pulling goods out of the pantry and fridge, and I am getting the knife and cutting block. By the time I get the large block of wood, I am pretty sure Johanna made it. If I was being honest, using a knife made me nervous still. I would start to shake and think back to my game.
I stood there staring at the board that had broccoli sitting on it, the knife in my hand. I didn’t mean to space out at this scene. I must have stood there too long, not moving. I felt a hand wrap around mine, as I hold the knife. My head whipped around only to see Johanna’s pity-filled smile.
“It’s just broccoli,” Johanna said, it was blunt. It was meant to be soothing though, it worked better on me than it would on others. Johanna did the leg work of cutting up on veggies while I just leaned back into her sturdy frame.
Johanna was always overly gentle with me, even when she was rough on me it did not compare to the roughness she had towards others. When she had flashbacks or breaks, she never hurt me. She would scream and cry, trying to get me away, but would never hurt me. When we first moved back to district 7, she would rarely shower due to her fear of it, however, I slowly got her to shower. I would stand in the way of the water and she would let the mist that bounced off me hit her. It took a while but she eventually got to a point where she was comfortable showering alone.
“You know you can tell me what your head doctor said to you right?” Johanna asked, before following it up, “Or I could call her and have her tell me…”
“I feel like that would be breaking a rule,” I giggled at her. We placed the knife down as we finished cutting the vegetables.
“Then tell me, little bird,” Johanna said, as she poked at my sides. I felt my face go red and my eyes water a bit.
“You will make fun of me, and then leave me here alone,” I reply looking down at my hands.
“Now, does that sound like something I would do?” She asked as she dumped the vegetables into the soup and left it to simmer. “What if I told you something that my head doctor told me to do that I don’t like?”
I stood there, ��would I trade a secret for a secret?’. I nod as I pull myself onto the counter to sit.
“My doctor says it's important that I start connecting with more people and try to connect on a different level…” Johanna all but groaned out.
“Like date someone?” I squeak back.
“I suppose, something about taking care of someone I connect with and care about… blah blah blah. Like I pay attention to that.” Johanna huffed, her eyes bearing into mine as to say she wanted to say more, to be vulnerable but wasn’t able to form the words.
“Do you not want to ever have that? Someone that loves you as you love them?” I ask quickly, I was never good at hiding my feelings. I always had an affection for her, although I tried to break it. As Johanna would always refuse to love another person after what happened to her.
“I…” She starts and trails off as she stares into my doe eyes. She bit the inside of my cheeks as her eyes flicker to my lips. “Stop trying to stall, tell me what your stupid head doctor said.
I stare at her for a second before reaching my pinky out and asking her if she would still stay with me no matter what. She connected our fingers with a small scuff at my antics. I soon spoke, “So she said before we could deal with the trauma from the games and the umm… you know afterward. I have to address the trauma I have from my childhood…”
“What the f*** does that even mean?” Johanna says, getting angry that the doctor wasn’t just fixing me. I appreciate that she cares this much, but she was being loud and aggressive about it and it startled me.
“She wants me to create a safe childhood for myself…” I am still picking at my nails but I am hyper aware of her shifting next to me.
“What?” She was confused, I could almost hear the cogs turning in her hair.
“She ummm… she wants me to regress…” I finally say, Johanna still didn’t understand but she faked a smile.
“Well, do you think it will fix the screws that are loose?” She asked, it was all she could, she didn’t know anything about it. All I could do was shrug before turning my attention to getting bowls and spoons.
Johanna did not push the topic anymore, at dinner she talked about how the cabin was coming along. She said that I was going to get to decorate it, she would make any furniture I wanted. It was her way of sharing what mattered to her. Her love language
I told her the following day I was going to go into the market to get groceries and asked if there was anything she needed. She said no like always, she always wanted to be the provider. I only smiled and nodded before resuming eating my soup.
