When your dad wants to make sure that you'll be okay moving thousands of miles away to live on an island, & you reply "of course! I'll have so much support!" 😭 You were right! #dadknowsbest #whatsupport #iwanttogohome #dontbelonghere #goingthroughthemotions #whatisworklifebalance #nosociallife #mentalhealthstigma #cantbemyself #whathaveidone #nezumityler #nezumiblue (at Honolulu, Hawaii) https://www.instagram.com/p/CoVZG41y8ob/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Alooooooohhhaaaa!🌈🌺🌴🍍❤️ We're on our way to a new adventure! Humans, doggie, & ratties, too! Damn, I didn't expect to get so emotional...😅🥲❤️ Don't forget to come visit ... Seriously! Always a spot for you❤️🍍🌴🌺🌈⭐ @mehaligirl @k.j.bach @madam_cobweb80 @lasher33 @jesserhunt @makrock808 @roxtro #moving #calitohawaii #alaskaairlines #movingwithpets #flyingwithpets #petfriendly #ratfriendly #newchapter #movetohawaii #newbeginnings #aloha #extendedohana #missyoucalifornia #familysupportfamily #nezumityler #nezumiblue (at LAX, Los Angeles) https://www.instagram.com/p/Ch5JUGppZ0c/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

So proud of the most amazing & talented @engrooveshop & her entrepreneurial spirit! She not only encompasses an unbridled, raw artistic talent, but her craftsmanship is unparalleled. Not to mention her true dedication to her customers & her craft. Congratulations on your new endeavors, @roxtro! So proud of you & can't wait to see more of your amazing creations🍍🌴🌈🌺 #Repost @let.repost #smallbusiness #supportlocal #supportwomenentrepreneurs #customengraving #engrooveshop #woodworking #hawaii #oahucrafts #nezumityler #nezumiblue https://www.instagram.com/p/Ch3BEYGvRnM/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Knock knock ... No one's home! Storage unit has been vacated. Now it's my turn to get vacat...ioned. Permanently. That happened quick. Then again, I just sat & played Bejeweled while the awesome dudes at Mammoth Movers did all the work ... & had some damn good tunes playing. I have no complaints. T-minus 5 days until Hawaii!🌈🌴🌺❤️🍍 @makrock808 @roxtro @jesserhunt #movingnpacking #hiremovers #mammothmovers #mammothmoving #santabarbara #goleta #publicstorage #byecalifornia #nezumityler #nezumiblue (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/ChsqV66Pz56/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Yesterday was a crazy day. Lots of moving, packing, shopping, & tears, because we had to say goodbye to our little man, Wolfie🌈 Mixed up (but not forgotten) in all this chaos was Queen Penelope the First. This sweet golden lady celebrated her (unofficial) birthday yesterday ... the same day that her brother left this plane of existence. It's a double doozy day where @jesserhunt & I are now able to honor the lives of two very special little furbabies (but celebrating their lives in two different ways ... a birthday & a transition day)🥲 Penelope didn't get cake, she didn't get a party, but she was present for a very special moment. She watched quietly from the couch, said her simple goodbye, & sat on the couch to comfort us as we cried (which also does get extra belly rubs)❤️ She's a strong, loyal, & protective little chug. We're just so lucky to have her, & I can't wait for her to experience her new life in Hawaii🌴 Happy belated birthday, Ms. Leo! We love you so much! (& No, I'm not upset that you ate the dinner which was meant for your ratty siblings. & yes, you can sleep in bed with us tonight😘) #happybirthday #dogsofinstagram #dogbirthday #belatedbirthday #chugsofinstagram #chugglesofinstagram #chihuahuasofinstagram #chihuahuapug #queenofgoleta #queenpenelope #penpen #olderyoungersister #leo #petsofinstagram #newadventures #smallbutmighty #chihuahua #chuglife #santabarbara #goleta #pawrent #nezumiblue #nezumityler (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/ChZIHsNOwpD/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Rest in peace, little dude. We were blessed with your cranky quirky presence for 8 years. You were the master of blanket hiding & transforming into a wolf-a-rito burrito.🌯 We wish you could've made it to Hawaii with us, but you would've hated the airplane ride...but you know, you got to Hawaii before we did! 🌈 We'll see you over the Rainbow bridge, little buddy. Sorry if I ever accidentally sat on you...you were just so good at hiding!😅 If I'm ever standing somewhere & stumble on air, I know that it's you standing behind me. I love you, Wolfgang Stewart! @jesserhunt @adobeanimalhospital @vetshere @roxtro @k.j.bach @makrock808 #rainbowbridge #wolfie #wolfgangstewart #wolfiethewonderpup #chorgi #chorgisofinstagram #chihuahua #petsofinstagram #dogsofinstagram #braintumor #doggydementia #seniordogsofinstagram #seniordog #chihuahuasofinstagram #restinpeace #aloha #euthanasia #vetshere #mobilevet #santabarbara #goleta #compassionatecare #nezumiblue #nezumityler (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/ChX4rUwPSSy/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

