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noraigo · 15 days

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my roman empire, if you ask me

We Best Love: Fighting Mr. 2nd | S02E01

Taiwanese Drama - 2021, 6 episodes

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noraigo · 4 months

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When The Goo Goo Dolls said “I’d give up forever to touch you,” “you’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be” and when Hozier said “the only heaven I’ll be sent to is when I’m alone with you” and when Taylor Swift said “I would fall from grace just to touch your face” and when Hozier said “if I could hold you for a minute, I’d go through it again,” “I would not change it each time, heaven is not fit to house a love like you and I” and when Hozier said “I slithered here from Eden just to sit outside your door” and when George Ezra said “is the grass of Eden overrated? No one else is such a beautiful dream to me” and when Big Thief said “no love is like this, no sacrifices” and when Jeff Buckley said “my kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder,” “all my riches for her smile,” “all my blood for the sweetness of her laughter” and when Johnny Cash said “you can have it all, my empire of dirt”

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noraigo · 4 months

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can we please talk about jiang yuelou and chen yuzhi?

if you told me a couple of months ago that i wouldn't get over a series about a hot-tempered policeman and a gentle doctor, i wouldn't have believed you. however, here i am and i cannot fathom the fact that this series is so underrated. the chemistry, the whole plot, the characters: chen yuzhi, jiang yuelou, chu ran, yu tangchun, among many others, are so well-built and i think that just for this, it deserves more recognition.

BUT, i’m solely here to talk about these two. can we appreciate how beautiful their relationship is? i am aware that they fall under the bromance trope, but you cannot convince me they are merely close friends, not when the whole series is based on a bl novel. although they start off a bit hostile (i know, i know), the evident infatuation jiang yuelou develops towards chen yuzhi and vice versa is so romantic. he finds everything the doctor does endearing, from his quiet surprises to the way he’s always trying to help him psychologically. yuelou suffers emotionally due to his bipolar disorder, with violent outbursts and unstability that makes him throughout the series, you get to know that yuelou is not the kind of person to seek help, that he would rather confront everything by himself than ask guidance. yet, somehow — he always comes to yuzhi when he’s uneasy or confused. it’s not a secret in the police bureau either, song rong and sun yongren (the most loyal characters i’ve seen in a series, i have to say) are pretty much aware of his liking towards yuzhi’s company. even jin dacheng himself insinuated that both of them didn’t have an innocent relationship at all.

the hugs, the touches, THE LOOKS! oh my goodness, their stares were the death of me. i am the kind of person who never skips initial and final credits, so i was very eager to know the hospital scene that happens at the very end of the credits, because i was sure it would become my favourite. i was right and i won’t forget the feeling i was experiencing: the look of relief on yuelou to see yuzhi alive before his eyes, but being on the verge of tears because he knew yuzhi almost didn’t make it? it's a mixture between guilt, relief and love, all in one. absolutely delightful. it’s a repetitive pattern though: yuzhi gets in trouble, yuelou goes crazy and once he’s safe in his arms again, it’s like a part of yuelou’s soul is being reassured that the most important person in his life is alive, safe and sound. because, oh my… in the novel, yuelou considers the doctor his zhī jǐ: a person who understands him deeply no matter what, similar to a soulmate. thanks to an user on tumblr and their translations, i could get to know that, in the audiodrama, yuelou’s feels go beyond platonic. “you’re more significant than friends. people touch you, it’s the same thing as them going after my life.” THIS IS SO RAW AND EMOTIONAL, I’M GOING TO FAINT. the fact that even when yuelou and yuzhi were in danger, as zhan junbai was watching them over, yuelou straight up says: (on my own words, as my memory has been failing me lately)

“is there something between us that can’t be said? we're of the same mind.” i’m so... give me a minute, please *inaudible screams and screeches*

one thing i noticed a lot while watching the series is the fact yuzhi is a very gentle, soft-spoken and intelligent character, which already makes him likable (oh, i LOVE kind-hearted characters) but when you see him through yuelou’s pov — slow motioned movements, timid dimpled smiles, a person whose demeanour is described as pure even — he becomes even more lovable and that’s how yuelou sees yuzhi. how crazy in love yuelou must be to stare at yuzhi while doing mundane things, such as having dinner together? absolutely not focusing on the plate underneath him. instead, grinning with doe eyes as he watches yuzhi looking at the snowy night. ROMANTICISM ON ITS PEAK.

however, for me, the most special thing is to see yuzhi reassuring yuelou by holding his hand so dearly, by hugging him out of relief to see him alive too, by cradling his hand on yuelou’s cheek to brush his tears away. THE ENDING, I CAN’T CONTINUE MY LIFE AND PRETEND NOTHING HAPPENED.

yuzhi is slowly passing away on the other’s arms. yuzhi always wants to be near him and it gets highlighted in his final words, he was too wishing to eat tang yuan with now commissioner jiang yuelou. even on death, he’s under the snow with him. even on death, yuelou’s fondest memories are with chen yuzhi, for he keeps their photo together close to his heart despite grieving his absence and having to take care of yuzhi’s little sister. yuelou simply sits on his home all alone, with the emptiest eyes which once had the entire galaxy shared with yuzhi. not moving, not doing anything. i felt like i was mourning with yuelou, i will never forget how he quietly lays down beside yuzhi’s body while crying his heart out when he realized the inevitable.

WHY? WHY IS THE ANGST SO BRILLIANT WITH THEM? THE LONGING, THE YEARNING, THE LOVE. i’m afraid i won’t enjoy anything that doesn’t remind me of them. there was a before and an after in me, it literally reseted my entire smooth brain.

everyone, go watch killer and healer. 37 episodes are definitely worth the time!

just look at them, i will respectfully combust.