The evening was like any other, Johanna and I sat on the couch. She is reading a book about an adventure that takes place far away from here. I sat close to her, writing a grocery list. My head eventually makes its way to her lap. Her hand finds its way to my head, playing with strands, almost petting me. Johanna and I fell asleep like this, I was the first to fall asleep obviously.
This happens a lot, usually when this happens Johanna will either carry me to bed or if she is tired also she will simply wiggle in. She tries to wake up before me so I dont catch her being soft but sometimes I get lucky. I was not lucky that morning, she was gone by the time I woke up. She was most likely in the woods again or perhaps she went to speak with the lady down the street to get a new ax head made.
I did not fret over her whereabouts, she was strong and reliable. I was quick getting ready, I loved days at the market. Now that people are able to enjoy life, the market was light and airy. Kids played and danced, there was always music playing and the shopkeepers were always throwing extra into my bag, as I was a ‘leader’ in the rebellion. I always refused the gifts, I was never a leader, simply a survivor.
Today I stopped by a small flower stand, I always pause to look at them. I could never get myself to buy them, I feel like a capital citizen using money on lavish goods when people could be starving. I am aware the war is over and the likelihood of starvation is low with the new leadership.
I was in the market for about two hours before deciding to walk back to victors village. I took what was considered the long way back, and it only took an additional 5 minutes. However, I enjoyed the extra 5 minutes of birds singing and trees so tall I couldn’t see the top.
When I returned, I opened the door to find Johanna on the couch reading a book. ‘Must have decided to have a short day,’ I think as I drop the groceries in the kitchen before walking over to see how she was. Once I walk back into the living room, I see the title of the book she was reading. I freeze, “Age regression: explanations and tips”. There were other books all similarly themed.
“What are you doing?” I ask nervously. I nibbled on my lip to keep from attempting to remain grounded.
“Reading.” She said dryly, flipping the page. She was obviously enthralled by the book. She had tabs sticking out of it and a pen in her lap.
“You don't have to read that, you can act like nothing is happening!” I meekly reply. I want to cry from embarrassment, how could I be doing this nonchalantly. This is embarrassing.
“Why would I do that? That is stupid.” She didn’t spare a glance away from the book, “Do you need help with the groceries?”
“Umm… No, I can do it. You don’t have to worry about it.” I sputtered out as she finally glanced away from the page she was on, placing a bookmark in it and stood up.
“Too late, you are stuck with my help.” Johanna grunted walking past me to the kitchen.
I follow behind, looking lost. All I could really think of was ‘why?’. Why would Johanna go out of her way to do this for me? Why did it seem she was enjoying my suffering?
“Ohhh, you got the stuff for the meal we had when Katniss visited! It was tasty. When are we making it?” She asked, snapping me out of my mental tirade.
“We can make it whenever, there isn't a specific day I was planning to make it.” I reply, grabbing the bag that held the fruits I bought us.
“Cool, cool. You should read some of the books I got, they are really informative.” She said, watching me like she did during the 75th hunger games. Cautiously, ready to save me from an unseen force.
“Why did you get them?” I ask, staring at the apples I placed in our fridge.
“Well we are gonna be living together for a while so I thought I should at least know a little of what was going on in that head…” Johanna trailed off, an unsureness settling over us.
We let the silence fill the room until she lets out a forced cough. I popped my head up from were I was squatting, still holding the food I meant to put away. She spoke, “So I read that usually regressors have a caregiver, did your doc say anything about getting one?”
I shook my head, not knowing exactly what it was. I did understand she seemed bitter about it. She seemed glad to know I wasn’t planning to get one, she was rather territorial.
“Okay, for now perhaps, I could take on that role? Then my shrink is happy and I know that you are safe.” She suggests.
“Okay, I suppose that’s okay. I don’t know what that means though.” I said.
“I will teach you”
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To regressors that feel guilty for regressing:
Guilt behind regression does not mean it’s bad or that it’s wrong, it is simply your brain trying to cope with something it’s not familiar with. You are so valid and so capable, in due time your regression will feel less wrong to you. I love you! /p
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This person has been interacting with my account, I would like to say again.
