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   ( jessica chastain, cis woman, she / her )   isn’t that 𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐚 𝐦𝐚𝐜𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐝 ? i read a daily prophet article on them, once ; the forty five year old muggleborn witch ( & now a imposed muggle ) is a GRYFFINDOR alumnus who has gone on to be general practicioner. i’ve heard they can be quite altruistic & perspicacious, but i don’t know... they came off very enigmatic & intransigent in that interview. it really is hard to know what to believe these days, isn’t it ?

                      ——     REDIRECT HERE TO BIOGRAPHY.

dolors​:

back     in     his     day          (          and     yes     ,     he’s     aware     of     how     ancient     that     makes     him     sound          )          caradoc     was     a     REGULAR     at     the     three     broomsticks     .     he’d     never     been     quite     as     moony     -     eyed     for     its     infamous     barmaid     as     some     of     his     counterparts     ,     but     it     had     been     a     𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄     ,     of     sorts          ;          comfort     can     always     be     found     in     warm     -     panelled     wood     and     a     glass     of     firewhiskey     .          “          go     on     ,     then     .     a     top     -     up     sounds     𝑔𝑜𝑜𝑑     .          ”          to     the     CASUAL     observer     ,     caradoc     is     just     a     kind     man     but     there’s     something     much     fonder     ,     something     heartachingly     tender     when     he     nudges     his     glass     forth     and     catches     the     corner     of     her     hand     with     his     own     .     it’s     not     quite     the     open     embrace     he’d     otherwise     favour     with     his     wife     ,     but     minute     contact     still     warms     his     smile     beyond     mere     𝚏𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚙     .          “          same     as     always     ,     gwen     .          ”

she  knows  that  this  won’t  work  if  they  spend  all  their  time  fawning  over  one  another,  but  mary  can’t  help  herself  :  it's  been  an  awfully  long  day  for  HER,  and  if  the  least  she  can  do  is  entwine  her  fingers  with  his  for  just  a  moment  then  by  god,  mary’s  going  to  indulge  the  instinct.  ireland  was  a  country  wide  safe  haven  &  she  had  grown  too  used  to  the  sense  of  security  it  had  provided.  now  that  they’re  here,  she  struggles  in  his  absence.  who  can  blame  her  ?  she’d  spent  so  much  time  imaging  the  worst  case  scenario  if  they  dared  show  their  faces  again  that  even  beneath  anothers  features,  she  worries  for  herself  and  the  target  she  imagines  caradoc  has  PAINTED  upon  his  own  back.  “coming  right  up,”  is  a  promise  that  takes  a  few  too  many  moments  to  fulfill,  with  mary  taking  her  sweet  time  in  pulling  her  hand  away  from  his.  when  she  finally  does,  it  doesn’t  take  all  that  long  at  ALL  for  her  to  return  with  a  glass.  “there  you  go,  honey.  on  the  house.”  her  lips  twitch  before  she  adds,  quietly,  “though  i’ll  happily  accept  certain  sorts  of  payment.”  

𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍:   the three broomsticks, hogsmeade   ! 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆:   @brkenvisage​​   !

“are  you  happy  with  your  role,  hun?”  mary  has  asked  some  variation  of  this  same  question  to  everyone  that  she’s  come  across  over  the  first  hour  of  the  event.  it’s  a  way  to  make  CONVERSATION  while  she  moves  throughout  the  room,  topping  up  glasses  of  wine  or  taking  down  special  requests  for  the  dinner  ahead  on  a  waitresses  notepad,  and  that’s  the  whole  point  of  working  it  in  the  first  place.  it  would  have  been  EASY  to  hide  upstairs  until  the  mystery  dinner  was  done,  to  emerge  only  then  and  help  clean  up  ;  but  microdosing  on  interactions  with  the  world  she  had  so  willingly  left  behind  (  and  the  people  in  it  )  was  the  only  way  to  honor  her  half  of  the  returning  agreement.  this  was  their  middleground,  and  if  mary  had  learned  ANTHING  over  the  last  two  decades,  it  was  that  marriage  was  about  compromise.  “we  need  another  victim,  if  you’d  like  a  change.”  

𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍:   the three broomsticks, hogsmeade   ! 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆:   @dmndmyth​   !

“OH, BOLLOCKS.” THANKFULLY, she doesn’t fall. unused to the clunky kitten heels she has worn for the ocassion and forgetting about the uneven step on the way out of madam rosmerta’s bar, mary manages to suffer a freak sort of accident where she very almost does - though she rights herself at the last possible moment and cuts her losses, when it comes to the stack of envelopes that she’s carrying. it’s easy enough crouch to gather them back up again ( easier, for sure, than trying to scrape herself off the tile ), though it means reaching beneath one occupied table. “i’m sorry, do you mind-?” she asks unfamiliar figure, gesturing to the wayward envelopes.

EIGHTEEN  MONTHS  OF  NOXTMS  /  three  moments  !

colm  &  maureen  o’donnell  :  the  reveal  of  them  as  caradoc  dearborn  &  mary  macdonald  !  a  favorite  moment  in  and  out  of  character  featuring  @dolors.

