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ninestr-blog · 6 years

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*Here's the updated version. I was too sleepy to proofread. I mean, it was 3am.

It's been weeks since I officially graduated from DLSU, but it's just been days since my official graduation picture was taken. As the non-conformist that I am, I planned not to write a lengthy post unlike most people. Well, at least not on facebook or instagram. But, here I am again, breaking my own rules again. Anyway, here it is:

And that's a wrap. My journey in DLSU has come to an end.

I owe all of these to my parents, and most importantly to God. Thank you De La Salle University for shaping me as the young woman that I am today. The things I've learned during my stay are worth more than the tuition I paid. I am grateful that I singlehandedly experienced the high quality education I expected from this school, and for the morals and mindset that this institution carved into my personality. DLSU lives up to its reputation as one of the most prestigious universities in the country and I never regretted to be a part of it, a part of the LaSallian community.

I'm most grateful to our God, the Father, for making me extremely blessed; for the things that I have now that I used to pray for every night and more; for the answered prayers that I ended up receiving more than I deserve; for giving me the chance to experience my dream school, wherein most people only dream of attending; and most importantly, for making me be blessed enough to be surrounded by the best people.

I am blessed to have the best parents.

No words of gratitude would ever suffice on showing how thankful I am to my parents for being at my side throughout my entire journey. Both of these two have witnessed how hard I cried for getting a low grade in any school work, and rejoiced with me when I did well in some. I am more than aware of how hard my parents worked, and the sacrifices that had to make for me to be in here, and I intend on not wasting their time and hard-earned money.

Unlike most of the students enrolled there, I was not born with a silver spoon in my mouth. However, growing up, my parents did not make us feel that we're lacking things. They have always provided us with great stuff that money can never buy. It made me and my brothers fulfilled. They did all of these on their own, with a little help from great people of course. I am grateful for those people too, for helping my parents all these years.

Now, it's two decades later and they're witnessing their eldest graduating in one of the most prestigious schools in the country, and soon witness their second born graduating from senior high. Also for their youngest to have exceeded everyone's expectations. They are blessed with a close, loving family. They are financially capable of being able to afford a little luxury. This is definitely a step up compared to our situation before. Everyday, we thank God for all of these. I thank God for finally letting my parents reap more than they deserve.

I am blessed to have dane.

My best friend, who although gave me quite a headache countless times (as many times as I had given him) he'd still be there. My love, thank you for aligning your values and visions with my parents' and for making me feel more than loved; for tirelessly listening to every little thing that's going on in my life. You're my hawser, reeling me back in to achieving my goals, dreams and aspirations; for not making me settle for less. You've counteracted every insecure thought that went through my mind. And also, helping me with schoolworks- heh. You see the world in me and believed I can I achieve greater things. You're a low-key parent, who keeps an eye on me every time I skip meals and fails to take care of my health. I love you, hun. Off to our new chapter.

I am blessed to have my friends, the old and new ones.

In DLSU, I have made tons of friends and some, I intend to keep as besties forever. They, along with those I made friends with just by sitting next to them in different classes without ever knowing what their names were, thank you. Thank you for lending me notes when I fail to attend classes, for including me in your friendship circle, and most especially for writing my name down on the attendance sheet when I was not even there. You have introduced me to a new world and I've learned great new things from you. But the thing I'm most thankful you for is the patience and understanding every time I revert back to my introvert self and skip drinking with you. And, I also appreciate and thank the old ones who I still get to hang out with. You guys, remind me to look back from where I came from, and keep my feet on the ground. You keep me grounded.

To my crushes (actually, there was only one) that made my long distance relationship a little complicated, thank you. *laughs* I'm always present every time you're assigned to report that day, and I enjoy seeing you outside our room when you're too bored to listen to the lecture and decides to hang outside with your phone on instead, while I'm on my way to the comfort room. I just hate it when you skip classes to do happy Thursdays. Kidding.

Now that I have expressed gratitude towards the people I love, I wanna be a lil mean (and bitter)

I'm allowed to be bitter here because no one will ever read this, I think.

To those people, especially teachers back in high school (some of them atleast, some of them were the best!) who were more than surprised that I got into a university as prestigious as this, those who believed I will not finish college and bear a baby at an early age, also to those who looked down on me, my middle finger goes to you. But still, I thank you for igniting my inner motivational fire to prove all of you wrong.

To the friends I used to have, who I have lost along the way, I hope you're all doing well and I wish nothing but the best for you. It may be unfortunate that I may not take you to the next chapter of my life, and we might start treating each other as strangers unlike before, I'd still thank the heavens for letting me meet you. God let you walk out of my life because you have achieved your purpose and there's no reason for you to stay anymore; a part of whatever reason you left made me who I am today, and I thank you for that. I wish you the best. In everything.

And to the people who have made my life a little bit harder, those who think I'm not smart enough, or worthy enough, or ugly enough, no words can describe how much I dreadfully hate you. Why are you even still alive. But still, thanks for making my life a little bit difficult. It just made me strive to be better.

*the curtain call.

Words of gratitude would never be enough to thank DLSU for all the wisdom and for the memories I've made for the past years of being a La Sallian. Thank you for the training wheels. Now, I'm ready to conquer the real world. The new chapter awaits me and my future did begin in De La Salle University indeed!

11348887 officially signing off 😊

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ninestr-blog · 6 years

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Dane and I often get asked how we survived the past five years despite being apart for so long during the early years of our relationship.

It wasn’t easy. It was definitely far from easy.

But I guess, it had to be, I guess, trust? There were more downs than ups during the course. He had his fair share of liking other people, I had them too. But we had to keep convincing ourselves that going through all of that were worth it, we’re worth it. He started comparing me to other girls, I did the same–mine even worse. But we got through it.

It was an LDR thing, I guess. But what we liked about it was that we get to spend time on other things and not just on each other. We were given time to find ourselves alone. It was hard, but it was good–fulfilling.

And we never say forever.

It kind of jinx-es the whole thing. We try to avoid future plans before, because it puts pressure on our minds. At first it was just me, but when the *spark* has gone and we’re not at the early stage anymore, he felt it too. At least, that’s what I know. Then, a little later we ditched the thought of including ourselves in the future plans altogether. It was not fun. We were like this text buddies and all that, but nothing more. It felt like every “I love you’s” were forced and something that we don’t really mean. And even started liking other people. Between the two of us, he tried forcing what we had despite the fact that we weren’t happy anymore not because he still loves me, it’s just at that time, that seemed to be the right thing to do. I chose to just give up–I hate forcing everything. We both accepted that we’re not gonna be in each others’ lives eventually and everything else–were forced.

But I guess, that’s just the thing about long distance relationships, or maybe, relationships in its full form. Kinda tricky and exhausting. But I really love him, kind more than i hate to admit.

Five years is still a short period of time, and we both know it’s never gonna get any easier the next time, but if he’s willing to keep this thing going, why not. He’s knows too much about me anyways and I kinda wanna marry him, maybe after nine years.

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