Please be careful if they interact with you, they have a kink for “age play”.
DNI: ANY K!NK MATERIALS
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Taking a small break from writing due to college, and the terrible Wi-Fi and service in this campus.
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Dean Winchester X Little! Reader: LD PT2
WC: 1882
Summary: An online dating app leads to a long-distance relationship.
A/N: Why does wifi suck? Also why does college give you no personal space to write??????
Part 1. Part 2
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Dean was attached to his phone and computer like a high schooler. He adored having a little one he was getting to know. He recently sent a package containing a paci, a onesie, a tiara, and a few other trinkets and toys. The little one really needed to be more cautious about giving out their address as they did with him. 
Cases had currently been at a standstill. So Dean was allowed to stay at home all day and talk to the age regressor he had come to care for. He learned so much in such a short time about the little artist, they told him about their family, how they work as a little bakery, and how they were scared of the closing shift. He felt bad about lying or not telling the full truth to them, but it was for their safety. 
But how badly he wanted to tell them and let them know and trust him. He wanted to fully commit to the little and be their caregiver. He wanted nothin more than that. He missed taking care of someone so small and in need of protection, now that Sam was grown, he didn’t have that.
A ding from his phone interrupted his pining. It was a text from the little one.
Y/N: Good morning! I’m in charge of the bakery today! So I have to bake, wish you could try it :((
Dean: Good morning, Sweetheart. That’s so exciting! I wish I could try it too, what are you baking today?
Y/N: Gonna make macaroons, cookies, pies, and cakes. Gotta make so much, but it’s okay. Cause it will be fun. 
Dean: That sounds like so much fun, bet they are gonna be so yummy! Maybe one day you could teach me how to bake?
Y/N: YES YESYESYES!!! Does that mean you are gonna come see me? 
A pause just for a moment, hesitation filled the air.
Y/N: Or I could visit you? You wouldn’t even have to travel.
Dean: Maybe, how about we talk about it after you finish working?
Y/N: Okay, talk to you at 6?
Dean: Talk to you then, have a good day baby
(Y/N) tried to continue their day like they weren’t nervous, however, they were unable to keep the act up long. Their hands shook with nerves, he was probably gonna say no most likely. 
Although they were doing something they love, time seems to barely move. The hours were dragging and it was hard to focus due to the nerves. They tried their best to focus as to prevent any mistakes, they wanted the owner of the small bakery to like them. The owner was an older woman, who was like a grandmother to everyone in the store. 
Soon the clock struck 5, it was time for them to clean up and go home. They would clean up the mess they made while cooking, and clock out at 5:30. Then walk home and hopefully be home by 6. The path wasn’t long, they just usually go distracted by random stuff on their walk home, at one point they had sat on a bench on the walk home to gawk at a rather hairy man, as they believed he may be a werewolf. 
Y/N: Heading home now! Talk to you soon. 
Dean smiled at his phone as he cooked bacon to go on top of the burger he was making. He had a day full of contemplation and planning and recontemplation. Should he stay or should he go?
Dean: Good, now be safe on your way home. 
The walk home was short, with very few distractions. How could they be distracted at a time like this? They were in a hurry. They arrived back at their beat-up small apartment quickly, only stopping to unlock the door and grab the large box on their doorstep. Usually having a box at their doorstep would bring them extreme excitement, however now they had to call Dean.
Ringggg… Ringggg… Ring….
Dean was quick to answer, nearly ripping his pocket off his jacket. It was playing the special tone that he set for (Y/N), as he didn’t want to answer the phone all grumpy like he did the first time they called. Meaning they got home and wanted to talk to him.
“Hey Buba,” Dean answered, making weird wobbles in his voice. He knew he did a good job when a giggle floated through the phone.
“Hi.” It was shorter than their usual enthusiastic greeting, which cause some concern to bubble in Dean’s stomach. “I got a big box at my door, it was hard to carry.”
