for those of you learning japanese, you're gonna have the most fun when you learn about potential form (can do verbs)

especially like for "can eat" -> 'taberareru'

it's like a rap, so like every time I was talking with my conversation partner, we each had like a rapping contest whenever got to this word like 'kono tabemono taberaremasuka?' like blast through the last part like 'lmnop' in the alphabet

Final girl - the horror movie heroine who remains alive against all odds🩸🔪

A murder has occurred

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

who can relate

If I had a quarter for every time I met a freshman semester diagnosed ADHD student, I'd have four quarters, which is a lot and I'm starting to think that my college has a type of student they like.

okay I was just thinking about the whole concept of destinies in Ever After High and I realized that it kind of reminds me of organized religion. The way Apple dedicates herself to destinies reminds me of this. It’s almost like her central conflict is choosing between her faith in destinies vs her faith in her friends.

I also think the way their entire society us organized around destiny is very telling. The use of scare tactics with the whole "poofing out of existence" thing is also something that made me think about this. And then the adult authority figures like Grimm and the students' parents pressuring them is also reminiscent to me.

I might be making something out of nothing, but Apple's behavior and belief in destinies really reminded me of it.

Learning languages is SO FUN right up until you need to learn conjugation and then suddenly it turns sour real fucking fast

Kim Dokja's love language: I'll sacrifice myself for your sake.

Yoo Joonghyuk's love language: I'll go through hell for your sake.

Han Sooyoung's love language: I'll doom the world for your sake.

Chapters: 5/? Fandom: Five Nights at Freddy's Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Cassie (Five Nights at Freddy's: Security Breach: Ruin DLC) & Reader, Cassie (Five Nights at Freddy's: Security Breach: Ruin DLC) & Gregory Characters: Cassie (Five Nights at Freddy's: Security Breach: Ruin DLC), Gregory (Five Nights at Freddy's), Reader, Eclipse (Five Nights at Freddy's), Sun (Five Nights at Freddy's), Moon (Five Nights at Freddy's), Glamrock Bonnie (Five Nights at Freddy's) Additional Tags: Reader is Cassie's Older Sibling, Reader-Insert, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Fix-It of Sorts, reader is gender-neutral, literally thought of after matpat read 'don't go alone', Game DLC: Five Nights at Freddy's: Security Breach: Ruin (2023), Five Nights at Freddy's: Security Breach: Burntrap Ending Summary:

When you came home from college, all you wanted was to sleep and let your brain rot. Instead, your dad sent you out to bring your sister back home after she didn't pick up his calls. So, armed with a cool crossbody fanny pack, conspiracy theories, and your Cain Instinct, you head to the last place her locator picked up on. The closed Freddy Fazbear's Pizzaplex.

Great. It was always your dream to visit the place that Chuck E. Cheese copied off of.

At the gate for my flight home from visiting friends and there's a woman here with a service Shiba Inu. No pics because he has a Do Not Disturb vest and taking pics of strangers is illegal but I need to stress how ON DUTY this animal is. Ears up. Eyes doing Lazer scans of everything. Examining everyone who passes within 10ft like a security guard. Ass planted on her feet. I have never seen a dog with such intense chivalric guardian energy before. He has tiny eyebrows and they are FURROWED with concentration.

my boy really took out the UK tie for the fbi visiting him at home

I love how after “The Dancing Men” Holmes is constantly telling people to sit down whenever he interviews them.  Watson one time was like ‘hey that woman looks awful, ask her to sit down, Holmes’ and Holmes was like ‘Ah yes!  People like to sit down!  I will hold this as a primary fact of life for the rest of my existence.’

my family is so lucky that I didn't discover Granada Holmes until college because if I learned Jeremy Brett's SH's laughter, they would've heard it at 3 am scaring the tf out of them

it doesn’t get better at college either. instead, you pay to be sacked over kiddo

school is sacking me over and i just wanna die

Suzanne Collins gripping my face with her hands: listen listen the first step to evil is dehumanisation, always, the second you start to see people as less than people no matter what they've done to you that's when you start heading down a path of selfish destruction and violence