“I’d stare at you till I go blind, hear you speak till I go deaf, say your name till I go mute, touch you till my nerves die, and kiss you till I can no longer taste you. How weak is the human body that it can’t last as long as my adoration of you?”

-When All Else Fails: [via @king-tut-ll ]

“What can I do, when the thought of you is the only thing that keeps me afloat, yet is also the thing that drowns me? You are both my only purpose, and my endless torment. And because of you, I have not felt safe in my own mind in forever now.”

-Empty Home: Part VIII [via @king-tut-ll ]

“The grief died and rotted away into anger. But what follows the death of anger? Will it finally be quiet? Is it peace? Is the silence true or is just endless emptiness, more of a void to pathetically attempt to fill?”

-All That Follows: Part XXIV [via @king-tut-ll ]

“I have never felt safe in my own mind, how could I ever feel safe in yours?”

-To Belong Nowhere: [via @king-tut-ll ]

“And to think, in all the shades of grey the world has began to exist in, she, and she alone, breaths color into me, as though to bring the life back into me I never knew I lost.”

-Contrast: [via @king-tut-ll ]

“She wasn’t loved, but she was love. She was the warmth in my smile, the light in my eyes, the blood pumping in my heart. And now I am dull and grey, cold and lifeless, I am but a mirage of what I once was.”

-Ummi: Part II [via @king-tut-ll ]

“She is to God what the Mona Lisa is to Da Vince, his greatest masterpiece.”

-Priceless: [via @king-tut-ll ]

“I hope I can give you such a beautiful life filled with love, that even God smiled as he wrote our story.”

-Heavenly Vows: [via @king-tut-ll ]

“How could I fear death, knowing you’re waiting for me?”

-Hereafter: [via @king-tut-ll ]

“What a burden it is to carry a light smile and a heavy heart.”

-Balance: [via @king-tut-ll ]

“Every thing I should’ve been taught, all that I shouldn’t have gone through alone, the times I was hurt by someone that should’ve protected me. It made me bitter and angry and I could never get rid of it. Yet the worst part is I still never had the heart to take it out on anyone, so I kept it in, letting it split me apart. Now I’m just fractures of a forgotten soul.”

-Moon of The Night: [via @king-tut-ll ]

“There is no normal after. There is no being okay. There is nothing that could be said and done to make it better. Some things in life aren’t meant to be lessons, nor opportunities to grow, some things just hurt and nothing else. And that’s okay, all we can do is live with it.”

-When You Left: [via @king-tut-ll ]

“The anger that is left once grief gets tired of being unheard is a cancer. I often find myself wanting to destroy everything around me out of rage, only to realize that everything’s already been destroyed. I stand upon ashes on ashes and yet I continue to try to build something out of it.”

-Future Foundations: [via @king-tut-ll ]

Your soul has become deeply entangled with mine, and I’m fine with it. I want to be so infused with your soul that I lose where I began and end, just endlessly in tune with all that you are.

“Ya ummi, I think of your constant nagging, your endless phone calls telling me to come home at 2 in the morning, and every meal you made for me that I was too busy to eat. Come back. Come back and nag me till my ears fall off as long as I hear your sweet voice, tell me to come home because I can no longer find a home to come to, cook for me and I’ll eat every bite as though it were my last. Come back to me and let me fall apart in your arms and never let me go.”

-Guardian Angel: [via @king-tut-ll ]

“Sometimes I still wait outside, hoping you’d be waiting for me to come in, to come home. And suddenly all the memories I have lost come rushing back. I randomly recall the German Shepard that lived across the street that you warned us to stay away from, the days sitting on the porch after dinner, drinking tea and watching the sunset, the children who made too much noise. The memories that meant nothing, that were so small I never thought I’d care to remember, just became all that I wanted. All of the simplicity, all the normal, all of you, I’d give my last breath to have it again, just for a moment, and let God take me in that peace. I know you’re still waiting for me to come home, but God will decide when that is, and I’ll be complete once I’m in your arms again.”

-Growing On Gary: Part II [via @king-tut-ll ]

“With the way I grew up, I felt as though every breath I took was intolerable, every word slipped was rules broken that I was never made aware of, my entire existence, a regret. I no longer walk on egg shells and thin ice, but I have yet to unlearn how to walk with such light feet.”

-Dreaming of Footsteps In The Sand: [via @king-tut-ll ]