“Wish I could have helped you with that, why don’t you open it where the arrow is pointing? Maybe there is a surprise in there for you.” Dean smiled at the thought of them still in their work clothes, about to be small and bouncing.
“Arrow?” There was a pause, “You sent me this?”
“I did.” Dean answered, knowing he was about to have to reassure big (Y/N) that it wasn’t a big deal, “ before you start saying anything about this, it was nothing. I wanted to get you a gift, don’t try being all ‘oh you shouldn’t have.’. I did it, and I will do it again.”
“I-” They paused, “Thank you, I’ll get my box cutter and open it.”
He smiled as he heard them beginning to rustle to find the box cutter. They seemed excited or nervous to see what was in the box.
“Gonna be careful right?” Dean asked once they made a sound that he would consider success. 
“Ye, no touching the pointy parts.” They respond obviously absorbed in the thought of a gift, that they were aware was most likely for little (Y/N).
“I wish I could see your face when you open the gifts.” He smiled, as he hears the light slicing of tape, and them struggling with the box to open the edge that wasn’t cut completely. “You gonna read the note first?”
“Ye,” They spoke, beginning the note with a loud and proud voice, but slowly going quieter and mumbling as they began regressing. They were always shy about how hard reading could be when they were small. 
“Open the gifts now baby.” Dean prompts, as they finished the card. The sound of the newspaper being removed from the box was louder than he thought it would be. 
“You got me a paci?” They sounded choked up as they stared at the design. The design was Siren-like, and it had the words “little monster” on the handle.
“Yeah, do you like it? Should be a few other things in there too…” Dean asked hopefully.
“Yeah, didn’t need to do all this…” (Y/N) mumbled over the phone.
“But I wanted to, how about you try on the gifts and we can maybe have a talk?” He wanted to talk about the possibility of him visiting them. 
The atmosphere in (Y/N)’s apartment deflated quickly at the mention of the dreaded conversation was brought up. They had believed for a moment that everything was perfect between the pair. However, he was preparing them for his big no.
“Oh yeah, umm we can talk, yeah.” Their voice was less childlike and more anxious.
“Baby, it is okay, this talk isn’t gonna be bad.” Dean replied quickly, trying to calm the obviously stressing little.
“Okay, can we talk about it now?” They said, just wanting it to be over.
“Of course baby,” Dean says as he opens his computer that he was looking at routes on, “what does your schedule look like for the next few weeks?” 
“Mmm Nothing only working,” They replied, picking their thumbs.
“Okay, how would you feel if I left tomorrow and got to see you in about 2 days?” Dean asked.
“Wait.” They paused almost processing what was being said. “What?”
“Obviously it could be sooner or later depending on traffic, would it be okay if I slept at your place? It would be like a little sleepover.” Dean continued knowing they would register what he was saying soon enough.
“YES YES YES YES!!!” They screamed, only to stop, “Sorry, didn’t mean to yell. Thought you were gonna say no. 
With that conversation completed, (Y/N) was quick to regress and babble about all the stuff they would do together. Dean was packing as they spoke as he would have an early morning. It was all simple and little (Y/N) even started cleaning, it wasn’t much just putting some of their toys away. They stayed on the phone until (Y/N) fell asleep.
The next morning came quickly, Dean was already on the road by the time the sun was up. It was unheard of for him to be awake even a few hours after the sun is up, but today was different. He wasn’t being the safest going quite a bit over the speed limit, but he just couldn’t help it. He would text sweetheart at stops, when he filled up for gas, took a bathroom break, or was getting snacks/souvenirs from each state he went through. Both days were like this although the second contained more bouncing in his seat and fewer stops.
(Y/N) spent the two days working and stress cleaning. They swept and mopped their floors three times, and dusted them twelve times. While at work they asked for the first day Dean would be there off and the owner hearing how excited they were, gave them a week of paid time off. The owner stated something about only being young once and young love, (Y/N) was too excited to correct her. They were only friends, for now at least. 
