Will I always be alone in this house? Reading books that are too hard for me in the long fatherless hours?

let your dad die energy drink - daniel lavery and cecilia corrigan/bob’s burgers, 2011/family line - conan gray/@parentless-suggestions/promises of gold - jose olivarez/unknown/dna - lia marie johnson/unknown/part of me never left that house - mada hayyas/unknown/father - demi lovato/franz kafta/unknown/primer - aaron smith/family line - conan gray/untitled - frank wright

***sorry for all of the unknowns on this one. I really do try to find the sources for everything but I kept coming up empty w these. If you know the sources pls comment/send me an ask or dm and lmk!!

Girlblogging but In a closeted trans guy way (I still have to live life (hell) as a teen girl)

There’s something so beautiful about self destruction

There’s something so beautiful about self destruction

to whoever invented zero cal soda, i pray that both sides of your pillow are cold every night 🫶🏼

they said it’d get better, it’s been years and it’s still the same

toxic parents will traumatize you and act surprised when you act like you've been traumatized

Childhood neglect and abandonment may show up in different ways in us. We may realize we find it hard to watch movies in which caregivers show up for their child in ways we couldn't experience; we try to overwork for others and show how good and worthy and helpful we are so that they won't leave us (we feel unlovable or unworthy in first place); we have troubles setting boundaries, even s3xual ones, cause we fear disappointing the other (we second guess our own feelings and voice); we overshare very soon in our relationships about our tough experiences (and rarely exaggerate them too) in order to have the other feel sorry about what happened to us and care for us; we label ourselves as too needy, too much, too damaged cause we believe nobody will ever love us, and what many people experience in their romantic life will never happen to us; to cope with our pain, we may start fantasizing about being saved from danger or just be surrounded by people that care for us the way we want them to.

We may end up believing these past painful experiences are the only possible life for us and become disconnected and emotionally unstable, even if the truth is that we're worthy of healthy relationships and love, and what we had to go through wasn't our fault. We're so much more than what we were made to believe, we're deserving of people staying and showing up for us (and we should allow ourselves to experience that too, without trying to -unwillingly- manipulate others into doing that).

(source - morganptherapy on instagram)

part of knowing me is watching me self-destruct. you cannot save me, you cannot fix me, and you cannot stop me.

omg food scales are so cheep this is dangerous

Can we please for the love of god stop telling teenagers they’re too young to have aches and pains. Can we please stop being dismissive about these things. Fakeclaiming is disgusting period, but it is exponentially harmful to youth. Just because you didn’t start hurting until your 20s or 30s or 40s doesn’t mean every teenager complaining of chronic pain must be lying. I learned the hard way that if kids are invalidated enough about this, they will just learn to accept constant pain as a fact of life. And then they will need surgery they can’t afford in ten years bc it turns out constant pain is NOT a fact of life. At any age.

p.s. same goes for mental health

hypersexuality isn’t a cute new sexuality that makes you sexual all of the time.

it’s a miserable trauma response that makes you sick of your body and your mind.

CW for upsetting thoughts about hypersexuality.

thinking of the ways you should be taken advantage of by people you’re friends with and would never want to think of sexually.

thoughts about your teachers, parents, aunts, uncles, grandparents, family friends. people you would never want to touch you like that.

being convinced you’re only worth anything if they want to have sex with you or that the only valid form of affection/love is sex.

seeking out people who you know will only pay attention to you for sex, who only want things from you for sex or sexual favors, even if you don’t actually want to do these things.

being unable to even have flashbacks in peace because here comes the wave of being horny even though you’re upset and now you want to rip your body apart more.

wanting to apologize to your partner after a fight by giving sexual favors to make sure they still love you.

curling up in a ball on your bedroom floor and sobbing because the ache in the pit of your stomach won’t go away but you’re not in the mood because all you can think about is what happened to make you this way.

I feel like my body is forcing me to have an ed (none of my food will stay down lol)

Do you ever crave attention so badly that you start to shake like a withdrawal symptom because that's me right now

bpd math :

slight change in the tone of their voice = they hate me and wish i was dead