Guess what? Yes, I woke up like this. Bushy eyed and fancy free. Thank you Lord not all days are like this some days I can barely move my joints are swollen, my bones crack, my head hurts. This is the end of being on three days of migraine pain. I took #Nurtec, #Naratriptan, I laid in the dark still nothing helped. What's wrong with a brain that won't stop being in pain! I know it's this brain tumor I have to live with, I just never talk about it out loud. I ignore it but it's the convenient thing to do. Then comes the fatigue, aaaah the fatigue that's one of the terrible things about this as well, there's things to do yet I can't move, I'm stuck! Like a mannequin in a department store, I feel ashamed, like a lazy useless person.
I clean one room at a time and stop for a moment because the fatigue seems so overwhelming that alone is so depressing and ever looming. Even writing is just to much for this my brain. The thoughts and the things that I want to say, the words that I want to write down convolute my in my mind, it's like a hotchpotch of words fighting to get out, screaming all at once, attempting to tell to the world how frustrating my situation is. The seizures, oh those are just delightful, they come and go with so much as an invitation. They love my brain and delight in how they can invade and slip away ever so slightly. Well I'm done complaining especially when I think of sweet precious innocent children that are born into worse conditions than me. Which I pray for each and every day. God bless those sweet ones.
I just hope my smile and my Hope doesn't go away? I'm leaning on my Faith, my Spirituality, on my Ancestors, on the Ways of Livings I was taught, on the Spirit, and my Inner Strength. #benignbraintumor #hope #wokeuplikethis #faith #depression #fatigue #migraine #pain #god #spirituality #seizures #Godblessthechildren #lupus #hidradenitissupprativa