The day had come when Dean would arrive, he called saying he’d arrive around 1 pm. That means they woke up at 5 am to clean everything twelve times again, and run to the store to get actual food and ingredients, so as to not force Dean to eat fast food and microwave meals.
With their grocery bags on the counter, half of the food was already put away when there was a knock at the door. I wasn’t even 12 pm, the first thing that passed their mind was that there was no way that it was Dean already. But their feet moved on their own, and the door swung open before they though to check who it was. There a man stood, he was tall with slightly spiked hair, he had a ‘Joey’ from friend’s smile. 
“Sweetheart?” Their voice died in their throat, eyes began to water slightly as they stared at the man that was acting as their platonic caregiver and honestly best friend. Rather than speaking, (Y/N) threw themself into his chest sobbing out of join. 
“Dean… “ was all that managed to excape them, as they clung to him. He clung back seeing the person he came to life made him cry in joy. If anyone asked he would say it was simply allergies.
They sat in the hall and hugged for longer than any two friends should. Neighbors stopped to stare as they walked passed, but Dean and (Y/N) only saw each other. 
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Hey Cece!
O just got around reading (the first part of) your Dean storie & the whole time I was thinking:
"Okay, but what if it turns out, that this is Sam's secret little blog? And they never notice, because Sam is to shy to call and Dean doesn't know he is a regressor. And when they finally find out, it just Klicks and Dean becomes his cg irl. ecause their bond ist just so pure abd strong and he'll always protect his little brother with his life, regressor or not.."
Would it be okay if I write a story like this? Where I take the idea of such an online meeting side but the plot is different. I'd obviously credit you as the source of inspiration!
╰→ (Though, if I write a story, it'll most definitely take a while until I'll get around to finish and share it)
Anyways, love the story and I'm super curious about the second part! <3
Go for it. I’m sure some people would love to read that.
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DEAN PT 2 COMING TOMORROW ONCE IM ON GOOD WI-FI!!!
(Everyone thank college Wi-Fi for the lack of posting)
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age regressor culture is not being able to regress fully so it feels like youre half regressed constantly
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I’m literally fighting my Wi-Fi tooth and nail rn, I have been trying to finish this fan fic 😭
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Would you ever do a rockstar! au?
Yeah, if it fit with the character
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Do you write different Au’s??
I do! I started answering and immediately forgot all AUs.
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Hii, I have a general question.
I noticed that many (if not most?) of your little! reader stories are for fem readers, especially the Stranger things ones. Would it be possible to make more masc or gender neutral ones? (I have seen some gender neutral ones by you, I think those are the best option, because everyone can enjoy them the same).
I really love your stories, but I'm a trans boy and reading the stories from a female perspective can be really triggering for me sometimes.
But I also still want to read the stories because they are soon good :(
I'm not trying to be rude!!
I'd just really like to enjoy more of your stories (and I think other age Regressors might too)
Anyways, really love you stories & I'm sorry if I overstepped!!
Hey,
When I write requests, I write using the pronouns used in the request. When I am writing something not requested, I write using the pronouns I identify with at the time I am writing. This isn't meant to exclude people, it is just because I write for myself. I write what feels affirming to me at that time. And apparently mainly on fem days.
As for writing masc readers, I’m not opposed to writing them. I just don't think I would be able to write a masc reader to the same degree as I do a fem or gn reader. I am an afab genderqueer individual, I have not once in my life experienced a crumb of masculinity lmao
Hope that explained why I write fem readers a lot.
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When do you think you'll be posting the next Dean story? No pressure, I'm just curious :)
I have it half-written, and I’m trying to get it out within the week cause I kinda ignored it for a while.
SO expect it soon, unless I hate it and try to rewrite it.
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Hows the writing going?
Which prompt would you like to know about?
Currently I’m back at college so the writing is going to slow down again, but I’m currently writing 2 prompts.
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