My first release as a beat maker.

“To whom it my concern, I’ve always told myself I want to be more than a beat maker. I want to make more than records that artists approach me to purchase. I’ve always wanted to craft instrumentals that not only artists enjoy making music over top of, but that listeners would enjoy as well. I want to make instrumentals that emcees enjoy kicking’ over top of. But more than that I want to create such an extensive catalogue that your average Hip-Hop head will enjoy putting on an instrumental album and just listen and zone out. I’ve sold beats to rap artists and will continue to do so. The instrumentals you hear on this project are those I saw fit for release, and would be best without vocals laid over top. However, each instrumental is sequenced with one verse and one hook. If you are an artist feel free to cut, loop and sequence however you wish. If you are a listener, enjoy what I’ve put many hours into and leave me some honest feedback. Twitter works best (@RayneGretzky), but I also enjoy getting emails ([email protected]). I’ve decided for this collection, I will charge $10, with the option of paying more if you so choose. Each individual instrumental is $1 also with the option of paying more if you please. I’ve worked hard on all of these so I would appreciate if you would support my craft. If you can not afford my first collection of instrumentals please let me know via email or twitter ([email protected] & @RayneGretzky) and I will send you a .zip file of the collection. All I ask in return is you tweet the link to this collection or post on your fFacebook wall. Your support is appreciated to the nines no matter what form it comes in. I work hard on my craft, a lot of time goes in to the making of. My most important concern is that these will be heard by loving ears. With that being said I hope you enjoy what I’ve created for you. Enjoy. With Love, Rayne Drop”

Finally using the book I bought to write in.

Emotional Outbreak

What's up Tumblr? Been a while hasn't it? Far too long. I come to you this time not to promote music or spew random garbage. But just to let loose. The past few weeks have been the worst but best weeks of my life. I've lost so much, but gained an even deeper inner knowledge of myself. I've changed a lot of things for the better. I've learned that I deeply hate the man I called a father. For everything that he did to me emotionally mentally and physically. I was abused all three types for a solid 14 years. Every single day. And it's fucked me up badly now. To the point I don't know how to respond to the requests of emotional attachment from others. Mainly my ex girlfriend, Katt. She's the most amazing individual that I know. She's so strong. And incredible. I could learn a lot from her. And I have. She packed up our son and left me unexpectedly a few weeks ago. And it still hurts. But I'm recovering and moving on. But what I did to her was unforgivable. And if things don't work out between us I can see why. She became neglected after our son was born. I would get mad if she went out because of girls I've dated in the past who would go out and cheat on me. And just hang me out to dry completely. Even though I know she would never do such a thing. Just those past experiences fucked me up so bad. If she said she would be home at a certain time she always was. Within a few minutes. Never late. And if she was she had good reason. We would fight and argue a fair amount. Over pointless issues. And they would get dragged on and on because I always had to be right. I don't though. I would get mad because she talked to her ex boyfriends. I'm the jealous type. But I knew in the back of my head that at the end of the day. She was crawling into bed to sleep and cuddle up to me. Not them. So if we do work things out. No more getting mad over who she talks to. Because I've learned to trust. Especially her. She's such a perfect individual. She's not scared to dye her hair funky colors. And wear things I wouldn't even dream of wearing. I admire her so much for that. She's brave. And she's recently learned to stand up for herself and not take shit. I can't blame her for that. I unintentionally made her a doormat. In turn, if she is to become my wife. I will put her on a pedestal. She will be the only one I ever have eyes for. She wanted to get married so bad. So I went out and bought a ring recently for when things are worked out and I feel comfortable asking her. I always told her I didn't believe in marriage. I do. Very much so. But I was scared to. Because of what those other girls out me through. When I was ring shopping I went out the first night. And picked one. That I know is absolutely perfect for her. And she'll love it if she ever sees it. It's absolutely amazing. The perfect ring for the perfect girl. After picking out that one, I went out and looked at a few others. I liked them, but something about then didnt scream "KATT!" Like the one i originally picked. So I went with that one. And believe me when I say that price did not matter. I pulled some strings and made it work. So I've got the ring. Now I just have to wait. But I know that she will shit her pants when she sees it. Another reason I told her that I didn't believe in marriage is because of my upbringing. The marriage my parents had. I was scared we would end up like that. But we wouldn't. We've been through so much together. We found out Katt was pregnant after only being together for 6 months. I couldn't have been happier to have knocked up the perfect girl to raise our child. She is the best mother ever. She handles everything so much better than me. She was strong in the hospital from the very start to the end. And it was well worth the wait. 9 months of her carrying a child inside her. My son, Rayne. And as soon as he popped out, I burst into tears. Hugged Katt and said "we did it". We did it. Ill never forget that moment ever. My body went numb. I almost passed out. The doctor actually made me go sit in the bathroom for a minute so I didn't knock my head on something if I passed out. I ran from being a father for the past year. Now when I have Rayne on weekends I have no choice but to face those fears I have. I didn't run from being a father because I don't love my son. He is the best thing to ever happen to me. But I was scared I would end up being the monster that I called father for so long. I said this to Katt one day In a conversation, "Fear is the one emotion that conquers all no matter how incredible they are, it results in holding you back from everything you deserve in life." I let my fears of turning into the man I hate so much hold me back from having everything I want. Not only did it hold me back. But it held her back as well. All she wanted was a ring and a dress. And a small wedding. My own fears prevented us both from moving on to the next chapter if our life together. I've wished, prayed and hoped I can correct things. All I wish is that she realizes that she is perfect the way she is. Head to toe. Every scar to every blemish. I don't want a disgustingly skinny, perfect 10 model. You know those pornstar models you see on TV. I want my beautiful, curvy, intelligent, not scared to do anything wear funky clothes, stretch mark having from earning her stripes (my tiger), Katt. I've got the ring, I've gotten over my fears and past issues of neglect and abuse, my jealousy will come in time. She needs her time and space, but the question is, when do I ask ? Because this ring is far too beautiful for someone else to go into the store (if I have to return it) and put it in anyone else's finger. Thanks for listening Tumblr. Appreciate it.

