Art Break

So I took a break from art for a while because my art wasn't going in the direction of stylization I imagined. So I just kind of glued myself to playing around with my sketchbook. And I realized that being relaxed is the perfect way to start learning anything you are not good at as yet. I think the masters in any craft are the fun lovers who enjoy the ride, the journey to the destination more than the idealized destination itself.

I think art is not just physical work you do with your hands and some pencil crayons. It's so tied into what goes on in your life and how you're coping with that. Your mental and emotional is very connected to your work. You can look at art as a platter while your individuality, your personality, your thoughts, and your entire mindset, are the ingredients that make the beverage in the cup. When that beverage overflows that's what spills into your platter. That is what goes your work, when you overflow when we overflow. The overflow is that symbol of abundance. What do you have in abundance? Let's hope it's a lot of understanding, compassion, and love. That's what I learned.

Here are some recent sketches below. I'm learning about different body types, shapes, shadows, etc. Thank you for reading.

Sad Feelings

Today I just had these sorrowful feelings; no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't shake them off. I think I have an idea why they came up but I don't want to talk about it. I felt so terrible inside that I couldn't put my feelings aside from my work. I just laid on my bed for a while and scrolled Pinterest, it's one of my favorite places to be. Then when I finally had the urge to go to the bathroom, I got up and that's where I saw myself in the mirror. I looked so sad I pacified myself. I needed a hug.

I didn't want to pray about it either because I didn't want to experience the full spectrum of the feelings. I tried to avoid it. But I pulled through and drew something. Nothing extra just some sad heads to express my feelings.

While I was scrolling on Pinterest today I found some helpful posts about head anatomy and thought I'd test them out. So here it is. Then I wanted to play with the head in the middle and so I made her blue. I like it. Which head do you like most?

Also, I wanted to make a quick sketch illustration of the blue head. I didn't have a plan so I just worked with the process and so here it is.

I call it Sad Glow. It's just a quick cut and paste, transfer to another layer, maybe come back and work on it another day kind of thing. I would call it a work in progress but I don't know if I'll ever come back to it so I'm just leaving it as that you know. Well, I'm making a digital sketch book on here so you'll see a lot more posts like these.

Thank you for reading. :)

Who am I?

Hi, I'm a dreaming doer. So, all my life, ever since I been to high school and l laid my eyes on my schoolmates' beautiful artwork, I had a dream and a burning desire to create. I wanted to become an artist. It's still my dream. I also wanted to become a writer. And so I'd write poems in dozens of notebooks and pieces of stories. I drew a lot too, little sketches and doodles here and there. And I told myself I have got to have a plan, but how can I accomplish my dream? The answer is to believe.

So many times, so many things have happened to me, then the logical mind would punish me, which pushed me into believing that I could not accomplish my dreams without having "the this" or "the that" to use. I felt deprived. And you know, therefore, growing up in a financially unstable family conduced a sense of want. What I have observed about the feeling of a sense of lacking or neediness is that it dampens people's sense of creativity. It puts so much pressure on the mind and the body, it steals so much of our vigor from us. So, at this point, I claim and affirm abundance and peace over my life instead of lack and worry.

Therefore I am to create from a place of abundance and share it with others. I've always wanted to become a writer, and I believe I can use this space to creatively accomplish that. You can expect to see a lot of practice pages on here. I'll be exploring and experimenting a lot with digital and traditional art. Don't expect that all I make along the journey be beautiful, but you may expect that the voyage, as it is, will create a wholly beautiful experience.

Thank you so much for reading. High five!