"Is that your stomach? It looks bigger"

Wow thanks 🥲 A great thing to hear today

Every time I think things are going okay, it ends up not being okay

I've been going to the gym everyday but I just haven't logged it.

I think I've hit the point of maintaining. As much as I hate maintaining, it is better than gaining. Especially since I'm being made to eat eggs and butter everyday

The past few days have been rough. My bf has been saying I haven't been eating enough but got upset when I said I'm eating food when I'm already stuffed full of food.

My bf was saying the other day if I notice myself fatter then it probably is fat. Everyday when I weigh myself at the gym it's been going down. None of it is making sense and it's stressful

I told my bf about how I feel like my stomach feels different, I didn't know if it was bloated or fat. He said if I have noticed it looks fatter then it probably is fat. He said that other people go out to work and move around all day but all I do is just sit around then do a little bit of treadmill

The past 3 days I've been made to eat eggs with butter and some crisp breads because I wasn't eating enough. I was enjoying eating less because I felt sick. At least I didn't have to feel bad about myself like I do now.

I didn't sleep at all yesterday and I doubt I will be sleeping tonight

MachinistInHell2 is a fucking creep AND A GROOMER trying to hide and blend in. I Can post more of the messages of u want but the way they completely ignore and everything and literally out themselves is fucking insane . There was a post “exposing” them as a groomer that’s now gone , hence the 2 next to his name. It’s his second account. block and report him PLEASE .

No they aren’t trans at all. There’s literally no valid explanation.

Everything feels like extra effort lately. Even getting out of bed is a struggle.

There is so much I need to do but the thought of doing it is overwhelming.

I don't know how I get myself to the gym when everything else feels like a lot

Burnt 112 calories at the gym tonight. I didn't go to the gym yesterday.

I need to weigh myself first thing in the morning. I might do that at the doctors tomorrow.

I feel like I've been losing weight but I also feel like I've been gaining weight. When I look at myself, I look like I've gained so much

A slice of butter that looks like a thick cheddar cheese slice. It seems like a lot, but it is not as much as my bf's mum adding butter.

I don't know much about cooking with butter. I'm sure it could be the smallest amount and I'll freak out over it

Burnt 112 calories at the gym yesterday.

My bf is making me an egg with some butter. I asked him not to use too much. I'll see how it will go

I burnt 112 calories at the gym.

I'm not going to work tonight or tomorrow

I've only just started watching American Housewife. There is a character wearing two Fitbits at once. I didn't know you could do that... I don't know if it makes it more accurate or not

Burnt 109 calories at the gym.

Lucky there were no mushrooms tonight. I did not want the calories from the butter

I haven't been eating much at all. I don't really know how much exactly. Every time I go to eat something I end up sh*tting my brains out or throwing up as well

Burnt 116 calories at the gym yesterday.

Tonight will be mushrooms again I think. I'm not looking forward to that.

I ended up eating a sandwich at the hospital. Half cheddar cheese with butter and other half egg and mayo with butter on multigrain bread. I don't eat bread at all. It has been well over 6 months since I've eaten it.

I've been cold the whole time I've been at the hospital, shivering for hours. I've been in pain for hours and my heart rate has been up most of the time. I think it is okay if I eat it. It has nutrients and is an energy source.

I had to call an ambulance because of how bad the cramping is. My heart rate is high like I'm working out so I'm probably burning calories