I keep having dreams about performing on stage. I really miss it. But I can’t pick up an instrument because I don’t think I’m good enough. I don’t want the stress to come back. I never wanted to be stressed out by music. College ruined it for me. I’m so sad :(

She Was Red.

Breakup post

When You're Feeling Blue

Red Is Not Your Color

*SH Recovery Theme*

Blue Boy & Golden Girl

“Convincing someone to have sex is the same as manipulation and does not actually count as getting consent.”

― Shahla Khan, Friends With Benefits: Rethinking Friendship, Dating & Violence

Words Can Change Lives

I guess people don't deal with verbal/emotional abv$e daily? I can't wait to move out.

That's probably why I'm so self "critical" ha

Trauma shit :,)

hello august you piece of shit

🐘 I had two break downs today. I couldn’t speak the first time. I kept trying to call out your name while you were walking away (into the kitchen) because I couldn’t bare the thought of losing you or leaving you again. I didn’t want to leave. I never did. And then when you had to go to sleep. I just wanted to be held and the thoughts overtook me. I didn’t want you to go. It scares me. I’m sorry I scared you. It wasn’t my intention. But thank you for always taking care of me.

The Basketball Diaries (1995)

"sometimes I feel like something is chasing me. like there's a madman on a roof that could kill me at any moment, I feel this terrible fear. will I have time to finish the poems that are coming out of my mind?"

Sometimes I want to be isolated from myself

Thinking to myself “I can do whatever I want when I’m 18”

….

Im 20 🙃

i ruined everything // 8.4.2017

fuck yes 42069 babeyyyyy