I make jokes about cancer to distance myself so it makes me uncomfortable when people call me brave because I feel like I'm actually being a coward.

Verse 87 of Surat Yusuf

وَلَا تَيْئَسُوا مِنْ رَوْحِ اللَّهِ إِنَّهُ لَا يَيْئَسُ مِنْ رَوْحِ اللَّهِ إِلَّا الْقَوْمُ الْكَافِرُونَ

And do not lose hope in the mercy of Allah; indeed none lose hope in the mercy of Allah except the most ungrateful people.

Originally found on: madeina1

The Prophet (sallallaahu alayhi wa sallam) said,

“There is no disease that Allah has created, except that He also has created its treatment.”

(Narrated Abu Hurayrah: Bukhari Volume 7, Book 71, Number 582)

we’re about to find out what happens when you collectively anger the youth of an entire nation

Make dua for my shifa so I know it's real.

Throwing up is not fun. But then after you throw up, you feel so much better and not nauseous so it's a win lose situation tbh.

I get really tired and I don't know what I am going to do when I have to walk around campus. 😔 Also if I have to get dropped off and picked up next semester there goes the itty bitty amount of freedom I had. This is your fault weak immune system making me not able to take the train.

People get tired of your sadness.

(via satans-ghost)

Consolidation

Salam! Okay I'm the worst blogger ever. I literally do nothing all day but I haven't been posting but okay updates! Consolidation is the second phase of treatment (after remission) and I only have one more week of it iA (God willing)! Eee! After that, they are going to give me a chemo called methotrexate which runs for 24 hours. Apparently it does A LOT of damage so I have to stay in the hospital for a couple of days. InshAllah I should get out on Thanksgiving! I'll have to get this chemo four times and the last time I'll be in the hospital for that long will be the week before school starts! Which BY THE WAY I REGISTERED FOR CLASSES!!!! Ah <3 I'm scared and anxious to see how people will react, especially people who I weren't very close with. It's not that I'm scared people will ignore me, I'm actually scared people will be very fake with me. Or just be friends with me to get attention. Idk if that makes any sense. It's also gonna be weird with people who don't know I have cancer oop. Anyway it's been three months since I was diagnosed and I still cry pretty much every night and people still call me an inspiration which freaks me out and my crush still isn't talking to me so yeah day in the life.

“Just because someone has cancer, it doesn't mean you stop laughing at them or making fun of them.”

All I do is throw up.

In other news doe, this guy who had the same leukemia as me a couple years back sometimes replies to my cancer tweets and it's really cute and it's like a little gesture but totally makes my day

When to a rich neighborhood to trick or treat then got my boorito from chipotle then ate my weight in candy and then threw up. All in a day's work. 😣

i don’t need a personal trainer i need a personal kanye

I'm convinced every single compliment is cancer pity. Sigh.