The other side of Hell

So, I haven’t been on here in quite some time. I never did have much of a need for it, truth be told, but I loved that it served as an escape for my thoughts, when I didn’t want to share them elsewhere. So I’m back for one moment, Tumblr. Just to say that life is really fucking good. Let me tell you, last year was hell. Miserable, horrifying, hell. Primarily stemming from my boyfriend’s dad having terminal cancer. He was a fantastic, strong, human, and watching him deteriorate was hard enough for me, and I still miss him, even only knowing him for three years. But watching the toll it took on Chris was harder than I ever could have imagined. And let me tell you, Tumblr, something like that can have drastic impacts on a romantic relationship. That, combined with struggling to find a career, and struggling to find my independence, created the most stressful and heart wrenching year of my entire life. But the funny thing about times like these is that you either go down in a ball of flames or come out stronger than ever before. I’m not going to pretend that the former didn’t nearly happen more than once. But what matters is once we got to the other side, we emerged incredibly strong and in a better place than we have ever been in the now 3 ½ years that we’ve been together (kinda like Daenarys, ya know, when she was unburnt and whatnot, except without the dragons). I am so incredibly in love with this man that I often can’t believe how I got here. I still get butterflies from his kisses, and miss him soon after he leaves. And to have that kind of love returned is more than I ever could’ve imagined. So, blog world, all one of you that may happen to accidentally read this, just know that shit happens. Life is disastrously unpredictable. But if you have the right person or people to help get you through, it makes all the difference in the world. Awful situations give you the power to ultimately transform into your final, badass form. Anyway, like I said, I’m mainly posting this to myself because I’m so thankful and so proud of how all of this has ended up. Stay unburnt, friends.

Off to see Blink!

I miss you the most. Ugggg

Less than a month until I get to be in the same room with all the most important people in my life on my birthday! I get to see my best friend again and my Dean and everyone and omg it’s gonna be the best birthday ever I miss everyone so much run on sentence. @xavierscribbles @michellemarie43

Less than a month until I get to be in the same room with all the most important people in my life on my birthday! I get to see my best friend again and my Dean and everyone and omg it's gonna be the best birthday ever I miss everyone so much run on sentence. @xavierscribbles @michellemarie43

Us

You're broken, scarred, and hopeless. Left behind, left in the dust, left for dead. You're lost. You're defeated. You're exploited, used, and abandoned. You're living each day in an inescapable darkness or a monotonous existence in which you find no meaning. You're insecure. You're alone. But you're not alone. You're beautiful. You're humanity. You...are us.

Maleah

Gender: Female

Pronunciation: ma-LEE-a; MA-lee-a

Origin: English variant of the name Malia

Meaning: Possibly meaning beloved; Calm; Queen

Ranking in the US top 1000: #684, 2014 (see past rankings)

Invincible

She was invincible. Not in the mortal sense, for she was quite aware that death would take come for all of us, someday somehow. Yet, death set its sights in another direction. For she was full of life. Endless life. There was a flame flickering in her emerald eyes. Unknown by many, underestimated by most, inextinguishable by the strongest storm. Her existence was one not meant for her alone, but for others to partake. Others who would find their way into her heart, would become her heart, knew not the power they had over her. Just as she did not know the power she had over them. They, an opportunity to disappoint, deconstruct, or destroy her. She, the chance to propel those in her heart further than they ever thought possible. She was kindness. She was beauty. She was love. She IS kindness. She IS beauty. She IS love. She. Is invincible.

@peaceloveandemonblood remembering my friends back home. Couldnt ask for better ones.

“Dean and I do share a more profound bond” :3 -Cas Commission for @marimbachick515. Few commission slots still open so hit me up!  ***Facebook***Instagram***Deviantart***Twitter

@peaceloveandemonblood @marimbachick515 But Adam though…

***Facebook***Instagram***Twitter***Deviantart***

Adam. Never forget. @adamisstillinthepit @adamwinchesters @michellemarie43

@peaceloveandemonblood @marimbachick515 But Adam though…

***Facebook***Instagram***Twitter***Deviantart***

@xavierscribbles

This is how I like to imagine Jesse ends up one day…fucked up beyond belief, but somehow in some way…happy.

Hey everybody, I’m opening up some commissions and I’m super excited about it! Don’t be shy, now. Let me know if you’re interested!

10 years ago today, Kingdom Hearts 2 dropped.  You could say I liked it, at least a little bit.  Facebook***Instagram***Deviantart***Twiiter

Great White Shark Photo Credit: (Antti Viitala)

The photographer deserves credit so DO NOT remove credit information. Thank you.