Yes i do.  To You.  More than anything in the world.

I WANT TO GET MARRIED

and I know you don’t

gahhh!

Will anyone take a moment to read this?

This is my brother Mikey.

He has autism, and his birthday party is tomorrow.

My parents and I love my brother so much, I just wished other people felt the same way.

His birthday parties with relatives have never spent time with him or given him a gift. As if he didn’t understand.

His best friend (who was paid) never came back to see him since the summer …

and since then, we’ve been trying to find him new friends to hang out with.

My mom starts crying because she wants the best for her boy.

Most people don’t want to be friends with someone who’s “too different”… but I want to challenge this.

I want to show my mom and my brother how much people care about him.

He’s not going to have a big party like most would at 17, I will be thanking God if three people show up.

But could you spare a post on your blog for him?

I know someone out there thinks he’s worth it.<3

The Last Living Lyricist, Mer is back at it with more nasty bars for true fans of lyricism.

The Last Living Lyricist, Mer decided to go OFF once again.  Check out this weeks segment of verses.

The Last Living Lyricist, Mer drops a quick freeverse for the cameras.  Aspiring rappers take notes.

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Yo,

     It's been a long minute since I put something up here.  This is a little something me and the dude Mer did off our upcoming EP.  It's called "The Phantom Hand"  

     You may recognize the melody to the sample as a joint Drake did.  "I get money, I get paper" etc etc.  Seeing as how we're not all big ballin cry babies like Drake (see #DrakeCriesWhen trending topic on twitter).  Mer and I decided to put down a little some some over this joint.  

     N'joy.

Been a minute...

I'm sorry I don't use this enough.  Lots of new stuff coming though !   That is all.

I hate this piece of literature with all my heart.  But it hit home with me.  So I'm posting it in.  I hope it makes you feel something too.

secretglitterlovesong:

Hi, Mommy. I’m your baby. You don’t know me yet, I’m only a few weeks old. You’re going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I’ve got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don’t have it yet, but I will when I’m born....

Had to

Serial killers do on a small scale what governments do on a large one. They are a product of the times and these are blood thirsty times. Even psychopaths have emotions if you dig deep enough. But then again maybe they don't

Richard Ramirez

Drake - Headlines (Produced by Boi-1da)

     Anyone who knows me knows I'm a Drake fan.  This video here is just plain nuts though.  Most rappers take the tops off their cars.  Drake took the top off Skydome

Miracle - Hot Water (Produced by Classified)

     This is one of my favourite joints out right now.  Miracle, one of the east coast's strongest spitters releases his debut video "Hot Water".  Produced by the homie Classified, the two are dynamic together.  Lets hope for more.

Enjoy.

RK Parx - Mile High Remix

     I've been sitting on this acapella for a minute now.  Waiting for the right beat to put it to. And I've recently come up with this.

Mile High (Rayne Drop Remix)

Enjoy.