𝟏𝟖 𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐇𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐍𝐎𝐗 – 1/6 characters

MARY MACDONALD, as penned by RACHEL ! @beansidhes

taciiturns​:

maybe another barmaid would have topped her off already, yes, but kaela was comfortable in the lack of interaction. “please.” there’s an easy nod of kaelas head, and she even goes so far to allow her lips to twitch upwards ever so slightly. hand wraps around the glass in question, sliding it across the bar. “i don’t think i’ve seen you here before.” 

the cool exterior that mary has adopted over the course of the evening hides a tumultuous sea of emotions ( a sorry ache for her daughter, worry for her husband, fear that they were doing the wrong thing - ) and it’s a RELIEF to have something more to do with her hands. she takes the glass and begins the process, slower than a genuine barmaid might have been, and luckily enough - kaela’s words can’t rattle her anymore than she’s already been rattled. this particular batch of polyjuice potion isn’t going to run out, any time soon. she’s safe. “you wouldn’t have. you’re far too young to remember when i worked here, last,” not a lie. it was probably best to stick close ENOUGH to the story she knew best, and distract where she could - she slides the finished drink back to kaela with a smile, “go on then, chicken. tell me what you think of that.” 

ft.   @dolors   (   caradoc  dearborn   )   !

THE THREE DEATHS OF MARY MACDONALD : AN ORIGINAL MOTION PICTURE SOUNDTRACK !

what  is  a  life?  a  series  of  yeses  and  noes,  photographs  you  shove  in  a  drawer  somewhere,  loves  you  think  will  save  you  but  that  cannot.  continuing  to  move,  ENDURING,  not  stopping  even  when  there  is  pain.  that's  all  life  is,  he  wants  to  tell  her.  it's  continuing.

FEAR by sleeping at last.  plays over the scene where eoghan macdonald is informed of his wife’s death, while the young mary watches on. 

MAGGIE MAY by rod stewart. heard when the bartender placates a young margaret macdonald by singing a song named for her. 

HERE WE GO by norman. i will run, i will rise, i will grow. a bit too intense, but chosen mostly for the beat. plays over mary’s sorting into gryffindor house.

PROBLEMS by mother mother. you and me are not the same. i am a sinner, you are a saint. plays while mulciber & mary duel for the first time. as song choices go, it’s fairly deliberate - the jaunty nature is in direct contrast to the serious grudge that forms on this day, as mary beats him. 

BITCH (TAKES ONE TO KNOW ONE) by lennon stella. plays over the scene immediately following the duel, when mary hits mulciber with a zinger that he will never really forget. ‘our blood doesn’t look as different as you thought it did, does it, marcus?’ chosen mostly for the beat. 

GRACE KELLY (ACOUSTIC) by mika. background music in the three broomsticks on mary’s first hogmseade trip, which also happens to be our first hint of her huge crush on sirius black. 

THE NIGHT by the last days of our past. plays over mulciber’s attack.

MEDICINE by daughter. you’ve got a warm heart, you’ve got a beautiful brain, but it’s disintegrating. mary’s possibility by lykke li arc is actually medicine by daughter. 

DAUGHTER by sleeping at last. and all you gotta do is put one foot in front of you. plays over the scene where eoghan reads through mary’s owl results and tells her how proud her mother would have been. 

JUPITER by flower face. i’m certain it must be holy to feel something so pure. plays as sirius creates a private bubble for mary in the middle of a gryffindor house party, intensifies as he joins her within it. turning point moment, for what has, until now, been a schoolgirl crush. 

BRAVE NEW WORLD by kalandra. is this the world we were meant to grow in? somebody tell me where we’re going? plays over the montage that closes out mary’s hogwarts years. juxtaposes the genuinely joyful flashes that are included within it and really intensifies the flashes of the ongoing war outside of the school - a war that mary chooses to fight, when the invitation is extended to join the order of the phoenix. 

LYING TO YOU by keaton henson. and as we lie in bed i feel lonely, though we’re young i feel eighty years old. plays over sirius encouraging mary to go to the wedding as peter’s date. ‘that’s my mary.’

WHISPERS by halsey. sabotage the things i love most. lyrically really good, chosen more for those than the music itself. plays around the scene’s where mary is pushing eoghan away.

SEX ON FIRE by kings of leon. if it’s not forever, if it’s just tonight. plays over the final scene at lily & james’ wedding ; mary makes a promise that she will never keep ( to apologise to peter ), due to sirius sweeping her off her feet - literally & figuratively. a pivotal scene. it’s important to see them as the flawed people they are, and to note that intentional or not, their whirlwind hurt people.

TELL ME A STORY by ramin djawadi. plays over the scene shared between mary & maggie following maggie’s graduation from hogwarts school. 

BABY TIGER by maple glider. i think my mind is fine, i’m fully aware it’s just the time. plays while sirius & mary lounge in bed ; mary traces sirius’ tattoos, and they share a laugh. 

WATCH YOUR BACK by sam tinnesz. we’re standing face to face with the hearts that turned to black. plays over the attack on diagon alley, as mulciber advances on & subsequently attacks mary ( for the second time ).

