Hardly anyone even cares that I tried to kill myself. Most of my "friends" leave me on read when I try to talk to them. It makes me wish I hadn't woke up. I wish I had more support. It's hard to find.

I deserve someone who is actually into me and cares about my pleasure.

A lot of anger has come up over how Rasheed treated me over the years. I don't know what to do with it. I might bring it up in therapy tomorrow.

I just don't understand what he sees in that girl and why he'd rather have her than me. She's just a piece of shit junkie and I'm an artist.

wall of perfectly aligned skulls in a Tibetan monastery

“I am learning to love the sound of my feet walking away from things that aren’t meant for me.”

— Unknown

It's hard to get any reading done on my futon. I look forward to being able to afford a couch or some sort of reading chair. Even with my neck healing, I still get tired reading at home. I read way more at the ward because there were places for me to sit that weren't too bad.

Source

Joan Didion’s collection of books by Ernest Hemingway, from her estate sale

THE UNHAPPY HIPPOPOTAMUS

By Nancy Moore, illustrated by Edward Leight

Lou Benesch

Nobu Fujiyama

Auguste Herbin (France, 1882 - 1960)

La Marne aux Environs de Meaux, 1904

Rose B. Simpson, American Artist, b. 1983

Breathe 2020

Rose adapts traditional Pueblo Native American pottery techniques to address contemporary concerns like the legacy of colonialism, racism, and capitalism in boldly confrontational mixed-media works. A Rhode Island School of Design MFA graduate, Simpson follows in the footsteps of a long matrilineage of Tewa artists from New Mexico. Growing up, she apprenticed with her mother, a renowned ceramicist from Santa Clara Pueblo. Simpson’s striking figurative sculptures often depict female or androgynous subjects who have an uneasy beauty and powerful presence and are adorned with spiky jewelry and weapons. A skilled metalworker, she also incorporates textiles and ceramics.

Francisco Goya

'The Sleep of Reason Produces Monsters', aquatint, 1799.