whatever this is, doesn't get any easier. and i have no patience for myself to grow around this grief– it was long overdue but i held on to that little hope that things might change between us, for the better. and that time never came, instead, i've just watched our conversations gradually fade... until it started to cause me pain i could no longer ignore.

times like this, i just wish i didn't have too much of a big heart – i rarely fall, but when i do, it's always deathly... at this age, i have learned to minimize expectations, to see things realistically, yet i end up, still falling for the same trap.

i just wish i could make the pain stop for a brief moment, to have clarity over what's just happened.

worst part of it all, was i knew i should've done this a long time ago, but i held on :(

finally decided to let him go – and am hurting so much

No choice, but to start over again

i always end up dyeing my hair to a certain shade of red lol

I’ve just come to a realization — of how insignificant my life really is.

Heather Havrilesky (Ask Polly) | Mary Oliver

long time no update. hey 👋🏼

blink-182, “Adam’s Song”

the maine // 24 floors

17 years have passed since this was released and this song hits me harder the older I get

Augustana - Boston

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080122 - unexpected picnic

“If we are the same person before and after we love, that means we haven’t loved enough.”

— Elif Shafak, The Forty Rules of Love