#jiang yuelou #chen yuzhi #killer and healer #yuezhi #im late to the party #i know #but i adore them #long post #bromance #not really #you get the idea #opinion #kind of?#whatever its fine

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noraigo · 8 months

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aziraphale and questions

aziraphale comforts himself at the thought that whatever he does is in order to please God, without really thinking deeply: is it okay? why does the Almighty want me to do this? because he has always been told that Heaven is the good side, Heaven is where people who did good deeds will go. in order to achieve paradise, you need to believe in God and he never thought that even the holiest beings do commit mistakes — as he has seen with crowley's fall who only ever asked questions, questions that aziraphale himself would never dare to.

he can handle being lied to, but not being the one who lies. he can be snitched on, but not being the one who snitches. he won't fight anything that displeases him because, deep inside, he is quite a comformist. he would rather live unhappily and see on his own eyes the unfairness than fight it because,

what is one of the most common fears? the answer is God.

he has come to a point where he doesn't respect God as his creator, but out of fear. he doesn't want to admit, for he's scared of what the outcome will be. however, as the supreme archangel, he would have more authority and thus, he would be closer to God but...

what if he uses his position just to ask questions to God in person?

what if he breaks down in front of the Almighty from all the abuse he went through?

what if he asks about the questions that made the love of his entire existence fall and serve Hell?

what if he questions God in person?

because, yes, aziraphale has a lot of uncertainty bottled up that grows further the more he spends on earth. crowley just fuels all those doubts and makes him think if there's truly a good side like aziraphale tries to believe. deep inside, he knows that those questions cannot be answered by no one else but God.

crowley had questions, but aziraphale has them too. both of them want answers, yet how?

do i deserve to be mistreated by your own creations?

do i deserve to not be happy with crowley?

do i deserve not being helped?

do i deserve to not have your misericordy?

am i really a traitor?

what is actually my purpose?

will my existence not last forever too?

it's not that he has anything to lose amymore — he has already lost the creator of his own concept of stars. he would face the consequences of such a decision with little to no remorse at this point, even if that means erasing his whole existence from the book of life.

may you be forgiven for asking questions, aziraphale.

#good omens #aziraphale #crowley #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #i was thinking too much #i need season 3 now #in my angst era #i should write this #i just needed to get this out

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noraigo · 8 months

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favorite pictures i've taken hozier + tamino </3 missing them

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noraigo · 8 months

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TAMINO Sunflower (Official Video)

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noraigo · 8 months

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aziraphale and crowley as songs:

(all songs are listed below the lyrics, enjoy.)

"i've known a different kind of love,

the kind that makes you whole,

a place where roots have grown."

a different kind of love — ghostly kisses

"if i could go back to a time before now,

before i ever fell down,

go back to a time when i was just a girl,

when i had the entire world

wrapped around me."

a lot's gonna change — weyes blood

"so i'll wait for you, love,

and i'll burn.

will i ever see your sweet return?

oh, will i ever learn?

oh-oh, lover, you should've come over."

lover, you should've come over — jeff buckley

"you loved me for a moment,

you did,

and i die to stay here.

i can still taste

the memory of you on my tongue."

ascension — sarah kinsley

"there's a place inside my mind

where you and i can dance.

endlessly, you hold on to me

and for the first time in a long time,

i'm, i am whole."

the end. — november ultra

#good omens #aziraphale #crowley #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #i was having a moment #i'm so sad because of them

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noraigo · 8 months

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there is something so precious and saddening with the way aziraphale touches crowley and the reason is really as simple as wanting to love like a human.

an angel, who has repressed his emotions and pleasures to serve God, ends up finding the desire to feel mundanity: from eating, oh those delicious meals, to craving the skin from his most loving sin crowley, so many decades, hundreds, thousands of years on earth and, what do these two find the most fascinating? exactly, human love. however, it seems that aziraphale has found something so enchanting about human touch.

that's why every time he finds a moment, he delights himself by touching crowley, caressing him, holding his hand and grabbing his shoulder. it's not a simple act of love, it's the fact that he recognises his deep love for crowley with those actions because, curiously, he doesn't touch nor lets him be touched by anyone else who is not crowley.

yet crowley seems to restrict himself from touching aziraphale because he knows what it could cause and always composes himself - which contrasts with aziraphale's character. even so, this doesn't happen with their dance. for the first time, he reciprocated that act of love to the point he ached for intertwining his fingers with aziraphale. however, what crowley didn't know is that he woke up on aziraphale a more carnal desire with that first and last kiss.

two acts of love melt at the same moment.

aziraphale could live being the one who started physical touch but, how is he supposed to continue with his existence knowing that he has tasted something more pleasurable, more intimate such as crowley's lips? feeling crowley's mouth on his in a desperate act to which aziraphale could only reciprocate back with poor attempts of slow caresses.

how is he supposed to be a supreme archangel if he can only think of crowley touching him for the first time in millions of years? if his fingertips unconsciously run his lips to recreate that kiss? is that the human love he always read in his books?

that's when he realized that human love is more than just a mere act. it's like the flames of hell took over aziraphale's holy self and burnt him with no pain because, definitely, there is no sweeter innocence than their sin.

if nothing lasts forever, then just touch me once more. kiss me once more so i don't forget how your skin had once felt on mine. just like real people do.

#good omens #aziraphale #crowley #i'm in my feels #aziracrow #no thoughts head empty #i love them #ineffable husbands #shoutout to my loveliest friend

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noraigo · 2 years

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