SUSPICION by lp. crippled cruel emotion, enough to turn an ocean turn to green. plays in the background of the leaky cauldron while sirius and mary discuss the spy within the order, and theorise on who it might be. there needs to be a more acoustic version of it - this is the closest i’ve gotten to something with the exact vibe, but it’s important to note it’s not suspicion between the lovers and instead, on everyone else. 

SAVE MY LOVE by lonr & amber mack. and now you’re slipping away, and i’m hoping you don’t drift too far. plays over sirius & mary’s fight. ‘go fuck yourself, sirius’ / ‘why would i do that when you’ve already done it for me?’

PUT IT ON ME by matt maeson. storm in the sky, fire in the trees. if there’s nothing but pain, put it on me. there’s no other way to say it : plays as sirius & mary fuck in the safe house kitchen. the only reason there’s a sex scene in this bio is because i wanted to attach this song to it, on the soundtrack.  

SHE KNOWS (INSTRUMENTAL) by j cole, amber coffeman & cults. bad things happen to the people you love and you find yourself praying up to heaven above, but honestly i’ve never had much sympathy cause those bad things always saw them coming for me. specifically this version, which isn’t on spotify. begins with the safe houses protection falling & plays while caradoc and mary battle the death eaters that descend. continues playing even up to the revelation that mary is pregnant.

LAST MOMENTS by trevor gureckis. plays as mary snaps her wand and throws what remains into the sea below, before following caradoc back inside of the ferry they flee england aboard. i specifically wanted the ocean sounds and tune that plays at the end of old, but i couldn’t find it, so,

ELEANOR RIGBY by the beatles. eleanor rigby died in the church and was buried along with her name. plays over the first half of the end credits. the very first source of inspiration for mary’s character and what every other facet was built from.

JESSICA CHASTAIN — LIVE with Kelly and Ryan (09.16)

ddudleys​:

it  took  five  minutes  past  the  end  of  his  workday  for  dudley  to  forget  why  he  was  up  here  :  something  or  other  had  clearly  needed  his  attention  near  hogsmeade,  and  now  his  coworker  was  insistent  on  drinks  before  heading  back  down.  his  jacket  pocket  itched  with  a  bag  of  floo  powder,  so  there  was  no  REAL  excuse  to  have  another  drink,  but  there  was  always  something  nice  about  pretending  &  having  someone  insist.  she  catches  him  on  his  own,  the  coworker  wandered  off.  "i’m  alright  -“  the  instinct  is  to  do  that  polite  thing,  deny  ever  needing  anything,  but  he  cuts  himself  off  immediately  as  his  stomach  grumbles  and  he  realises  he’s  drinking  on  empty.  "actually,  d'you  guys  have  any  bar  snacks?”

his stomach grumbles ( loud enough to hear - it’s a lovely, quiet night at the three broomsticks ) and she quirks an eyebrow at him, all the better to fix him with an are you sure? kind of look, before he continues. if he hadn’t, she would’ve still slid him a bowl of peanuts, or found a way to abandon a packet of pretzels, in reaching distance. it’s the irish mammy in her. "we’ve got all the usual suspects - and some unusual ones, too. if you don’t fancy some peanuts or sugared butterfly wings, i can rustle up something a bit more substantial from the kitchens.”

𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍:   the three broomsticks, hogsmeade   !

she’d done a little bit of barwork, before. the three broomsticks had always been a sanctuary, but rosmerta had let her live out of a room upstairs after she left hogwarts, and picking up an odd shift here & there had come with the territory. she had helped out where she could, finding solace behind the bar between the gruelling days spent at st mungo’s, and she’d picked up a few tricks of the trade. she’d never been in ros’ league - wasn’t even close now that it was two decades on - but she remembered how a tap worked, and she was only a little rusty when it came to customer service. while she was here, taking advantage of an old friends good heart ( and god was she grateful that this was still the truth ), she felt she ought to do something. “can i get you a top up, pet?” a better barmaid might’ve already done it. mary hovers on the very edge of action. “or anything else?” 

I loved him       (I think).                    Shameless. Laid before him,                    stupid lamb                    in a                              slaughterhouse.

— Karese Burrows, from “Persephone Writes a Poem,” This Is How We Lost Each Other

mary macdonald tag dump ! 

THE THREE DEATHS OF MARY MACDONALD : A NETFLIX ORIGINAL

before  nox,  there  was  lumos.  the  first  of  a  series  of  standalone  movies  chronicalling  the  lives  of  the  mauraders  era  characters  we  loved  &  lost.  this  isn’t  a  ghost  story.  it’s  a  love  story.  cast  :  halston  sage,  jessica  chastain,  idris  elba,  milo  ventimiglia,  felix  mallard,  more.  genres  :  biographical  drama,  fantasy  thriller,  movies  based  on  books.  this  movie  is  :  emotional,  riveting,  dark.  available  now  on  netflix  !  

Just don’t touch me, not yet, or not here. Something inside feels broken, a number that can no longer be dialed. I have desired so many times and so many things, by some law of no return. But I trust I will live in my skin again, if life is sweet and long.

Maggie Nelson, from Something Bright, Then Holes (via sagmoonn)