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i read that you're struggling (i relate) and i ahve been trying to find your ko-fi, but i cant find it anymore?
i nuked everything that had to do with this blog, including the fitting YouTube, Twitter and kofi!
I do struggle and appreciate any financial help, but don't feel like you have to do anything. It's alright!
If you still want to help and donate some, here's my personal kofi: https://ko-fi.com/ruanmaymay
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mentally feeling terrible rn. sorry for all the late responses
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a good friend of mine is on fansly and together we reviewed the pros and cons. funny enough...fansly seems way better for content creators and models so I'll probably be moving over there x) until the time comes, I will keep you updated.
This is also good to let go off cardiophile content completely. A new start. I'd love to see you there :) 💜
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this community is disgusting. sorry you had to go thro that. not just being doxxed, but also the messages with prizes etc.
Thank you for the kind message. 💜
I honestly think in its core, cardiophile community is fine. I've met lovely people here. It's just that due to the sudden extreme attention my content got on all platforms due to me knowing how to promote properly as a content creator, it drew out the weirdos out of their holes and come to me real quick. Rude messages about free stuff, being entitled enough to think you can talk about my prices, insults left and right, dark cardiophilia requests that went too far, etc.
All in all it was a lot which is why, if I do keep making content, it would not be cardiophile content anymore. I'll be honest, I do not even have interest in the topic itself anymore, because when I think about it I have to think about all that has happened - I just wanna distance myself from that.
I would probably tag my content as such for a while on Tumblr promotions for those that were interested in me, but then I'd slowly transition. Probably aesthetic lingerie shootings, behind the scenes stuff, BTS asmr or gaming content, cosplay, stuff like that.
Because, again, women or people in general in underwear is the most normal thing ever and I love feeling pretty in such clothes. These pictures were very fun and I loved setting everything up when I changed my set up. I even bought lights just a couple days ago! :) I can also be myself, use my name and not be this sexualized version of me that tries to be all hot n sexy in the DMs - because I'm not like that AT ALL. And that's amazing. I can show you my real side.
I would probably just promote on IG after a while though. Tumblr anon traumatized me 😂
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oh and for you guys concern: I sold my stuff and I sold it well. some people have the AUDACITY. I'm tired of being nice and considerate :|
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😂😂😂😂 and people ask me why I am entirely fed up with the cardiophile community (not the like 5 nice people I met tho ya cool)
Okay class, let's dissect what is wrong with this.
1. I do not even do content right now and deleted my menu and price list. Where did they find it?
2. The making you feel bad about your prices and lowering yourself is something that you will see a ton of women (and men) struggle with. Type in onlyfans prices and see the masses of women get shamed. You'll get shamed if your photo is $1 or $10. There'll always be someone who say it is wrong.
3. You determine your own worth. Especially in such an industry. When I look up guides, people keep telling others that there are no set prices, you have to come up with it yourself.
4. I personally did look at competitors, but in the niche I was I did not have a lot. Additionally, OF takes 20% AND me being in Europe also had to count in that this was all in USD and would be less in Euro. E.g my $10 Subscription gives me 6,50-7,00€ depending on how strong the Euro is that day. And the higher the prices get, the worse it gets. I roughly lose $10-15 in the higher ranges, thus my prices. If I dont take these prices, I'd work for free
5. I'm being transparent with you here, but any woman seeing this who gets these messages: You don't even have to explain yourself for your prices. This is your body and your time. Only you determine how long content takes.
6. I sold myself in DMs completely naked for 6,50€ and felt awful afterwards. That's like roughly a cup of milk tea. You think this was okay? This was cheap enough? IS IT ENOUGH?!
I'm posting this, because I have been getting these messages over the last couple days and they also put alot into it why I stopped. Also, seeing how many other women are getting these messages just makes me so mad. Who do you think you are?
