I WISH HE LOVED ME LIKE I LOVE HIM I WISH HE PUT IN THE SAME EFFORT I PUT IN I WISH HE TALKED TO ME LONGER THAN 10 MINUTES ON THE DAMN PHONE, AND THAT HE WOULD ACTUALLY TALK TO ME AND NOT HIS ROOMMATES IN THE BACKGROUND

sometimes i wonder why hes even with me. is it cuz he loves me or because I'm comfortable...

Are men dumb or do they just not care?

I'm very clearly upset with him and he doesn't ask what's wrong or if I'm ok. Smile and wave, that's all he does. Never really truly pays attention unless there's a direct consequence because of his action(s).

I always thought that, if I were in a relationship, at some point I’d get hurt. I’d get cheated on, abused. Something. I always thought that it would happen to me. It has happened to me. In the past. It trained me to think I didn’t deserve anything good. I let myself think that I didn’t deserve anything. So over time I’ve learned to self sabotage. Hurt myself before they hurt me. But never did I ever expect for the tables to be turned. I never thought that the person I love, would look at me with so much hurt in their eyes. A pain that I caused. I always heard the abused becomes the abuser. I never thought that it was true. But seeing him cry, and knowing I caused it… breaking his trust all because I thought mine would get broken. That feeling of knowing that you fucked up so badly and you can’t fix it, all because you’re insecure and self loathing. It’s worse than dying. Knowing that he will never fully trust me again. He’ll never be able to look at me the way he once did. He’ll never hold me without hesitating, at least for a second. Ruining the one good thing I had, because I thought that it would happen eventually to me. You begin to feel like the scum of the earth. And when he miraculously decides to stay, to try and fix it for you, you’re at a loss. Nothing makes sense. Surely I don’t deserve this second chance. A part of me wants to embrace it and be thankful. Another part of me questions his decision. Did I rush him to make it. Is he only staying because he’s afraid I’m going to hurt myself. Is it out of fear? Love? Ignorance? You don’t know what to say or what to do, because it will surely fall apart if you do. But it’s only human to speak and do, you’re bound to make a mistake at some point. And there’s nothing you can do to save yourself when you do. You have to watch the person you love choose themself over you. Which is good, they should. Because you love them so much that you just want them to be happy. Even if it means not being with you. You’re world stops moving, and you feel like you can’t breathe.

what i would give to have a Gloomy Bunny with a Glo9omy Bear hood

I wonder how many of Batman’s tools are just lying around Gotham 🤔

these baby phat jeans!

i want to be lobotomized 

𝙾𝚌𝚝𝚘𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝟺, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟷 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚣 𝙺𝚊𝚏𝚔𝚊, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟶 -𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟹

he’s going to leave me

im a bipolar maniac who has childhood trauma, and certain mannerisms because of that trauma, and he hates me for it

My mania song

being in love is very torturous for me. because the thought of him leaving, it leaves me broken and mindless. i cant go through that