say what you will about autumn troupe looking like a gang, we all know summer troupe is the one with the highest “ahahaha, kantoku-san, ummmmmm, we got arrested again for breaking and entering ahahaha can you bail us out please. please.” count
Kahapon nag-usap kami ng pinsan ko, "Hanggang ngayon parang hindi pa rin nags-sink in sa akin."
Siguro kasi, hindi naman kami laging nagkikitang magpipinsan. Lalo na at magkakalayo kami. Kaya siguro sabi ng utak namin, parang nandito pa rin siya.
Sumasagi rin iyon sa isip ko. Ang ironic, kasi sa kada sulok ng kwarto ko may mga yarn na hindi nagamit, mga litrato kasama ang taong hindi mahilig sumama sa picture noon, mga notebook na may sulat niya noong trese anyos siya, at chat sa messenger na naiwan na sa isang petsa at hindi na kailanman lalabas pa sa tuktok.
Kahit alam mong wala na sila sa mundo, parang may parte ng kaluluwa nila na naiwan sa mga bagay na pagmamay-ari at nilikha nila.
Trying to remember the last time I played hide and seek. The last time I said hi to everyone on the street or saw the girls I spent every day of six years with. The last time my dad picked me up, or my mum brushed my hair. When was the last time I dressed without consideration? There is so much to think about now. I remember falling on the grass at school and making stories with the clouds. Hanging upside down from the swing and realising how big the world was. I wonder on the path of growing when we stop feeling big. I am taller now, smaller still.
”I know nobody cares but I finally cleaned my room after a whi-“ ME!!!! I CARE!!!!!!!!! I CARE SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOURE AMAZING!!! KEEP GOING!!!!!!!! IM PROUD OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!