You know what is really absurd? Telling strangers on the entire and thinking you are right with everything. That is absurd. And at this point I honestly don't even care if this comes from a good place. I'm fed up. Like who? Who asked? WHEN I DO NOT EVEN DO CARDIOPHILE CONTENT ANYMORE WHO ASKED
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Thank you for the kind words!! 🥺❤️
I would like you to continue making cardiophilia content. It was obvious that you are passionate about cardiophilia... it is sad that you already want to make content after what happened to you
Do you also like ASMR? What is the name of your YouTube channel?
I'm sorry, but I won't be returning to the cardiophilia content...I also just posted something about that on OF as well. Not just the doxxing, but a lot about it was not good for my mental health at the near end of it.
My ASMR channel is posted! :)
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I would like you to continue making cardiophilia content. It was obvious that you are passionate about cardiophilia... it is sad that you already want to make content after what happened to you
Do you also like ASMR? What is the name of your YouTube channel?
I'm sorry, but I won't be returning to the cardiophilia content...I also just posted something about that on OF as well. Not just the doxxing, but a lot about it was not good for my mental health at the near end of it.
My ASMR channel is posted! :)
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can we see more 😭😭😭😭😭
nah thats enough T T that's what i'm comfy with
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your ig looked so "aesthetic" when i saw it
awww thank you!! 🩵 yea the whole beige aesthetic etc is my passion. the black and purple here was the only persona thing ig...im like the total opposite i dress like this xd
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Can I ask what you do on your YouTube? :)
I mostly did videos about Genshin Impact and Honkai: Star Rail, like my best friend and I doing funny stuff on there or me pulling for characters. I also did sort of let's plays, because I used to stream. I even had some Resident Evil videos, but I archieved them x)
And on the ASMR channel well...asmr. As someone with anxiety and the whole depression plate, ASMR helped me a ton in the last few years and it's very calming to create it as well :)
May 🩵
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i think ill speak for a lot of people when i say even without cardiophile, seeing a pretty woman in pretty sets is always worth it
ahhh you guys 😭💜
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what's your IG and YouTube? Mych love!
IG is withlove.may, but it is currently private because I am deleting everyone that I do not know and will keep it private. I dont want my normal pictures on some weird ass website.
My gaming YouTube: With love, May
My ASMR YouTube: ASMR with MAY
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Let's band together
I feel like there's been a recent strain of harassment and insensitive morons and scumbags targeting female users like athemisheart (who, btw, is not a cardiophile), m-heart and others. Frankly, it's making my blood boil a little, and these users will soon feel too unsafe to stay on here due to these bastards' selfishness. Some of them are here to promote themselves and need that financial support instead of DMs by absolute fools.
If there's anything we can do, we should do it and do it together. We should start by reporting these self-centered fellow users. This place must be less toxic, female users and the like must feel more safe.
To anyone who sees this post, please reblog it with the name of a user who needs to be reported for harassing you or anyone, along with why and, if possible, the proof that they need to shape up or leave. Otherwise, please give a signal boost.
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why don't you continue making content? Maybe just in lingerie?
I'll be honest that I was considering it. I even talked to some of my most trusted people about it. I'm not new to modelling and lingerie/underwear modelling, so it's something I have fun with and would consider myself fine at.
The thing is...this is cardiophile community, you know? I don't think it would be too interesting if I started posting myself in lingerie with my face on in like semi-professional photoshoots. I don't think this is what people are interested in when they started following me.
After my experience I honestly am uncomfortable nor am I in the mood to create cardiophilia content anymore :/ It just reminds me of what happened and how out of hand the requests and the daily messages got. Nobody wants to read that, even if my content was dark. It used to be a little dark and then went 100% real quick.
again, due to my experience I 100% do not give a damn to be seen in pretty underwear and bra etc. with my face on and it would be refreshing to just be myself, be May who games and is a lil stupid and likes pretty clothes, but this is probably not what everyone wants to see or expects to see, that's the issue :)
But thank you!
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can we somehow support you? whats your paypal? this is awful.
Remember my words at like the first days of me being here? Use the money you wanna send me and yourself good food! :)
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yall make it hard to leave for me shush 🥲
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