Mental Health Speech 2024

I was asked to speak at a mental health rally after speaking there back in 2022. I put together a speech about my journey with my mental health and the things I have done in the past two years. The speech went fantastic, and someone told me that I seemed like a natural public speaker. I am absolutely proud to share an edited version here! Continue reading Mental Health Speech 2024

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Spring and Growth

Spring breaks through the air. The distinct smell of the yellow flowers blossoming on the trees reminds me that growth is inevitable. The aroma permeates my room through an open window that I crack open as the weather warms. If I step outside at night, I am rewarded with a stronger whiff of the sweet aroma,a reminder to appreciate nature outside of my room and work. Pollen shocks my senses, as…

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Two Cantonese Sex Songs (Romanized Karaoke by me) - 雪姑七友 “Snow White 7 friends” and 荷里活大酒店 “Hollywood Big Hotel” by 尹光, the legend singer of Hong Kong Temple Street.

雪姑七友 “Snow White 7 friends” is about Snow White sleeping with the seven dwarfs while 荷里活大酒店 “Hollywood Big Hotel” is about having sex with three women.

Before the Pageant

(I wrote almost everything below prior to the pageant, but I didn’t have the chance to finish it.) This Sunday, I will be participating in the Miss Los Angeles Chinatown Pageant. Normally, I would not think of myself as someone eligible for a pageant, but I felt like giving it a chance after finding the application. At this point, I am nervous and scared, but I am also excited and curious.…

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Happy New Year, Fei Mui

It has been a few months since I last posted here. I was busy writing documents for grad school applications. Then I got hooked on Yakuza, which led me to ogling over Goro Majima. The holidays came around, and I applied for the Miss Los Angeles Chinatown pageant (where I am now a contestant at the time of writing this). I also made a lot of progress on the dress I am sewing (not related to the…

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I Am Proud of Myself

I create opportunities. I bring people together. I am recognizing when people are not a good fit for me. I am introspective. I exercise compassion. I help guide others. I struggle, then I make things easier for those who come after me. I am a leader. I am determined. My therapist has reiterated that while I am single, I need to focus on myself. Who is Maizy? Who is she when she is not…

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Sex is Temporary

Since May, I have been feeling better about my breakup, and being the horny motherfucker I am, I sought out a partner for a FWB relationship. While a handful of men appreciated that I was upfront with my desires, some of them unmatched after I shared my boundaries (understandable), and one of them no longer interested me after we met in person. During AX, I matched with a few different men on…

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Cyberpunk 2077- A Story About Life in General

TW: Suicide.Spoilers: Cyberpunk 2077 endings. I normally write my posts ahead of time and queue them so that my thoughts are spaced out rather than published all at once. I write this on the morning of August 20, 2023 (around 2:30 AM). In the Cyberpunk universe, the nuclear assault on Arasaka Tower is happening right now, which is also known as the Night City Holocaust. Although, as a Jewish…

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I Went to My First AX and I Loved It, Part 1

Last year, I took a train ride down to Tustin to retrieve my mattress from my storage unit. On the way there, I bumped into someone dressed as Fugo. Turned out, they were going to Anime Expo (AX). This year, I decided I wanted to go. In February or March, I applied to volunteer for AX and I was accepted. I have even noticed a few tidbits in my writing, including a blog post from 2018, where I…

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My First Rave, For Real

On August 4, I went to see Sullivan King for my first rave. To be fair, I’ve been to a couple other late night music events before, including Electric Feels, Wasted Beach Haus, Low Steppa at The Avalon, Darude at the Avalon, and a handful of events at XS at Encore and Intrigue (now closed) at Wynn. However, I don’t think any of these were truly raves because they didn’t meet the vibe expectations…

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I Have Been Lying to Myself

If you’ve been reading my posts for the past 6 months, or even the past few years, you know that it’s no secret I have only one thing on my mind, and it’s disgusting. I’m kidding, it isn’t disgusting, but having a high sex drive has gotten me into difficult situations. Whether I was a university student afraid of commitment or a newly single woman (also afraid of commitment), I’ve tried to keep…

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Thank God for Breakups

If I could not leave my exes, then I would have to submit myself to so many things I don’t want to do. I’m grateful I have the ability to leave, and the same for my exes. I hope that for my 2nd and 3rd exes, I am the worst lay they will ever have. For their benefit, I hope it only gets better (or got better) after me. For one ex, I hope they are enjoy the company of someone who fully loves them.…

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Comparing Alt (Alternative) Milk

Papa bless the local Grocery Outlet for offering some of the best prices on non-dairy alternatives. I’ve purchased so many tubs of ice cream and quarts of alt milk for $2 or less, which gives me an opportunity to try new products for dirt cheap. This is meant to be an overview of some of the milks I’ve tried so others who are lactose-intolerant, vegan, kosher, or otherwise use no dairy can…

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People in Happy Relationships Get Married, But Happily Single People Simply Exist

I keep seeing pictures and announcements of my friends and family getting engaged or married. While I am not ready for such a commitment, let alone emotionally available for a relationship, I can’t help but feel sad and left out because I am not at that point of my life. However, I realize that my experience is biased, for there is no huge, culminating event for single people. People in…

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Music as a Time Machine

“Days Go By” by Dirty Vegas brings me back to when my brother was born. My dad showed me the video, and I barely grasped the concept of the story in the music video. “Hey Ya!” by Outkast also brings me back to that era, especially when I hear the high notes on the synthesizer. Continue reading Untitled

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A Chat With My Future Self

On March 8, I wrote a short story where I chat with my future self. Writing this was therapeutic, and I based it on the advice I would now give my past self. I wonder how this will age, but for now, I am quite proud of what I wrote. (more…) “”

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I Didn't Know the Getty Center Was a Museum

This past Wednesday, I visited the Getty Center off the 405 freeway. I took a mental health day from work and went on a date with myself (although truthfully, it just felt like going somewhere by myself). It was a cloudy, 60 degrees Fahrenheit day. Parking was a pain to find. I’m glad I did it. (more…) “”

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