My self esteem is so low but I still feel like I'm better than everyone else and that I have to be The Best to be worthy of even breathing

ya ever be like confident as hell to all the people bellow u but someone who is superior comes by and your turned into an akward mess and it makes u Furious

Not sure if this is NPD: whenever I see someone who is successful and around my age I get jealous. My natural drive is to be better than them, scratch that, better than everyone. I surround myself with people who I know are beneath me, and people who I know I am better than. I have this mentality that says, "why aspire to be like someone, or be jealous, when you can just be better?" Often I ignore my own flaws and ignore the feelings of people around me.

this sounds like something an npd can experience, but i think that other cluster b's can feel this too.

you're nothing without me, and i am nothing without you.

my thoughts on success or the possible outcomes of literally anything are so vivid and intense that i tend to lose myself completely in them. for a moment, it seems all of those good things are real, and then i find that those fantasies are my only true happy moments.

I have this bad tendency to feel alone a lot, but ignore my friends when they aren't talking about something good enough imo, or something I'm not at all interested in.

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I don't know if this is an npd thing or if it's just me, but if I see someone who I feel is superior to me, I immediately try to befriend them (in a way that appears incredibly nonchalant/like I don't really care too much as I hate to be seen as desperate) and get close to them? Then once I'm close I take advantage of their flaws and improve myself so that I'm better than them?? And I have them wanting approval from me??? Like does anyone else do this?

this seems very npd, but i think it is also seen somewhat in aspd. either way, i can relate deeply.

is it possible for this to be a part of my npd? i view being The Most Mentally Ill/Suffered The Most as something that makes me special/unique, as something that makes me Better than others. and whenever i meet someone who i feel challenges that, its literally The Worst and i feel horrible and i need to convince myself/reassure myself that im even more Mentally Ill or been through more Suffering. like idk i just wanna hear your thoughts, could this possibly be an npd thing? is it unheard of?

i get those feelings too, but i think it's more of a general cluster b thing rather than being exclusively npd. best of luck.

Hi. I have a reoccuring issue. I play competitive video games and I have the constant need to always be the best and impress. If I don't do this, I'll get pissed off and feel like no one likes me, and I will not be satisfied until I do good. Is still related to NPD? I feel like if I'm good at it, I will get respect and be loved. If not? Worthless.

if it's just with video games i can't really say it's much of an indicator of npd. the disorder also has many other symptoms like a lack of empathy, among others.i'd probably rule it out as intense competitiveness, but i'm not a doctor. best of luck though.

As someone with borderline personality disorder, I seem to be attracted to narcissists both as friends and for potential relationships. Is this something you've heard of before or common? I've always been curious on why I'm like this.

i know that people with cluster B's sometimes tend to be attracted to each other but i'd have to know more about what you find in them as attractive to have more of an input. i'm sure it's not anything bad though!

to be honest, while my npd makes me apathetic to most people i still somehow seem to want to support and be happy with other npd people.

the place where i used to love now only hold rage and bitterness in my heart.

Hey there, i would like to know whether you or any other ppl with npd ever tend to ignore a friend (to the extent of acting like they dont exist) when you are around people who you consider a bit more higher on the social ladder (does this make sense?) but get pissed/feel unwanted when the friend does the same to you? is this common for people with npd? thanks for taking the time to answer

yes, i tend to do that a lot!

henlo! do you believe ppl w npd can be abusers?

anyone can become an abuser. npd people are just more susceptible to not knowing what the boundaries are.

tfw you make a relatable post that gets popular but now you're upset bc you're not Special And Unique anymore

i'm so tired of literally everyone except for my partner why don't people just Stop

I feel kind of bad that I never care about losing my friendships; I only ever care about them spreading ill of me.