I swear I'm packing ... But I just found my tiny cassette tapes... #nowaytoplay #cantplay #throwback #beforedigital #highschoolclassof2002 #floppydisk #nezumityler #nezumiblue #immoving #moving #packing #movingnpacking (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cg51VCbOWKw/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

So you might not have much time to commit to taking a class (yet), but there's always, ALWAYS time to listen to podcasts! Even I can listen to podcasts, & I have the attention span of a...oh, shiny object!! (Just kidding.) But all quasi-joking aside, check out the Don't Wait to Write podcast... There are three episodes up already, so if you want to learn how to write (& do it right...🤦‍♀️) then I highly recommend scooting over to to Spotify of iTunes & searching it out 🔎 Full disclosure. This podcast will give you a whole butt load (that's the technical term) of info on how to get moving on your writing career. It's all done up pretty by the absolutely divine & insanely talented (& down to earth), @ambernpetty AKA the one who helped me become a successful writer...(as in, I get paid to write about food, coffee, candy, diy, gardening, real estate, & famous people who I have absolutely no clue who they are, & can still pay my bills & put money into a savings account)! This podcast will provide you with pro writing insights, answers, & exercises (& you'll also be entertained). & if you leave a 5 ⭐ review, you could win a $100 gift card. That's nice, too. But don't do it for the prize money, do it for yourself & for the very real possibility of writing for a living✍️🙌✔️ #Repost #podcastersofinstagram #writingpodcast #newpodcast #podcastingtips #writingtips #beentertained #educateyourself #writersofinstagram #writeforaliving #livingthedream #dontwaittowrite #nezumityler #nezumiblue (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cgvta1RO3jC/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

The struggle is real...😅Glad I'm not alone! I don't know why, but for some reason it is just so damn tough to sit down and write (not all the time, but a lot of the time)...it always feels like there are other more important things that really need to get done, (besides that deadline looming in for hours)... But really important things, like -checking on the garden for the fifth time in two hours; -emptying the only two dishes in the kitchen sink; -hanging upside down on my yoga trapeze; -snuggling with my rats; -going downstairs with the intention to do something important, subsequently forgetting what that was, & wandering outside instead; -heading back upstairs, finally settling down & realizing I went downstairs to get something to drink. (Back downstairs again...oh! I need to take out the trash!)🤷‍♀️ #Repost @kat_boogaard with @let.repost #writerscommunity #writersofinstagram #freelancewriting #freelancewritinglife #writing #adhd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #functioningdepression #meditation #selfdiscipline #loomingdeadline #selfcare #yogatrapeze #priorities #adultingishard #thestruggleisreal #shinyobjectsyndrome #whycantijustwrite #nezumityler #nezumiblue (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CeX8hX_Lrqi/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

I was having a rough morning (before I even got out of bed). Rolled downstairs & this little cutie was staring me straight in the face💜 Thank you, @staceyswain741! This made my morning & day a substantially better one❤️❤️❤️ So lucky to have you in my life🤗 #goodpeople #bobalover #unexpectedgift #surprisegift #gifties #shinyobjectsyndrome #thoughfulness #kindnessmatters #coolpeeps #bobatea #thankyou #nezumiblue #nezumityler (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CeB4uBipaIH/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Also, it doesn't help when you can't pull your butt outta bed...🧐 My whole day gets bunched up like a perma-wedgie & then I get stressed out... & that makes deadlines more anxiety-inducing. I function best with a structured day/routine, so waking up at 9:45am to start writing for 6.5 hours, even though I have 1.5 hours of household work, meditation/self-care, etc. to do before I start working, just ain't working too great 🥱 #functioningdepression #highfunctioninganxiety #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #mentalhealthawareness #selfcare #thestruggleisreal #adultingishard #writerscommunity #writersofinstagram #freelancewriting #writerslife #cantgetoutofbed #dysania #somuchtodosolittletime #nezumiblue #nezumityler (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CduvbdaubHz/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

The struggle is real🐭🐭🐭 Topping it at 3 right now. I can only give one tummy raspberry at a time😅 #Repost @frankiesworldratrescue with @let.repost • • • • • • #rats #memes #ratlovers #ratmom #rat #ratsofig #ratsareawesome #ratfamily #rescue #sanctuary #frankiesworld #ratstagram #pocketdog #pawrent #ratlife #nezumityler #nezumiblue (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CdpdH06LUO-/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

There is no such thing as normal...I mean, I know no such thing as normal. Because being normal is vastly overrated. (Dunno if I could be normal if I tried. Plus, away too much energy trying to be"normal"...whatever that is. #happybirthday #shitimold #38feelingquestionable #performer #writer #bewhatever #youdoyou #yesthatsmynaturalhaircolor #yesthatsajoke #orisit #familytime #birfday #cadario #nomnomdinner #taurusseason #selfcare #writerscommunity #writersofinstagram #writestuff #woot #nowlifebegins #maybe #santabarbara #goleta #nezumityler #nezumiblue (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CdDFLtwr83C/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

I'll be honest. The past few months have been really tough for me. The functioning depression really overshadows anything positive that's been going on in my life. Whether it's doing my dream job, connecting with family members, or catching up with friends. The struggle is real. I find myself looking & experiencing things both good & bad & I just don't feel anything, or just feel sad & angry. Numbness is the norm. & anger. A lot of what I'm doing just feels meaningless & incredibly pointless, & it sucks because I've been feeling this way for years. I don't know what switch flipped, but I just suddenly realized it this year. Maybe it's because I'm getting old, I'm not where I ever expected myself to be. I actually don't know where I ever expected myself to be, in reality. Perhaps it's because I'm just sort of floating here with no real goals or aspirations. Maybe it's the uncanny knack for getting incredibly alone, vulnerable, & isolated, even when I'm with other people. Somehow I've perfected acting like everything is ok, because that's what I was taught by society. "If you pretend everything is ok, then it'll get better." "No one wants to hear you mope & be sad." "You're the only one that can fix the issues you're experiencing." "Just let it go." If it was that easy. I mean, dude. I can't even find a therapist that takes my insurance in this city. Everyone has a wait-list. Getting out of bed in the morning? That's funny. I just feel like this is it... Whatever it is. Like, now what? On a good note, I fell asleep on the couch & woke up with a rat sleeping next to me. #functioningdepression #highfunctioningdepression #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #feelingstuck #gettingoldsucks #dysania #ratstagram #ratsareawesome #ratsofinstagram #realitybites #myratsaremyworld #instarat #ratlife #itgetsbetterright #sleepyrat #alwaystired #nezumityler #nezumiblue (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CcZwALkrYdQ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Happy National Pet Day! I love these kids...Queen Penelope the first & Prince Wolfgang Stewart... Life is ruff😅🐾 In memorium, my two sweet like ratty girls... You'll be furever in my heart: Hazel (Hazelito Bandito Conchito Taqito/Omega Chonk) & Harley (Harley Teenie Tiny Beanie Weenie/Alpha Niblet). & introducing our newest additions, Lindy (Lil' Indy) & Lucy❤️ Welcome to your furever home🐁🐾❤️ #nationalpetday #petday #ratadoption #ratrescue #whosavedwho #ratlover #ratlife #petsofinstagram #ratsofinstagram #berkshirerats #instarat #ratstagram #youngrats #pawrent #ratsareawesome #ratappreciation #starsisrats #animalguide #petrats #pocketdog #nezumityler #nezumiblue (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CcOb5kyP8eP/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Noodle & Pepper were our temperamental twinsies. Even though they were a little rough around the edges (hairless rats are bred without fur because fur is hard for snakes to digest 😢 A side effect is being more prone to aggression), we still loved those little farts. Despite their personality quirks, they were good kids. They were foodies & they took care of their Mischief (mostly). Pepper passed away from a seizure (something I'd never experienced with rats). But her passing was quick & calm, thanks to natural medication. Noodle was the last one. She was blind, couldn't hear, & had a tumor growing in her head. I could only imagine how lonely & uncomfortable she was, so the decision was made to have her put to sleep. Even though her quality of life was diminishing, it was still hard to make that decision. At least they're both with their sisters again. A note about euthanasia & pocket pets. While it's still not incredibly common, having a "dignified death" is becoming more of a thing among vets. This means that little critters are given a sedative that makes them fall asleep. Pet pawrents are allowed to say their goodbyes while their furbaby slowly goes to sleep. Then the rat is taken to the back, quickly euthanized, & brought back out so that the owner(s) can hold them. This makes it a painless & stress-free experience for the animal (& owners). I wish I could've given that experience to Noodle, but I'm glad she's no longer suffering. (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CcMm9rdry6o/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Tallulah was the spitfire of the mischief. She was the smallest out of all of them, with a super smooth, silver-blue colored coat. She was like a little lightning bullet, so fast, so curious... Always exploring and climbing and running...& running away from us😅 Her life was cut too short. Perhaps she knew that she wasn't going to live long, & that's why she was always so eager to get out & see as much as she could. 💙🐁🥲 #ratstagram #ratappreciation #ratsofinstagram #instarat #ratlover #blueratsofinstagram #bluerat #ratawarenessweek #pocketdog #worldratday #petsofinstagram #pawrent #nezumiblue #nezumityler (at Goleta, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CcJobMLJRfn/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=